First of all, you don't know me. We all about that high school drama, Girl Drama Girl, all about them high school queens. We'll take you for a ride in our comic Girl Cheering for the drama Queen's Girl Fashion. But you're tough girls. You could sit with us Girl Drama Queens Drama Queen's DRAWNA, Queen's Drama Drawn MC, Queen's Drama, Queen's You Guys, Season four episode um were dressed up Queen dressed out. My gosh, I'm so jealous. I didn't get the medal. No, you're traveling for work. No, but I just I just cleaned my office and found my crown and I was like, oh, this is so nice. So I put it on top of the bottle of your whiskey, which is in my house, and it's sitting there on my bar. And I didn't bring it with me, and I should have. But you both look very beautiful. Promp prom queens. Indeed, you're like basically filming out of castle right now, so you're This episode originally aired February one, two thousand seven, A real follow up to Our Valentine's Day Show on the Day from the residue of Nathan's pre prom party has serious repercussions for everyone in Tree Hill. Hayley asks Nathan for a list of all his past sexual conquests. Oh my God, do not ever do that. Rachel is suspended after taking the blame for the exam that she stole with Brooke. Peyton tells Lucas she wants to skip the prom entirely, but he doesn't want to take no for an answer, And finally, Marvin McFadden and Brooke must deal with dating clean teens on pro cuties. This episode was directed by our very own Paul Johansson and he crushed it. Wow prom episode. This is so fun. I love I love the big episodes like this. This one was a huge one. I was so I had so much to say about this episode, and I'm upset that I'm not going to be here for this entire podcast, But I have to like First, Hillary, you are such a good actress the scenes that you did, Like, it was so nice to see Peyton take a turn from being um. You've gone through all the phases of like weepy, and then you were having fun for a while and now it's like you're just get angry and we haven't seen Peyton do that in a way that is so confident and solid. Like I've seen Peyton throw a fit before, I don't know that I've seen Peyton just kind of come into her a confidence in her own of like everything is shifted and you put everything emotionally into place. Um, with how you felt about what Brooke and Nathan did and you're like, okay, that's it. I know exactly where I stand right now, and I'm it was just so solid and the and then the emotional turn that you had with Brooke in the yard, um, it was just like talking about your mom. Mom. It made me cry and I'm driving and I was like, stop crying, I'm driving. It was really really good. So well that well, thanks. I think that we were all really lucky that in this big episode we had Paul directing, because Paul knew us man, Paul knew the ship that was going on in real life. He knew all the stuff our characters that had to do before, you know, And I think everyone turned in really good performances this episode. And so while we have you, I want to talk about yours because it is so um. It makes that like your throat burn when you think about asking your partner to make a sex list, like oh my god, oh my god. Basically we're doing the thing that you do in horror films and were like, Haley, don't come in the hou and she's so pregnant and hormonal. But it's so the writing I thought was fully areas on this one. The fact that I got to be so irrational and just out of control, I didn't find it irrational at all. You totally made it. It made sense to me. Oh thanks, Yeah, that was really fun. I was surprid that was another this episode I had a lot of I remembered being in the rooms. This is the episode I slapped Rachel too, right or was that the no? That was the last one? Remember, yes, that was the last one. It was the last one, right, Okay, so that one I wasn't here for you and James have such great comedy in this, and it's very Katherine hepp Burn, Spencer Tracy. It's fast. It's like try to keep up, you know, that's Hayley's energy. It's like, no, do what I asked you to do, but also don't do what I asked you to do, and you two are getting to do funny stuff maybe for the first time, Like, you guys have been very sweet together. You've had fights, you've been vulnerable and emotional, but you're being funny together. I was glad that they didn't write Hayley's reaction to this as like another big, overwhelming, sad, sulky like, you know, how could you do this? I don't know who? I like, I just didn't want to mope. I was so happy that she was just kind of a grown up about it, like, wow, Wow, it's not that you're mad that he made the tape. It's that you're mad that he still light. Yeah, do you use it? It's so horrible. It's so horrible, and the natural fear because don't forget in the prior episode, when everyone's yelling, oh my god, Nathan and Peyton made a sex tape. Peyton comes running screaming turn it off, turn it off. Haley witnesses all of this. So Haley turns and looks at her husband and goes, oh, old, Nathan video taped every time he had sex with a girl, Like that camcorder was set up in his bedroom. It was like to go get it. It was there, it was there, and why was it already there well, So essentially the discovery of oh, you have this whole other life, this whole other series of proclivities, these fantasies that I know nothing about, that can be really hard. I remember years and years ago. I don't know what it is now, but when I think when we were doing the show, it might have even come up because of this episode. There was like a big piece that got published about how like over of people feel like if their partner has a secret porn habit that is cheating, Like that's a really intense thing to find out that someone has a whole sex life that has nothing to do with you. And I loved that we were able to talk about the reality of how complicated it is to figure out what the person you love likes that has nothing to do with you. But we did it in a funny way. It's like it gave people permission to have the conversation. But to your point, Joy, it wasn't Moby, it wasn't like hitting us over the head with another dramatic thing, and I loved it. I also have to say something about this tape. I have to say something. Chilly and I talked about this last so upset about this because this is actually this is really fed up. And look, I get that the point was that Brooke essentially was going to be told like you betrayed me too, with the Peyton and Lucas of it all, and and their whole thing is this was one drunk night and you had a full emotional affair, and you lied to me and you snuck around behind my back. Each person decides why the other person is the wrong one. But I remember how upset I was when we got this script, and I was like, I'm not going to do this, like this is so unforgivable, and they gave me this whole thing about no, no, no. At the opening of four fifteen, Peyton is on a tear. Nathan is doing body oots off Bevin. They get in a big screaming fight and she dumps him, and then she comes to Brook and Brooke is wasted and having a good time and says, you don't you hate Nathan. He's mean to you. I have I know what you need. Take two of these and call me in the morning. And she yanks over to like hot guys and like shows them to Peyton, and Peyton looks at her and goes, I'm not like you, I'm not a two bit in front of everyone and walks away. And so when Brooke sits down with Nathan and he says, Peyton broke up with me, she says, Peyton just like I don't remember what it was, but it was essentially like she just said the meanest thing anyone's ever said to me. And he looked at her and was like want to get back at her, And it was like it was like a thing that they made a decision on. And for me, when the episode aired and I saw that they had cut that out, I was like, listen, you don't. Everybody's in the wrong here. But when you take away the like core wound context that when your best friend has said the merest thing like at fifteen that you think anyone can say to you, I was like, oh my god, I sobbed. When I sob, you know what, You're right, because what it turned into was kind of gross and creepy, Nathan being like you were you were just drunk enough. It was like like him taking advantage of a drunk girl. And even further, it says it when you get into the bedroom, he's like, you need another drink? Like what are we doing here? Exactly, and it went from being to two kids. We've talked so much about how in like all these ways Nathan and Brooke are really similar and like their friendship can be this great respite for each other, and and you could have seen why these two made this really bad decision in the in the versions of themselves they were two years ago, and then both tried to pretend it never happened and never talked about it again, and like Brooke even says, like, I kind of like I was really drunk. I kind of wanted it to be a bad dream, which is so sad. And it goes from being like, oh, that was the worst versions of us and now we're better versions of us to just like her in particular, being the bad guy, like she really gets blamed, and I just felt like it was so cruel, Like I don't know, it made me feel very defensive of her, which is probably an insane thing to say because she's not an actual person, but she feels like, yeah, but that you went through seasons and seasons after seasons, the episodes of episodes after that, functioning in a certain way believing that Brooke just did that just for no reasons. Yeah, it just affects me that you look at at your performance and who Brooke has been over the last like two seasons. Yeah, yeah, yeah, and it and there, and there was to be the tie in with Peyton calling her that to Peyton putting it on her dress, and it was like it was a whole thing like this, this like mortal wound. And they took it away, but they didn't take away you dumping him, And I was like, that's really stub like it gives him an excuse, but not her exactly. And I didn't because the excuse that Haley and Peyton get the whole time is it didn't mean anything. It didn't mean anything. It didn't mean anything, which those are just like dumb empty words. If it instead had been like, no, you were being a bitch that night, like trying to get back at you, and I feel really horrible about it. Yeah, you were awful to both of us. We did something regrettable, and because we regretted it, we buried it. Like, yeah, I could have been a more interesting conversation. Anytime someone tells me it didn't mean anything, I'm like, do me more, Like how many soapb obbaras have you watched? You loser. Yeah, exactly. This is one of the things that happens a lot with TV. If that's different from film, I think is that you know, there's there's people in an office who are not artists, and then there's writers UM. And the writers are in TV are preoccupied with the next episode and everything, and you know, they're all often just trying to piece mail things together if something doesn't make sense, or if an episodes too long or whatever, and so it's everyone except the people responsible for those characters in the room making creative decisions about the characters. And it's really frustrating it. It happens all the time in UM, in TV, and uh, there's nothing that really actors can do about it. You just have to show up and trust that you know, the people who are working with the office people really have your back, and sometimes they just they just can't because they're too distractive of too many other things, or maybe they don't care. I don't know. It can be tough or you have to go um what you said, you remember filming this episode, you had a really really nice scene with Chad in the kitchen. Do you remember that one I just watched like an hour ago. What happened, what happened in the kitchen, But you're like, you know, talking about Peyton's ex boyfriend in the video and Nathan says or Lucas says, well, Nathan's not like her ex boyfriend either. You know. She said, like, don't be like Peyton's ex boyfriend. You're encouraging to go to Peyton, show up for her and don't be like her ex boyfriend. And he's like, niced to Nathan because he's not like her ex boyfriend either. Yeah, you two had such a good chemistry in that scene and Lucas is being Lucas bounced and back and forth between Brook and Payton again. Yeah, you're the person that lets the audience see him like for the good Boy. I always miss seeing Haley and Lucas on camera because we started the show that way. It was so much Lucas and so whenever we get to see them together again, and I even you know, I search out at at an event um recently, and um, it just it does. It's like, no matter how much time goes by, no matter what, it just feels like you've been through so much together. It's family. It's like you just it's a comfort level and it was like, man, we could easily be walking down the street, um down Front Street right now again. You know, it's it's great. I love I love Lucas and healing. I think it's also nice to see, you know, Nathan's taking a lot of responsibility going on his apology tour, and it's nice to see their brotherly relationship with Lucas kind of following Nathan around trying to keep everyone calm in the wake of the crisis. Like I didn't even realize that that Lucas was doing, but you know, it's like a nice seesaw. It's in a way, they're like, let's divide and conquer, and so they're sort of like rotating around each other trying to solve this problem the brand. Yeah, and I really enjoyed that. I enjoyed, you know, seeing Nathan take it on the chin and be the best version of himself. And I appreciated that Lucas was reminding everyone who their friends really are. You know. He he does it for Brooke, and he does it for Haley, and he does it for Peyton. He says to Peyton. Look, in a way, Lucas is the only person in this episode, by the way who says, yeah, they did something dumb years ago when they were drunk. We did this thing for a long time behind her back, Peyton, you know, and he acknowledges it for the first time and she, granted, isn't ready to hear it, but it's it's kind of impressive. And and and he uses that reality of look, this is what we did, and we did it for a long time, and it's this is the reality now, and and he and then he says, you're better than this. My take on Lucas is that he's so pumped that he's not at the center of this. Also that for so long he was the dip and dump stuff with multiple girls, you know, just like, hey man, this is my opportunity to like clean the slate. Oh my god, it's but if we all give each other's mistakes that Yeah, he's just standing in the middle of the hurricane, just watching the women in his life, his mother, Hayley Brook, everybody's just and and he's just taking it, taking it on the chin, trying to handle everybody. Yeah, so funny. Yeah, and he does. He really does take it on the chain because less we forget when him and when Lucas and Nathan have their scene. Oh, Nate apologizes and and Lucas says something about, you know, I just don't ever want to see a tape of you in Peyton. Nathan just takes a breath and goes, well, never will because Haley destroyed all the tapes in the house. And I was like, oh my god, Like he just goes ahead and says, don't worry about it, man, And it's so that was my only confirmation that that existed. Even I was like, what, there's tapes, I know. I was like, this is really horrible. And I don't know if maybe we were talking about this because we were in the era of all those reality girls having their sex tapes come out. I don't know why this was such a big deal, but God, when he just said that, When Nathan says that to Lucas was such a straight face in the kitchen, I almost fainted. Yeah, I was like, but also I have a very strong appreciation for a singular tape that can be destroyed, do you know what I mean? In the age of the Internet and in the age of like, you know, people downloading things or sending them digitally, like having a tape that you can rip the physical film Burn and Destroy. What a treat I missed the good old days. Yeah, my god, I I just want to see Haley with a hammer, just like. That's it. I know that I want to see Haley with a lighter and a barbecue, like just lighter fluid that's on a webber grill outside and burn it, Angelo Bassett. It would have been so so, so so funny. It would have worked too well. I gotta go. I love you guys. Yeah, well, thanks for joining us, have fun in the castle. Great performances in this episode, both of you. Well, same, thank you. Yeah. It's so yeah, there's a lot of like, there's just a lot of nuance that I didn't catch the first time around. And I'm I'm loving it, and I'm also a little uncomfortable. Yeah, because we're finding out things that on ourselves, our characters that we didn't know. That's what it is. It's it feels like it honestly feels like exactly like what Brooke is experiencing. That you did something dumb and drunk at a party and you don't remember until people start reminding you, and then the pieces come back together. You know, I forgot about Peyton and Nathan and nipple rings and sex tapes and showers together, like all of it has been wiped from my memory because you know, for the last couple of years it's Luke Luke, Luke, Luke, Luke, Luke luke. Um. The reminder is brutal. It is so brutal, and I think it can be really hard, especially when something from so far in your past comes up and and you know, Lucas says it. He says, she's acting like it just happened. Haley has the counter, Well, it did just happen to her, you know, she just found out about it. But for Brooke and Nathan, like I would bet you they've both literally forgotten that this ever happened. Now it's back to bite them in the ass and what a total nightmare. Yeah, but right there, but also a great platform for some comedy because you and I, as we watched Hailey be like, I want the list, guys. So Foria and I are sitting here to sidebar texted each other about like you don't want the list. You don't want the list. You think we want that list. It's a real bad idea. You don't want the list. And if I mean there's one, you shouldn't keep a list. Don't make a list. It's a recipe for don't make a list for us to find in your drawers or oh my god, you don't want that list. No. No. I've had a couple of situations where I have um learned after the fact that uh, I have engaged with someone who has been with my partner, And it makes me happy that I don't know, because when I interact with them, I'm a cool girl. You know, I'm not being territorial or weird. I'm just being fun cool. And so then when I find out later, I'm like, Okay, fine, you know, I don't want to know before. Knowing before makes it worse because then you're not really yourself when you meet that person. Yes, it's just not possible. Yeah, I don't know. I don't want people to keep secrets from me. But I also I'm like, I don't think I need to know. Like I I remember finding out that um, a girl who had been so awful to one of my best guy friends in a relationship that they were in like tortured this sweet boy. Yeah. Years later, I was dating someone and found out he had also dated this girl, and I almost broke up with him over it, like I couldn't. It made it made you think his taste was bad in my head in a way that I was like, I don't think I can get over this, and yeah, I just was like I don't. I don't know how to understand this about you. And I was like, man, I just wish i'd never known this. I don't want to know this. There's well, here's the deal. There's a fine line between knowing who your person has had significant relationships with, Like I can look at the people that my husband has dated and been like, those are all really talented, ambitious, smart women, Like I feel like I am in good company, and and then also like I have dated people who only ever dated trollops. You know, I did not feel like I was in good company. And so I think knowing what your person's history is in terms of how they respect women, what they're attracted to, that can be helpful. I don't need to know every person on the list. No, I don't want it. I don't want it. Has it's almost air to just assume it's everyone right, just to be like, it's actually a great strategy. You've kissed everyone, and I'm the last one. I'm I'm the one that made you stop. Oh my god, it's amazing. Yeah, feather in our caps, Sophia, we dime into it. Look at us, look at us. We broke up. We also did the damn thing in this episode, unfortunately to each other. I still am sweaty about this. No, it's okay. We just we were in it, like it was such a real fight. And and I know we've talked a little bit about you know, stunts some things, but it's choreography and you're also in the moment. And yeah, there was one moment where we were each we were facing each other, and like we were each supposed to go left. I was supposed to have I remember this so clearly because I was really upset that I'd hurt you. I was supposed to be holding your down, and when we landed, I could only get your um your left hand so on my right hand side down and that was bad for you because you had you had nothing to do with your other hand. You couldn't like hit me. It was like I had to hold both hands so that you could struggle against them, and I was bringing my arm across to go and get your other hand right as you leaned forward and I cracked you in the head. And I don't know if that's how you remember it, but I remember the crack and being like it was scary. It was, well it was. I remember thinking like, wow, that was really loud, and then thinking was it only loud because it was in my head? And then I saw your face and like looked around and everyone's eyes were big and mouths were open, and I was like, oh, everybody heard that, and we like stopped for a minute. But in my head, yeah, to your point, Like my memory is that like we were both supposed to go left, and like, well, you're left in my left, but I went right, and it just yeah, it was it was a collision of every proportions. Well, we didn't have rehearsal, you know, like we had a little bit of rehearsal, but we're shooting outside, we're on location, we're fighting daylight. It is a hugely emotional scene and there's two of them back to back because we had to do I had totally forgotten about the scene where comes to Peyton's door and they have the fight at the door and then Brooke leaves before she comes back to Egg the house so we had two huge emotional scenes scenes. Yeah, and there's no time to just like five six, seven eight. You know. That's no. They didn't coordinate with us as well as they should, I think, especially because we were four years in. They were like, they're professionals, Sophan, Hillary, they they're great. You know. We were always the ones who'd say like, yeah, we can do it, just shows where he used to be, will make it work. That was always our thing, like we're runn out of time, we'll make it work. And then you realize, oh, yeah, for some stuff, we should probably have choreography. But the thing that struck me about it because it's such a beautiful scene between us, and I guess part of the reason I'm but hurt about them taking that beginning out is because, in different ways, each of these girls has this mortal wound, and they get expressed with different terms. Brooks is a criticism of of who she is. Certainly you know, judgment and sexism and all those things, you know, coming from my end of it, and and what I saw in this scene watching it back is that you got to tell me the worst thing I've ever said to you. And I think that the wound I feel for Broke is that she didn't get to express, like you said one of the worst things like a person could say to me like you you treated me like everybody else. And the reason it the thing that really sticks out to me, obviously, Peyton's wound, the mother thing is the biggest and the baddest and the worst. And what it illuminated for me in our fight and these girls who have been there for each other since they were so little, is that they both have actually the same core wound. It's abandonment, and they've they're the ones who have shown up for each other forever, and in this moment, they've abandoned each other. And and what Peyton voices to Brooke is you abandoned me. And Broke hast to see that the thing she has felt that Peyton did to her is exactly what she's done to Peyton, and it took my breath away seeing it as an adult and really seeing the subtext of the conversation between us, I was like, Oh, these girls have held like they used to come together to comfort each other from this wound, and now they're stabbing each other. And it it really gutted me. It really hurt when I heard Brooks say you win, you win. You know, you got the boy, you got the dress, you got everything that you wanted. Um, because for so long Peyton was trying to centerr brook and be like, just be with them, be happy. I'm gonna keep my secret as long as you're happy, you know, And that that was like a really hard thing to hear because Peyton doesn't feel like it's a win, you know, like it doesn't feel like a win, and so to have the person you love be like fine. Um. The other thing that really strikes me that I didn't figure out till adulthood, but that is definitely on display in the scene is that we can love a lot of people like you and I love a lot of people. We don't give a lot of people permission to hurt us. That's the next level. And I personally have very few people in my life who I will let in enough to hurt me, because I'm so conditioned to be like, you know what, you're probably gonna have at some point. So we're just gonna we're gonna pump the brakes right here. We'll stay at love. Love feels fun. Um. Brooke and Peyton are the only people who can hurt each other. Lucas can't hurt them, He's already done it to both of them. Nathan can't hurt them, you know, like their parents can't hurt them. They're the only people that they care enough about to give them that power. Yes, And I think that's why the U win hurts so much, because what Brooke is really saying is you were the one person I trusted and you broke it. So now you're getting all the stuff everybody builds to have one person and I have no one. Like That's what Brooke is saying to Peyton. You have someone who loves you, like I'm out here trying to date. I'm out here trying to find a boyfriend in a prom date. I got dumped because you to like make up for the gaping hole in my heart that you have left, and you've got somebody in it. You win, and it is Oh, it's so sad, these two little girls. It was a really well written scene, and I think it was kind of scary for a lot of our crew members to watch us film it because we had so much going on behind the scenes that it was that weird line of like, what's the subtext here? Are these girls really fighting because they're both putting in pretty good performances right now, like they're they're going for it um. And I remember all the crew members afterwards coming up to us being like, are you guys okay? Like, are you okay? Yeah? And that was the first time I think that we'd put in performances where people that loved us and knew us were just like, hey, are you guys, Like do you need something? Like can we take care of you somehow? Because this was intense. It was really intense. It was really intense well, and if I may, and this was also at a point where we were really getting with so hard behind the scenes that it changed our actual friendship. Yes, like m m, it makes me want to cry, Like we didn't know that. But this was in this was in a moment where we you had always been much like Brooke and Peyton, like when I got to Wilmington's and we've talked about this, like you were my person, And this was in an era where we were all being pitted against each other. And I think there was like under the scene, there was real pain of I don't know if you care about me as much as I care about you. And I see it in with directions and I know in fact it went like all the way around the merry ground of all of us girls. We were so scared because of the things that were being whispered in all of our ears. And I think it's you know, I think it's really part of it's part of what our characters are going through. It's part of what we were going through, and it it's not something much like Brooke and Peyton. We didn't get any help because we didn't have an adult in the room. It took us learning lessons as young women and being able to bring those back to each other eventually and to realize it was never you and it was never me. It was the grown ups that we're supposed to take care of us wanted us to be enemies. And I think all of that happening and being good girls who came to work and did good work and really helped the crew, I think it's part of why it feels so emotional because nobody was allowed to express anything. I went home. Here's my admission, um, after the whole like fight scene in the next episode, so not this fight scene. This fight scene left me feeling really rattled. UM, and I was I was unsure, like how to be around you because I had hurt you, but I know that we'd also done this like work together that um was important and that I loved, but it was layered with like hurt physical and like you know, figurative UM. When we shot the next episode and it's after they fight Psycho Deeric and you and I are seated on the front porch like all bloody, and we've got the blankets around us and we were taking vodka shots from a water bottle together. I went home and cried after that. I did too, because I was like, it's gonna work. It's gonna work. Like that was like the moment where I was like, oh, we're good, like to get other, were a good team um, and I felt like, um, I feel like I could make the choice to hang out with you or too, just like be with you in a way where I didn't have to ask permission from anyone anymore because we've just done this thing that was really cool together. Yeah, that was one when I cried me too. Oh my god, I can't believe it. Yeah, I am it did it it Weirdly, I think being in such an intense situation together and coming together like it mirrored something we'd had that in our real lives and we both like I saw it. Yeah, it was the first time where I thought, if we can have this. I don't know if all the other stuff that I know is being fed in both directions here, I don't know if that's real. This feels really real. What almost made it didn't It didn't even matter, you know what I mean? Like it's like, yes, say whatever you want to say. You know. I was waking up to a lot of stuff at this point when we were in season four, because at this point where you and I filmed this episode, I had found out that things were being said about me and our creator that we're not true, and that light bulb went off and it was like, oh, but then that means that the stuff about Danil isn't true, and that means the stuff about Sophia isn't true. And it was this domino effect and it reached its peak when we went to Honey Grove. Right, So this is like the span of time between prom and Honey Grove is when everything went to shoot on our show. But between shooting this episode with you and having this like come to Jesus in this moment where like maybe we did have to have an injury in order to like come together and be God, I'm really sorry, you know. I just I'm crying in the trailer because I heard you um with Jojo just like oh my god, is she you know? And UM and her telling me like, calm down, you're making it a really big you have to calm down. Um. Between that and then when we had the All nine graduation party where we really did come together as a team behind the scenes and like, ah, yeah, this chunk episodes is just so laced with like real life tension, and then like really strong work. We took all the stuff that we couldn't say out loud and just put it in the scene. Here, you guys go, here's the buffet of emotion. Mm hmm. Yeah. It's like we got to take out our frustrations on what was going on behind the scenes on our guest star next week. Oh my god, sweet map Bar when that door knock happens, like sweet things are happening, and then the door and then mm hmm mm hmm. Yeah, like a metaphor. You know, there's so much tender work between two people and that's where we move on. I just I love you. I love you too, don't make I'm proud of us. Well, yeah, it's hard to talk about this. It's hard because it means admitting that, like we weren't good to each other in different ways. We were like conditioned to be competitive or dismissive, or I was just aloof a lot. I was really aloof I think what's part of what's hard about it, though, is unlike a normal life, when you have, you know, sixteen hours of work a day to do with someone, you don't have time to get in a fight. You don't you are conditioned to not bring your personal life, and it can make figuring out your personal life almost impossible because the fear is, well, if we take the lid off this thing, it's going to explode. You can't just like have a fight or an argument like you would with your friend and take three days and then talk about it. It's it's so pressurized. And I think to your point, we finally got to let some of the pressure out and then everything changed because we could really see each other and and not be manipulated into suspicion or assumption anymore. Well, here's here's how you know I love you. Um. When I left One Tree Hill, there was like it's bad. It was really it was bad, and I didn't talk to anybody for a very long time. But I had to put my real together, uh, in order to go audition for other jobs. And so I'm like pregnant putting too together my real And this is the one scene from One Tree Hill that I had on it. This is what This is my most proud work on the show with you m I love it. I love that, yeah said. I remember Paul coming into the house after Peyton like goes in and slams the door, and it's just like, so are you okay? Can we keep going? Like yeah, no, we're great, We're troopers, We're gonna be great. Um. But this whole episode it was strong. I mean I feel like any of our friends would say that about this episode. Lee got to do good stuff, Haley and Nathan got to do good stuff together, chat and where we got to do really good stuff together, Like this was an episode about duos and those are our strongest episodes. Yeah, yeah, I totally agree, And you're right, I mean, what an honorable mention for Lee. It's like they they made him. They just wrote him so weird in the last episode, and I feel like Mouth and who he really is is back in this episode and such a relief. And I love that they essentially through these you know, this episode and the next one, the cliffhanger into prom they let him be ducky. They let him be that guy. And even in the small generous moments, you know, Mouth texting Rachel a picture of him and Brooke and saying we miss you. You know, it's all as it should be. The way he is with her in the closet she's packing, Oh my god. Yes, but also the way she is with you. Brooke and Rachel are such a good love story when she I mean you and her and that like false goodbye before she comes back and hugs you goodbye, so good. It's it's the audiences reminder that Brooke Davis is a great friend. She's a great friend, and she deserves to be put first. I also just love seeing Rachel get vulnerable, you know, even even in the comedic way in which she does it. Well, yeah I did that because I suck, But you're better than she. She has a hard time not cracking a joke in a vulnerable moment like someone else I know, um, but it's so it's raw and it's sweet and it's honest, and I do really love seeing these girls together. There's something about these two who have made mistakes making each other better that feels very, very sweet. There's a lot of sweet duos and then some I'm not so sweet duos, and then you have the unsweetest, the bitterest duo of all in that end scene, and it seems like it's going to be sweet. The misdirect. You know, everyone's getting ready for prom and you're getting your dress and everyone's doing their hair, and it's cutting back and forth and Lucas is tightening his tie and he's putting on his boot near and then you realize it's not Lucas, it's Derek. Don't Don't done, the perfect the perfect polar opposite to you at the river court asking mouth to prom and like being with all the boys and it's like so cute and it's so high school and it's so fun, and then it's like the exact opposite. It's not fun. You know who is fun? Okay, you guys, we have Matt bar god bless uh, but we're just teasing you with him because he's actually going to talk with us about next week's episode, which is season four, episode sixteen. You call it madness, but I call it love. That's so frightening. It's so frightening, But we do love. I R L Sweet Matt bar So we'll see you next week. Hey, thanks for listening. Don't forget to leave us a review. You can also follow us on Instagram at Drama Queens O t H. Or email us at Drama Queens at I heart radio dot com. See you next time. We are all about that high school drama. Girl Drama, Girl, all about them high school queens. We'll take you for a ride in our comic Girl Cheering for the Right, Drama Queens drawl up girl Fashion, but your tough girls. You could sit with us. Girl Drama, Queens, Drama, Queens Drama, Queen's Drama, Drama, Queen's Drama Queens

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Indeed, you're like basically filming out of castle right now, so you're This episode originally aired February one, two thousand seven, A real follow up to Our Valentine's Day Show on the Day from the residue of Nathan's pre prom party has serious repercussions for everyone in Tree Hill. Hayley asks Nathan for a list of all his past sexual conquests. Oh my God, do not ever do that. Rachel is suspended after taking the blame for the exam that she stole with Brooke. Peyton tells Lucas she wants to skip the prom entirely, but he doesn't want to take no for an answer, And finally, Marvin McFadden and Brooke must deal with dating clean teens on pro cuties. This episode was directed by our very own Paul Johansson and he crushed it. Wow prom episode. This is so fun. I love I love the big episodes like this. This one was a huge one. I was so I had so much to say about this episode, and I'm upset that I'm not going to be here for this entire podcast, But I have to like First, Hillary, you are such a good actress the scenes that you did, Like, it was so nice to see Peyton take a turn from being um. You've gone through all the phases of like weepy, and then you were having fun for a while and now it's like you're just get angry and we haven't seen Peyton do that in a way that is so confident and solid. Like I've seen Peyton throw a fit before, I don't know that I've seen Peyton just kind of come into her a confidence in her own of like everything is shifted and you put everything emotionally into place. Um, with how you felt about what Brooke and Nathan did and you're like, okay, that's it. I know exactly where I stand right now, and I'm it was just so solid and the and then the emotional turn that you had with Brooke in the yard, um, it was just like talking about your mom. Mom. It made me cry and I'm driving and I was like, stop crying, I'm driving. It was really really good. So well that well, thanks. I think that we were all really lucky that in this big episode we had Paul directing, because Paul knew us man, Paul knew the ship that was going on in real life. He knew all the stuff our characters that had to do before, you know, And I think everyone turned in really good performances this episode. And so while we have you, I want to talk about yours because it is so um. It makes that like your throat burn when you think about asking your partner to make a sex list, like oh my god, oh my god. Basically we're doing the thing that you do in horror films and were like, Haley, don't come in the hou and she's so pregnant and hormonal. But it's so the writing I thought was fully areas on this one. The fact that I got to be so irrational and just out of control, I didn't find it irrational at all. You totally made it. It made sense to me. Oh thanks, Yeah, that was really fun. I was surprid that was another this episode I had a lot of I remembered being in the rooms. This is the episode I slapped Rachel too, right or was that the no? That was the last one? Remember, yes, that was the last one. It was the last one, right, Okay, so that one I wasn't here for you and James have such great comedy in this, and it's very Katherine hepp Burn, Spencer Tracy. It's fast. It's like try to keep up, you know, that's Hayley's energy. It's like, no, do what I asked you to do, but also don't do what I asked you to do, and you two are getting to do funny stuff maybe for the first time, Like, you guys have been very sweet together. You've had fights, you've been vulnerable and emotional, but you're being funny together. I was glad that they didn't write Hayley's reaction to this as like another big, overwhelming, sad, sulky like, you know, how could you do this? I don't know who? I like, I just didn't want to mope. I was so happy that she was just kind of a grown up about it, like, wow, Wow, it's not that you're mad that he made the tape. It's that you're mad that he still light. Yeah, do you use it? It's so horrible. It's so horrible, and the natural fear because don't forget in the prior episode, when everyone's yelling, oh my god, Nathan and Peyton made a sex tape. Peyton comes running screaming turn it off, turn it off. Haley witnesses all of this. So Haley turns and looks at her husband and goes, oh, old, Nathan video taped every time he had sex with a girl, Like that camcorder was set up in his bedroom. It was like to go get it. It was there, it was there, and why was it already there well, So essentially the discovery of oh, you have this whole other life, this whole other series of proclivities, these fantasies that I know nothing about, that can be really hard. I remember years and years ago. I don't know what it is now, but when I think when we were doing the show, it might have even come up because of this episode. There was like a big piece that got published about how like over of people feel like if their partner has a secret porn habit that is cheating, Like that's a really intense thing to find out that someone has a whole sex life that has nothing to do with you. And I loved that we were able to talk about the reality of how complicated it is to figure out what the person you love likes that has nothing to do with you. But we did it in a funny way. It's like it gave people permission to have the conversation. But to your point, Joy, it wasn't Moby, it wasn't like hitting us over the head with another dramatic thing, and I loved it. I also have to say something about this tape. I have to say something. Chilly and I talked about this last so upset about this because this is actually this is really fed up. And look, I get that the point was that Brooke essentially was going to be told like you betrayed me too, with the Peyton and Lucas of it all, and and their whole thing is this was one drunk night and you had a full emotional affair, and you lied to me and you snuck around behind my back. Each person decides why the other person is the wrong one. But I remember how upset I was when we got this script, and I was like, I'm not going to do this, like this is so unforgivable, and they gave me this whole thing about no, no, no. At the opening of four fifteen, Peyton is on a tear. Nathan is doing body oots off Bevin. They get in a big screaming fight and she dumps him, and then she comes to Brook and Brooke is wasted and having a good time and says, you don't you hate Nathan. He's mean to you. I have I know what you need. Take two of these and call me in the morning. And she yanks over to like hot guys and like shows them to Peyton, and Peyton looks at her and goes, I'm not like you, I'm not a two bit in front of everyone and walks away. And so when Brooke sits down with Nathan and he says, Peyton broke up with me, she says, Peyton just like I don't remember what it was, but it was essentially like she just said the meanest thing anyone's ever said to me. And he looked at her and was like want to get back at her, And it was like it was like a thing that they made a decision on. And for me, when the episode aired and I saw that they had cut that out, I was like, listen, you don't. Everybody's in the wrong here. But when you take away the like core wound context that when your best friend has said the merest thing like at fifteen that you think anyone can say to you, I was like, oh my god, I sobbed. When I sob, you know what, You're right, because what it turned into was kind of gross and creepy, Nathan being like you were you were just drunk enough. It was like like him taking advantage of a drunk girl. And even further, it says it when you get into the bedroom, he's like, you need another drink? Like what are we doing here? Exactly, and it went from being to two kids. We've talked so much about how in like all these ways Nathan and Brooke are really similar and like their friendship can be this great respite for each other, and and you could have seen why these two made this really bad decision in the in the versions of themselves they were two years ago, and then both tried to pretend it never happened and never talked about it again, and like Brooke even says, like, I kind of like I was really drunk. I kind of wanted it to be a bad dream, which is so sad. And it goes from being like, oh, that was the worst versions of us and now we're better versions of us to just like her in particular, being the bad guy, like she really gets blamed, and I just felt like it was so cruel, Like I don't know, it made me feel very defensive of her, which is probably an insane thing to say because she's not an actual person, but she feels like, yeah, but that you went through seasons and seasons after seasons, the episodes of episodes after that, functioning in a certain way believing that Brooke just did that just for no reasons. Yeah, it just affects me that you look at at your performance and who Brooke has been over the last like two seasons. Yeah, yeah, yeah, and it and there, and there was to be the tie in with Peyton calling her that to Peyton putting it on her dress, and it was like it was a whole thing like this, this like mortal wound. And they took it away, but they didn't take away you dumping him, And I was like, that's really stub like it gives him an excuse, but not her exactly. And I didn't because the excuse that Haley and Peyton get the whole time is it didn't mean anything. It didn't mean anything. It didn't mean anything, which those are just like dumb empty words. If it instead had been like, no, you were being a bitch that night, like trying to get back at you, and I feel really horrible about it. Yeah, you were awful to both of us. We did something regrettable, and because we regretted it, we buried it. Like, yeah, I could have been a more interesting conversation. Anytime someone tells me it didn't mean anything, I'm like, do me more, Like how many soapb obbaras have you watched? You loser. Yeah, exactly. This is one of the things that happens a lot with TV. If that's different from film, I think is that you know, there's there's people in an office who are not artists, and then there's writers UM. And the writers are in TV are preoccupied with the next episode and everything, and you know, they're all often just trying to piece mail things together if something doesn't make sense, or if an episodes too long or whatever, and so it's everyone except the people responsible for those characters in the room making creative decisions about the characters. And it's really frustrating it. It happens all the time in UM, in TV, and uh, there's nothing that really actors can do about it. You just have to show up and trust that you know, the people who are working with the office people really have your back, and sometimes they just they just can't because they're too distractive of too many other things, or maybe they don't care. I don't know. It can be tough or you have to go um what you said, you remember filming this episode, you had a really really nice scene with Chad in the kitchen. Do you remember that one I just watched like an hour ago. What happened, what happened in the kitchen, But you're like, you know, talking about Peyton's ex boyfriend in the video and Nathan says or Lucas says, well, Nathan's not like her ex boyfriend either. You know. She said, like, don't be like Peyton's ex boyfriend. You're encouraging to go to Peyton, show up for her and don't be like her ex boyfriend. And he's like, niced to Nathan because he's not like her ex boyfriend either. Yeah, you two had such a good chemistry in that scene and Lucas is being Lucas bounced and back and forth between Brook and Payton again. Yeah, you're the person that lets the audience see him like for the good Boy. I always miss seeing Haley and Lucas on camera because we started the show that way. It was so much Lucas and so whenever we get to see them together again, and I even you know, I search out at at an event um recently, and um, it just it does. It's like, no matter how much time goes by, no matter what, it just feels like you've been through so much together. It's family. It's like you just it's a comfort level and it was like, man, we could easily be walking down the street, um down Front Street right now again. You know, it's it's great. I love I love Lucas and healing. I think it's also nice to see, you know, Nathan's taking a lot of responsibility going on his apology tour, and it's nice to see their brotherly relationship with Lucas kind of following Nathan around trying to keep everyone calm in the wake of the crisis. Like I didn't even realize that that Lucas was doing, but you know, it's like a nice seesaw. It's in a way, they're like, let's divide and conquer, and so they're sort of like rotating around each other trying to solve this problem the brand. Yeah, and I really enjoyed that. I enjoyed, you know, seeing Nathan take it on the chin and be the best version of himself. And I appreciated that Lucas was reminding everyone who their friends really are. You know. He he does it for Brooke, and he does it for Haley, and he does it for Peyton. He says to Peyton. Look, in a way, Lucas is the only person in this episode, by the way who says, yeah, they did something dumb years ago when they were drunk. We did this thing for a long time behind her back, Peyton, you know, and he acknowledges it for the first time and she, granted, isn't ready to hear it, but it's it's kind of impressive. And and and he uses that reality of look, this is what we did, and we did it for a long time, and it's this is the reality now, and and he and then he says, you're better than this. My take on Lucas is that he's so pumped that he's not at the center of this. Also that for so long he was the dip and dump stuff with multiple girls, you know, just like, hey man, this is my opportunity to like clean the slate. Oh my god, it's but if we all give each other's mistakes that Yeah, he's just standing in the middle of the hurricane, just watching the women in his life, his mother, Hayley Brook, everybody's just and and he's just taking it, taking it on the chin, trying to handle everybody. Yeah, so funny. Yeah, and he does. He really does take it on the chain because less we forget when him and when Lucas and Nathan have their scene. Oh, Nate apologizes and and Lucas says something about, you know, I just don't ever want to see a tape of you in Peyton. Nathan just takes a breath and goes, well, never will because Haley destroyed all the tapes in the house. And I was like, oh my god, Like he just goes ahead and says, don't worry about it, man, And it's so that was my only confirmation that that existed. Even I was like, what, there's tapes, I know. I was like, this is really horrible. And I don't know if maybe we were talking about this because we were in the era of all those reality girls having their sex tapes come out. I don't know why this was such a big deal, but God, when he just said that, When Nathan says that to Lucas was such a straight face in the kitchen, I almost fainted. Yeah, I was like, but also I have a very strong appreciation for a singular tape that can be destroyed, do you know what I mean? In the age of the Internet and in the age of like, you know, people downloading things or sending them digitally, like having a tape that you can rip the physical film Burn and Destroy. What a treat I missed the good old days. Yeah, my god, I I just want to see Haley with a hammer, just like. That's it. I know that I want to see Haley with a lighter and a barbecue, like just lighter fluid that's on a webber grill outside and burn it, Angelo Bassett. It would have been so so, so so funny. It would have worked too well. I gotta go. I love you guys. Yeah, well, thanks for joining us, have fun in the castle. Great performances in this episode, both of you. Well, same, thank you. Yeah. It's so yeah, there's a lot of like, there's just a lot of nuance that I didn't catch the first time around. And I'm I'm loving it, and I'm also a little uncomfortable. Yeah, because we're finding out things that on ourselves, our characters that we didn't know. That's what it is. It's it feels like it honestly feels like exactly like what Brooke is experiencing. That you did something dumb and drunk at a party and you don't remember until people start reminding you, and then the pieces come back together. You know, I forgot about Peyton and Nathan and nipple rings and sex tapes and showers together, like all of it has been wiped from my memory because you know, for the last couple of years it's Luke Luke, Luke, Luke, Luke, Luke luke. Um. The reminder is brutal. It is so brutal, and I think it can be really hard, especially when something from so far in your past comes up and and you know, Lucas says it. He says, she's acting like it just happened. Haley has the counter, Well, it did just happen to her, you know, she just found out about it. But for Brooke and Nathan, like I would bet you they've both literally forgotten that this ever happened. Now it's back to bite them in the ass and what a total nightmare. Yeah, but right there, but also a great platform for some comedy because you and I, as we watched Hailey be like, I want the list, guys. So Foria and I are sitting here to sidebar texted each other about like you don't want the list. You don't want the list. You think we want that list. It's a real bad idea. You don't want the list. And if I mean there's one, you shouldn't keep a list. Don't make a list. It's a recipe for don't make a list for us to find in your drawers or oh my god, you don't want that list. No. No. I've had a couple of situations where I have um learned after the fact that uh, I have engaged with someone who has been with my partner, And it makes me happy that I don't know, because when I interact with them, I'm a cool girl. You know, I'm not being territorial or weird. I'm just being fun cool. And so then when I find out later, I'm like, Okay, fine, you know, I don't want to know before. Knowing before makes it worse because then you're not really yourself when you meet that person. Yes, it's just not possible. Yeah, I don't know. I don't want people to keep secrets from me. But I also I'm like, I don't think I need to know. Like I I remember finding out that um, a girl who had been so awful to one of my best guy friends in a relationship that they were in like tortured this sweet boy. Yeah. Years later, I was dating someone and found out he had also dated this girl, and I almost broke up with him over it, like I couldn't. It made it made you think his taste was bad in my head in a way that I was like, I don't think I can get over this, and yeah, I just was like I don't. I don't know how to understand this about you. And I was like, man, I just wish i'd never known this. I don't want to know this. There's well, here's the deal. There's a fine line between knowing who your person has had significant relationships with, Like I can look at the people that my husband has dated and been like, those are all really talented, ambitious, smart women, Like I feel like I am in good company, and and then also like I have dated people who only ever dated trollops. You know, I did not feel like I was in good company. And so I think knowing what your person's history is in terms of how they respect women, what they're attracted to, that can be helpful. I don't need to know every person on the list. No, I don't want it. I don't want it. Has it's almost air to just assume it's everyone right, just to be like, it's actually a great strategy. You've kissed everyone, and I'm the last one. I'm I'm the one that made you stop. Oh my god, it's amazing. Yeah, feather in our caps, Sophia, we dime into it. Look at us, look at us. We broke up. We also did the damn thing in this episode, unfortunately to each other. I still am sweaty about this. No, it's okay. We just we were in it, like it was such a real fight. And and I know we've talked a little bit about you know, stunts some things, but it's choreography and you're also in the moment. And yeah, there was one moment where we were each we were facing each other, and like we were each supposed to go left. I was supposed to have I remember this so clearly because I was really upset that I'd hurt you. I was supposed to be holding your down, and when we landed, I could only get your um your left hand so on my right hand side down and that was bad for you because you had you had nothing to do with your other hand. You couldn't like hit me. It was like I had to hold both hands so that you could struggle against them, and I was bringing my arm across to go and get your other hand right as you leaned forward and I cracked you in the head. And I don't know if that's how you remember it, but I remember the crack and being like it was scary. It was, well it was. I remember thinking like, wow, that was really loud, and then thinking was it only loud because it was in my head? And then I saw your face and like looked around and everyone's eyes were big and mouths were open, and I was like, oh, everybody heard that, and we like stopped for a minute. But in my head, yeah, to your point, Like my memory is that like we were both supposed to go left, and like, well, you're left in my left, but I went right, and it just yeah, it was it was a collision of every proportions. Well, we didn't have rehearsal, you know, like we had a little bit of rehearsal, but we're shooting outside, we're on location, we're fighting daylight. It is a hugely emotional scene and there's two of them back to back because we had to do I had totally forgotten about the scene where comes to Peyton's door and they have the fight at the door and then Brooke leaves before she comes back to Egg the house so we had two huge emotional scenes scenes. Yeah, and there's no time to just like five six, seven eight. You know. That's no. They didn't coordinate with us as well as they should, I think, especially because we were four years in. They were like, they're professionals, Sophan, Hillary, they they're great. You know. We were always the ones who'd say like, yeah, we can do it, just shows where he used to be, will make it work. That was always our thing, like we're runn out of time, we'll make it work. And then you realize, oh, yeah, for some stuff, we should probably have choreography. But the thing that struck me about it because it's such a beautiful scene between us, and I guess part of the reason I'm but hurt about them taking that beginning out is because, in different ways, each of these girls has this mortal wound, and they get expressed with different terms. Brooks is a criticism of of who she is. Certainly you know, judgment and sexism and all those things, you know, coming from my end of it, and and what I saw in this scene watching it back is that you got to tell me the worst thing I've ever said to you. And I think that the wound I feel for Broke is that she didn't get to express, like you said one of the worst things like a person could say to me like you you treated me like everybody else. And the reason it the thing that really sticks out to me, obviously, Peyton's wound, the mother thing is the biggest and the baddest and the worst. And what it illuminated for me in our fight and these girls who have been there for each other since they were so little, is that they both have actually the same core wound. It's abandonment, and they've they're the ones who have shown up for each other forever, and in this moment, they've abandoned each other. And and what Peyton voices to Brooke is you abandoned me. And Broke hast to see that the thing she has felt that Peyton did to her is exactly what she's done to Peyton, and it took my breath away seeing it as an adult and really seeing the subtext of the conversation between us, I was like, Oh, these girls have held like they used to come together to comfort each other from this wound, and now they're stabbing each other. And it it really gutted me. It really hurt when I heard Brooks say you win, you win. You know, you got the boy, you got the dress, you got everything that you wanted. Um, because for so long Peyton was trying to centerr brook and be like, just be with them, be happy. I'm gonna keep my secret as long as you're happy, you know, And that that was like a really hard thing to hear because Peyton doesn't feel like it's a win, you know, like it doesn't feel like a win, and so to have the person you love be like fine. Um. The other thing that really strikes me that I didn't figure out till adulthood, but that is definitely on display in the scene is that we can love a lot of people like you and I love a lot of people. We don't give a lot of people permission to hurt us. That's the next level. And I personally have very few people in my life who I will let in enough to hurt me, because I'm so conditioned to be like, you know what, you're probably gonna have at some point. So we're just gonna we're gonna pump the brakes right here. We'll stay at love. Love feels fun. Um. Brooke and Peyton are the only people who can hurt each other. Lucas can't hurt them, He's already done it to both of them. Nathan can't hurt them, you know, like their parents can't hurt them. They're the only people that they care enough about to give them that power. Yes, And I think that's why the U win hurts so much, because what Brooke is really saying is you were the one person I trusted and you broke it. So now you're getting all the stuff everybody builds to have one person and I have no one. Like That's what Brooke is saying to Peyton. You have someone who loves you, like I'm out here trying to date. I'm out here trying to find a boyfriend in a prom date. I got dumped because you to like make up for the gaping hole in my heart that you have left, and you've got somebody in it. You win, and it is Oh, it's so sad, these two little girls. It was a really well written scene, and I think it was kind of scary for a lot of our crew members to watch us film it because we had so much going on behind the scenes that it was that weird line of like, what's the subtext here? Are these girls really fighting because they're both putting in pretty good performances right now, like they're they're going for it um. And I remember all the crew members afterwards coming up to us being like, are you guys okay? Like, are you okay? Yeah? And that was the first time I think that we'd put in performances where people that loved us and knew us were just like, hey, are you guys, Like do you need something? Like can we take care of you somehow? Because this was intense. It was really intense. It was really intense well, and if I may, and this was also at a point where we were really getting with so hard behind the scenes that it changed our actual friendship. Yes, like m m, it makes me want to cry, Like we didn't know that. But this was in this was in a moment where we you had always been much like Brooke and Peyton, like when I got to Wilmington's and we've talked about this, like you were my person, And this was in an era where we were all being pitted against each other. And I think there was like under the scene, there was real pain of I don't know if you care about me as much as I care about you. And I see it in with directions and I know in fact it went like all the way around the merry ground of all of us girls. We were so scared because of the things that were being whispered in all of our ears. And I think it's you know, I think it's really part of it's part of what our characters are going through. It's part of what we were going through, and it it's not something much like Brooke and Peyton. We didn't get any help because we didn't have an adult in the room. It took us learning lessons as young women and being able to bring those back to each other eventually and to realize it was never you and it was never me. It was the grown ups that we're supposed to take care of us wanted us to be enemies. And I think all of that happening and being good girls who came to work and did good work and really helped the crew, I think it's part of why it feels so emotional because nobody was allowed to express anything. I went home. Here's my admission, um, after the whole like fight scene in the next episode, so not this fight scene. This fight scene left me feeling really rattled. UM, and I was I was unsure, like how to be around you because I had hurt you, but I know that we'd also done this like work together that um was important and that I loved, but it was layered with like hurt physical and like you know, figurative UM. When we shot the next episode and it's after they fight Psycho Deeric and you and I are seated on the front porch like all bloody, and we've got the blankets around us and we were taking vodka shots from a water bottle together. I went home and cried after that. I did too, because I was like, it's gonna work. It's gonna work. Like that was like the moment where I was like, oh, we're good, like to get other, were a good team um, and I felt like, um, I feel like I could make the choice to hang out with you or too, just like be with you in a way where I didn't have to ask permission from anyone anymore because we've just done this thing that was really cool together. Yeah, that was one when I cried me too. Oh my god, I can't believe it. Yeah, I am it did it it Weirdly, I think being in such an intense situation together and coming together like it mirrored something we'd had that in our real lives and we both like I saw it. Yeah, it was the first time where I thought, if we can have this. I don't know if all the other stuff that I know is being fed in both directions here, I don't know if that's real. This feels really real. What almost made it didn't It didn't even matter, you know what I mean? Like it's like, yes, say whatever you want to say. You know. I was waking up to a lot of stuff at this point when we were in season four, because at this point where you and I filmed this episode, I had found out that things were being said about me and our creator that we're not true, and that light bulb went off and it was like, oh, but then that means that the stuff about Danil isn't true, and that means the stuff about Sophia isn't true. And it was this domino effect and it reached its peak when we went to Honey Grove. Right, So this is like the span of time between prom and Honey Grove is when everything went to shoot on our show. But between shooting this episode with you and having this like come to Jesus in this moment where like maybe we did have to have an injury in order to like come together and be God, I'm really sorry, you know. I just I'm crying in the trailer because I heard you um with Jojo just like oh my god, is she you know? And UM and her telling me like, calm down, you're making it a really big you have to calm down. Um. Between that and then when we had the All nine graduation party where we really did come together as a team behind the scenes and like, ah, yeah, this chunk episodes is just so laced with like real life tension, and then like really strong work. We took all the stuff that we couldn't say out loud and just put it in the scene. Here, you guys go, here's the buffet of emotion. Mm hmm. Yeah. It's like we got to take out our frustrations on what was going on behind the scenes on our guest star next week. Oh my god, sweet map Bar when that door knock happens, like sweet things are happening, and then the door and then mm hmm mm hmm. Yeah, like a metaphor. You know, there's so much tender work between two people and that's where we move on. I just I love you. I love you too, don't make I'm proud of us. Well, yeah, it's hard to talk about this. It's hard because it means admitting that, like we weren't good to each other in different ways. We were like conditioned to be competitive or dismissive, or I was just aloof a lot. I was really aloof I think what's part of what's hard about it, though, is unlike a normal life, when you have, you know, sixteen hours of work a day to do with someone, you don't have time to get in a fight. You don't you are conditioned to not bring your personal life, and it can make figuring out your personal life almost impossible because the fear is, well, if we take the lid off this thing, it's going to explode. You can't just like have a fight or an argument like you would with your friend and take three days and then talk about it. It's it's so pressurized. And I think to your point, we finally got to let some of the pressure out and then everything changed because we could really see each other and and not be manipulated into suspicion or assumption anymore. Well, here's here's how you know I love you. Um. When I left One Tree Hill, there was like it's bad. It was really it was bad, and I didn't talk to anybody for a very long time. But I had to put my real together, uh, in order to go audition for other jobs. And so I'm like pregnant putting too together my real And this is the one scene from One Tree Hill that I had on it. This is what This is my most proud work on the show with you m I love it. I love that, yeah said. I remember Paul coming into the house after Peyton like goes in and slams the door, and it's just like, so are you okay? Can we keep going? Like yeah, no, we're great, We're troopers, We're gonna be great. Um. But this whole episode it was strong. I mean I feel like any of our friends would say that about this episode. Lee got to do good stuff, Haley and Nathan got to do good stuff together, chat and where we got to do really good stuff together, Like this was an episode about duos and those are our strongest episodes. Yeah, yeah, I totally agree, And you're right, I mean, what an honorable mention for Lee. It's like they they made him. They just wrote him so weird in the last episode, and I feel like Mouth and who he really is is back in this episode and such a relief. And I love that they essentially through these you know, this episode and the next one, the cliffhanger into prom they let him be ducky. They let him be that guy. And even in the small generous moments, you know, Mouth texting Rachel a picture of him and Brooke and saying we miss you. You know, it's all as it should be. The way he is with her in the closet she's packing, Oh my god. Yes, but also the way she is with you. Brooke and Rachel are such a good love story when she I mean you and her and that like false goodbye before she comes back and hugs you goodbye, so good. It's it's the audiences reminder that Brooke Davis is a great friend. She's a great friend, and she deserves to be put first. I also just love seeing Rachel get vulnerable, you know, even even in the comedic way in which she does it. Well, yeah I did that because I suck, But you're better than she. She has a hard time not cracking a joke in a vulnerable moment like someone else I know, um, but it's so it's raw and it's sweet and it's honest, and I do really love seeing these girls together. There's something about these two who have made mistakes making each other better that feels very, very sweet. There's a lot of sweet duos and then some I'm not so sweet duos, and then you have the unsweetest, the bitterest duo of all in that end scene, and it seems like it's going to be sweet. The misdirect. You know, everyone's getting ready for prom and you're getting your dress and everyone's doing their hair, and it's cutting back and forth and Lucas is tightening his tie and he's putting on his boot near and then you realize it's not Lucas, it's Derek. Don't Don't done, the perfect the perfect polar opposite to you at the river court asking mouth to prom and like being with all the boys and it's like so cute and it's so high school and it's so fun, and then it's like the exact opposite. It's not fun. You know who is fun? Okay, you guys, we have Matt bar god bless uh, but we're just teasing you with him because he's actually going to talk with us about next week's episode, which is season four, episode sixteen. You call it madness, but I call it love. That's so frightening. It's so frightening, But we do love. I R L Sweet Matt bar So we'll see you next week. Hey, thanks for listening. Don't forget to leave us a review. You can also follow us on Instagram at Drama Queens O t H. Or email us at Drama Queens at I heart radio dot com. See you next time. We are all about that high school drama. Girl Drama, Girl, all about them high school queens. We'll take you for a ride in our comic Girl Cheering for the Right, Drama Queens drawl up girl Fashion, but your tough girls. You could sit with us. Girl Drama, Queens, Drama, Queens Drama, Queen's Drama, Drama, Queen's Drama Queens