Blindsided by a sudden breakup shortly after closing the gap on a long distance relationship, one caller is left heartbroken and confused by the continued mixed messages. Another caller is certain her masculine energy is preventing her from attracting the ideal man. Iyanla has some guidance for the both of them: Choose yourself, and grow some lady balls! It just might help them both find a relationship that works.
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I am a Yamla. I had a baby daddy relationship, I spend time in a relationship with a married man. I had to learn the skills and tools required to make my relationships healthy, fulfilling and loving. Welcome to the Our Spot, a production of Shondaland Audio in partnership with I Heart Radio. Beloved by Now, you know that if you come to me with an issue, I am going to tell you some things you probably don't want to hear. And for today's topic, I've got something to say to most, if not every woman out there, Grow some lady balls. It's a topic I love to discuss and one I want to educate women about. And as we get into our conversation today, you'll see what I mean. Growing ladyballs is all about choosing you and my first caller and I get to the heart of exactly what that means. Good afternoon, beloved, Welcome to the Our Spot where we talk about all things relationships. So how can I support you? What is your issue, problem, challenge, dilemma today? Wow, Good afternoon, Good afternoon. The reason that I am calling in today is because I'm going through a breakup right now. Okay, long distance relationship for two years. And so this relationship began right after a divorce and my partner was never married, no children. I have three children, and we were long distance, like I said, for two years, and then in the last two months, my partner moved closer to close the distance, and I thought, you know, this was going to bring us culser So I just got a call on last week. There wasn't really an argument that was out of the norm or anything. There was a disagreement, and then we went five days without talking. No one called, and that was very unusual because usually my partner will call and just leave voice messages and you know, send me emails and things like that in the event that there is a time that I shut down and don't communicate. This time, none of that happened, and I got a call, and you know, I was told during that time we weren't speaking. I went out, I had a couple of drinks and I kissed someone else, and I don't think we can fix this. M Since then, you've talked maybe once or twice, there's been a lot of confusing conversation. I'm being told I do want to repair, I'm not sure I know how to repair. And then I've been also being told I'm not sure that I want to repair or how do I know that you know this is right? I told everything was wonderful. I thought everything was great. So I'm just I don't have a lot of answers, and I'm I'm really torn. I feel broken. I felt numb about this, and I just feel like I've truly got my best friend. And when I saw that this opportunity came up to speak with you, I jumped on it because who's better is to speak with? No? I don't know if I'm the one. Are you sure you want to speak to me? Because I'm going right in for the juggular here. Tell me what is it that you really want to know? Let's get clear about that first? Should I wait? How do I move forward? Like? Is there a chance maybe that we were coon stile? We repair this? Heartbreak? Ever? Feel better? M is it? PA? Ain't gonna ever stop about hold hold love, Hold love, hold love. Hold up, my sister woman, you were in a long distance relationship for two years? How many times did you see each other in that two years? How often monthly? So you've seen him twenty four times for how long each visit? Sometimes it would be like a week sometimes maybe a few days. But this person seems very invested in me. I mean treated me like gold. I had no complaints. I didn't have to open a door. I didn't have to carry any bags anywhere. I didn't have to pay for any meals ever. Whatever I needed support, they were there anytime we traveled. I didn't have much responsibility at all. So this person seems to be very genuine and very giving. And what if he let me ask you this, were you raised in the church? Yes, okay, have you ever heard and I will send the comforter? Have you heard that scripture? What if he was just a comforter? What if he's not forever and ever? Amen? You said long distance relationship right after a divorce? Yes? What if he was your comforter? Beloved? I don't know why it is women we think everyone has to be the one. What if he was the one for them? Right? What if? Could you just be grateful you didn't have to open the door. Can you be grateful? He paid, he invested in you. Can you be grateful? Mh he took you out to dinner? Can you be grateful? Was the sex good? Absolutely? Could you be grateful. You know how many people got divorced eight years ago and they ain't had no nookie since then. They are dying from lack a nookie. Could you just be grateful to him, to your creator, to the universe, to life, and now you know what you're looking for in the next one. Why do we as women think that everyone is the one, right? Because if he was the one, he would know and he wouldn't be kissing somebody else. And if they kissed, I don't know if that's where it ended, right What if that season is just over? What do you need to do to have peace? How do you choose you now? As opposed to worrying about him? It was good, and I'm grateful, he was great, and I'm grateful, But I'm just not going to allow myself to be toned up by somebody who don't know surely clearly right now, that this is what they want. When he figures it out, maybe he'll come back, maybe maybe not, who knows, could be. But how do you choose you in the meantime? I gotta figure it out, No, you don't. You just have to make a choice. I did that one time I had that situation. I mean this brother who was off the chain, gorgeous, sweet calm, spiritually grounded, focus, dedicated, and he had made a commitment in his mind to himself that until he finished his doctorate we were in graduate school together, that he wasn't gonna be in in a relationship. And so then I showed up, you know, and we had a great time together. We had it, studied together and went together. It was just wonderful. And he was tormented. Tormented, you know, this is not what I want. I don't know if this is what God wants for me. This I made a commitment. I can't do a relationship in school and boot the bie to boop up up. And normally my process would have been to try to convince him of how wonderful and marvelous I was. But I grew some late. I had grown some lady balls. You know what lady balls are. I'll tell you how I grew lady balls. After the break, welcome back. My caller is learning how to stand up for herself, and right before the break, I was going to share with her how I did it. I had grown some lady balls, and I said, you know what, if he don't want to be with me, something must be wrong with him, and I'm gonna let him go. So you know what I told him one day when he was cavetching and moaning and groaning about I don't know if this is what I want to do and what we've don't done everything. We don't eight together, slept together, shared money together. We don't done and you still don't know. Okay, I'll tell you what. And I looked him in his face. I said, you're not really enjoyed being with you. This has been wonderful, this has been marvelous. But you know what, you figure out what you want to do, and when you figure that out, let me know. In the meantime, I'm out because I had to choose me. Mhm. And you know what I found out about three weeks after I did that. You want to know, don't you? That he was living with another woman. Yeah, that's what I said. Wow, so I just dodged that bullet. Yes, what if you're dodging a bullet? Right? You got the dust off your lady balls. Your lady balls are dusty. Don't think that because you had a divorce. Oh God, here we go again. I'm losing another one. I'm losing another relationship. Forget that he doesn't know if he wants to be with you. You can't convince him. Let him go. If it's yours, it'll come back, all right. Now, tell me what you hear me saying. You don't have to repeat my words, but I want to know what your inner conversation is about what you just heard. What I just heard was that some things are just out of my control. And as opposed to just hanging around and just waiting around, I have to pick up the pieces of me and move forward and what's meant for me is for me and it will come to me. Well, I just want to clean that up a little bit. What pieces? What? Why are you in pieces? You're pretty old to me, you had two years of good sex, good fun, nice man. Why are you in pieces? It's just heartbroke and it's just as sudden. I didn't expect it. It's just the opposite of what what's been going on is. What if you're dodging a bullet? What if you're dodging a bullet? Caught you off? God, control freak, You didn't know? Okay, fine, what if you're dodging a bullet? How come you're not saying thank you God, Yeah, thank you for sending this comforter. It was funny, was great? Is there another one coming anytime soon? So I want you to repeat this with me, and I want you to make this your mantra. You know what a mantra is. A mantra is a word or saying that you repeat over and over and over to shift in your consciousness. Okay, okay, if he's mine, repeat that. If he's man, he'll be here, He'll be here if he's not, if he's not, bye bye. And then you dust off your lady balls and you practice trust, and you practice faith, and you choose you. I hear you saying your heartbroken. I hear you're saying you're miss him and and all of this. So what do you need to do to choose you and bring peace to you right now? What do you need to do? You need to buy some chocolate? Do you need to go shopping? Do you need to take some life spats? I got some nice bath stuff you can take if you what what do you need to do to choose you right now? As opposed to giving him your time, your energy, your parts, and your pieces. They do that to us all the time. No, you don't want me. You don't know if you want me. I'm not gonna let myself want you. By dust off, you lay the balls, or grow him or put some hair on him, or whatever you need to do, just juice you. And it's hard. I'm not being heartless. I know it's hard. But you were a long distance. You didn't see him every day. You saw him months a month. So you know what, You can still talk to him, right it in your journal. You can still talk to him. Have the conversation out loud. Put a chair in front of you, make believe he's sitting in the chair, and talk to that chair. You can still talk to him. But when he calls, don't answer until he says you're the one I want and I'm coming home. You don't say that by right. See, I'm a little older, so it's easy for me to be hard. I don't have time. I'm closer to the grade than I am to the nursery. Thank you so much, thank you. And here's the thing. You know, you're not in this by yourself. Hundreds of thousands of us are in it with you. So we want you to be successful one way or the other. Either he makes up his mind and chooses you, or he makes up his mind and doesn't and you be okay, choose you all right, Now, what you're gonna do. You're gonna call me in six weeks and let me know what happened. Absolutely, okay, go buy some chocolate. Thank you. Okay, my love, Bye bye. Long distance relationships. I ain't messing with that. She needs some lady balls. I wish I could teach women about lady balls. Lady balls is that cut off switch. It's that placing us that it's just not going to accommodate, tolerate, entertain any foolishment. Lady balls are that part of us that makes our spine eat and our chest broad and our feet firm. When we say I'm choosing me, I get that you're confused. I guess that that you're loss I guess that you're working through your stuff. But if you want to be with me, I'm choosing me. This is what you gotta do. I have a hard on for me. Okay, Now I can share it with you, but I can't make it okay for you. You've got to know. You've got to know, because so very often as women, we think we know he's the one, and he can take years to try to figure out if I'm the one. Like I said, I'm closer to the grade than I am to the nursery. My lady balls are long, and Harry, I'm clear. We can't waste no time, and you got two years, You've got time in, you've got investment in, and I know we don't want to let that go. I know we don't want to let that go. But you've got to strengthen your lady balls. You gotta get that estrogen, progesterone or whatever flowing through them so that you don't waste time choosing someone else's confusion over your clarity. Because here's the truth. If it's for you, it's for you. And yes, the other person may be entitled to moments of a fear or or unclarity or unsurety, but I'm not gonna mess around with that too long because if you're not sure now, I don't want to be three or four or five years into this and you could become unclear again. Get clear, and it will work through everything else to honor our commitment to be. But I'm not gonna try to convince you. I know I got a herd on for me, all right. That's what lady balls means. Have a heart on for you, choose you, take care of you, and give up this thought that everyone has to be oh one. He may be the one for now, but if he's not lining up, or him or her, whoever you're with, I don't have any preference. I'm saying in terms of partnership, relationship, intimate love ship. If they can line up and if they're wondering, you wander away. If I could teach ladies about their lady balls, chocolate helps grow chocolate, chocolate cake, chocolate milkshake, and bubble backs. That's how you grow your lady balls. My next collar is a woman who feels she has too much masculine energy. She's really going to enjoy what I have to say about that. Hello, Hello, good afternoon, beloved, Welcome to the ourt spot and how can I support you this afternoon? So I need support in I'm getting out of a marriage basically something on my marriage about a little over a year now. And I was the one that made that decision because I needed a lot of healing. I was like broken in so many places. So I made the conscious decision to get her in my marriage because of that and the issues that I'm having is I have a lot of masculine energy because I was raised by my dad and by my male cousin, and I was around like my uncle's and just a lot of men, and even the women that I was around, they were like really bold and courageous and you know, didn't play. So I want to learn how to tone that down and fed more feminine so I can attract the ideal man. I love when people call me with their own self diagnosis. It's so exciting. Okay, let me ask you a question. What do you mean when you say masculine energy? What does that mean? It means um. I will just be honest. I was very controlling because I didn't want to be controlled. So if my ex husband said anything to me like I was on him. I didn't play the radio, you know, and I feel like I maybe embarrassed him. Now he did like come back at me, so he didn't let me allow me to control him. But at the same time, me doing that, I was always in a cat mold, and I don't I didn't like that part of myself, but I didn't really see that while I was in my marriage. But once I got out of my American Now that I'm single, I'm like, oh my god, I had some serious issues. So you consider control as a masculine thing. Yes, I do. Yes. And what's the distinction that you make between control and fear? Um? I haven't really thought about it like that. Very often people try to control their environment, control how they are treated, control what's going on when they're afraid, and they're afraid because they don't feel safe. Yes, that is exactly right, because, like I said, because I was raised by my dad. My dad was like the mean person, right, like you know what I'm saying, like the streets, always fussing, always on my sister in a case, whereas with my cousin. My cousin was more of the loving mail. I mean, he always made us feel love and faith. We spent a lot of time it my cousin and a lot of time with my dad. So with that being said, like I said, being around my dad and being around and just being so verbally abusive, I was like, Okay, I'm not going to allow a man to treat me this way, you know. And of course this was all unconscious. I didn't mean to be so hard, but because I grew up that way. It was just like I was just always in attack mode, always like I gotta have the last word. And again, when I was younger, I didn't see this as a problem. I was like, well, this is just who I am. But once I started to kill and do the work, as you always say, I'm able to look at myself and look at that past self, and I'm like, you know what, I don't like the way I did things. I don't like the way I treated people. Not that I'm a mean person or a bad person, but I know I had some habits. It's a bad way, and I don't want to go into my future self with those weight. So I heard you say this, not going to allow a man to treat me that way? Which way is that? That way was, like I said, my dad was very controlling, very manipulium. And I hope I don't start crying. Um, wait a minute, I want you to stop right there. Because when the masculine energy feels aggressive, or when the masculine energy feels vulnerable, it'll do one or two things. It will retreat or it will attack. When the feminine energy feels vulnerable, it will surrender, and it will weep. You said, I want to learn more about my feminine energy. But then you said, I hope I don't cry? Why not? Right? Feminine is water. Yes, yes, I'm so glad you told me that, and I am very emotional missing all. I have cried more in the last two years that I've cried in my life. Well, you said you want to set in, you want to get into your feminine energy, exactly, exactly, So that's what I've been doing. Right. So we'll get into how to separate your energies when we come back. Welcome back to the Oar Spot. In an episode about growing Lady Balls, we definitely need to cover the difference between masculine and feminine energy. Mail is fire and air, woman is water and earth. Masculine energy is head, thought, thinking, intellect. Feminine energy is heart, emotion, feeling. And what I hear you saying to me, you want to get out of your head and you're thinking and into your heart and feeling so that you could be less aggressive and more passive, but you're afraid to do that. Yeah. I could be wrong, You're absolutely right, and I'm based on what you just said, I know I'm all over the place. No you're not. You're not all over the place. You in your head protecting yourself from the controlling, manipulative, abusive energy that you experienced from your father, the man that has nothing to do with masculine energy. He was a man who expressed his math scualinity through control, manipulation, and abut but true masculine energy is thought and intellect and creation. True feminine energy, it's heart and feeling and vulnerability and the word we all hate passive or submissive mm hm. And you said, I'm not going to allow a man to treat me that way. I'm not going to allow man to be abusive to me. I'm not gonna allow man to be manipulative. I'm not gonna allow man to control me. I'm not gonna allow a man to do that because it's not safe. Listen to me, Okay, can you hear me? Yes? Man, okay. And I want you to answer this question with the first thing that comes to your mind. Doesn't have to make sense. M h m hm. Who broke your heart? Did your dad break your heart by the way he was or did your mom break your heart by not being there to protect you from your dad? Oh? Which one happened first couldn't happen first because if your mom had been there, Dad would have never been all over you consider the possibility that your mom broke your heart. Mm hmm yeah, and your heart is still broken, which means it's tender and it's guarded. So if you really, really really want to move into the feminine energy, you've got to take the chain, the wall, the bricks, the daggers off your heart and know that you are safe. Two. Feel not just talking about crying. I'm talking about feeling. You gotta get safe, and the way to get safe is to heal that broken heart. It doesn't matter why she left. The fact is the heart wasn't there to balance the energy of the head, or the feminine wasn't there to balance the energy of the masculine, because the feminine is the heart. So you you don't have an issue with with masculine energy. You have a heart condition. H Wow. Also glad that you let me know, because I'm like just all, oh, you're not You're in your head, you're not all open place, and you're trying so hard what not to be. I'm not gonna let a man treat me this way. So I have to be this and this and this and this and this. You're trying so hard not to be something until you aren't being what you want to be, which is feminine, soft, open hearted, present in your feelings. Oh that's what to be. So you got to heal up that broken heart. Stopped looking at your dad. He was just a man. He wasn't necessarily masculine energy, although that's how masculine energy when it's imbalanced. It sounds like he had you and your sister. Your mom was gone. We don't know what that felt like for him. Maybe his heart was closed, Maybe he was angry, Maybe he was hurt, Maybe he was disappointed. Maybe he didn't know how to give you his heart. Maybe he gave your heart his heart to your mom and she left with it, or she broke his heart and he just passed it on. Who knows. We can make it up anyway we wanted to be. But what I hear you saying is you want to be more in your heart. So m so much is coming to mind now, I'm all over the place. Or give nets. Oh yes, I have been working with that, Mr Young. But who are you forgiving? What are you forgiving? Help? Forgiving? Like I said my dad or anybody else that I feel there has hurt me, including my ex husband, and I'm forgiving myself asking others to forgive me. And I didn't realize, though, that forgiveness was such a hard, complicated process. M. I always thought it was simple, as I say the prayer, I forgive them, I wish them the best, I wish them well, Okay, I'm good. And now that I'm on this healing journey, I'm like, oh, it's be m hmmm. It's so much deeper today. And I didn't realize that before I asked some more work to do. Well. I want to encourage you to go back and do your forgiveness on your mom. Forget her story, forget what they told you, forget what you think, forget what you made up. Go back and do some forgiveness work on your mom, and then do some forgiveness work with God. Mm hmm, Okay, for giving God for whatever you think God is responsible for. If he's responsible for your mom, if leaven, if he's responsible for your dad being abusive, controlling, manipulative, if he's responsible for every little thing that happened to you when you were six twelve thirteen fifteen sixteen. Whatever. Forgive your mom, forgive God, then go to your dad, and then go to yourself. And the deepest way to do it is really to forgive the thought, forgive the feeling, forgive the belief, forgive the judgment. But the forgiveness work. If you want to take another look at my book on forgiveness, because that is the work. It's a forty day process. So think of it this way, beloved again. Masculine energy is head thought, intellect, it's creation. Feminine energy is heart feeling. It's a surrender and energy of surrender and energy of passivity, not weakness, but passivity, receptivity, receptivity, let me say, receptivity, whereas masculine energy is a more aggressive energy. So you want to move out of the aggression into the receptivity, okay, And you want to know that it's safe to feel and forgiveness, and then when you finish with forgiveness, you can work on trust. Yea thank you for your call, but loved, give me a call in about six weeks and let me know where you are, Okay, I surely will thank you so much, Okay, my love, bye bye, all right by So many of us think that the one right now has to be the one forever. In fact, as women, we sometimes try to fit the square man peg into the round hole in our heart, even when we know it's not a good match. A good match has nothing to do with masculine or feminine energy. It's not about how much you invest in a relationship or how much time you spend together. It doesn't even have anything to do with how much you love each other. A good match, a solid relationship has to grow from the mutual respect between the people involved, which means that sometimes you must stand up for yourself. You must grow some lady balls and choose you, especially when you are not feeling respected beloved. Choose you, vote for you, make that change, and then go and get yourself some chocolate and have a bubble back. Amana and I thank you for tuning in. If you have questions or insights about this or any other relationship topic and you would like us to explore it here on the art spot, you can call me live at seven seven five three zero seven seven seven six eight. Now be sure to follow me on social media for all of the calling times. 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