

Episode 6: Europe
Sometimes the only way forward is to leave everything behind. Matt and Lauren travel to Europe hoping distance might help them breathe again. But grief has a way of following you - even to the other side of the world.

Episode 5: Cracking Open
Grief doesn’t always look the way people expect. For Matt, the months after Mackenzie’s death spiral into anxiety, therapy sessions, and a drink-driving charge that forces him to confront parts of himself he’d been avoiding for years. Sometimes the hardest moments are the ones that force you to f…

Episode 4: Humour and Heartbreak
Is it possible to laugh again without betraying your grief? Less than two weeks after Mackenzie’s death, Matt finds himself filming a survival show teaser in the Marlborough Sounds with comedian Tom Sainsbury. It’s surreal. It’s uncomfortable. And somehow… it’s also the first time he laughs again.

Episode 3: The Void
What do you do with love when there’s no one left to give it to? After the hospital, Matt and Lauren bring Mackenzie home and spend a week doing things no new parents expect to do - taking her to the beach, playing her music, and letting her experience the places and people who loved her. Eventua…

Episode 2: Who I Was Before You
Before the hospital. Before Mackenzie. Before everything changed. Matt looks back at the relationships, mistakes, and chaotic moments that shaped the person he was before becoming a father. At the time it felt like randomness. Looking back, it almost feels like preparation.

Episode 1: The Day Everything Changed
The moment that was meant to be the happiest day of their lives becomes something else entirely. Matt and Lauren arrive at the hospital expecting to meet their daughter, Mackenzie. Instead, they receive the news that will change everything. Through raw recordings and present-day reflection, Matt …

Confronted - coming soon
Confronted is an eight-episode narrative podcast that begins with the stillbirth of Matt Earle and Lauren’s daughter, Mackenzie, and follows the 18 months that come after - using real recordings captured in the moment. Blending past and present, Matt and his best friend Josh revisit past relations…