Teresa Giudice joins Bill and Giuliana to talk about the years of her life viewers only saw in pieces. While writing her new memoir, The Queen of New Jersey, she went back and watched herself on every episode of The Real Housewives of New Jersey…and had a lot to say about what was happening off camera.

She opens up about Joe’s deportation, the anger she carried afterward, why she reached out to her brother, and why this year has been especially hard for her family. Plus, the part of the table flip that still bothers her. After nearly 20 years of people watching her fight, Teresa says she wants something different now.