An unfiltered account of my natural homebirth and the initiation that taught me what it means to truly surrender. A story of trust, embodiment, and the mystical power of birth as a psychedelic, sacred rite.

💫 In this episode:
• Conscious preparation for a natural homebirth
• The moment of complete surrender
• Birth as a mystical, embodied rite

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⏰ Chapters

00:00 — A Birth Story I Didn’t Plan to Tell
An unexpected free hour turns into sharing the most intimate story of my life.

01:47 — The Night My Waters Broke (Hollywood-Style)
What really happened when labour began — dramatic, messy, and completely unfiltered.

04:05 — Preparing the Birth Cave
Creating sacred space: lavender oil, sheepskin rug, and the first gentle waves of labour.

08:25 — When Labour Became Psychedelic
Moving through visions, trauma release, and deep healing in the in-between.

13:58 — Fear, Shame, and the Medicine of Focus
Meeting old memories and learning radical self-love mid-contraction.

18:45 — Zen on the Toilet: Finding My Power
Why my birth became a meditation, not a performance — and how focus became my survival.

23:55 — The Pushing Portal
From exhaustion to divine humour: when my higher self reminded me the body knows.

29:40 — Take Me to Your River
The moment music, surrender, and love carried me into motherhood.

34:55 — Aloha, River
The first breath, the meaning of his name, and the sacred silence that welcomed him home.

39:15 — Reflections on Birth and Becoming
What I learned about surrender, motherhood, and the rite of initiation that birth truly is.

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