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Okay, so something's going on with Carla and I want to tell you, but you can't get weird about it?

Okay, so something's going on with Carla and I want to tell you, but you can't get weird about it?

Now, what makes you think i'd get weird. I'm not gonna be jealous or anything.

Now, what makes you think i'd get weird. I'm not gonna be jealous or anything.

We're past that, Seriously, Claire, I don't think you're gonna be jealous.

We're past that, Seriously, Claire, I don't think you're gonna be jealous.

I just think you're gonna be.

I just think you're gonna be.

What judgmental grace?

What judgmental grace?

Are you saying?

Are you saying?

You're not judgmental? Maybe, but it comes from a place of caring.

You're not judgmental? Maybe, but it comes from a place of caring.

Well.

Well.

I can't remember if I told you this, but I'm Carlo's first girlfriend.

I can't remember if I told you this, but I'm Carlo's first girlfriend.

You definitely did not tell me that.

You definitely did not tell me that.

Yeah.

Yeah.

See, that's exactly what I'm talking about.

See, that's exactly what I'm talking about.

And I thought I felt fine about it until this thing happened the other day.

And I thought I felt fine about it until this thing happened the other day.

The other morning, we're like both getting ready for work.

The other morning, we're like both getting ready for work.

And fuck Jesus, I'm sorry, but I'm so late. I'm just gonna is it okay?

And fuck Jesus, I'm sorry, but I'm so late. I'm just gonna is it okay?

If I just go?

If I just go?

Sure?

Sure?

Sure, that's fine.

Sure, that's fine.

Shit, there's glass everywhere too. I'm sorry, I'll grab the broom.

Shit, there's glass everywhere too. I'm sorry, I'll grab the broom.

Sorry, no, you go, you go, I'll clean this.

Sorry, no, you go, you go, I'll clean this.

Up, don't worry, Okay, thanks, babe. I'm sorry. I just I really gotta go?

Up, don't worry, Okay, thanks, babe. I'm sorry. I just I really gotta go?

Is it you?

Is it you?

So Carla thinks her dead ex boyfriend broke your flower jar?

So Carla thinks her dead ex boyfriend broke your flower jar?

Yeah? Basically?

Yeah? Basically?

Okay, Wow, you told me that she had a dead ex.

Okay, Wow, you told me that she had a dead ex.

You didn't tell me that it was a guy. Why does it matter? Come on?

You didn't tell me that it was a guy. Why does it matter? Come on?

Okay, maybe it matters a little, But.

Okay, maybe it matters a little, But.

I think the other thing that matters more, maybe is he only died three months before we met.

I think the other thing that matters more, maybe is he only died three months before we met.

What Why would you not tell me that?

What Why would you not tell me that?

Because I really liked her and I knew you'd think it was weird.

Because I really liked her and I knew you'd think it was weird.

Everything makes so much sense now, Like what like the time she left the party crying. I thought she was having like a bad trip or something. Oh yeah, and how she never wants to talk to me. I thought she was just intimidated because I'm so sexy and we used to be together.

Everything makes so much sense now, Like what like the time she left the party crying. I thought she was having like a bad trip or something. Oh yeah, and how she never wants to talk to me. I thought she was just intimidated because I'm so sexy and we used to be together.

Okay, be serious, but.

Okay, be serious, but.

Yeah, she really doesn't talk to people much these days.

Yeah, she really doesn't talk to people much these days.

How do you deal with that?

How do you deal with that?

Weren't you scared that she wouldn't be ready to take a jump into something new?

Weren't you scared that she wouldn't be ready to take a jump into something new?

I mean, y'all lived together. Yeah, I don't know.

I mean, y'all lived together. Yeah, I don't know.

I mean I didn't think about it like that.

I mean I didn't think about it like that.

She just needed someone and I wanted to be that someone. And now I feel like I'm in way too deep with someone who is stuck in the past thinking about this guy that she was supposed to get married to and like have babies with.

She just needed someone and I wanted to be that someone. And now I feel like I'm in way too deep with someone who is stuck in the past thinking about this guy that she was supposed to get married to and like have babies with.

That's a lot, but she seems like she's worth it to you.

That's a lot, but she seems like she's worth it to you.

She is, But now things are getting weird, like she wants to try and contact his ghost or something, and I feel like I have to go along with it.

She is, But now things are getting weird, like she wants to try and contact his ghost or something, and I feel like I have to go along with it.

Well, like a full on sealance.

Well, like a full on sealance.

Yeah, Luigi board and everything. It's creepy, but like, how do I say? No, Hey, babe, you all set up in there?

Yeah, Luigi board and everything. It's creepy, but like, how do I say? No, Hey, babe, you all set up in there?

Yeah?

Yeah?

Does this look right to you?

Does this look right to you?

Uh? Yeah, it looks like the movies. The other one who knows how Ouiji boards work?

Uh? Yeah, it looks like the movies. The other one who knows how Ouiji boards work?

It's pretty simple.

It's pretty simple.

Sit down here, okay, and then we both place our hands.

Sit down here, okay, and then we both place our hands.

On the planchette. The planchette, Yes, that's what it's called. And then we say hello? Wait do I say hello?

On the planchette. The planchette, Yes, that's what it's called. And then we say hello? Wait do I say hello?

I don't know. Maybe he wants to talk to you too.

I don't know. Maybe he wants to talk to you too.

Uh.

Uh.

I think you have to introduce us at least. Then.

I think you have to introduce us at least. Then.

All right, Kareem, are you there?

All right, Kareem, are you there?

Are you moving it?

Are you moving it?

No, that just means it's working. Now put your hands back. You need two people for it to work. Okay, all right, Kareem.

No, that just means it's working. Now put your hands back. You need two people for it to work. Okay, all right, Kareem.

Are you there? Yes? Oh my god?

Are you there? Yes? Oh my god?

He says yes. What are you okay, Kareem? Yes, yes, have you been watching me? He's hesitating. Are you comfortable with Grace being here?

He says yes. What are you okay, Kareem? Yes, yes, have you been watching me? He's hesitating. Are you comfortable with Grace being here?

What he says?

What he says?

Yes, Look.

Yes, Look.

Caream, I know I've kept things from you. Are you angry with me?

Caream, I know I've kept things from you. Are you angry with me?

It's not moving?

It's not moving?

Why are you looking at me like that?

Why are you looking at me like that?

I just I don't know if this was the right thing to do.

I just I don't know if this was the right thing to do.

Listen.

Listen.

I really want to help you and be supportive, but some of this is a little hard to hear.

I really want to help you and be supportive, but some of this is a little hard to hear.

It's just my one chance to talk to him again, and I don't even know if it's real.

It's just my one chance to talk to him again, and I don't even know if it's real.

When you asked if he's mad at you, do you mean like because you're with me, because you're queer?

When you asked if he's mad at you, do you mean like because you're with me, because you're queer?

No?

No?

No, I just meant that you're not looking at me.

No, I just meant that you're not looking at me.

No.

No.

I just met being with someone else this soon, right, But I mean, I.

I just met being with someone else this soon, right, But I mean, I.

Can't believe I'm letting all this get me worked up.

Can't believe I'm letting all this get me worked up.

What do you mean all this?

What do you mean all this?

You know what I mean? No, please tell me for gray sake.

You know what I mean? No, please tell me for gray sake.

Carlos, We're having a seance with Aluigi board in our living room so that we can what talk to your ex boyfriend and see if we have is a pro or not. I thought you were sure about.

Carlos, We're having a seance with Aluigi board in our living room so that we can what talk to your ex boyfriend and see if we have is a pro or not. I thought you were sure about.

Me this isn't about you.

Me this isn't about you.

It is when you're literally asking him questions about me.

It is when you're literally asking him questions about me.

You know what, fuck this?

You know what, fuck this?

It was a bad idea. What I should have known. You couldn't handle it.

It was a bad idea. What I should have known. You couldn't handle it.

Okay, that's not fair.

Okay, that's not fair.

I can't talk about this right now.

I can't talk about this right now.

I love you, but I'm going to my mom's Carla, Carla.

I love you, but I'm going to my mom's Carla, Carla.

I'll talk to you tomorrow.

I'll talk to you tomorrow.

Okay, babe, check it out.

Okay, babe, check it out.

Check what a.

Check what a.

You've got a night vision camera, an electronic voice phenomena reader, and an EMF reader, which is it reads a like tro magnetic fields or like disturbances in them, which means a paranormal presence.

You've got a night vision camera, an electronic voice phenomena reader, and an EMF reader, which is it reads a like tro magnetic fields or like disturbances in them, which means a paranormal presence.

Look, I can't tell if you're being real with me, and I just think we should stop talking about this stuff.

Look, I can't tell if you're being real with me, and I just think we should stop talking about this stuff.

No, no, I'm not making fun, I swear. I mean, I'm sorry. I did a bunch of research and this stuff is actually pretty interesting.

No, no, I'm not making fun, I swear. I mean, I'm sorry. I did a bunch of research and this stuff is actually pretty interesting.

Seriously, okay, I mean, I don't know what happens after we die.

Seriously, okay, I mean, I don't know what happens after we die.

You know, who's to say that our consciousness doesn't hang around on Earth for a little while, or like become a tree or a bird.

You know, who's to say that our consciousness doesn't hang around on Earth for a little while, or like become a tree or a bird.

I feel like you're talking about a serious subject, Like it's not serious. No, No, I think people stay on Earth as ghosts if they have something they need to resolve, maybe because they died too young.

I feel like you're talking about a serious subject, Like it's not serious. No, No, I think people stay on Earth as ghosts if they have something they need to resolve, maybe because they died too young.

Okay, that sounds like something you got from a movie.

Okay, that sounds like something you got from a movie.

Well it just makes sense, like the movie Ghost.

Well it just makes sense, like the movie Ghost.

Okay.

Okay.

I can tell you're actually uncomfortable with this, and art is based on life.

I can tell you're actually uncomfortable with this, and art is based on life.

By the way, all right, maybe I am uncomfortable, but this stuff is heavy.

By the way, all right, maybe I am uncomfortable, but this stuff is heavy.

You're right, it is.

You're right, it is.

But you knew I was going through this and you chose to be with me, babe, of course I did. This is all very real to me, and I'm afraid you're just trying to turn it into.

But you knew I was going through this and you chose to be with me, babe, of course I did. This is all very real to me, and I'm afraid you're just trying to turn it into.

A joke with all this stuff.

A joke with all this stuff.

Honestly.

Honestly.

No, you're right. I don't always say the right thing, but this matters to you. So we are going to see what Kareem has.

No, you're right. I don't always say the right thing, but this matters to you. So we are going to see what Kareem has.

To say to us.

To say to us.

Okay, Okay, let's give it a try.

Okay, Okay, let's give it a try.

So we're just gonna leave it all running. Yeah, that's the idea. We just let it go all night. And then there's this app that sinks up with on my phone.

So we're just gonna leave it all running. Yeah, that's the idea. We just let it go all night. And then there's this app that sinks up with on my phone.

So if there are weird noises or electron aeromagnetic disturbances, well.

So if there are weird noises or electron aeromagnetic disturbances, well.

No, it's probably just gonna be.

No, it's probably just gonna be.

You talking in your sleep or are you farting? What the fuck Carla, are you up? Come out here. Good morning, you're up early, Carla. Listen to this?

You talking in your sleep or are you farting? What the fuck Carla, are you up? Come out here. Good morning, you're up early, Carla. Listen to this?

What am I supposed to be hearing?

What am I supposed to be hearing?

Okay, this is just the living room, nothing going on at three twenty three am.

Okay, this is just the living room, nothing going on at three twenty three am.

And then oh my god.

And then oh my god.

Wait no, I think that's just the picture on my desk.

Wait no, I think that's just the picture on my desk.

It's always falling over and look that's how it was when I got up this morning.

It's always falling over and look that's how it was when I got up this morning.

But keep listening.

But keep listening.

Yes, what the fuck?

Yes, what the fuck?

Something or someone said my name.

Something or someone said my name.

I'm sorry, this is I need to be alone. I think this is a lot for me too. You know, I don't think you want to hear what's happening in my head right now.

I'm sorry, this is I need to be alone. I think this is a lot for me too. You know, I don't think you want to hear what's happening in my head right now.

I do, I really do talk to me.

I do, I really do talk to me.

After he died, I thought the person I was was gone forever and that I would only feel lost.

After he died, I thought the person I was was gone forever and that I would only feel lost.

And then I met you, and you cut through all of that.

And then I met you, and you cut through all of that.

You brought me back, and it made me feel so guilty. I wasn't supposed to love anyone else, but the way I felt at the moment he left, I think it's always going to be there. It's not like we both get to live and evolve and heal. And I was hoping I could find a way to get that permiss from him.

You brought me back, and it made me feel so guilty. I wasn't supposed to love anyone else, but the way I felt at the moment he left, I think it's always going to be there. It's not like we both get to live and evolve and heal. And I was hoping I could find a way to get that permiss from him.

To move on.

To move on.

All right, listen, Okay, I'm listening, and it's from the ghost recording thing.

All right, listen, Okay, I'm listening, and it's from the ghost recording thing.

Okay, you heard.

Okay, you heard.

It right, something saying my name.

It right, something saying my name.

I'm sorry, it's not sounding like much to me.

I'm sorry, it's not sounding like much to me.

I think maybe the file compressed when IX sented to my phone. I'm gonna get my laptop out.

I think maybe the file compressed when IX sented to my phone. I'm gonna get my laptop out.

Hey, uh, Grace, can we take a second? Are you all right?

Hey, uh, Grace, can we take a second? Are you all right?

I'm fine. It's Carla.

I'm fine. It's Carla.

I'm worried about You're just not seeming like yourself right now, and I'm worried about you. Are you sure recording ghosts is gonna fix whatever's going on between you two?

I'm worried about You're just not seeming like yourself right now, and I'm worried about you. Are you sure recording ghosts is gonna fix whatever's going on between you two?

I don't know.

I don't know.

She just feels like she's missing something.

She just feels like she's missing something.

And it was there when I met her, this void, and I was drawn to it. I wasn't even thinking except if I could just make this girl smile, it would be everything. And it took a long time. I was patient, and somehow I just knew it would be worth it.

And it was there when I met her, this void, and I was drawn to it. I wasn't even thinking except if I could just make this girl smile, it would be everything. And it took a long time. I was patient, and somehow I just knew it would be worth it.

But now she's saying that.

But now she's saying that.

She thinks her feelings for him won't ever change because he won't have the chance to evolve away from her, and so she won't have that chance either.

She thinks her feelings for him won't ever change because he won't have the chance to evolve away from her, and so she won't have that chance either.

Something like that.

Something like that.

That kind of makes sense, Yeah, but it's a lot to deal with.

That kind of makes sense, Yeah, but it's a lot to deal with.

She deals with me still being around all the time.

She deals with me still being around all the time.

I mean, you post no threat, okay, wow, I mean just we were together so long ago, we were different people then, But you still love me, don't you.

I mean, you post no threat, okay, wow, I mean just we were together so long ago, we were different people then, But you still love me, don't you.

I mean, of course, so she can still love him too.

I mean, of course, so she can still love him too.

But not the same way she loves you anymore. Like obviously she just can't.

But not the same way she loves you anymore. Like obviously she just can't.

Are you there?

Are you there?

Kareem, Kareem, Kareem, it's me. I know you think this is tacky. Actually, I have no idea what you think about death. Why didn't we ever talk about that?

Kareem, Kareem, Kareem, it's me. I know you think this is tacky. Actually, I have no idea what you think about death. Why didn't we ever talk about that?

We should have.

We should have.

I should have told you that I had liked women too. I felt so guilty about it. I was always trying to read your mind, wondering what you met when you left at certain parts of movies, but.

I should have told you that I had liked women too. I felt so guilty about it. I was always trying to read your mind, wondering what you met when you left at certain parts of movies, but.

I was just too afraid to ask.

I was just too afraid to ask.

Sometimes I would almost say something, Sometimes i'd almost come out to you, but then I think we'll get to that another day.

Sometimes I would almost say something, Sometimes i'd almost come out to you, but then I think we'll get to that another day.

We have so much time.

We have so much time.

I feel like you're trying to reach out to me, And if that's true, I'm really trying to hear you.

I feel like you're trying to reach out to me, And if that's true, I'm really trying to hear you.

I really miss you.

I really miss you.

You know.

You know.

It's not.

It's not.

Everyone knows I miss you, and they're so concerned about me all the time. But they think it's mentioning you, or like talking about the funeral that makes me sad.

Everyone knows I miss you, and they're so concerned about me all the time. But they think it's mentioning you, or like talking about the funeral that makes me sad.

But that stuff doesn't bother me. You were already gone. Then it's just that.

But that stuff doesn't bother me. You were already gone. Then it's just that.

Sometimes I forget cream, Like I'll be watching TV and I'll just turn to you to say something because I think again. And sometimes I swear to God, I walk in the front door and I expect to see you sitting right here on the couch.

Sometimes I forget cream, Like I'll be watching TV and I'll just turn to you to say something because I think again. And sometimes I swear to God, I walk in the front door and I expect to see you sitting right here on the couch.

I should move, I really should. I know.

I should move, I really should. I know.

Grace is right about that. She's right about most things. You know, kind of like you.

Grace is right about that. She's right about most things. You know, kind of like you.

Actually it's annoying, but she makes me feel.

Actually it's annoying, but she makes me feel.

Safe.

Safe.

You'd like her, Kareem, I really think you would. Oh my god, Jesus, Hi, you scared this shit out of me.

You'd like her, Kareem, I really think you would. Oh my god, Jesus, Hi, you scared this shit out of me.

Why because it's barely nine pm and you're in bed and you said you had to work late.

Why because it's barely nine pm and you're in bed and you said you had to work late.

I did, but I kind of figured happy hour wouldn't go that long.

I did, but I kind of figured happy hour wouldn't go that long.

Well, you're right.

Well, you're right.

Claire still refuses to pay a full price for drinks at Chippito, and.

Claire still refuses to pay a full price for drinks at Chippito, and.

Yet she owns a two bedroom.

Yet she owns a two bedroom.

House in Silver Lake.

House in Silver Lake.

I know it's so obnoxious, but none of this explains why you are in bed before midnight.

I know it's so obnoxious, but none of this explains why you are in bed before midnight.

I was just feeling kind of wiped.

I was just feeling kind of wiped.

Wait, what's going on? Have you been crying?

Wait, what's going on? Have you been crying?

I mean yes, but it was a good cry?

I mean yes, but it was a good cry?

Really?

Really?

Are you sure positive? Here? Spoon me?

Are you sure positive? Here? Spoon me?

Okay, I will, but hold that thought because I'm not actually ready for bed yet.

Okay, I will, but hold that thought because I'm not actually ready for bed yet.

Grandma, Okay, leave the light on.

Grandma, Okay, leave the light on.

I'm just gonna read until you're back.

I'm just gonna read until you're back.

Okay, Grace, you really don't have to do that.

Okay, Grace, you really don't have to do that.

Let's just forget it. Okay. I don't like at all.

Let's just forget it. Okay. I don't like at all.

It takes like two seconds.

It takes like two seconds.

No, but.

No, but.

I'm not just saying it for you. I don't care anymore.

I'm not just saying it for you. I don't care anymore.

Okay, what happened? Something happened while I was out?

Okay, what happened? Something happened while I was out?

No, seriously, I've just had some time to think and it was probably all in my head.

No, seriously, I've just had some time to think and it was probably all in my head.

Okay, but we both heard what was on the recording, Carla, are you saying that wasn't real?

Okay, but we both heard what was on the recording, Carla, are you saying that wasn't real?

I think we heard something real and we wanted to explain what was going on, and that's how we explained it.

I think we heard something real and we wanted to explain what was going on, and that's how we explained it.

I heard what I heard.

I heard what I heard.

I know.

I know.

Okay, let's just listen again. And no, okay, fine, I'm sorry. We can listen in the morning if you want. You can run all the ghost hunting stuff. I don't care, but can we just go to bed? I don't want to think about this stuff right now. Okay, yes, I'm sorry. Let's just go to bed.

Okay, let's just listen again. And no, okay, fine, I'm sorry. We can listen in the morning if you want. You can run all the ghost hunting stuff. I don't care, but can we just go to bed? I don't want to think about this stuff right now. Okay, yes, I'm sorry. Let's just go to bed.

Thank you, baby.

Thank you, baby.

You'll be so well rested, you'll think me.

You'll be so well rested, you'll think me.

Grace, wake up, Harla, Grace, get up, come on, let's go.

Grace, wake up, Harla, Grace, get up, come on, let's go.

Is it him? Is it him?

Is it him? Is it him?

Grace?

Grace?

What?

What?

No, get up, get under the table, come on, get down her, Grace? Is it him? Is it Kareem?

No, get up, get under the table, come on, get down her, Grace? Is it him? Is it Kareem?

What?

What?

Nora?

Nora?

Please? Please be in reality right now.

Please? Please be in reality right now.

It's a fucking earthquake.

It's a fucking earthquake.

Hey. I was really scared last day.

Hey. I was really scared last day.

Me too.

Me too.

For a minute there, I really did think it was Kareem. But then I was worried you'd think he was sending you a message to stay away from me.

For a minute there, I really did think it was Kareem. But then I was worried you'd think he was sending you a message to stay away from me.

I never thought that even for a second.

I never thought that even for a second.

Grace.

Grace.

I was thinking, this is the big one and we're all gonna die.

I was thinking, this is the big one and we're all gonna die.

Well, you have more experience than I do in that department. The ground doesn't like randomly just move under your feet in Wisconsin.

Well, you have more experience than I do in that department. The ground doesn't like randomly just move under your feet in Wisconsin.

Honestly, though, all I was thinking was I can't lose you too.

Honestly, though, all I was thinking was I can't lose you too.

You were, Yeah, that's kind of nice to hear.

You were, Yeah, that's kind of nice to hear.

You don't think I worry about that. You don't think I worry about the way we met. That you'll want someone without all this baggage.

You don't think I worry about that. You don't think I worry about the way we met. That you'll want someone without all this baggage.

God, I never thought about it like that.

God, I never thought about it like that.

We're such a caring person. You can be really self absorbed. But I feel like everything I'm worried about it didn't come from him.

We're such a caring person. You can be really self absorbed. But I feel like everything I'm worried about it didn't come from him.

It came from me.

It came from me.

What do you mean.

What do you mean.

If he's watching a yes, he can only be happy.

If he's watching a yes, he can only be happy.

The One You Really Love was written and directed by Me Melissa Dudley and me Hannah Harris Green, featuring Christina Lopezz, Carla, Kyla McCracken, is Grace and a Kemi Akanams Claire.

The One You Really Love was written and directed by Me Melissa Dudley and me Hannah Harris Green, featuring Christina Lopezz, Carla, Kyla McCracken, is Grace and a Kemi Akanams Claire.

The editor and producer is Cameron Kell.

The editor and producer is Cameron Kell.

On set sound mixer is Daniel Martinez.

On set sound mixer is Daniel Martinez.

Sound designer and head of post production is Diego Perez. Creator and showrunner is James Kim. On set photographer is Julian Park. Score by Robert Garova and Ryobaum You Feeling.

Sound designer and head of post production is Diego Perez. Creator and showrunner is James Kim. On set photographer is Julian Park. Score by Robert Garova and Ryobaum You Feeling.

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