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The Nicky Gliser podcastser here's Nikki. Oh. I didn't hear the sound on my end, but here I am. Hi, I'm Nikki. It's the show. Welcome to it. Oh, I know why mode? Oh there it is kicking in. Hey guys from Nicky Glaiser. Welcome to the show, Snick Gleiser Podcast.

What are you about? You had a smirk.

What are you about? You had a smirk.

I know, I just got a d M from Chris. That's like a private thing. But it was just like this was us and it was I just I just saw the what the video is? I already know what the what the video is. It's a clip from It's a very intense clip from Seventh Heaven. And we had a therapy session today or yesterday, a couple's therapy session where things got tense and he just sent this. We haven't really talked about it. Like you get off these couples if you don't live together, which we do, but he's in LA right now. You get done with a couple of syapy, you just like say bye and you log off, and then you like, wait, what do you do? Like usually you walk out together and you like hug in the parking lot and you go That was really good? Are you talking the elevator? And like then you go home and you kind of like but when you're in separate places, you're just gonna like do I can we just leave that there? I don't really want to talk about what came up in there and then and so we didn't. And he's busy working on editing the Mark Twain Prize, and so we didn't really talk about all the stuff that came up in there, and but he just sent me this thing that made me like feel like, okay, good, It's not as dire as I thought it was, you know, like the whatever came up, Like, I don't know if it never is, like it could be down the line. Yeah, these sayings where people go like what like, uh, you know it's right when it's hard, It's like, well that's a lot of times, or like stuff like that. It's like, well no, because sometimes you hurt yourself because you go too hard. It's like I don't. Yeah, there's it is not always true, and that's.

I know, I just got a d M from Chris. That's like a private thing. But it was just like this was us and it was I just I just saw the what the video is? I already know what the what the video is. It's a clip from It's a very intense clip from Seventh Heaven. And we had a therapy session today or yesterday, a couple's therapy session where things got tense and he just sent this. We haven't really talked about it. Like you get off these couples if you don't live together, which we do, but he's in LA right now. You get done with a couple of syapy, you just like say bye and you log off, and then you like, wait, what do you do? Like usually you walk out together and you like hug in the parking lot and you go That was really good? Are you talking the elevator? And like then you go home and you kind of like but when you're in separate places, you're just gonna like do I can we just leave that there? I don't really want to talk about what came up in there and then and so we didn't. And he's busy working on editing the Mark Twain Prize, and so we didn't really talk about all the stuff that came up in there, and but he just sent me this thing that made me like feel like, okay, good, It's not as dire as I thought it was, you know, like the whatever came up, Like, I don't know if it never is, like it could be down the line. Yeah, these sayings where people go like what like, uh, you know it's right when it's hard, It's like, well that's a lot of times, or like stuff like that. It's like, well no, because sometimes you hurt yourself because you go too hard. It's like I don't. Yeah, there's it is not always true, and that's.

What really rhymes not true necessarily.

What really rhymes not true necessarily.

Yeah. I had double therapy yesterday. I had couples and then went right from couples, logged off and went right into my single therapy, and at the end of it, I was so drained, and I know people are like, yeah, done, Nikki, that's draining, not from me. And then I had done the podcast the hour before, so it was an our podcast, our couples hour. It was a lot of talking myself, and the podcast yesterday felt it was for me and my ecosystem of my body very tense because I was reliving that red carpet moment that was like fraught for me, and and so it was just like I got done with that last one and I didn't cry through it. I cried a little bit on the couples one, but then I really I bawled, which I'm By the way, I'm a little annoyed at the word balling because they will throw balling Like I watch Netflix with the subtitles on all the time, the captions, Oh my arm is really white, and my my arm is really tanned. I can't lift up my arm, and they will say they will go to balling very often when it is just someone going like like, Okay, what do you think balling is? Because when I think of someone balling, I think of it like I can't this, Like that's balling.

Yeah. I had double therapy yesterday. I had couples and then went right from couples, logged off and went right into my single therapy, and at the end of it, I was so drained, and I know people are like, yeah, done, Nikki, that's draining, not from me. And then I had done the podcast the hour before, so it was an our podcast, our couples hour. It was a lot of talking myself, and the podcast yesterday felt it was for me and my ecosystem of my body very tense because I was reliving that red carpet moment that was like fraught for me, and and so it was just like I got done with that last one and I didn't cry through it. I cried a little bit on the couples one, but then I really I bawled, which I'm By the way, I'm a little annoyed at the word balling because they will throw balling Like I watch Netflix with the subtitles on all the time, the captions, Oh my arm is really white, and my my arm is really tanned. I can't lift up my arm, and they will say they will go to balling very often when it is just someone going like like, Okay, what do you think balling is? Because when I think of someone balling, I think of it like I can't this, Like that's balling.

Yeah, falling out of your nose. You can't even control it. Yes, that's ball.

Yeah, falling out of your nose. You can't even control it. Yes, that's ball.

Once in their lives, women ball probably three times a month. Ball is something that happens.

Once in their lives, women ball probably three times a month. Ball is something that happens.

During every episode of America's Got Talent? What really? Yeah? No, it just gets to me that the only.

During every episode of America's Got Talent? What really? Yeah? No, it just gets to me that the only.

Thing that makes me just hold on, wait at we have to explore this? Why with it sounds like I'm being judgmental. I hear my own tone, and I'm not not being judgmental. I'm actually curious what is it? Because I like to explore what gets us, what makes us cry? Like, what have you explored? Why is it that that touches you so much? What is it saying to your inner child?

Thing that makes me just hold on, wait at we have to explore this? Why with it sounds like I'm being judgmental. I hear my own tone, and I'm not not being judgmental. I'm actually curious what is it? Because I like to explore what gets us, what makes us cry? Like, what have you explored? Why is it that that touches you so much? What is it saying to your inner child?

My inner child?

My inner child?

Probably what's going on?

Probably what's going on?

Someone being recognized after doing a lot of hard work? I think so.

Someone being recognized after doing a lot of hard work? I think so.

But some of these people are just naturally talented and they didn't work at all all. They're just born with good voices. Or is it really the hard work that's.

But some of these people are just naturally talented and they didn't work at all all. They're just born with good voices. Or is it really the hard work that's.

The hard that's what the package is for. They show you the package of this person who called their way out of a volcano in order to dance, and they finally get to.

The hard that's what the package is for. They show you the package of this person who called their way out of a volcano in order to dance, and they finally get to.

Date America's Got Talent. I'm thinking of just singing. No, America's got talent is actually a lot of people that worked very hard learning how to juggle women on their feet.

Date America's Got Talent. I'm thinking of just singing. No, America's got talent is actually a lot of people that worked very hard learning how to juggle women on their feet.

That's right, and some of them do juggle women. Yeah, there was a fire. There was like an I forgot what country it was. Now I feel like semi racist, but I think it was Iranian, an Iranian dance team. That was they They I think they won or came in second place last year, and their story was so incredibly touching and they overcame have so much adversity and then they were amazing dancers, and I was that made me cry. Every single time there's a video, there's like a show me a sizzle reel of someone's adversity and then show them go on stage and do something amazing, and then have Simon Cowell, that curmudgeonly bastard go that was the best thing I've ever seen, and then they cry. That's There's nothing that gets to me quicker and faster than much the voice.

That's right, and some of them do juggle women. Yeah, there was a fire. There was like an I forgot what country it was. Now I feel like semi racist, but I think it was Iranian, an Iranian dance team. That was they They I think they won or came in second place last year, and their story was so incredibly touching and they overcame have so much adversity and then they were amazing dancers, and I was that made me cry. Every single time there's a video, there's like a show me a sizzle reel of someone's adversity and then show them go on stage and do something amazing, and then have Simon Cowell, that curmudgeonly bastard go that was the best thing I've ever seen, and then they cry. That's There's nothing that gets to me quicker and faster than much the voice.

Do you watch American Idol? Like is this just why America's got talent? Are you just a Nick Cannon guy, a Howie Mandela why America's got talent? Because for me, I don't like to see swords, and I don't like to see little kids being comedians. I don't like to see There's so many things I don't like Nick Cannon off stage commenting about what's happening. I don't like that, Like live interactive commentary, I don't like them. And I don't like like shadow puppetry, where I'm like, okay, what are we We're gonna give this person a Vegas contract, which I actually that would probably work very well in Vegas. But there's just a lot of stuff that seems set up to be ridiculous. And I know that the gag reel is part of these shows why America's gone talent and not a singing competition.

Do you watch American Idol? Like is this just why America's got talent? Are you just a Nick Cannon guy, a Howie Mandela why America's got talent? Because for me, I don't like to see swords, and I don't like to see little kids being comedians. I don't like to see There's so many things I don't like Nick Cannon off stage commenting about what's happening. I don't like that, Like live interactive commentary, I don't like them. And I don't like like shadow puppetry, where I'm like, okay, what are we We're gonna give this person a Vegas contract, which I actually that would probably work very well in Vegas. But there's just a lot of stuff that seems set up to be ridiculous. And I know that the gag reel is part of these shows why America's gone talent and not a singing competition.

Well it's not Nick Cannon anymore. It's not Terry Crews.

Well it's not Nick Cannon anymore. It's not Terry Crews.

And oh it.

And oh it.

Makes a huge difference that when it's Terry Crews, because Terry Crews, whether he's doing it true, Yes, he really wants these people to succeed.

Makes a huge difference that when it's Terry Crews, because Terry Crews, whether he's doing it true, Yes, he really wants these people to succeed.

He likes Adam in studio one time and it was incredible. Yeah, the sweetest.

He likes Adam in studio one time and it was incredible. Yeah, the sweetest.

He really wants. He takes people under his wing. He like mentors certain youths if they're if he sees something in them and he feels like he could uplift them, and he's really on the sideline, you know. Sometimes they're doing their act and everyone's like, oh no, like like if it's uh Susan Boyle, like oh no, is this ugly person gonna be able to sing? And then everyone's like, oh my god, is it gonna happen? And then Terry crew is on the sideline. And then when it happens, Terry, they showed that side view and Terry Crews looks at the camera and.

He really wants. He takes people under his wing. He like mentors certain youths if they're if he sees something in them and he feels like he could uplift them, and he's really on the sideline, you know. Sometimes they're doing their act and everyone's like, oh no, like like if it's uh Susan Boyle, like oh no, is this ugly person gonna be able to sing? And then everyone's like, oh my god, is it gonna happen? And then Terry crew is on the sideline. And then when it happens, Terry, they showed that side view and Terry Crews looks at the camera and.

Goes, yes, yes, okay.

Goes, yes, yes, okay.

I could tell actually wants them to succeed, whereas Nick Cannon was like Nick Cannon's reaction in the same situation would be like, oh shit, they're bringing it, you know, be something.

I could tell actually wants them to succeed, whereas Nick Cannon was like Nick Cannon's reaction in the same situation would be like, oh shit, they're bringing it, you know, be something.

Like that, yes, which is Cruise seems like a father on this, like so proud.

Like that, yes, which is Cruise seems like a father on this, like so proud.

Yes, it's a wonderful show. I don't love right now.

Yes, it's a wonderful show. I don't love right now.

No, is the season happening now?

No, is the season happening now?

They did agt All Stars, which I don't love, so I just didn't watch them. Usually why don't you love because I want to see the sizzle reels. I want to see them over Codversity.

They did agt All Stars, which I don't love, so I just didn't watch them. Usually why don't you love because I want to see the sizzle reels. I want to see them over Codversity.

Yes, and now.

Yes, and now.

Stars already know their story, we already.

Stars already know their story, we already.

I wanted so badly to pitch Dancing with the Stars Losers. Everyone who's been first quoted off comes back. It's been on for thirty plus seasons. You can make a season out of ten losers me included that can come back, and actually, like, you know, work hard, it will all it will all be about hard work, even though that show is already about hard working enough. The people are good. Yeah, I agree with you. I'm trying to think of what makes.

I wanted so badly to pitch Dancing with the Stars Losers. Everyone who's been first quoted off comes back. It's been on for thirty plus seasons. You can make a season out of ten losers me included that can come back, and actually, like, you know, work hard, it will all it will all be about hard work, even though that show is already about hard working enough. The people are good. Yeah, I agree with you. I'm trying to think of what makes.

Thinks that might be wrong. Actually, I think it might be on right now. America's Got Talent Fantasy is on right now. I guess. Okay, so it is on. I gotta watch it.

Thinks that might be wrong. Actually, I think it might be on right now. America's Got Talent Fantasy is on right now. I guess. Okay, so it is on. I gotta watch it.

Okay, yeah you should. You should tune into that. Do you like Heidi's commentary? I'll watch it if you're watching it.

Okay, yeah you should. You should tune into that. Do you like Heidi's commentary? I'll watch it if you're watching it.

Heidi's great. Heidi. I like Heidi. She's I like her because she kind of brings a cool factor. When she really likes something, I'm like, Okay, that's cool. Then she says something like that was incredible, And I like hearing that.

Heidi's great. Heidi. I like Heidi. She's I like her because she kind of brings a cool factor. When she really likes something, I'm like, Okay, that's cool. Then she says something like that was incredible, And I like hearing that.

What about comedians on America's Got Talent? Because we had a friend who was gonna got asked audition and and I've had many friends on that show. Gary Veder did really well on that show. Taylor Williamson did really well on that show. I think, uh, Joe Mackey did great on that show. Doogie Horner sure, or Tom Cotter who had a great one of my favorite jokes talk about I can't remember bits. I'll never forget Tom Cotter. He was on Last Comic Standing. I think the season one he made a joke about my wife can count all the people she's slept with before on one hand with a calculator.

What about comedians on America's Got Talent? Because we had a friend who was gonna got asked audition and and I've had many friends on that show. Gary Veder did really well on that show. Taylor Williamson did really well on that show. I think, uh, Joe Mackey did great on that show. Doogie Horner sure, or Tom Cotter who had a great one of my favorite jokes talk about I can't remember bits. I'll never forget Tom Cotter. He was on Last Comic Standing. I think the season one he made a joke about my wife can count all the people she's slept with before on one hand with a calculator.

Especially America's got talent comedians, is that they're looking for a very specific type of comedian and with a puppet. Yeah, yeah, you need a puppet.

Especially America's got talent comedians, is that they're looking for a very specific type of comedian and with a puppet. Yeah, yeah, you need a puppet.

Don't you need a puppet? Tears win this show or one?

Don't you need a puppet? Tears win this show or one?

A disproportionate amount of the ventril quists do very well on the show. Yeah, it's crazy.

A disproportionate amount of the ventril quists do very well on the show. Yeah, it's crazy.

I don't care for it.

I don't care for it.

But you have to go out there and you have to be you have to do short jokes. You have three minutes, and they have to be like family friendly based.

But you have to go out there and you have to be you have to do short jokes. You have three minutes, and they have to be like family friendly based.

All those comics I mentioned are one liner guys.

All those comics I mentioned are one liner guys.

Yeah. Gary Vetter is the exception, because I know that Gary Vetters definitely not like a like the main.

Yeah. Gary Vetter is the exception, because I know that Gary Vetters definitely not like a like the main.

Family guy. No, but he is at his heart he's such a sweetheart, and I think that came through. And he's a great joke writer. So yeah, it was interesting. But yeah, Taylor Williamson is also like a kind of a one liner type guy. Yeah, I just uh, I guess I just don't care. What did you like? Watch it when Howard Stern was a course or a judge, the best judge.

Family guy. No, but he is at his heart he's such a sweetheart, and I think that came through. And he's a great joke writer. So yeah, it was interesting. But yeah, Taylor Williamson is also like a kind of a one liner type guy. Yeah, I just uh, I guess I just don't care. What did you like? Watch it when Howard Stern was a course or a judge, the best judge.

I mean it's Simon cow You can't beat a curmudgeon that softens, Yeah, especially one with all that power.

I mean it's Simon cow You can't beat a curmudgeon that softens, Yeah, especially one with all that power.

There is something like, man, do you want to win him over?

There is something like, man, do you want to win him over?

Man? When I want.

Man? When I want.

Simon Cowell to like me and to see something in me even though I don't really care for him.

Simon Cowell to like me and to see something in me even though I don't really care for him.

Yeah, what is that now? Howard Stern amazing though, I mean he was great.

Yeah, what is that now? Howard Stern amazing though, I mean he was great.

I don't know if it's my daddy issues, because my dad's never not loved me. But there's something about an asshole who or just someone who's just uh yeah, who doesn't seem to like things. It's highly discerning. Even if there was some quote I've read the other day that was like, oh, I know what it was. Can we go through these? I want to just talk about these. I put it on my Instagram story yesterday, But it's Uh, it was from Reddit, and it's was on the subreddit life hacks, and they post it on Instagram. But it's like I turned seventy two today. Here's thirty two things I've learned that I hope you hope help you in your journey you want to go through some you're really helpful. Number one, it's usually better to be nice than right. And that's true. Yeah, kind I mean nice not nice. Kind is like the most support. Nice is fake to me.

I don't know if it's my daddy issues, because my dad's never not loved me. But there's something about an asshole who or just someone who's just uh yeah, who doesn't seem to like things. It's highly discerning. Even if there was some quote I've read the other day that was like, oh, I know what it was. Can we go through these? I want to just talk about these. I put it on my Instagram story yesterday, But it's Uh, it was from Reddit, and it's was on the subreddit life hacks, and they post it on Instagram. But it's like I turned seventy two today. Here's thirty two things I've learned that I hope you hope help you in your journey you want to go through some you're really helpful. Number one, it's usually better to be nice than right. And that's true. Yeah, kind I mean nice not nice. Kind is like the most support. Nice is fake to me.

Nice sometimes implicates so you're kind of like a pushover where people walk all over you.

Nice sometimes implicates so you're kind of like a pushover where people walk all over you.

That's my interpretation.

That's my interpretation.

I really like I'd rather have a mean pilot than a wrong pilot.

I really like I'd rather have a mean pilot than a wrong pilot.

It's a good point.

It's a good point.

Or a surgeon. I don't know. I don't know if it's all said.

Or a surgeon. I don't know. I don't know if it's all said.

Good landing to a pilot the other day because it was really bumpy on the way in and I had a dream that our plane crashed and it just skidded. You guys have lots of people to have this. I remember Andrew Colin when we used to travel together. He also, when you're on a plane and you sleep, you have a dream that you're flying in a plane through a city and you're going weaving through buildings and you can see. It's like you're at a car. You can see ahead of you, you can see behind you, and you're kind of okay with it. You're a little bit scared, and sometimes you have to land on a highway. It happens to me a lot, and I know what happens to other people when they sleep on planes. But I had that dream, and then the wind gusts were kind of like making us go like we as we were landing, and then we landed so smoothly that I, oh, I have a talent. Do you want I could go to Mariska got talent? See if you like this talent? Anytime? Well, i'd have to be on a plane. I can predict within one second when the wheels will hit the ground now and it'll be yes, exactly, I will know, like.

Good landing to a pilot the other day because it was really bumpy on the way in and I had a dream that our plane crashed and it just skidded. You guys have lots of people to have this. I remember Andrew Colin when we used to travel together. He also, when you're on a plane and you sleep, you have a dream that you're flying in a plane through a city and you're going weaving through buildings and you can see. It's like you're at a car. You can see ahead of you, you can see behind you, and you're kind of okay with it. You're a little bit scared, and sometimes you have to land on a highway. It happens to me a lot, and I know what happens to other people when they sleep on planes. But I had that dream, and then the wind gusts were kind of like making us go like we as we were landing, and then we landed so smoothly that I, oh, I have a talent. Do you want I could go to Mariska got talent? See if you like this talent? Anytime? Well, i'd have to be on a plane. I can predict within one second when the wheels will hit the ground now and it'll be yes, exactly, I will know, like.

On the show.

On the show.

But that's pretty impressive, though. I am so in tune with it. I've flown so much. I mean, I can't have a whole Vegas residency opposite Seline Dion predicting when simulating in a plane and being able to call when it lands. I don't even tell this that anyone. It's just in my head. I don't even know. I can't even celebrate it with someone in the seat next to me. Chris wouldn't give a shit, but I can always feel it. I just know based on and I guess. I don't know if that is quite a talent, but yeah, I would.

But that's pretty impressive, though. I am so in tune with it. I've flown so much. I mean, I can't have a whole Vegas residency opposite Seline Dion predicting when simulating in a plane and being able to call when it lands. I don't even tell this that anyone. It's just in my head. I don't even know. I can't even celebrate it with someone in the seat next to me. Chris wouldn't give a shit, but I can always feel it. I just know based on and I guess. I don't know if that is quite a talent, but yeah, I would.

Well, that's pretty cool. Next time I'm on a plane with you.

Well, that's pretty cool. Next time I'm on a plane with you.

What you're know that if planes have a rough landing where it's like boom, that means they were you can usually tell a pilot if a pilot was in the Navy or the Air Force. Fu do you know this? I swear to God. No, No, The Army or the Air Force have different landing styles. So usually pilots have been in the military at some point, and so if they land harshly, they were in the Air Force, I think, or it might be the other way around, but it's generally is like there's a two categories, and a hard landing is not a bad landing. It's just a style of landing that they learned. Wow, okay, but that's it's been. I've brought it up to someone that knows it and they said, yes, that's true, and I read it read at one time.

What you're know that if planes have a rough landing where it's like boom, that means they were you can usually tell a pilot if a pilot was in the Navy or the Air Force. Fu do you know this? I swear to God. No, No, The Army or the Air Force have different landing styles. So usually pilots have been in the military at some point, and so if they land harshly, they were in the Air Force, I think, or it might be the other way around, but it's generally is like there's a two categories, and a hard landing is not a bad landing. It's just a style of landing that they learned. Wow, okay, but that's it's been. I've brought it up to someone that knows it and they said, yes, that's true, and I read it read at one time.

My guess is that the hard landing is from the Navy because they have to land on aircraft carriers which have a lot shorter runway, so they got to slam down and stop, whereas air Force they have an actual runway they can glide onto.

My guess is that the hard landing is from the Navy because they have to land on aircraft carriers which have a lot shorter runway, so they got to slam down and stop, whereas air Force they have an actual runway they can glide onto.

That's just my Okay, let's see, let's see if anything comes up. Yeah, no, it's it's it's not coming up. But there that is a difference. Someone can You can google yourselves if you guys are interested. Okay. Number two, Nothing worthwhile comes easy? What about love? What about unconditional love? No, love is not supposed to be easy. What about from your parent? I mean is that always easy? Though? It should be? Your parents should love you just your parents are a human. They're gonna make mistakes, they're going to be emotional. But also, but you shouldn't have to have effort in getting your parents love. No one's ever said to a child you just didn't try hard enough to get your mom to like you. You know what I mean? It should come easy. It doesn't mean that.

That's just my Okay, let's see, let's see if anything comes up. Yeah, no, it's it's it's not coming up. But there that is a difference. Someone can You can google yourselves if you guys are interested. Okay. Number two, Nothing worthwhile comes easy? What about love? What about unconditional love? No, love is not supposed to be easy. What about from your parent? I mean is that always easy? Though? It should be? Your parents should love you just your parents are a human. They're gonna make mistakes, they're going to be emotional. But also, but you shouldn't have to have effort in getting your parents love. No one's ever said to a child you just didn't try hard enough to get your mom to like you. You know what I mean? It should come easy. It doesn't mean that.

It does for the child. Maybe it should, of course. What about life?

It does for the child. Maybe it should, of course. What about life?

Nothing worthwhile comes easy? Yeah, life does come easy.

Nothing worthwhile comes easy? Yeah, life does come easy.

It's hard for your mom because you've got to push you out. Sorry Noah, but like for the child. I guess it is kind of traumatizing for the child to get squeezed through also, so maybe it's not well the.

It's hard for your mom because you've got to push you out. Sorry Noah, but like for the child. I guess it is kind of traumatizing for the child to get squeezed through also, so maybe it's not well the.

Child has to rotate in there and like make you know, make their way down because they go all the way from like their head being up where your boobs are.

Child has to rotate in there and like make you know, make their way down because they go all the way from like their head being up where your boobs are.

Oh my god. Really, so they do have a role in it, but they don't even know what they're doing. It's just instinct, right, Like they're not like I'm going to persevere, yeah, but they're not just like hanging out there. But it's not easy. I'm trying to think of something that's come easy. Nothing worthwhile. Sorry, friendships for me have been easy. Friendship.

Oh my god. Really, so they do have a role in it, but they don't even know what they're doing. It's just instinct, right, Like they're not like I'm going to persevere, yeah, but they're not just like hanging out there. But it's not easy. I'm trying to think of something that's come easy. Nothing worthwhile. Sorry, friendships for me have been easy. Friendship.

You're the one who says that like through adversity or like difficulty or stepping outside of your comfort zone, that's where people read can grow. So isn't that like the challenge? If things come too easy, people don't appreciate it.

You're the one who says that like through adversity or like difficulty or stepping outside of your comfort zone, that's where people read can grow. So isn't that like the challenge? If things come too easy, people don't appreciate it.

But I'm not saying nothing worthwhile comes easy. There are some things that are worthwhile that you come easy. And I would say some people struggle to make friendships. It has not been something that has been a struggle for me in my life, just because I've gotten lucky. There have been other things I'll say with some stuff, and pilates comes very easy to some people, and I know it's all hard work. But I cried today in pilates again. I like, welld up with tears once again because my body won't do what I'm supposed to do. And my teacher showed me a little bit of compassion, which is the number one thing to get me to cry, as if someone just goes like I know and then I just go. The other day that it happened, I was not bawling, but it was like I could have been balling. I just didn't want to do it because it's a small room. But my teacher the other day was like, I was like, she gets sense that I was getting so frustrated, and I was like, why can't my body do this when it's so like most people can. And I'm not lying like it's it's not me being hyperbolic, like it really most people can do this thing. And she was just like, I don't know. She's like I don't know, and she goes, sometimes I cry because my body won't do what it's supposed to do. And her saying that it literally the second she said cry. I was like no, and I just it started flying out of my face because it just gave me permission that that was an okay response to how frustrating this fucking feeling is. I literally I don't feel safe in bloodies anymore because I I've cried the past two sessions. I don't know what's happening to me. Frustrated. I thought I was crushing it and I'm not. I like, the thing is I did. This is what I got in high school. I was never the best. I was always the most hard working. That's what I am in plates. I will give it to myself. I'm probably the most hard working person who's bad at it that there is. But I am not achieving things. I am so because I've been going to classes.

But I'm not saying nothing worthwhile comes easy. There are some things that are worthwhile that you come easy. And I would say some people struggle to make friendships. It has not been something that has been a struggle for me in my life, just because I've gotten lucky. There have been other things I'll say with some stuff, and pilates comes very easy to some people, and I know it's all hard work. But I cried today in pilates again. I like, welld up with tears once again because my body won't do what I'm supposed to do. And my teacher showed me a little bit of compassion, which is the number one thing to get me to cry, as if someone just goes like I know and then I just go. The other day that it happened, I was not bawling, but it was like I could have been balling. I just didn't want to do it because it's a small room. But my teacher the other day was like, I was like, she gets sense that I was getting so frustrated, and I was like, why can't my body do this when it's so like most people can. And I'm not lying like it's it's not me being hyperbolic, like it really most people can do this thing. And she was just like, I don't know. She's like I don't know, and she goes, sometimes I cry because my body won't do what it's supposed to do. And her saying that it literally the second she said cry. I was like no, and I just it started flying out of my face because it just gave me permission that that was an okay response to how frustrating this fucking feeling is. I literally I don't feel safe in bloodies anymore because I I've cried the past two sessions. I don't know what's happening to me. Frustrated. I thought I was crushing it and I'm not. I like, the thing is I did. This is what I got in high school. I was never the best. I was always the most hard working. That's what I am in plates. I will give it to myself. I'm probably the most hard working person who's bad at it that there is. But I am not achieving things. I am so because I've been going to classes.

You're gonna get to a point where it just clicks. It becomes a part of your muscle memory.

You're gonna get to a point where it just clicks. It becomes a part of your muscle memory.

It's inevidence of three to four times a week, and it is still. I've been going to other classes where there's girls that I know just do these classes three times a week. They're not doing like for ten years. And no, they're young, they're all college students and they have the strength. I just don't I don't even understand. It's just so upsetting when you think you're doing players. No, they're like these tiny girls that look like they're kind of just like not really trying that hard, Like they're just like, oh, I just did one class a week on Saturdays. Like I can tell.

It's inevidence of three to four times a week, and it is still. I've been going to other classes where there's girls that I know just do these classes three times a week. They're not doing like for ten years. And no, they're young, they're all college students and they have the strength. I just don't I don't even understand. It's just so upsetting when you think you're doing players. No, they're like these tiny girls that look like they're kind of just like not really trying that hard, Like they're just like, oh, I just did one class a week on Saturdays. Like I can tell.

It's that kind of girl and in their twenties, so their body is able to.

It's that kind of girl and in their twenties, so their body is able to.

It's not about that, it really and I know there's I'm not sure. I'm just saying I'm just different. And then today my teacher was just like people just have different anatomies. You just weren't born with a body that can do that. And that's just where I want to just quit life.

It's not about that, it really and I know there's I'm not sure. I'm just saying I'm just different. And then today my teacher was just like people just have different anatomies. You just weren't born with a body that can do that. And that's just where I want to just quit life.

I just feel so frustrated. Nothing with nothing worthwhile comes easy. So you got to do it, I know.

I just feel so frustrated. Nothing with nothing worthwhile comes easy. So you got to do it, I know.

But I am gonna keep trying. It's just sad when you dry really hard and you're not seeing the results that you want.

But I am gonna keep trying. It's just sad when you dry really hard and you're not seeing the results that you want.

Story of my life.

Story of my life.

Really with your teeth and your mattress.

Really with your teeth and your mattress.

Any apply it to anything. It's with playing piano. I'm like, I can't get good enough with doing stand up. I can't get good enough with just like trying to really.

Any apply it to anything. It's with playing piano. I'm like, I can't get good enough with doing stand up. I can't get good enough with just like trying to really.

Yeah, I feel like, yeah, I no, I don't I don't with what about stand up? I don't agree with you. I just feel like, yeah, you're as good as you do it as many times as you do it like that, if you do it a lot, you're amazing, and if you're not doing it a lot, you're not. Like that's just seems to be the way it works for everyone, and I think for you as well, and piano, are you reach a roadblock?

Yeah, I feel like, yeah, I no, I don't I don't with what about stand up? I don't agree with you. I just feel like, yeah, you're as good as you do it as many times as you do it like that, if you do it a lot, you're amazing, and if you're not doing it a lot, you're not. Like that's just seems to be the way it works for everyone, and I think for you as well, and piano, are you reach a roadblock?

It's just I just wish I was better every time I play, Like, God, why can't I play this faster? Why can't I play in tempo? Why can't Why do I keep messing this up? It's just like it just I'm sure it's the same way with anyone who's playing an instrument as an adult. It's just like, why, I just want to be better at this?

It's just I just wish I was better every time I play, Like, God, why can't I play this faster? Why can't I play in tempo? Why can't Why do I keep messing this up? It's just like it just I'm sure it's the same way with anyone who's playing an instrument as an adult. It's just like, why, I just want to be better at this?

And that's the reason I quit as a kid was because I didn't I wouldn't put up with that as a kid, because I didn't realize, like it's you need to be bad, Like it's okay to be bad. I'm more comfortable being bad, But it's just as like, I think you fuck up as much as a kid, But as a kid, I couldn't handle being bader than anything, and so I would quit and now I just keep going and just I'm like, I guess I just suck And this is gonna sound weird. All right, we have to go to break. We'll get to more of these numbers when.

And that's the reason I quit as a kid was because I didn't I wouldn't put up with that as a kid, because I didn't realize, like it's you need to be bad, Like it's okay to be bad. I'm more comfortable being bad, But it's just as like, I think you fuck up as much as a kid, But as a kid, I couldn't handle being bader than anything, and so I would quit and now I just keep going and just I'm like, I guess I just suck And this is gonna sound weird. All right, we have to go to break. We'll get to more of these numbers when.

We get back.

We get back.

Okay, three, number three on things that he learned when he was seventy seventy two.

Okay, three, number three on things that he learned when he was seventy seventy two.

This is like, seventy two is kind of young though, because like, I don't know about your parents, but my parents, my parents are like seventy two and they don't but they're not.

This is like, seventy two is kind of young though, because like, I don't know about your parents, but my parents, my parents are like seventy two and they don't but they're not.

This person is definitely in twelve step program and like has done a lot of work on themselves based on everything, the whole list. I wouldn't take this list from my parents, no offense to them. Yeah, but this person seems based on what we get into later, you'll see Okay, number three work on a passion project. Even just thirty minutes a day, it compounds. Yeah, that's piano for you, right, Brian, don't you play it like an hour day?

This person is definitely in twelve step program and like has done a lot of work on themselves based on everything, the whole list. I wouldn't take this list from my parents, no offense to them. Yeah, but this person seems based on what we get into later, you'll see Okay, number three work on a passion project. Even just thirty minutes a day, it compounds. Yeah, that's piano for you, right, Brian, don't you play it like an hour day?

I play well. Piano is also kind of like meditative, like I'll play for as long as possible and it just makes it calms me down.

I play well. Piano is also kind of like meditative, like I'll play for as long as possible and it just makes it calms me down.

But what about when you start to suck and you feel frustrated. Does that calm you down? Or do you just play things that you feel comfortable doing?

But what about when you start to suck and you feel frustrated. Does that calm you down? Or do you just play things that you feel comfortable doing?

No, No, I push myself for sure. I think it calms me when I'm playing it, even if I suck, and really I get frustrated, like thinking about it later. Or when I get really frustrated is when there's a situation where there's a piano and there's in public or something, and like I can't because that's your Yeah, are.

No, No, I push myself for sure. I think it calms me when I'm playing it, even if I suck, and really I get frustrated, like thinking about it later. Or when I get really frustrated is when there's a situation where there's a piano and there's in public or something, and like I can't because that's your Yeah, are.

Able to play in public?

Able to play in public?

Yeah?

Yeah?

For one song for thirty minutes? Okay? Sorry at.

For one song for thirty minutes? Okay? Sorry at.

Forty Yeah, I just need to do three Taylor Swift songs or one Mozart concerto and sit down and do it. I can play songs, not like I have like a It's not like I'm just playing.

Forty Yeah, I just need to do three Taylor Swift songs or one Mozart concerto and sit down and do it. I can play songs, not like I have like a It's not like I'm just playing.

I want to see you play. Do you ever bring in on the road with you like a little keyboard.

I want to see you play. Do you ever bring in on the road with you like a little keyboard.

No, I thought about it. There's a you can buy a foldable keyboard. Yeah. I was thinking about it for when we were doing f Boy, because I was like, it would be nice to have a piano, especially if there was like yeah for like that long of just like constantly being there in that place.

No, I thought about it. There's a you can buy a foldable keyboard. Yeah. I was thinking about it for when we were doing f Boy, because I was like, it would be nice to have a piano, especially if there was like yeah for like that long of just like constantly being there in that place.

M hmm, we could play I could play guitar with you. We could have jammed so.

M hmm, we could play I could play guitar with you. We could have jammed so.

That I can do I think I can accompany.

That I can do I think I can accompany.

Oh that's cool, all right, Well that let's do F boy again. Let's see how it goes. Lovers and Liars April eleventh. By the way, people keep going, people keep writing and be like, congrats on your new show, and I keep bringing back what show? Like, I don't even know what they're talking about, right, because first of all, we taped it so long ago that it doesn't make sense that it's even like coming out now. I mean, it wasn't. It was less than a year ago, but it was September, you know. And so Lovers and Liars, which is practically F Girl Island, that's what we shot it as. The name is Jane is F Girl Island. Three guys looking for love. They were they were f boys and seasons prior, but now they actually want love and it's real. And then there are a bunch of girls and half of them are f girls and half of them are nice girls. And they guys have to decide who and the girls are. It's fucking nuts, dude's and we couldn't predict who was who. We all like played along it was so fun. It's gonna be good lovers and liars. That's what it's called. April eleventh on the CW. Okay, yeah, we're gonna do you work on a passion project? Noah, Yeah, I guess it's that. But yeah, I mean now you don't you're pregnant so you can just take off. Yeah. I kind of hate this one.

Oh that's cool, all right, Well that let's do F boy again. Let's see how it goes. Lovers and Liars April eleventh. By the way, people keep going, people keep writing and be like, congrats on your new show, and I keep bringing back what show? Like, I don't even know what they're talking about, right, because first of all, we taped it so long ago that it doesn't make sense that it's even like coming out now. I mean, it wasn't. It was less than a year ago, but it was September, you know. And so Lovers and Liars, which is practically F Girl Island, that's what we shot it as. The name is Jane is F Girl Island. Three guys looking for love. They were they were f boys and seasons prior, but now they actually want love and it's real. And then there are a bunch of girls and half of them are f girls and half of them are nice girls. And they guys have to decide who and the girls are. It's fucking nuts, dude's and we couldn't predict who was who. We all like played along it was so fun. It's gonna be good lovers and liars. That's what it's called. April eleventh on the CW. Okay, yeah, we're gonna do you work on a passion project? Noah, Yeah, I guess it's that. But yeah, I mean now you don't you're pregnant so you can just take off. Yeah. I kind of hate this one.

I don't like this kind of expectation because it's like, I don't know what my passion project is. I'm not passionate about anything.

I don't like this kind of expectation because it's like, I don't know what my passion project is. I'm not passionate about anything.

What I've never heard you say anything like that. What about jiu jitsu be jj?

What I've never heard you say anything like that. What about jiu jitsu be jj?

Yes, I love jiu jitsu. I guess maybe because I can't do it now. I feel so like pulled out of the world. Yeah, but besides that, I don't I mean, like I've gone through my guitar phase. I was obsessed with it, Brian. I can totally relate to what you're saying. I've done that, Like I play guitar for like twenty years and now I just like it's just like right there in the corner. I don't I got my custom guitar now I don't care about it.

Yes, I love jiu jitsu. I guess maybe because I can't do it now. I feel so like pulled out of the world. Yeah, but besides that, I don't I mean, like I've gone through my guitar phase. I was obsessed with it, Brian. I can totally relate to what you're saying. I've done that, Like I play guitar for like twenty years and now I just like it's just like right there in the corner. I don't I got my custom guitar now I don't care about it.

So it's like I've been just sitting in you. Yeah, but I don't care. I don't care about it, so you just don't. It doesn't inspire you at all. Yeah, so I don't know what my passion is.

So it's like I've been just sitting in you. Yeah, but I don't care. I don't care about it, so you just don't. It doesn't inspire you at all. Yeah, so I don't know what my passion is.

I'm trying to figure it out.

I'm trying to figure it out.

I only like playing.

I only like playing.

You could put it in the corner.

You could put it in the corner.

Yeah, that's true. Just thirty minutes on that thing a day, that's all you need to do. Yes, Someone that that day was like, what brings you joy? And I was like, and they're like, guitar, and I'm like, only if I'm in the mood for it, that's not something I reached for, and go, wow, I feel better now, Like I don't relate to Brian being like it calms you. If I'm in a good mood already, and I'm feeling a high level of self esteem and competency in my own self, then I can play guitar, because guitar makes me feel inadequate. And so if I'm already strong, I can pick up a guitar and go like, Okay, it's okay. I'm still a good person. But if I'm looking to feel good outside of myself, I would never pick up a guitar. It's only gonna make me feel worse.

Yeah, that's true. Just thirty minutes on that thing a day, that's all you need to do. Yes, Someone that that day was like, what brings you joy? And I was like, and they're like, guitar, and I'm like, only if I'm in the mood for it, that's not something I reached for, and go, wow, I feel better now, Like I don't relate to Brian being like it calms you. If I'm in a good mood already, and I'm feeling a high level of self esteem and competency in my own self, then I can play guitar, because guitar makes me feel inadequate. And so if I'm already strong, I can pick up a guitar and go like, Okay, it's okay. I'm still a good person. But if I'm looking to feel good outside of myself, I would never pick up a guitar. It's only gonna make me feel worse.

Yes, so what do you do, like if you're just kind of like, you know what? I want to feel joy right now. I'm gonna go do this because I really like it.

Yes, so what do you do, like if you're just kind of like, you know what? I want to feel joy right now. I'm gonna go do this because I really like it.

I think I've been walking on a treadmill. I am obsessed with it. I can't every day because I'm gonna get injured because I can't help. But like, I want to work up like a sweat and I hate when people brag about like I love exercising. So I really am sorry that I'm saying this. This is just a phase I'm going through where I don't. I just don't because I don't have anything to do and I cannot be still and I have so much work on my plate that I should be doing at any given moment. When I'm on a treadmill, I feel like I can't do other things, that I can only listen to music and disappear into it. That it's like an excuse to not do anything. Joy.

I think I've been walking on a treadmill. I am obsessed with it. I can't every day because I'm gonna get injured because I can't help. But like, I want to work up like a sweat and I hate when people brag about like I love exercising. So I really am sorry that I'm saying this. This is just a phase I'm going through where I don't. I just don't because I don't have anything to do and I cannot be still and I have so much work on my plate that I should be doing at any given moment. When I'm on a treadmill, I feel like I can't do other things, that I can only listen to music and disappear into it. That it's like an excuse to not do anything. Joy.

I'm not talking about avoiding stuff, but like, does it actually bring you, like, does it make you happy?

I'm not talking about avoiding stuff, but like, does it actually bring you, like, does it make you happy?

It does?

It does?

It does being on a plane where there's no Wi Fi or two.

It does being on a plane where there's no Wi Fi or two.

Anesthesia, Yes, that was awesome, sleeping napping, and I've been having really bad dreams. I think my body's like, we're not letting you get away with us anymore, because I've been having horrifying dreams because that's been my escape recently, going through a little bit of a down downward, uh not spiral, but like but just been feeling down recently and really like I can't figure out what to do with my time. Like I eat and then I'm like, Okay, then I'll nap. Okay, Now I'll go on a treadmill. Now I'll go do a pilates class, and then I'll feel accomplished after that and I won't feel the need to do anything else. There's I will have had a full day. Then I'll do therapy, and then after that I'll fel accomplished. But when I hang up the zoom call with a therapist, or when I walk out of the plate's class and I'm drenched in sweat, there is just another feeling of what's next? What are you going to do next? I don't know what to do in that time. I'm not unless there's a pedophile documentary, I don't feel like watching anything. I really and I heard there is going to be an extra quiet on set episode that they're adding about Drake Bell in addition, So I'm very excited about that. But I don't I don't know what to do with my time. I guess coloring books might be something to turn to books in general. I want to get involved in another book. This morning, I woke up and I read a bunch of articles in magazines that I wanted to read. I just don't know what to do to fill up my time.

Anesthesia, Yes, that was awesome, sleeping napping, and I've been having really bad dreams. I think my body's like, we're not letting you get away with us anymore, because I've been having horrifying dreams because that's been my escape recently, going through a little bit of a down downward, uh not spiral, but like but just been feeling down recently and really like I can't figure out what to do with my time. Like I eat and then I'm like, Okay, then I'll nap. Okay, Now I'll go on a treadmill. Now I'll go do a pilates class, and then I'll feel accomplished after that and I won't feel the need to do anything else. There's I will have had a full day. Then I'll do therapy, and then after that I'll fel accomplished. But when I hang up the zoom call with a therapist, or when I walk out of the plate's class and I'm drenched in sweat, there is just another feeling of what's next? What are you going to do next? I don't know what to do in that time. I'm not unless there's a pedophile documentary, I don't feel like watching anything. I really and I heard there is going to be an extra quiet on set episode that they're adding about Drake Bell in addition, So I'm very excited about that. But I don't I don't know what to do with my time. I guess coloring books might be something to turn to books in general. I want to get involved in another book. This morning, I woke up and I read a bunch of articles in magazines that I wanted to read. I just don't know what to do to fill up my time.

Maybe you need structure. I mean that's how I feel. Whenever I don't have a job. It's like the store, I feel a lot happier. Yeah, you need to go to that store and buy.

Maybe you need structure. I mean that's how I feel. Whenever I don't have a job. It's like the store, I feel a lot happier. Yeah, you need to go to that store and buy.

Some gone since I started.

Some gone since I started.

Okay, whenever I don't have a job and I have to like be at an office or at least be in meetings from like nine am until five pm or longer with a full project, or like being on f boy or something like that, it I get depressed. I get like depressed three months after the job ends because I like the break. But then after too much of a break where there's nothing to do, where there's no structure, it I start to get depressed. And then you have to find your own structure, which is like really difficult to do on a consistent basis.

Okay, whenever I don't have a job and I have to like be at an office or at least be in meetings from like nine am until five pm or longer with a full project, or like being on f boy or something like that, it I get depressed. I get like depressed three months after the job ends because I like the break. But then after too much of a break where there's nothing to do, where there's no structure, it I start to get depressed. And then you have to find your own structure, which is like really difficult to do on a consistent basis.

You need discipline for that. Yeah, yes, And I have discipline, like if I if it's on my calendar, I'm going to do it. Like I have a voice lesson day, I just went to pilates, I have this podcast. Those are my three hour chunks that have I'm going to dinner with my parents. But in those other hours that I'm awake, I'm really I'll probably walk an hour on a treadmill, just casually, but then I'll I'll probably go too art and then my knee will start hurting and I'll go, I have to stop. And then I'm like, that went out? What do I do? And then I'll try to do like a meditation, and then I'll get bored and like I think I'm just running from voices in my head. I just cannot believe. I just don't know what I I just need more friends or something. I need more phone calls. But at the same time, I talk too much, and I gotta stop talking all the time, Like I talk for a living, and so when I'm not working, I need to be more quiet. So if anyone has some good ideas of stuff to do that really occupies your time, maybe collaging maybe like making a uh do.

You need discipline for that. Yeah, yes, And I have discipline, like if I if it's on my calendar, I'm going to do it. Like I have a voice lesson day, I just went to pilates, I have this podcast. Those are my three hour chunks that have I'm going to dinner with my parents. But in those other hours that I'm awake, I'm really I'll probably walk an hour on a treadmill, just casually, but then I'll I'll probably go too art and then my knee will start hurting and I'll go, I have to stop. And then I'm like, that went out? What do I do? And then I'll try to do like a meditation, and then I'll get bored and like I think I'm just running from voices in my head. I just cannot believe. I just don't know what I I just need more friends or something. I need more phone calls. But at the same time, I talk too much, and I gotta stop talking all the time, Like I talk for a living, and so when I'm not working, I need to be more quiet. So if anyone has some good ideas of stuff to do that really occupies your time, maybe collaging maybe like making a uh do.

You have to be at home? Like would you rather be out?

You have to be at home? Like would you rather be out?

Go out?

Go out?

But a dog to walk or something?

But a dog to walk or something?

You can volunteer at the bird sanctuary in Saint Louis.

You can volunteer at the bird sanctuary in Saint Louis.

It's just another thing I'll be expected to do. Though, And then if I decide, like, here's the thing about lessons and like pilates and things that you take on that are extracurriculars. When you when your work does get busy again and you can't devote as much time to those things, those people take offense. And I know that it's not my problem that they do, but there's like a managing of there because they go, you could be so good at this if you just devoted the time. And I'm like, but I am not a professional plates Like no one's ever said that pilates.

It's just another thing I'll be expected to do. Though, And then if I decide, like, here's the thing about lessons and like pilates and things that you take on that are extracurriculars. When you when your work does get busy again and you can't devote as much time to those things, those people take offense. And I know that it's not my problem that they do, but there's like a managing of there because they go, you could be so good at this if you just devoted the time. And I'm like, but I am not a professional plates Like no one's ever said that pilates.

But yeah, volunteering, I think is a different mindset because they just appreciate even if you give like a half hour and that's it. They'll take anything. And then you could just play with birds and stuff.

But yeah, volunteering, I think is a different mindset because they just appreciate even if you give like a half hour and that's it. They'll take anything. And then you could just play with birds and stuff.

That'd be cool to clean bird cages and feel like that would actually make me feel like I did say it's idea.

That'd be cool to clean bird cages and feel like that would actually make me feel like I did say it's idea.

Yeah, Barack Obama is so in demand and busy that every single minute of his day is pretty much scheduled out, and he has just like people around him that are making sure he stays on schedule. And he has just a binder that he gets handed every week and then weekend that he has to like, here are the things you have to look through, and here's when you have to look through them. And so he even has to schedule and like and now two hours to be with my family into the schedule, because every minute of his life is worth, like, you know, twenty thousand dollars or whatever, So every little minute is schedule that everybody wants a piece.

Yeah, Barack Obama is so in demand and busy that every single minute of his day is pretty much scheduled out, and he has just like people around him that are making sure he stays on schedule. And he has just a binder that he gets handed every week and then weekend that he has to like, here are the things you have to look through, and here's when you have to look through them. And so he even has to schedule and like and now two hours to be with my family into the schedule, because every minute of his life is worth, like, you know, twenty thousand dollars or whatever, So every little minute is schedule that everybody wants a piece.

Yea's a lot, though I don't think you'd want your life if I'd like that, I'd honestly like that. I'd like it because I love my calendar when I'm like, I know, I have this and this, Like today it got a little messed up because I messed up on times, and I really don't like that I always leave a ten minute window to like walk to the next place, or like send an email in between, or pick up a coffee and then get there right on time. Everything's really regiment and I don't like having, like at the end of this podcast. I have a voiceless in it too, But we're kind of probably gonna end at like one twenty, and then that means I have twenty minutes before I have to get in the car, and I don't that twenty minutes. I'll probably just eat and I'm not even hungry. But I don't know what else. So let's think of something I can do in that twenty minutes.

Yea's a lot, though I don't think you'd want your life if I'd like that, I'd honestly like that. I'd like it because I love my calendar when I'm like, I know, I have this and this, Like today it got a little messed up because I messed up on times, and I really don't like that I always leave a ten minute window to like walk to the next place, or like send an email in between, or pick up a coffee and then get there right on time. Everything's really regiment and I don't like having, like at the end of this podcast. I have a voiceless in it too, But we're kind of probably gonna end at like one twenty, and then that means I have twenty minutes before I have to get in the car, and I don't that twenty minutes. I'll probably just eat and I'm not even hungry. But I don't know what else. So let's think of something I can do in that twenty minutes.

You can vocal warm ups. Oh god, you can write a schedule.

You can vocal warm ups. Oh god, you can write a schedule.

I could write a schedule.

I could write a schedule.

Write a schedule for the rest of the day. See how it goes.

Write a schedule for the rest of the day. See how it goes.

Okay, But you can talk to me, Okay, I could talk to you.

Okay, But you can talk to me, Okay, I could talk to you.

Yeah, we could talk about podcast stuff.

Yeah, we could talk about podcast stuff.

Okay.

Okay.

Yeah, God, that.

Yeah, God, that.

Does not sound good to me. That's just like that that sounds stressful to me because it's stuff that I got. I avoid everything. This is the biggest problem in my relationship is that I don't ever want to talk about the future. I don't want to schedule things because I don't I like doing things. I like talking about what I have to do instantly. What do you say?

Does not sound good to me. That's just like that that sounds stressful to me because it's stuff that I got. I avoid everything. This is the biggest problem in my relationship is that I don't ever want to talk about the future. I don't want to schedule things because I don't I like doing things. I like talking about what I have to do instantly. What do you say?

This is the conundrum, Like, it is a schedule, but you don't love to schedule things.

This is the conundrum, Like, it is a schedule, but you don't love to schedule things.

No, so you can't schedule things. That's why working on a show is perfect, because you need someone else to make the schedule and you don't know what it is. And then someone says you have to be here in five minutes, and right that.

No, so you can't schedule things. That's why working on a show is perfect, because you need someone else to make the schedule and you don't know what it is. And then someone says you have to be here in five minutes, and right that.

Finder to show up on my doorstep.

Finder to show up on my doorstep.

You're not even thinking about this schedule. It's just I just finished my forty five minute speech to the Unhoused Committee or whatever, and now someone's like, all right, you got to go to Tacoma. And it's like, what the fuck? And then you're on a plane Tacoma before you even know it.

You're not even thinking about this schedule. It's just I just finished my forty five minute speech to the Unhoused Committee or whatever, and now someone's like, all right, you got to go to Tacoma. And it's like, what the fuck? And then you're on a plane Tacoma before you even know it.

Yes, I love that, Yeah, I just what do you do with these spaces when you guys have like twenty minutes to kill? If you like had twenty minutes before you need to go somewhere, like, what would you do? Uh? Really have nothing to do?

Yes, I love that, Yeah, I just what do you do with these spaces when you guys have like twenty minutes to kill? If you like had twenty minutes before you need to go somewhere, like, what would you do? Uh? Really have nothing to do?

Gamble on a sport? Usually? Also like what basketball game is happening right now? Can I play a bet on it?

Gamble on a sport? Usually? Also like what basketball game is happening right now? Can I play a bet on it?

Oh my gosh if.

Oh my gosh if.

I had, yeah, probably like play with my cat or something, play with your.

I had, yeah, probably like play with my cat or something, play with your.

Yet sometimes I'll play with Noah's cats sometimes too.

Yet sometimes I'll play with Noah's cats sometimes too.

Hey, virtually, Okay, So I guess I have to get a gambling addiction or a pet yeah, I just that's that's I guess I could you know what, I could just tidy around my house.

Hey, virtually, Okay, So I guess I have to get a gambling addiction or a pet yeah, I just that's that's I guess I could you know what, I could just tidy around my house.

My house, you need an addiction can.

My house, you need an addiction can.

Oh yeah, that's something I don't need another one of those I got. Yeah. Okay, let's continue on this lift plait list. Okay for become a lifelong learner.

Oh yeah, that's something I don't need another one of those I got. Yeah. Okay, let's continue on this lift plait list. Okay for become a lifelong learner.

Oh okay, I like that.

Oh okay, I like that.

I think that goes well with like what sport coaches teach, or just like coaches in general teach, like be teachable.

I think that goes well with like what sport coaches teach, or just like coaches in general teach, like be teachable.

Yeah. Always people teacher always tells a story about some like amazing cellist or something. He's like the best cellist in the world or something, and he was ninety something and he's still practicing every day and they go, why are you practicing? Like you got it and he's like and his his response was I think I'm onto something. And I liked that, Like he was like, it's still got things, like there's always stuff to learn. And that's what they say about pilates too, is that you're constantly like it never gets easy. You're just like always raising the bar a little bit more. Which isn't that life that it's it's never You're never and nothing ever stays the same. You always have to change. There's always going to be a struggle. There's aways going to be a ch That is really annoying. Yeah, because you think when you find a partner and you find love and you both love each other and you get along so well, it'll just stay that way. Why wouldn't it, But it does. It You have to continually work, and then sometimes you divorce and then sometimes you don't like work. It through it like, it's just people change, Okay. Number five working from seven am to seven pm isn't productivity, it's guilt.

Yeah. Always people teacher always tells a story about some like amazing cellist or something. He's like the best cellist in the world or something, and he was ninety something and he's still practicing every day and they go, why are you practicing? Like you got it and he's like and his his response was I think I'm onto something. And I liked that, Like he was like, it's still got things, like there's always stuff to learn. And that's what they say about pilates too, is that you're constantly like it never gets easy. You're just like always raising the bar a little bit more. Which isn't that life that it's it's never You're never and nothing ever stays the same. You always have to change. There's always going to be a struggle. There's aways going to be a ch That is really annoying. Yeah, because you think when you find a partner and you find love and you both love each other and you get along so well, it'll just stay that way. Why wouldn't it, But it does. It You have to continually work, and then sometimes you divorce and then sometimes you don't like work. It through it like, it's just people change, Okay. Number five working from seven am to seven pm isn't productivity, it's guilt.

Oh she sure works from.

Oh she sure works from.

Seven am to seven pm. People do that.

Seven am to seven pm. People do that.

Dad used to Oh, I'm like, god, five am to like eleven pm.

Dad used to Oh, I'm like, god, five am to like eleven pm.

If you include the commute too.

If you include the commute too.

I don't think it's guilt. I think it's you're running from something or you are poor and that's the only way to survive now in broken society. But I don't think it's But yeah, I guess sometimes it's guilt.