Dear Mapseka
I’m writing to you as a woman who is emotionally drained and deeply confused about what to do with my life.
I have been married for 10 years and we have three children. During this time, I have endured physical and emotional abuse from my husband. He has cheated on me multiple times even with women who live nearby. I stayed, hoping for change, but there has never been any accountability from his side. Instead, I have continued to suffer. I eventually shut down. I stopped talking and emotionally disconnected from him. As painful as it is to admit, I started seeking emotional and physical comfort elsewhere. I’m currently involved with two men. One is married we have a strong connection, we get along well, but I know he’s not mine. The other is divorced and wants commitment, but the sex is disappointing. I am someone who is sexually active and needs intimacy but with him, one round is all there is, and I’m left unsatisfied. At home, things have become toxic. My husband drinks, insults me daily, and calls me names like “stupid.” There’s no affection, no love, no compliments, no proper sex only pain. I feel like I don’t exist to him anymore. He spends most of his time on his phone, even late into the night, with his female colleagues. Meanwhile, I am sexually starved, emotionally neglected, and mentally exhausted. I am not working, but I hustle hard trying to earn something. My biggest fear is walking away and starting over with nothing. I don’t want to keep living like this I feel trapped. There’s no more love left in
this marriage, just survival. Mapaseka, how do I get out of this mess? How do I rebuild my life as an unemployed mother of three who just wants peace, love, and dignity again? I need help. I need direction.
Please help me.