Trigger warning: This episode mentions self-harm and suicide which may be distressing for some.

Comedian and YouTube royalty Hirzi Zulkiflie has plenty to get off his smooth chest and we are here for it! The multiple traumas of dating as a brown gay man in Singapore? Check. Queer spaces that are too catty for his liking? Double check. Even the rainbow pride flag and Beyoncé are not spared in this tell-all slash sponty therapy session. We find out why Hirzi has blocked over 1,400 guys on social media, and why he may actually forgive Nicki Minaj someday. Our convo is mostly banter and laughter until we take it back to 2015, when Hirzi and his partner in "crime" Munah were the first Malay-Muslim ambassadors for Pink Dot. What started as a proud moment soon spiralled into one of the darkest periods of his life - one that, despite all his smiles and brave front, still brings him to tears.