In this bonus episode, Emmy sits down with John Hill to discuss his journey of recovery and how living a double life often reflects a refusal to acknowledge a problem with consumption. John also shares his coming-out story and reflects on how the opinions of others should not define our sense of self. Through this deep, heartfelt, and at times lighthearted conversation, we are all reminded that making meaningful changes in life requires a "one day at a time" approach to reach our goals.

 

CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised.

RESOURCES: There’s a lot of difficult subjects that we cover in this show. If you or someone you know needs help - you can reach the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-4357. They’ll connect you with information and resources on treatment. There’s also the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK. Both are available 24/7. You don't have to be in crisis to reach out either. They're available for anyone who needs help.

In this bonus episode, Emmy sits down with John Hill to discuss his journey of recovery and how living a double life often reflects a refusal to acknowledge a problem with consumption. John also shares his coming-out story and reflects on how the opinions of others should not define our sense of self. Through this deep, heartfelt, and at times lighthearted conversation, we are all reminded that making meaningful changes in life requires a "one day at a time" approach to reach our goals.
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CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised.
RESOURCES: There&rsquo;s a lot of difficult subjects that we cover in this show. If you or someone you know needs help - you can reach the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-4357. They&rsquo;ll connect you with information and resources on treatment. There&rsquo;s also the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK. Both are available 24/7. You don't have to be in crisis to reach out either. They're available for anyone who needs help.

Recovery

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Things seem to be improving for Emmy—she attends her 12-step meetings and helps others through acts of service. While supporting a newcomer on her road to recovery, Emmy faces one of her biggest challenges yet. After eight years of sobriety, will Emmy be able to stay steady on her own journey?

 

CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised.

RESOURCES: There’s a lot of difficult subjects that we cover in this show. If you or someone you know needs help - you can reach the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-4357. They’ll connect you with information and resources on treatment. There’s also the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK. Both are available 24/7. You don't have to be in crisis to reach out either. They're available for anyone who needs help.

Things seem to be improving for Emmy&mdash;she attends her 12-step meetings and helps others through acts of service. While supporting a newcomer on her road to recovery, Emmy faces one of her biggest challenges yet. After eight years of sobriety, will Emmy be able to stay steady on her own journey?
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CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised.
RESOURCES: There&rsquo;s a lot of difficult subjects that we cover in this show. If you or someone you know needs help - you can reach the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-4357. They&rsquo;ll connect you with information and resources on treatment. There&rsquo;s also the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK. Both are available 24/7. You don't have to be in crisis to reach out either. They're available for anyone who needs help.

Service

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As Emmy recovers from surgery and gains clarity through sobriety, she realizes that her true self is calling. After taking small steps, she discovers herself and decides to transition to fully embrace who she has always been.

 

CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised.

RESOURCES: There’s a lot of difficult subjects that we cover in this show. If you or someone you know needs help - you can reach the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-4357. They’ll connect you with information and resources on treatment. There’s also the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK. Both are available 24/7. You don't have to be in crisis to reach out either. They're available for anyone who needs help.

As Emmy recovers from surgery and gains clarity through sobriety, she realizes that her true self is calling. After taking small steps, she discovers herself and decides to transition to fully embrace who she has always been.
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CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised.
RESOURCES: There&rsquo;s a lot of difficult subjects that we cover in this show. If you or someone you know needs help - you can reach the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-4357. They&rsquo;ll connect you with information and resources on treatment. There&rsquo;s also the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK. Both are available 24/7. You don't have to be in crisis to reach out either. They're available for anyone who needs help.

Awareness

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After a new heartbreak, Emmy decides to pursue her dream and move to L.A. On her road to recovery, she finds a skeleton in the closet: her relationship with her body. In a culture where society constantly tells us that being overweight is wrong, she makes a life-changing decision.

 

CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised.

RESOURCES: There’s a lot of difficult subjects that we cover in this show. If you or someone you know needs help - you can reach the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-4357. They’ll connect you with information and resources on treatment. There’s also the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK. Both are available 24/7. You don't have to be in crisis to reach out either. They're available for anyone who needs help.

After a new heartbreak, Emmy decides to pursue her dream and move to L.A. On her road to recovery, she finds a skeleton in the closet: her relationship with her body. In a culture where society constantly tells us that being overweight is wrong, she makes a life-changing decision.
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CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised.
RESOURCES: There&rsquo;s a lot of difficult subjects that we cover in this show. If you or someone you know needs help - you can reach the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-4357. They&rsquo;ll connect you with information and resources on treatment. There&rsquo;s also the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK. Both are available 24/7. You don't have to be in crisis to reach out either. They're available for anyone who needs help.

Discipline

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Emmy finally talks to someone she hurt. In this special episode, Emmy has a conversation with her close friend Cynthia, who shares why she was deeply hurt by Emmy on one of her birthdays and how she realized Emmy had a serious problem with alcohol. After drifting apart for a long time, could this esteemable act help heal their friendship?

 

CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised.

RESOURCES: There’s a lot of difficult subjects that we cover in this show. If you or someone you know needs help - you can reach the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-4357. They’ll connect you with information and resources on treatment. There’s also the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK. Both are available 24/7. You don't have to be in crisis to reach out either. They're available for anyone who needs help.

Emmy finally talks to someone she hurt. In this special episode, Emmy has a conversation with her close friend Cynthia, who shares why she was deeply hurt by Emmy on one of her birthdays and how she realized Emmy had a serious problem with alcohol. After drifting apart for a long time, could this esteemable act help heal their friendship?
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CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised.
RESOURCES: There&rsquo;s a lot of difficult subjects that we cover in this show. If you or someone you know needs help - you can reach the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-4357. They&rsquo;ll connect you with information and resources on treatment. There&rsquo;s also the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK. Both are available 24/7. You don't have to be in crisis to reach out either. They're available for anyone who needs help.

Responsibility

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As part of her recovery process, Emmy is required to perform esteemable acts. This means helping others with small things, but most importantly, working to heal past relationships. She learns to understand that people who hurt her, like her mother, deserve compassion, while also recognizing that she must be accountable for the harm she has caused.

 

CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised.

RESOURCES: There’s a lot of difficult subjects that we cover in this show. If you or someone you know needs help - you can reach the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-4357. They’ll connect you with information and resources on treatment. There’s also the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK. Both are available 24/7. You don't have to be in crisis to reach out either. They're available for anyone who needs help.

As part of her recovery process, Emmy is required to perform esteemable acts. This means helping others with small things, but most importantly, working to heal past relationships. She learns to understand that people who hurt her, like her mother, deserve compassion, while also recognizing that she must be accountable for the harm she has caused.
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CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised.
RESOURCES: There&rsquo;s a lot of difficult subjects that we cover in this show. If you or someone you know needs help - you can reach the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-4357. They&rsquo;ll connect you with information and resources on treatment. There&rsquo;s also the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK. Both are available 24/7. You don't have to be in crisis to reach out either. They're available for anyone who needs help.

Love

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Little by little, Emmy starts to gain confidence in her recovery—until someone new appears in her life, only to break her heart. This results in a new stumble in the process. But not everything is lost; this time, she has a strong community willing to help her heal from the heartbreak without falling into relapse.

 

CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised.

RESOURCES: There’s a lot of difficult subjects that we cover in this show. If you or someone you know needs help - you can reach the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-4357. They’ll connect you with information and resources on treatment. There’s also the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK. Both are available 24/7. You don't have to be in crisis to reach out either. They're available for anyone who needs help.

Little by little, Emmy starts to gain confidence in her recovery&mdash;until someone new appears in her life, only to break her heart. This results in a new stumble in the process. But not everything is lost; this time, she has a strong community willing to help her heal from the heartbreak without falling into relapse.
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CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised.
RESOURCES: There&rsquo;s a lot of difficult subjects that we cover in this show. If you or someone you know needs help - you can reach the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-4357. They&rsquo;ll connect you with information and resources on treatment. There&rsquo;s also the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK. Both are available 24/7. You don't have to be in crisis to reach out either. They're available for anyone who needs help.

Humility

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After literally driving through a fire, Emmy is ready to fully commit to her journey to sobriety. She attends 12-step meetings, begins making friends, and learns to rely on people who genuinely want to help her. Doing the work is hard, but Emmy is finally ready to take it on.

 

CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised.

RESOURCES: There’s a lot of difficult subjects that we cover in this show. If you or someone you know needs help - you can reach the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-4357. They’ll connect you with information and resources on treatment. There’s also the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK. Both are available 24/7. You don't have to be in crisis to reach out either. They're available for anyone who needs help.

After literally driving through a fire, Emmy is ready to fully commit to her journey to sobriety. She attends 12-step meetings, begins making friends, and learns to rely on people who genuinely want to help her. Doing the work is hard, but Emmy is finally ready to take it on.
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CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised.
RESOURCES: There&rsquo;s a lot of difficult subjects that we cover in this show. If you or someone you know needs help - you can reach the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-4357. They&rsquo;ll connect you with information and resources on treatment. There&rsquo;s also the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK. Both are available 24/7. You don't have to be in crisis to reach out either. They're available for anyone who needs help.

Willingness

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Emmy relapses. A fight with someone very close pushes her to the edge, and she starts drinking again. Emmy wants to regain control, but it's harder this time. Until she receives a message from the universe, renewing her hope for recovery.

 

CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised.

RESOURCES: There’s a lot of difficult subjects that we cover in this show. If you or someone you know needs help - you can reach the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-4357. They’ll connect you with information and resources on treatment. There’s also the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK. Both are available 24/7. You don't have to be in crisis to reach out either. They're available for anyone who needs help.

Emmy relapses. A fight with someone very close pushes her to the edge, and she starts drinking again. Emmy wants to regain control, but it's harder this time. Until she receives a message from the universe, renewing her hope for recovery.
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RESOURCES: There&rsquo;s a lot of difficult subjects that we cover in this show. If you or someone you know needs help - you can reach the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-4357. They&rsquo;ll connect you with information and resources on treatment. There&rsquo;s also the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK. Both are available 24/7. You don't have to be in crisis to reach out either. They're available for anyone who needs help.

Integrity

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Emmy ends up in rehab almost by accident. She was looking for a place to escape her problems rather than face them head-on. And while she isn't making bad decisions, the harsh reality is that Emmy is not yet ready to fully commit to the steps needed to improve her life.

 

CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised.

RESOURCES: There’s a lot of difficult subjects that we cover in this show. If you or someone you know needs help - you can reach the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-4357. They’ll connect you with information and resources on treatment. There’s also the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK. Both are available 24/7. You don't have to be in crisis to reach out either. They're available for anyone who needs help.

Emmy ends up in rehab almost by accident. She was looking for a place to escape her problems rather than face them head-on. And while she isn't making bad decisions, the harsh reality is that Emmy is not yet ready to fully commit to the steps needed to improve her life.
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CONTENT WARNING: This podcast has content that may not be appropriate for all audiences. You'll hear about some difficult subjects like drug abuse, domestic violence, suicidal thoughts, and sexual assault. Listener discretion is advised.
RESOURCES: There&rsquo;s a lot of difficult subjects that we cover in this show. If you or someone you know needs help - you can reach the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration hotline at 1-800-662-4357. They&rsquo;ll connect you with information and resources on treatment. There&rsquo;s also the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK. Both are available 24/7. You don't have to be in crisis to reach out either. They're available for anyone who needs help.

 Courage

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Season 3

Crumbs is a podcast about the things we settle for, and the bits of ourselves that make us who we are. In season three, Emmy takes you through her journey of addiction and recovery. It’s a story she’ll tell in twelve steps, from the first step, Honesty, to the twelfth, Service. And all the in between: the darkness of blackouts in the depths of addiction, the bright hope of change, the relapses, and the major life changes that come with true sobriety. Tune in to season 3 to find out what it felt like to travel from one to twelve.

 

Season 2

A show about the things we settle for and the bits of ourselves that make us who we are. Crumbs is an audio memoir exploring the intersection of family trauma, addiction, identity, and the pursuit of love. Through raw and honest conversations with her mother, Emmy Olea journeys to unpack her family’s storied past. Though a lot of it sounds straight out of a telenovela -- it’s all true. And it speaks to the questions we all have about who we are.

 

Season 1

Dating is hard. It’s even harder when you’re a trans woman recovering from alcoholism whose mom was a coyote and your abuelita ran drugs for the Tijuana cartel. Nonetheless, Emmy Olea is looking for true love and trying her best not to settle for Crumbs in the process.

Season 3
Crumbs is a podcast about the things we settle for, and the bits of ourselves that make us who we are. In season three, Emmy takes you through her journey of addiction and recovery. It&rsquo;s a story she&rsquo;ll tell in twelve steps, from the first step, Honesty, to the twelfth, Service. And all the in between: the darkness of blackouts in the depths of addiction, the bright hope of change, the relapses, and the major life changes that come with true sobriety. Tune in to season 3 to find out what it felt like to travel from one to twelve.
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Season 2
A show about the things we settle for and the bits of ourselves that make us who we are.&nbsp;Crumbs&nbsp;is an audio memoir exploring the intersection of family trauma, addiction, identity, and the pursuit of love. Through raw and honest conversations with her mother, Emmy Olea journeys to unpack her family&rsquo;s storied past. Though a lot of it sounds straight out of a telenovela -- it&rsquo;s all true. And it speaks to the questions we all have about who we are.
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Season 1
Dating is hard. It&rsquo;s even harder when you&rsquo;re a trans woman recovering from alcoholism whose mom was a coyote and your abuelita ran drugs for the Tijuana cartel. Nonetheless, Emmy Olea is looking for true love and trying her best not to settle for Crumbs in the process.

Crumbs

Dating is hard. It’s even harder when you’re a trans woman recovering from alcoholism whose mom was a coyote and your abuelita ran drugs for the Tijuana cartel. Nonetheless, Emmy Olea is looking for true love and trying her best not to settle for Crumbs in the process.

Crumbs

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