Friends and Family. Welcome back to another what do we call these like throwback episodes? Top? These are our favorite episodes. These are really like set the tone for the next few episodes. I think, Um, we just want these to shine again if you haven't had a chance to hear them, because they are special, especially this one with Chris Olsen. Well, what are we talking about? We're going to being happy alone? Being happy alone? I have had a few moments about single man. You two are very similar. Yes, like sober and single, sober and single. We should make t Shirts's make a song on twitch with your hard ess is sober and sing sober. I don't know why I'm really sleepy? Did I gained last night? Follow me on Twitch? Okay and enjoy the episode and feel free to be happy alone. Chris is now a part of the family. Yever it it? We can all working on Friends and family. Welcome to another episode of working on it. We got Chris Olsen in the bed. I'm freaking out immediately. Best friends, best friends. I knew we would be, but like we have been for years, well for years famous. It's crazy that we came back and regin. As you'll see on TikTok for sure. I'm so glad we both ended up in l A. Yeah, like we made it. A lot of people don't get off that rock right right, we're both famous musicians. Um, you can really sing. Oh thank you. I watch your singing ones when you did, you commented on one of them, and I did screenshot it and send it to a lot of my friends, and I was like, I think this is the most validated I'll ever be so good because not only are you like you have the pitch right and the tone. Tone is really hard because my husband has pitched but his tone, but also emotion. Yeah, emotion is hard to sound good with. If someone tells me to record a song and they're like, yeah, but get deep with it, I'm immediately pitchy and they have all three Oh my god, thank you. Well, it's the musical theater. It is. That's sure that that they lead with truth there. If you're not crying, you're not doing You're always crying while singing. Yes, yes, but that's like my charm. You know. I love that about you. Yeah, thank you? What am I missing? So ryme for you page we're talking about TikTok. Chris Alsen UM runs TikTok. You have like I think seven point four billion, I do, yeah, and you you run TikTok mostly mine, but every now and then you're on Rhyme's for You page. Yeah, pretty much on the party of like cool, this guy looks great. Why is he on my for you page? What's going on? You just pop up out of nowhere, and I'm like, oh, alright, it's a good guy and he's funny, but it's it's crazy because my algorithm is really just video games, boobs, oh, conspiracy theories Chris Holson. Wow, so we have the same for you page. That's exactly what comes up on all the time for sure. Well, I know, I do know. I'm on a lot of Megan's for You page because I discovered as I made a video back in the day about how you follow both of my accounts UM, and I frequently will freak out when I get a comment. So I'm I'm glad that I haven't annoyed you thus far after seeing it for so long. What's with the multiple counts? I started a spam account in UM like last summer. Yeah, I think last summer, not this past summer, this summer before that. And I was like, because TikTok had become a job a little bit, and I was like, I kind of want to find the fun in TikTok again, and so let me just have an account where I just do whatever I want and like be messy. And my main TikTok was mostly couple content, so I was like, let me do stuff on my house too, And then I really wasn't taking it. I wasn't making that much content for it until um a few months later, and I really just started being like, I actually love my vibe on here as well, and I feel like there are two different vibes. They hit very different audiences. There are some people who have no idea that I have a main account on my spam account, and there are people who do not need to watch my spam account stuff for my main account. So yeah, that's how you know you're good at TikTok too. By the way, thank you, it's my extra account. Yeah. I am impressed when people figure out TikTok. I feel like it's it's like it's pretty difficult to kind of pop off when you meet them too, though, like you can tell like, oh, this is their like you walked in here and you're like, hey, can I just film this one little thing with no music, just as being you? And I'm like, okay, probably, yes, this is probably have nothing prepared, my my notes, ap this caneah for the video. It's like, I these are my ideas from over the years, Like it doesn't stop. Um, did you go to college for this? No? I want and I went to college for musical theater. So this kind of just came to be in quarantine. What's your dream goal? Then? Are you trying to be an actor? I would love to like The initial goal was Finnish college, moved to New York, try to be on Broadway. That was your Broadway baby, I'm obsessed with Broadway. That's everything to me. Um, So that was my initial goal. Was I was going to school at the Boston Conservatory that sound part of Berkeley College of Music, and I'm all around Massachusetts. Yes that's another boyfriend so that so yeah, I was that was going to be the initial goal. But halfway through my junior year, COVID hit and everything shut down and so many of the plans just started changing. But I feel like for the best, I don't know. Definitely still you'll still be on Broadway someday I hope to be, but I also do I fully love what I'm doing now, and I'm like, I'm I'm very happy for the happy accident of TikTok coming into my life. Yeah, I feel like that can only help you with auditions, right, Yeah, totally. I think It's one thing about like for Broadway in New York, is I feel like you do have to be pretty New York based. Um, Like, it's not like I'm auditioning for a lot of those things because most of them are happening in New York and you have to be there. So I'm like thinking over my next few years if my plan is to like try to be in New York more often, get a play there maybe, Like I know, but I'm actually a New York lover. I like, as soon as I like, you could do it. Yeah, I get shoulder checked in there when I'm walking to the streets and I cry, like for the rest of the day, I can't hand. But I feel like you probably have had to spend a fair amount of time. I hate it, and I have to go next week and I'm just treading it. Yeah, every time for work, and it's always work. Like falonce the only reason I go there, and I love him, and that's the right, but that's you know, that's not a bad reason for there. I'm like, I feel alive in the city. I feel like I'm close to death. You know, my life is not going to be going I don't. I like when when I would take the bus there from Boston when I was in school, I would immediately get off the bus, put on my headphones and like go on the subway and I would be like listening to my Broadway and I'd be like, I'm home. I'm like, I love that. I immediately I get slightly jaded. My face drops. I look at me and I'm like they had to play the part exactly so I feel like I fit fit in well there, And I didn't feel like I fit in well in l A when I really why because it's such a different kind of atmosphere than I've ever been in. I don't know if you guys feel this, Like as an an East Coast kid, Yes, everything's walkable. We just stay home. Yeah, you stay home or we are our friends right right. Yeah. But when I was first out here, I was trying to like you have to adapt, like a lot of people who would move out here. I would say, why don't you go out with Ryan, you have a great time, and they would and they would meet. But it took me more a while to get to that point. Took me a couple of years, and then it took me like me as well, four years, how long you've been sober? I have been sober four and a half years now. September is my date, and September seventeen awesome. I think I could be getting the year wrong, but I just don't even know his. And it was a big yeah, June one, that's a nice number. First, it's like, yeah, it's not not far from them. That's amazing. Yeah, that's great, and like cold turkey, like no help. Just didn't oh see. I went to rehab for a year? Did I would year for Yeah? And I was down in Florida for basically a year. They get you. It was a ninety day program that they are just like, you need a little more time. I was actually out of the impatient program within like five months, and that was like early for a lot of people. There were people who were who were in the program going to therapy three times a day there every day for like nine ten months. Um, and that's it's it's how they get to I mean my situation was booze and blow. I was like, I think I could I could pull this off. And then I started training for the marathon and that was just like he had a whole rehab the trainer compound. Here was my rehab facility. You know they don't Yeah, they were checking in on me, and then I was just running. Yeah, for the next six months. I mean I got very into fitness when I was in your thank you your body is wondering, My god, you have like a this is why we this is this is because we've dated were straight when I went straight. Unfortunately things have changed, yes, Um, but yeah, I became very into fitness during I feel like it's a very integral part for a lot of people's sobriety journey because you have so much of that pent up energy that you're just like, I need to get this out somehow and almost be like too tired to want to destroy myself. At the end of the exact something like, Yeah, every weekend, I was just dead on the couch because I was I ran fifteen miles that morning and there's just like no urge to go out. I was like, nah, yeah, a kid does too. Yeah, And I'm like, let's go to bed right right, you're I was just in Pittsburgh with my friend, my sister Abby Herbert, not my friend, my sister Um and they they're newborn is almost one and is so cute, and but Poot is getting It's like the first time I visited, Poot was an angel. She still is. Who ship he doesn't know that's their babies? Yeah, yeah, um And that would be so confusing to first she's famous. I've heard of her of course. Literally was like Darryl you know, and he was like, man, I was like, oh my god, how does the world not point um? So, But the first time I visited, um, she was an angel, like the easiest baby ever. The second time she was starting to grow teeth, so it's like, oh, she's like she's cute, but like you know, there's it's a little it's getting a little tough. And then this last time it was like we're having a time. Dar Daryl Riley is like walking but running, yeah, in teething, and he just goes around like mini me, like like what you need? You don't know what they want, which is why, and that's why I like confirms that. I'm like, I love being an uncle. Where is your wife? And like because I as soon as things were getting rough, I was like, I'm gonna go, this is a lot I'm going to I'll just get out of your way. Literally. It is crazy to me the things you have to do as a mother. It gives me so much more respect for moms everywhere because I'm like, I can't I can't really imagine taking care of a dog on my own right now, while that my next step, but like a child also like that this is something you're going to be doing forever. Yeah, it's not like people always say for the next eighteen years. I'm like, I still call my parents very often every day. My full assistant, which is my parents are right, it's not the next Still. Remember my eighteenth birthday and I was pretty baked with my girlfriend at the time, and she's like, this is gonna be your last birthday you spent with me? What do you do? Why are you what are you doing? I'm like, I don't think that's going to be the case. And then you know, I just turned twenty. What did I turn nine? I spent my birthday with mom. Yeah, forever, it's a full circle. I'm trying to force her to move in. Oh yeah, she uses. I'm like, what can I move you closer to me? He's like, I'm twenty minutes down the street and like that's pretty far. Nimes like that's a twin even a dry right, right, that's multiple songs. It's almost an episode of a TV show exactly now. Now, you came in here and you said I was a Nantucket summer kid. You don't you didn't know this, but we used to hang out on the strip. Yeah, strip right, yep. Taco tacos taco. Remember that's you know, that's why all the cool kids go pizza? What did the summer kids call it? What? It is? Where Young's bicyclel was and like steamboat pizza. It's it's all still learning about. That's where the fit like when you get off the ferry, that's where you like smoke, Yes, yes, weed smoker on the strip. That's Chris everyone. This is what we would drink when I was younger. It was like gatorade, bottles, vodka. Yeah, oh I mean that was that was that was a move. Because then it's like you're it's like because you would leave some gatorade in it, because it's kind of like the chaser. You don't have to like, Yeah, one time I just had only cap Mortgans in the gatorad bottle and the cops like, what's in the bottle? I go Gatorade, Like, no, it's not, yes it is. And I'm like, if I could just tell my mind that this is gary, Yeah, dude, it's not. Get yes it is. I really, I haven't had alcohol in so long, and still the thought of some of the liquor that I would have like makes me cringe, smell. I would I was doing anything, yeah, anything like up. But it was like I love beer, tequila, wine, tried to stay away from vodka, but did some hard whiskey. Yeah, I love the nightcat dude, I don't know who I thought I was. I just would love whiskey on the rocks. And I was never like I never got to a classy point like that. It was started classy, but I would have half the bottle or more and then just fall asleep, frozen on the couch. I would take the glass from his arm and he would still be stuck in that position, and I was like, is that a problem. Yeah when we say something, yeah, yeah there was. I was like pre gaming the pre game for the pregame and college, like you would show up ship face to the pregame, yes, but I thought no one noticed. It's like I was like, I'm being at a crush and my friends would always tell me like no, like we can see it in your eyes because they just like slowly fall at half mast. And it's like, but I mean in college, it's really tough because there are some people who are just hard party ers and there are some people who it's an actual problem for, and so you just get you get really confused as if it's like maybe I just love partying or I think this is probably a much deeper issue. I think at the beginning of my journey here, my friends are very confused, like you don't have a problem. Is like you don't know me, like who I am? Always did say during the laughing, like you would say it would see me out and I'd be fine, but I was like, this is what I'm drinking this amount every single night, yes, or I'd be like I'd be like how do you how do you do this? How do you go out every night? Like some I'm an alcohol and we would all laugh and then I was like, oh, is that a I think I think like many more people do that than we know. Like I when people say that to me, even if as a joke, I'm like, I know there's truth behind that message, or like at least I know you're maybe struggling with something, and so well, you know, we laugh it off because it's not the time to have that kind of conversation, but yeah, I definitely had admitted to it much earlier than I had gotten sober. Also, he's like that lax bro that like never shows emotions and then we'll like punch a hole in the wall once everything. I didn't one time, and I was eighteen. It was startling. One at a time. I was scared you weren't even there. I heard about it though, right right. But I also was the guy everyone would fly out to there like I'm in town, I go, I'm gonna take care of you. I was always taking care of everyone else and not myself. I would be like, I don't want to go out, but my friends in town, I feel obligated to be like, here's the famous Hollywood bullshit that you want to say. I know you want to see, but I'm so doing I'm just gonna fucking disappear, right And I would love to ask you about that as has have people changed around you since getting sober? I would say it's a it's a mix of yes or no. I think I'm very fortunate to have already had a really good support system and support system, fan based family, like I feel like in getting sober, I shed a lot of friends after that because there were a lot of friends who maybe only want to meet a party or only felt like they could connect with me in that way. And when you when I shed those friends, I really only had the small group of friends who really loved me for me, And so those people have definitely not changed because they're just like, no, we've seen the worst of you, and now we're so glad to be seeing the best, but we're not. I mean, there's definitely the people who have come out of the woodwork and reached out and been like, well, oh my god, I miss you and we should do this, or like yeah, yeah, yeah, but and and I don't actually I don't hold anything against those kinds of people. Um, but I think I'm very in tune with people's energy and if I sense in authenticity or anything like that, I try not to surround myself with that because it's just so draining being in the social media space in general. I think I experienced that at like events or such, and I can take into account when I'm like, you might only be talking to me because of a certain amount of followers or a certain um amount of stature that I have, because that can definitely come to the top at at certain social media events specifically, UM, there are certain people who when I first met them would not speak to me or something like that, or wouldn't look me in the eye, and then later I'm like, oh, you're a fan now or something like that, and I have to get I have to also account it to the fact that, like, maybe you just didn't see my content before then. But also I tried to lead with respect for everyone I meet ever, um, and so when people don't really lead in that same way, I can. I can sometimes be a little put off by that, But I wouldn't say I've gotten to the point where I'm like making enemies or like turning people away. But I'm sure you've experienced that. In the music world, I just had like everyone I guess my My jump was like significant to from like Nantucket, like nobody knows me to, like, oh I have a number one and in Australia like it was big um. And I remember I shot the music video for All about that base and my friends were texting me like tell us what happens. And I'm texting everyone in my contacts like this is the craziest day. They're like text me updates. I worked like a fourteen hour day that day. I didn't have barely time to eat, and then I was crying so happy after the day was done, and I looked at my phone and I had all these hate messages of like you couldn't You're so hollywood you can't even text me back like an update, And I was like, bitch, I've been working all day. Going back to Nantucket was interesting to be like, what's so hollywood? Wow? Yeah, we got like people walking in my house Christmas Eve, like you are friends and your friends aunt. I was like, oh my god. Wow. I know I have been fortunate to not experience too much of that. I will say occasionally there's a bit of an air of feeling like I can't maybe talk about all of my accomplishments when I go home, because occasionally I can. It's like, I know it's a joke a lot of the time, but it's like people like I'll get the eye roll, like oh, you just did that magazine or something like that, and I'm like, yeah, but it was really like I'm really happy about it, an you want to share that with you. But also like I understand, it's like, yes, you'll find the people though, like your family, like my mom is like my parents hang up my magazine pictures and make like plaques out of them, and I'm like, mom, it's embarrassing. Yes, no, my mom is absolutely like that. And and there are definitely the people who I know I can go right to whenever some exciting thing is happening. Good, yeah, you're gonna be fine. Then I have I'm fortunate to have like a good circle right now. Um, but I hear that's kind of like the thing you have to do when you start experiencing success in that way, it's like you got it, And the circle kind of has to be a little small minds of my family right right, and we have right here, I have a little outsiders, but my friends who like I can can barely count them on one hand where they know like I won't go out. You want to hang out me, you come to me, especially with the baby. Now I'm like, I'm just want to sleep over. I made you a whole nice room. You come here for a week, but I will not go well, I can't wait to come here for a week. You can whole. But those friends like no, and they have to put that eart out. I will not see. Yes. I have also said I'm so glad that all of this has happened post sobriety, because if I had any like paychecks coming in, any like popularity whatsoever, pre sobriety, I would have just like destroyed. It's just an all access pass, just a lot of open bars. Yeah, that's what I struggled with my favorite. Yes, every event I was exhausted from like doing a whole show and working, and then I was like, they really want me to show up to this party. I'm gon show a five minutes. You stay and be the bell on the right. And they loved him every time they saw me after happy like where's Ryan, where's the bad? Yeah, that's that is such a thing. Like I I really discovered that in coming here as well, that there's always an open bar. Um. People are usually bringing in some type of extra thing into these events to a lot of fun stuff, a lot of fun stuff. Like I was, there's there's just it's it's literally like a high school party with so much more money. Yeah, that's what every award show is to. Yes, right, I was just at the Oscars and then I went to you look phenomenal, thank you, thank you, and I love your tiktoks you and Sean Mendez Mendez, yeah you could get us connected in a way. No, no, no, but uh Sean, I love you. Um. I John's definitely watching and he totally is. He called me before this and so you can't wait. Um. I went at the Oscar parties and such and and even at the Oscars, you don't realize how many people are like not actually sitting in and watching the things go down there at the bar in the back, like the open bar in the back, just like getting sucked up. A lot of people. I will say a lot of people missed the Will Smith slap. But because I'm sober queen and I was like, I'm going to sit and watch every moment of these oscars. I caught it all. I mean when it first happened. So I'm I'm a theater kid, right, so I've seen a fake slop before, and so it first happens and everyone's laughing because we think it's fake. But I'm like, I've seen a fake slap that seemed a a little too close to his face to be fake. But I'm like, but this is the Oscars. Maybe they really taught him how to do it well. And then the yelling started and he wasn't Will wasn't miked at all, but you could hear his voice booming your face during that moment. I was I think it was just like mm hmm, Like it was very much like I was like, oh God, I was like, this is gonna be It's It was really just like but then it was like after it ended, or after the second yell, it was more just like everyone was tense. The people next to me, who I didn't actually know, we were both like god, that was when it happened. Yeah, yeah, yeah, because it was it was. And then the commercial break after that happened, everyone who was at the bars comes back in and what happened And I'm like, you getting drunk? Yeah, I can't tell you, but I was saying so many texts being like was that real? Bla la, And I'm like, yeah, from what I from what I saw, yes, um. And as we know now from my theater expertise, that was well because I was and I was on the third balcony, like we were in the nosebleeds, so we could really look down and that's a perspective where you're really sad view birds eye view. If you're like on the ground floor, it's hard to tell if it's a fake slap or not. But from that angle, it's like you could tell. Um. And so it was like, oh, that was that was real. Stuff. Should have brought many binoculars, just like the opera goggles. Um. But yeah, that's I've I had come. I had to come accustomed to the fact that like all of these events are open bars, and then the after parties involved drugs as well, and just being like, Okay, how am I going to like navigate this world and still have fun without it? Um? But I think because I've never been in this world with alcohol or with drugs like I've been, I was in the trashy world, like I mean, not that my life before was completely trashy. But it was in the trashy college world doing drugs and drinking, but I wasn't at the Oscars doing any of that. So it's been a little bit of an easier transition to be in these spaces and be like, I'm good. And then you also just kind of you see everyone else get very messy around you, and it confirms you're like, yeah, this isn't that's actually what I want to do. Yeah, Like, I'm sure I was a bit messive. Definitely. We would dance at some parties, but UM never did like crazy ship. But the one person that I like, I finally woke up, was like, oh my god, I've never seen her sloppy drunk ever Paris Hilton and asked her in an interview we had on working on a checking out. I was like, do you drink at all? And she explained like, yeah, but I don't, like I'm getting my picture taken, I don't want to, like, yeah, like a mess and I want And she's like, I want to be in that moment. I love partying so much, I love being with my friends and family. I want to be aware of what's going on. And I was like, you're everything. Yeah, like everything. I mean, these like experiences are like sometimes once in a lifetime, they're huge. They're like I cannot even imagine my my past self would never even imagine that I would be in the room for any of these things. Why would I want to like mess it up in any sort of way. But I also know a lot of people in my same position. It's a very nerve racking position to be in going to these intimidating parties or intimidating events, and so that it would make sense to like have a few to take the edge off or something like that. I just like free definitely never used it as let me take the edge off. Like I remember friends of mine who would present, like you know, at a ward shows. They're like, I need a glass of wine before I present because I'm too nervous. I don't want to go up there. Like yes, I was like, I gotta learn how to read when I get out there, like right, like if that the one live moment is slightly messed up, it's like, but I do get I get the heartbeats and all of that stuff like just happens. Yeah, and and but that's also like what we signed up for. You know you you if you're at one of these awards shows are presenting or something like that, you're probably an actor or a singer, so wouldn't when you have gotten used to maybe talking in front of every performance. Ever, everyone's like, are you nervous? And like time, But that's good, dude, you're feeling it. You're right, because the second you're not nervous is the second you don't care anymore. And I mean, as an artist and i'm your your fan base would be able to tell once you've stopped caring. And I feel like, as a fan of so many people, my favorite artists are the ones who continue to be passionate about it for so long. And I feel like that's so much of your charm as well as like how passionate about the music you are. And I think that also goes back are just like being you're you're a kid from Nantucket. You know, like, yeah, it's not like both of you, It's not like you were all of us, all of us, both of us on the strip, all three of us on the strip. We have those picks. We'll put it, We'll put him up to him. Yes, yes, absolutely, Um, what was I going to say? Oh, yeah. I think it's grounding just being someone who's like you kind of you worked hard and you got to this moment. You're not like there's I actually don't know if you have like a lot of family connections in the business or something like that. Exactly, It's like it's you worked hard and it kind of started happening for you, and so why would you just take anything for granted at this all these like we have no business being yes, which is great to have, but also crippling for my confidence too, though, especially with COVID. I didn't leave my house for two years, so I first like it's like everything was a race for me. And so I went out for the first time and Miley Cyrus was at an event I went. I went to and my managers were like, go, say, how you know her? And I was like, no, I can't. I was like, she don't know I'm not there. Like they pushed me out there, like what is wrong with you? I was like, covid rocked me, man, I don't know. Did you end up talking to her? And she was I'm sure And I was like, remember exactly, it's cracking me up right now because also on my TikTok is everyone bitching about the Revolve festival of Coachella because it's all these people that think they're so fucking important that we couldn't get in. I'm like, this is how Coachella works with these like side parties, show up super fucking early. Yeah, and if you don't get in for a couple of hours, you leave and just go well, exactly, I couldn't do that one. It's just everyone's just like, I can't believe this is I'm like, the first weekend Coachella, it's a it's a nightmare. I don't know if you forgot. I think it's because we haven't done in two years. But the first coach especially like I I, I think being an influencer and being a content creator is definitely respectable work and stuff like that. But at the end of the day, like we are making videos at home from our phones, like I'm not one. The day I start thinking of myself like getting a big head about the work that I'm doing is the day that it will all fall to ship. Like. The reason I feel like so many people connect with influencers and content creators is because they see themselves in them. Their vulnerability they're vulnerable, they're showing their everyday life. They're really thank you. I try, I try trying on the phone, and like, your therapy sessions are my favorite. I love, I do love to share a crying moment. It's It's actually gotten to a point where every time I cry, I take a selfie of it now because I'm just like, well, I got maybe i should use this moment for something else. And I'm like, I'm like crying, crying, crying, crying. I'm like, what, like i'd be so like because usually you are able to think about it so tears content. It literally becomes it becomes a habit in a way. And I know a lot of people are probably thinking like that is so sad and soul sucking, but I'm like, yeah, once you that's my favorite ship from you. Yeah, And once you get into the habit of being like I'm crying and if it makes you feel better, then it makes you feel better. I will say occasionally when I'm crying about something really bad, I'm not taking a stealthy a lot of that, but I cry to music all the time. That's funny to you. Thank you simple tears. Actually a boyfriend sophomore year of high school told me I was a really ugly crier, and so I kind of I had to, like I started training myself to not be as ugly when I cry. Is that what I have to do? Because I'm an ugly crow? Shouldn't do that? Like I think I wors It's really about my one thing is it's about just like relaxing your face. Because we all like want to like pull out the tear. But it's like it's like no, no, no, no, just like let it fall. Let's it's gonna be great for your Broadway dude. Yeah, like let the tear fall. And and just like really wait when you went on the date and you said this is my before TikTok, and then after you're crying and you're like, well it's not because it was I don't know why I'm crying. Um. Yeah, that was just a moment where just a lot of emotions to Yeah, I mean this was a recent date. Yeah, it was like it was the first date that I went on post break up. That's why you grind. Yeah, But it was also like I hadn't even really planned on going on a date or anything like that, but this guy had slid into my d M, just saying a big thing about being like, I know what you're going through. I hope like, I hope you're okay. I'm here for you if you need anything. And I had seen him before, so I decided to respond to the d M and we just talked here and there, and then eventually he got to he was like really leading the charge to let's go out to dinner. At some point pause when he said I know what you're going through. Did he also have a very public relationship on TikTok? No, not on then he doesn't know what you're going there he did have a relatively public relationship, but not to But I can't this a little bit. I won't go correct. I cannot go into who he is. But the babous guys are sliding in. It was shown you we can we can talk about it all off. Um. I have had some fun d ms over the past few months. I will say it's like it's exciting. It is. It is the exciting part about single. I just cannot believe that I was very intimidating. He's what he says. I think when I would walk into a room, I was like, like people he was like no, you just like take over the room. And I was like in a bad way or what, but like, I mean, yes, exactly, and they're the right man. Will be as you found my sweet soft Daryl exactly exactly. Yeah, he's emotional, but this guy was like I will Um, it's probably the actor thing too. You're just going back to it's yeah, no, no, no no, Darryl Um. That's why Darryl sent it to my du So we'll talk about that's why he's so soft and emotionally but also emotionally intelligent. Like he look at me and be like, what's wrong and I'm like yes, and that's like it's that's the best. That's you were right. It's like shitty because you have a partner who really sees you. But it's also like I didn't want to talk about that and he's jem and I am sad and I'm like, okay, you're hurting me. You know. Yeah, wait, your birthday is December. I'm on the cusp or whatever. Yes, yes, because we have the same birthday for real, Trainer and I have Wow, yeah, we're all December babies. That's why you're a delight to be around, you know. What everyone asked me. Yeah, that's why I love you. Um. Everyone asked me, like, you poor thing, did you get jipped for your birthday and create me that? I was like, no, my parents loved me. Yes, it was just as special. Um, I didn't have the most same experience, but also I did. I did have. I definitely have had a good I had if my parents do listen to this, you guys didn't mean. But also yeah, whenever people ask me like, do you hate having a birthday close to Christmas? Sometimes I'm like, yeah, I would like to be a little bit of a different time. But I also I do. I do feel like it fits for me to be a winter baby, Like I hit that role pretty well, not that I really know what that role is. I was like, what is this? I don't know. I love Christmas? Is that what you mean? I do love like I decorate the shoot out of my house and I love your Christmas album. Yeah, you guys should listen. Um, just giving my promotion to a half birthday like a June yeah June two. Oh no no I didn't. I didn't, but I would love to do that. No no, no, no, no, I sure did not. Yeah, yeah, we'll totally set that. I'm oh, I'm so here for that. Yeah yeah yeah, um. The date, the date. Um. He he was kind of the driving force and being like, let's go on a date. And I was like yeah, I'm like I'm I. My whole thing post breakup was like I'm not going to chase I will attract that kind of mantra, and so I was like this guy seems to be like he's really taken the charge, so I will totally do it. Um. And it was a really great date and I just felt like everything went really well. I like it was a date one, so I wasn't like looking towards the future, but he like checked a lot of the good boxes. And then we ended up going on a second date, and he like checked a lot of the good boxes. And then I got the long text of being like I wasn't expecting to like you so much. I'm not really in I can't I can't do this right now. So I was just like okay, um, and then I was like, if you maybe want to go out to coffee instead of dinner on Saturday because we had our third date planned, Like why don't we do that and just talk it out rather than like me just receiving a text, and then I was ghosted. Know, okay, well he's a loser. Then yeah, yeah, I really I let myself be sad for like a day and then I was like, I'm fine, I'm really and like I always just assumed because I dated, I assumed that my husband would be like a bit of a loser and then I have to train him. And then like, but I got me a good one, like a prince or like a king, like someone who worships me, who like is obsessed with me. This morning has lay in there, not awaket and he was like, you take your time, I'll just look and he just stares and I He's like, it's so pretty. Like with that, have you guys been together? Unfortunately, I am absolutely obsessed with that. And that is exactly what I want for myself. I've never thought anyone would love me so much, like and you're not like I giggle, I just because he's so goofy. It's pretty and it's all out of love. It's not like being gross, you know, he's just so cute, just like truly like every everyone wants. Yeah, and just wakes me up, smothered me and kisses and makes my breakfast every day and opens the car doors with me everywhere. Okay, yeah, that's awesome, really happy for you, he's yeah. So so then then after that, I told all my friends never shadow like will worship you that much find them. And I feel like it's when you are giving most of the energy that you would be chasing with back to yourself. Is when someone sees you at your best and they're like, oh, well, I want like you were saying, you would walk into a room and kind of command the room, like you were holding your energy and you were holding space for yourself in a way that some of us don't always do when we're like trying to get someone to love us or trying to find that person who will fill the void. And someone was able to see that from you and be like, oh, that's a person who knows who they are and who I want to just like I want to be, Like it's just kind of alongside them, not like not like fill a void, not like fill some emptiness, but like be together. Yea yeah, yeah. I feel like a lot of there's that misconception that it's like I'm we're two halves that make a hole or something like that. It's like, no, no, no, we should be two whole people who decide to join forces and make it that much better. But I need to be the full person by myself before someone else. I'm doing fucking ready. I am on my way. I don't know percentile, but I've spent the last however months just focusing all my energy on myself and really enjoying. And I'm sitting in my alone time because I spent the last fucking decade or more just have chasing and fucking taking care everybody else and just not just first. I just remember in COVID, I didn't let them leave the house because I was pregnant, and so now I just want you to know, like you may go if you have a date. It was that funny. I'm such a loser. I was like, it's always the grass that was greener for me, dude. I was just like, I just want to leave it outside, so it was better, Like I just want to go out, and then I go out and like this ship sucks because he got Pomo. Yeah. It was so dumb because now I'm like giving myself my own quarantine's age group. For some reason, the kids in l A, there are twenty nine. They were just like either fully antivacs or like didn't believe in COVID and are he's like no couple. But they were just they were living their lives, you know. But they live in Santa Monica. You can go outside. They were doing crazy ship. The it's not like fucking the what was it like the I forget which TikTokers were having, like the man the stupid parties, the crazy big parties. It wasn't like that ship. 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Yes, I'm the same way. I had the realization actually this weekend when Coachella was happening. Yeah, I really do not have fomo because I didn't see any pictures now, so I'm just like getting old, like if I Yeah, that's impress me. I was like, I was like nineteen when I was I was like, I have to go to Coachel like I had to go more years and be liked this as fun as people. I literally had tickets and I sold them right before because I was like, I just don't have I know what it's going to be. I know what my experience will be when I'm there. It's a lot A lot of my friends who were there confirmed to that, and I was like, great, I'm my all my my friends who are managers, like literally managed Harry Styles. So they had the best tickets you could get ever, right, the best spots, and even they were like I'm never going, you know, like Harry was great. This was the best, right, and I never talking about the rest of the weekend, the rest of the wen ride and I was magical. The rest you don't have. The Harry Style is a much letter rest right, right, Well, they have to go again this upcoming weekend. Exciting. This will drop your boyfriends, now that's what they do. Uh, this will drop next Wednesday. So I have no famer. I probably will never go to go tell unless I have to perform, but never will go. And have you performed there. You haven't performed. You got offered too, but it wasn't I don't remember. I just don't love that stuff. I will that will be the year that I go is when you perform for Oh my God, Okay, yeah, you'll be like you have to unfortunately cancel every plan that you have right now and come for both weekends. I'll be there. I will totally be there. I'll be on the little stages, you know. Yeah, I don't, right, right, singing like a thirty second clip of all about that, right, Yeah, for sure. I feel like maybe you can. It's I understand this as someone who's also slightly in the public eye, but like you probably think of yourself as a much smaller artist than you actually are in practice, because like none of us can really conceptualize. I just will never feel famous, you know. Yeah, Like and I get like, when I was super popping with All about the Base, I remember feeling exhausted. So then I go, oh, back when I was really famous, Like that's what I think of it, because I was literally in New York on a plane to Germany that night to it was like the worst part of all how old were you? And yeah, so that's like alone with punk hiatus I was like a dream, so must go on dreams. Yeah, but would you say like as even I mean all about that base wasn't the only hit you've had. So as the things continued, did you just get more used to it or did it seem to calm down in a way? Um, I think you would just And you eventually had my family there, so then I had like soldiers and I had support. Like before, I was so alone during all that those times, and I would call them from a different country and they'd be like three in the morning for them, and I'd be like, I'm sick, but I'm doing the show. I think it's good. I don't really know what's going on. And then eventually I could bring them with me and be like we're going to the AMS to today, pack up like and then he would videotape my whole life. My wow, wow. So it really became a family business. But yeah, no, I'm very much um champion on my own because my I think my family is they're they're very d C. They're not like, yes, I'm right outside of d C in Maryland. So we used to make the drive every sane. I would wait for you on the boat. Yes, right outside, let's chriss Yeah, I remember this times beautifully. I can't believe you have those pictures. I know, um, but yeah, I mean, my my family was very much I always had the dream of like being in l A and being a movie star or something like that. But again, no family in the business, nor did they really want to. They weren't the ones where I hear some actors stories being like I wanted to be an actor at seven, And so my family moved to l A. Yeah, and I'm like, that's say my family wouldn't pick up and moved to California. They had a life right and had everything there. My whole family was on that rock. Yes, And I'm like, I'm I'm I'm so. I feel like that's so awesome for the kids who were able to do that. But that was not my life at all. It was very much like that's something you want, you're going to have to really okay, like work for it and make it happen, especially that you at least had that to some people, people are like, like my church, people at my church trying not a churchgower, but they were like, honey, you should think about I don't know why they're southern, but you think about teaching, and I was like what And even my dad was like, everyone go to college, But for me, he was like, no, go do go write songs, like if that's what you want to do. It was especially at like nineteen with all of that happening. Um My my dad, like the TikTok stuff happened in my It was kind of the summer before senior year, and so my dad did give me the option. He was like, if you want to talk about like dropping out to like really make this happen, because yeah, do it. He's great, My my, my dad is really amazing. But I was like, but also, I have one year left of musical theater school. I'm just going to finish it. And so while all this stuff was happening with TikTok, I finished my senior year assume for musical theater. I dropped out of college. I dropped out of college so fast. Yeah, began popped off l A. I was like, yeah, of course I'll drop out of Yeah. If I had a sibling who was like living a pop star life and was like do you mind just like living with you, I'd be like, Okay, I will totally do that. But my sister is very much She was so happy when I was born because I loved attention and she didn't want any attention. My other sister, Caroline m my my sister Abby loves attention as we can see, and I love her for it. But my my sister is not trying to live a pop star life of any kind. How does she feel about it? I think she she loves she enjoys my content. She's very happy for me, but she's also very much like, yeah, you don't need to put me in any content or stuff like well, I have one brother that's like that, the one you'll never see but maybe today if he out of the shout out produces my music in the dark like studio, but he's not, like he's not on social media. He doesn't want to borrow. My sister has a private account. If I ever tag her and people follow requster her, she denies them because she's like, I don't know who they are, so don't try it. So don't try it. And I'm like, I totally I like, while that's not my life, I understand like what you want to be doing. And I had to warn people. I was like, be private and be careful. Yeah, because at this point, if you're tagging on one on Instagram or something like that, people are gonna Yeah when once once there's like millions of people looking at your looking at your stuff. Um, you can't you just can't imagine how many other people are just going to try to find everything about you through all the other people in your life. Um. So I think she's she's very much like I'm okay with not being in any of this public stuff. But my mom, on the other hand, is like tag me, she will post. It's like love it. God, Dad loves the post. Yeah, he'll do like he'll do his own edits to like the collage is the pictures to release an outfit that was supposed to be surprised like the day before, like with pins in it, and be like, Dad, know I was that that that wasn't ready sweet proud? Yeah, Yeah, I guess I'm kind of struggling with the idea of dating sober. Yeah, how do you call we're working on being happy alone. Yeah, that's that's what I mean. That's what I texted you. But I think we're just we're all over the place. I love it, you're happy alone right. I mean to an extent um, I am very comfortable being alone. I think I'm learning to love being alone. There's there's ah my therapist, what was she saying to me? Um? She was like, it's good for you to be content alone. That's huge. Instead of being like I need where I need someone to be, I've lost the ability. Like if you put me in a room by myself and we kind of freaking tonight. Yeah, I'm very content. And before I would spend a lot of time alone, but with whiskey, you know, yeah, and then and then you're not. You don't feel alone any any sad feelings kind of like gone. And so now I could legit, Like last night, I just kicked it, watched Tony Hawks documentary and HBO Love and Life. Now I do have I adopted Megan's to two dogs, Toy Poodle, Beore. I split them in half. Oh my god, you split them in half? Were talking about on this podcast. Yes here, Yeah, I totally understand what you're saying. Yesterday was a spend time alone day and it was. But at the same time, I need to be like at least doing something while I'm alone. Like yesterday it was a laundry day and then just kind of chill, and so I was like, I'm just going to drive to the beach, spend some time like sitting on the beach and just like taking the fact that I'm in l A and California and all of that stuff, like taking what it has to offer. And I feel like those are times where I'm giving just recharge energy back to myself. But I definitely it's it's been an interesting thing slowly learning to enjoy being alone after the breakup, because I feel like one thing too, when you're in a relationship and you're living together, sometimes it's like I just wish I had some more alone time, Like at least that's not every relationship, but that's that's been and I'm I'm definitely a person who loves my alone time no matter what. UM, And so I learned to appreciate it more like even throughout the relationship. So I think that helped me UM post breakup. But I do feel like just because there's been like four and a half years worked in of my sobriety of being alone, that's been really helpful. UM experiencing that, And you guys are gonna be self perfect for yourself. It'll be gonna be like trained and ready. I will, like dating wise, almost every time I go out on a date. Granted, like I don't think I'm always ever trying to go out on a date with someone who's a big PARTI er, But every time I do go out on a date, and if they didn't know before and I'm like, oh, I actually don't drink um, a lot of the time they're like, oh great, I'm not going to get anything that because like I was just gonna get something if you were going to get um. But I don't want to. I don't even want to drink tonight or something. And I'm like awesome, And a lot of people will like like share the sentiment that they're like, I actually really like spending time around you because it doesn't mean we have to party or something. I mean, that's that's what I went back to Florida for New Year's Eve, just I haven't been to Tampa in six years is where I went to college. And my friends are like, it's kind of nice to you're sober man. We don't have to get so fucked up. He was like, because I would just like I would, Uh, I don't know, I always bought everybody drinks, like I'm gonna buy a drink and then the next Yeah, I wasn't like forcing like shots or anything else, like a drink, drink, try to catch up. Yeah, yes, yeah that was I was the same way. If someone wanted a crazy night in college, they were probably going to be hanging out with me. But I feel like i've really and also you attract like what what you put out, and so now that I put out the energy that, I'm like, we're not going to be own too crazy. And I'm just like, I'm much more excited to have a deep conversation or like really get into it about our lives and our past or something like that than the surface level and just like get funked up at dinner or something like that. I feel like I've had pretty positive dating experiences, but I don't let myself get to the date unless I feel pretty sure that will have at least an okay time together. Yeah. And you guys might find when you find your settle mate tell us Megan, you might find that you want to be with him all the time, right, and that might be your little thing? Ding? Ding? Is it the one? I actually I've considered that too. I'm like, if there's a person who like doesn't make me feel like I need to have alone time a good amount of the time, that's that that will be crazy for me, and also especially past the honeymoon phase, because in the honeymoon phase, all of us are always like I just can't get enough of you, and then a lot of the time that fades. So the fact that, yeah, the fact that you're saying you're like six years in and he's I'm just gonna watch you when at night we go like date night, Law and Order, and then we like and your toilets are next to each other, less we forget, Yeah, I really can't wait to see Yeah, I think we'll find someone that also enjoys their alone time so we could have our alone times. I think I'm always going to happen. And if you find that too, I feel like that's also a perfect like the perfect storm. A perfect match is the person who's like, all right, let's actually just like taking time and then be super excited to see each other again. Um, So I'm like, I'm really open to all of the things I wouldn't say I try to like actively date now, but again, like I said, if someone is pursuing enough and is like I want to make time for you, I want to see you, I'm like, okay, all right, then show up. Let's see what you're going to bring to the table. Because a lot of some of my friends now that I have this following, are why don't you like slide into d M S or something like that, like they would definitely see it. I'm like that's scary, yeah, because then okay, great, what if they see it and then are like not him. I'm like, I just I can't. I can't signing in MS. I hate it because it always says like red or like that's why when actually, when we first connected on Instagram, I just I think I just posted to my story. I was thinking about Megan Trainer. My managers sent me that. I said it to them and they sent it to me, and we're like freaking the funk out because then we just started reposting each other over and over like we love this relationship. And I was like, yeah, well my manager said the exact same thing, because I was literally just like I truly, oh you don't know about this, so I follows I post. I think I was it was just like last and I was just like thinking about Megan Trainer. I think that I love you so much. And then I was like and then I reposted it and it was literally that photo of me Saller story. Yeah, that's just like getting smaller. And yes, because I had also posted after I saw that you followed me on my spam account, I posted a TikTok being like, guys, Megan Trainer follows me on this spam account. I think I'm gonna have to change the content or something like that, but no, I'm just as unhinged as I will. I'm a commenting ho on TikTok. I like I do see your comments, like I love you everywhere. I feel like, but that's such a beautiful thing. Like some people get a little like stick am I yelling no, no, you're good. You're every time I get too excited, Ryan, it's like, turn him down. They're good. Your voice is amazing, Do not mind me. It's resonant. I see your comment, and I feel like sometimes people can get a little stingy with their comments and be like I know some people who don't comment at all or something like that, and I'm like, no, if I something makes me happy or affects me anyway I want to say something. Yeah, because a lot of the time or you never know when someone might be a huge fan of you or might just need to see a positive comment that day, and oh my god, like it's pretty cool. Quite the power. Yeah. Yeah, Well because a lot of the time, when I go to these fun events and I meet like famous people who I would assume have no idea who I am because we've never interacted, They're like, oh my god, you own my for you page. I'm like, what though, I know a lot of famous people just have Lurk accounts and they're like, I don't want to have a big personality on TikTok, but I'm just going to scroll. Um. But yeah, Like I'm a big fan of the show Outer Banks and Madeline Kleine, who's who plays Sarah Cameron on that show, came up to me and was like, I'm like, I'm so excited to finally meet you. And I'm like, you're excited to meet me? Like what the fund is happening here and got to be a true and it will continue. I still happen whenever someone comes up to me and they're like, I don't want a fan girl. I'm like no, no, no, no no. I am the biggest fan girl to everyone in my life. Like we shouldn't think being a fan girl isn't cool, Like yeah, um, I worship you and I tell them. I tell Hillary every time I see her, Hillary Duff, I'm like, Hi, I love you, and you know how much I love you and worship you as I mean, because that's like I know, I'm not really of being a friend. I'm sure you grew up like watching I wasn't allowed to have posts. She doesn't know this. I wasn't allowed to have posters on my walls. Um, but at the farm my auntcle my great aunt Chloe had a farm and when we would sleep there, I got a poster and I put it on that Hillary Hillary Duff and it was like her fake It was her signature but like printed a thousand times. And I was like tracing the signature because I was a creepy fan and I was like, I love you now and I was like she wrote that from me, and now you're and now you talk to her and it was like the come clean like single artwork, Oh my god, come clean, wake up. One of that's one of my dad's favorite songs. You would play it in the car like wake up. Yes, No, that that is exactly it. Are you not really connecting with Hillary duff here? I just I fell in love with her when I was a child watching the Candy video with Aaron Carter and she was in and I was like, I was so jealous. It was like a Lizzie McGuire thing. They didn't Yeah, she's in the video and like that's my dream girl. And the Lizzie McGuire movie will remain paramount as one of like the best movies of all time. I know. That's like a lot of people are like, okay, but like, no idea and this is what dreams are made of. Will come up in my Spotify like shuffle and I'm like, I don't. I don't search it up to play it, but Spotify knows I need to hear it all. My TikTok still comes up every day. Yeah. Just when I went to dinner with her and her husband and when my hobby was a double day beautiful, I was like, no, Hillary, this is what dreams are made of. Yeah. She recently like said on a talk show that she has to like um play her music in her car to her kids, to her daughter down. Someone showed her daughter and then she was like play it, and I'm like, I that's that is icon status at the end of the day. I can't wait till my kid likes my songs like, oh, I feel like already barely. I mean every single one of them has like a very good beat. Oh, that's what we're gonna do. We're gonna play you my new single after this. Yeah, and we were just going to definite no, no, no, we are, but we're not going to let them hear it. We're just gonna let them see his body language. Oh. I mean you could just see from my literal reaction to knowing that I'm going to hear the new single. That's so just be like part of the video. How is it going to work for audio? Yeah, it'll be just the video. It's too good. I just want to watch his body I really can. And so we'll just bull mute it and we just see his face like like cheap jingle ship that would be. That would be a great and you'll just put a different song. I play a game. Yes, Megan Trainer is letting me be the first, the first, the very first very first nobody in the first person to hear her new single, and this is major. I'm going to show you my reaction to it. God, we don't go all out, like, don't kill your just I'm nervous for you. Kay, we're about to play. We're about to play Chris the song. Okay, it's not mixed or master. Tell me it's too loud. Okay, he's listening, he's allowed. I'm sorry, Okay, just turn a decade, Okay, tell me this is Okay, it's gonna come out of broken already. Okay, yeah, because I can hear it through his headpost right, So we're gonna meet this the the dog he's licking, feeling himself. Chris is feeling himself, he likes. I'm already driving down the street listening to the song. Oh, let's go, you can say stuff began. I'm trying to hear it. Oh my god, he's moving, this is this is real. I'm not faking this. Okay, confirmed, not faking. I'm probably screaming right now too. Okay, the snaps, the dance, the shoulders. You've heard this, Oh, I've heard it. He's pointed at me, asking have heard it. Mechanisms, just mouthing the words at least sweating. This is so good. Let's go. I'm sorry for yelling to everyone in there the best. This is so good. Oh my god. I can see my forehead vein. That's how much I care. Bridge. Can you hear it? Okay? Holy sh it? Oh my god, wow, Holy Ship. I need I need you to send me this one. I need to listen to it as I drive home. He's gonna leak it blasted out the windows. When does this come out? I don't know. It's all secrets, that's it. Play it again. Oh my god, I don't want to talk anymore. That was so good, Like I one, I'm so glad it was because imagine if I like the sweat is just tripled and that's yeah, like the first single of a new album. It's a big got back like the doop stuff. As you can hear that, which is exactly what I love from you because I everything, that's everything, and I think that's exactly what that's like. The world will just eat it up. They've been waiting. They've been waiting. They've been waiting because, honestly, like there is not much new music out that does this often. Well, I was like starting to write. I started to write and I heard and you can put it whatever you want managers. But I was writing and my first session someone's like, you know, it's crazy. I had a session and they said I want that Megan Trainer sound and I was like, excuse me, yeah, there is a sound. Absolutely, Oh is it that? Oh? I got it. That's what blew up on TikTok got it now. And this is now that you've said the word TikTok. I'm like, I can just imagine how this is going to be taken over by the app because you've had multiple songs go by, which is interesting, even old one like title had the biggest moment ever recently and I'm dancing. That was for like a movie. Yes, that's movie. Yes, And that was I mean, I just once again I'm yelling no, no, no no, putting Megan up and putting Megan up, no no no, And I won't keep calling you. That was so good to pay it for all the guests. Yeah, that was genius whose and I just wanted him to hear it because I know you're a music baby. That I mean, that was you can tell me the truth after But like no, no, no, no no, I'm the truth has been told right now and they felt it felt genuine Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah you are an actor. Well yeah, like there's just a way in which I really turn it on if I just want someone to feel good, even if I'm not feeling it myself. Um, and that was not you could sense to a lot was happening with his body. The vain expressions that looked like uncontrollable you know what, didn't look stuff in your team? Um, has it been there this whole time? The whole time, I don't, I haven't seen it. Your mic was covering it, so I didn't bother saying anyone spinach from my egg omelet. Oh my god, Megan Trainer, you're a bad friend for that. I saw like three ports in and I was like, it's been too long, take it out, get it, you got it. I will, I'll be I never saw it. I never saw it, And you smiled this whole time, and I'm just smiling with the mic was like this, So I was like, well, they wants it. Yeah, So I'm going to ask you questions. You're gonna read my lips and you're going to answer whatever you feel okay, and I'm going to do this to you after Okay, good both of you. Actually, yeah, we'll do We'll go back and forth. Okay, wait, just kidding. Tell me when the music starts playing. So I'm gonna put you in my off Okay, it's so loud. Okay, here we go first one. Yeah, but I can hear it in the fucking mike. Okay, fine, I'll play a different song. We gotta, we have to. We have to figure out he can hear the song. Okay, you can hear us talking to you now with the headphone. Now I can play what play? Play another one? Can you play me too? Yeah? Putting on Megan Trainer requests Megan, can you too bad? That's good? Can you hear me? Wait? Talk now? I don't know? Okay, where are the questions? What are the questions here? Have you ever kissed the girl? You want to do? I was seward pizza? Have you ever kissed a girl? Um? Have you ever kissed a girl? How? How are you so? Have you ever kissed a girl? Have you ever had? Have you ever? I doesn't seem one more time? Have you ever kissed a girl? Have you ever stole? Have you ever stole one more time? Does answer it? Have you ever kissed a girl? Have you ever gone to school? You just answer the question? I know you said answer and I was like, no, I'm going to get this question right. Okay, fine, got it? Got it? Have you ever kissed a girl? Yes? I just graduated nice. What's your favorite flavor? Um? My favorite flavor of what? Cookies? Greece? The regular? I don't. I don't like bacon. They kin Greece. Do you like pizza? Do I like pizza? I like scared more he's more articulate. Are you a bottom? Am I a bottom to ask questions like that? Yes? Yes? Gigs, baffles pizza or wafflesh pizza pizza? What was your aim screen name? Have I been to Amsterdam? I have not, but I would love to go at some point. Do you want kids someday? Once? You want kids someday? Do you want to come over tonight? Yes? I mean I'll already be here. Where do you see yourself in ten years? What do I think of tacos? I? Yes, yes, I love a taco. Where you can go to college? Do you want to go? Where did you go to? Where did you go to college? I went to College of Music. You got a couple of those, what are your hobbies? The last one, who are you copying? I'm not call no one, I am authentically me. Fuck yeah, you got. You got like three of those. Last The last one was what are your hobbies? But I liked your I just liked your answer. They're regardless, Um, pizza you got? It was pancakes or waffles. But it was the bottom that was really, to be fair, my game manager, I approved the question. Whoa it was? It was the best, it was the best response. Awesome, No, keep it. You got the you got the favorite flavor. You did well? You did good. I was like, really, yeah, wow, Okay. My tenant a few more of these is who's your celebrity crush? Oh my god, but who's your celebrity crash? You're doing some purpose? Do I have a crush? Okay? Come? Do you like smelling farts? Oh my god? How do you do this? Do you like smelling farts? Do you like smelling farts? Do you like spaghetti? Liver ba? Do you like? Do you like smelling farts? Go again? Do you like smelling farts? Do I like sunflowers? You know? Um? What do you hate most smepping fans. Oh my god, game is impossible. What do you eat most about being favorites? I got? What do you eat most being famous? She's crying, she has stears in her eyes. What do you eat most about being famous? What do you capable of doing? Singing? Period? Write songs? Yes you can't again, I'm so glad you finally come to that realization. I can't read at all. You can read just favorite meal of the day, breakfast, lunch, or dinner. I can hear you a little good breakdown? Was my favorite meal the day? Fox? There you go, easy questions, your questions? Huh, who's your favorite sibling? Was my favorite celebrity's Jamie Fox? Sure? Jamie Fox? Valid? Yes, he's great. That's right, there are there are tears. She is obsessed. I'm so sweaty like my pits saings. Did I do them? Um? I have one more? Yeah? You go? You go? Wait, hold on, hold on? Not the song start? This kind of works for this kind of works. What you were just saying, what's your favorite song? There? Too long? He's not going yet now yet? What's your favorite song you've ever written? Okay, du it again? What's your favorite song you've ever written. What's my favorite song of the year? Um my new song. I don't listen to anything else. It's a great it's it's a great song. You're looking at me like I'm crazy. I'm thinking I'm okay. If you were a gay man, would you be a topper about him? If I were a man, I'd be both. She's a verse queen. I would say, Megan's a top all right? How much do you love your fans? How much do you love your fans? How much do you live by? How much do you love your fans? How much do I laugh? All? How much do you love your fans? How much do I love myself? How much do you love yourself? I like seventy Oh my god, guys will apologize for her. She only like seventy of you? Like eighty of you? Oh my god, I'm Megatron's Okay, you're good. I'm done. You just said you only like to eighty of your fans. I said, how much do you love your fans? And that isn't that fun? That's a good song? Okay, okay, wait, I need to let me write down some questions. Loud song that's always loud to whatever, I'll text you man, Oh that was hard. You'll never get this. Oh, no, shot, I'm not good at reading lips. I feel like you're pretty good. There we go? Ready, okay, okay? Where do we go when we die? What? Where do we go when we die? What? Where do we go when we die? Why would I go outside? Answer the question? It's too scary? Good answer? It makes sense, It makes sense. Um, when did you start to like Darryl? What? When did you start to like Darryll? Megan? Please? When did you start to like Darryll? What do I think about the girl Carla? What? Megan's uh? Your publisher was calor right, She's awesome. Carla was awesome, She's okay cool, Darryl, she's awesome. Would type? What's my name? Ryan? What's your type? What's my type? Um? I don't really have a type person. I'm gonna ask, man, how many kids do you want? What? How many kids do you want? How many drugs am I own? Not anymore? No more drugs? Yes? Yes? How many kids do you want? How many kids do I want? Oh? My god, yeah, he knows my mouth. Yes, I think I want two kids. Wait? Wait, wait, who's asking now? Wait? Is this your turn. Yeah. Wait, say when do you think you move out? What do you think you'll move out? When do I think I'm gonna move out? Probably forty? Um? Who do you like more? What? Who do you like more? Dad? R? Mom? Who do I like more? Dad? Or Mom? I can't choose that? As in the room right now? Who's your celebrity crush? Who's my celebrity crush? Sydney? Same as well? What I won? I won back to me? Which Spice Girl is your favorite? That's good? What because he's wearing the shirt right now? Which Spice Girl is your favorite? You don't have to get quieter? Um, this is hard. Great play song, play song? Okay, Which Spice Girl is your favorite? What is he s Spice Girl is your favorite? Which sibling is my favorite? Which? What's which Spice Girl? That was very clear. Which Spice Girl is your favorite? What's what? Space Girl is my favorite? Almost? What's wait? What he's a fucking that is? And he really is? Okay, we're gonna move on. We're gonna move on. Because on theme, if you were a gay man, would you be a topper bottom, bom bottom or top bottom or top? Probably first work? Ryan, Yes, I like to give and take? Great scares you the most? Scares e scares you the most? Now you're talking, what scares you the most? What? What scares you the most? What upsets me the most? What upsets me the most? What scares you most? What the most? What scares you the most? Just answer, he can't see me. What upsets me the most? Just answer what upsets me the most? If I'm want to end on war? Why? Why is there warm war? Okay? And then the high one um um? What's your least favorite Megan Trainer song? Oh? He definitely read that. Who are my favorite managers? No? What's your least favorite Megan Trainer song? Who do I think that your favorite Backstreet Boys are? How did we Get There? What song by your sister Megan Trainer? What song by Megan Trainer is bad? Hate? Yeah? What song is? Megan Training? Is bad? I hate me too? If I was you, I'd want to be me too. Write that part. I didn't write that part, so I don't take offense. Whoa, that's a good there's a clip there for TikTok for sure. I can hate me to gasps and end video. Yeah, I love that game. Whoa, that was amazing I had a fun time blast. Why can't I read lives at all? Yeah, you're pretty bad. You guys both have a little mouse. When you were doing I was like, it's because your talking. When did you When did you get them? Recently for my birthday? On our birthday? Wow, that was a jam. Painful to get them so painful? Yeah, don't they just they grind down, file down your teeth to little pop up. Have you ever seen it? I've seen those. But that's what they did. Yeah, and you have to get them like redone every ten years or something like that. I hope not. I thought that was the thing. It was like you I didn't sign that part of the deal. I didn't read that part in the country got it. But they're like they're fine, like you enjoy them. They're sturdy now. Three months of pain though, three months like was it hard to eat? Just a little annoying? Yeah, just chew on this side, you know. Anyways, Anyway, that was a great time. This was a black man. Thank you Megan the way to California to do this. I literally moved here just for this. So thank you guys, truly an honor. Thank you guys. Whatever you got um follow me at Chris on TikTok or not alson Chris TikTok. Just at Chris Chris. That's I'm just Chris. Did you do? Um? I emailed TikTok. I couldn't even well, I got Megan Trainer, but I had good. Now you have to work for Instagram. I was Megan sc trainer for really time until this year. Wows was the person who had Megan Trainer where they like she was like a fitness person. I think wow, which she was Megan Trainer, but like that wasn't her real name. She was just a trainer who was Megan. Um, yeah, so follow those A trainer who was Megan followed these account. Um. I may be coming out with a coffee brand sometime this year, so just be on the watch for that and um yeah check out check out the things those things and he'll be on Broadway very soon. I love you all so much and I'm working on a pot all Socials Meca Trainers YouTube channel to watch the videos. UM, thank you so much for listening, watching and enjoying. I appreciate you all. Bye. I'm not working again on it, working working on it. I'm working again on it, working on working on