#223 I Learned That The Hard Way

Published May 24, 2022, 1:00 AM

Nikki's hair care routine is several steps longer than Andrews. By the end her hair smells like a creamsicle and goes perfect with a new hack she learned for bottom lashes. Andrew goes through why he got off anti-depressants as Nikki is feeling all emotions all at once. She shares what she learned from her Sam Harris meditation about physical responses to feelings. You Heard It Here First; around the web people are putting their heads in hangers, taking bad couples photos and musicians are calling out their labels for being co'uhl. In Top1 Bottom1 they go around the horn about karaoke songs. In Final Thought a strange story from a meet and greet still has them confused.

The Nickels Podcasts. Nikki, Hello, it's Nikki here. I am It's Nick Laser podcast. Welcome to Monday morning in St. Louis, Missouri. I'm here with Andrew Colin. Um Noah is in Arizona. Hey Andrew, how's it going? It's good? Is that Tom Petty T shirt? Where'd you get that? I've had it? I got at the concert? Maybe? Why why you were? I don't like it without an over shirt? What's going with your hair? What do you mean? There's a little like it looks like just like a little like you got some gell in it or something? A little product? Is that new product? Newish? Yeah? It's a it's a cream. Yeah. Have you ever done his body? Have I ever done a cream? No? Did you hear this? Guy asked me if I've ever put a cream in my hair? I don't know what girls put in there here? Yeah? Um? Do you want to know what my routineous? No? You got to share yours too, then I'll mind. I'll share mine. Well, I can tell you what yours is. You get out of the shower, you dry your hair, and then you put some product in it and you just go. You put a little palm maaid in your hand or whatever it is, and you just scrunch it in and then you wait. But from back to front, like how I wipe, Oh my god, I do everything back to front, from hair to huh, back to front. It's really good idea because the back you get rid of most of the access excess, you know, and that way you don't have too much product greasing it up. If you put on the front. It's almost like when you use condition or you're supposed to start on the ends then work up because your roots are more they have more oil. Anyway, I learned that the hard way, like you know, way too late in the game, but yeah, I learned that the hard way. You learn how to do things your own way, and you gotta take is something, and isn't it. I mean you have a very petty look going tom petty yeah, like petty right now and uh yeah, I'm angry about petty things this morning to what's this hair? Um, well, my hair thing. I'm so greased up right now. My hair is still going from Saturday night, I think. Yeah, so it was just two days old, which is nothing, but I was already I put too much product. Then I okay. So I usually, UM, I washed my hair every three days every day. If I have to do, like if I'm on TV or something or have a live performance, UM, I get in the shower. I use shampoo. I try to use UM. Usually I do whatever the funk they have there, because shampoo, to me is less. I could use the soap I use. UM. Oh my god, I hate to say it, but her products are amazing. UM. I was making I think a list on Target dot com one day for something you know, they delivered to you, and I was like, I'll try this Honest brand, you know, Jessica Alba's brand, the Honest Company, I think it's called. And their shampoo works as a body wash and a m and a shampoo. So I was like, I love that, which I've already always used shampoo as body wash. It does. It's it's negligible differences between the two. If you're going to like a hotel, you just grab the thing that's clear. It's a shampoo. Every body washed. It's the same ship. And I threw that. UM, so I use that. It's like the vanilla orange kind, I think. And then I use that for body wash too, But I just use a lot, Like I don't use a lot. I don't like it to be like super suddsy on my head, like I'm a woman in the nineties hair commercial. I just want to get like the oils out, and I think that shampoo strips a lot. So I try not to go too crazy, but sometimes if I don't do it enough, it will start to build up. No, what what do you feel about shampoo? What's your shampoo? Well, I I just had a reaction because you said that your shampoo is vanilla and orange, and those are two of my least favorite like artificial sense, Well, it's not artificial. This ship is natural. Well, I think it's vanilla orange, just like in product that Yes, I get that, Like you don't want them outside of the food that you consume. Yeah, you've never tried to eat my hair. If a piece of my hair got in your food, you'd probably leave it, probably not. Yeah, I love vanilla cream out of your head. I'm gonna get there and then I use But I gotta say the shampoo in the body wash was the thing that I used for her first, and then I was always using my own conditioners that are I use like expensive conditioners because conditioning is like what I need the most of my white girl overprocessed blonde hair. It's dry and conditioner has always been since high school. I've used, I would say, and this is not an exaggeration, forty times the amount of conditioner that I do shampoo per session. I mean conditioner used. I used to pile it up like a sigh of a two hackey sacks in my hand, like just a joy promount of it. And then for shampoo, I would just use a little dollarp um. You know you just reminded me of huh. I remember when I was in high school, herbal Essence had like it was the most popular shampoo because they had those controversial commercials of the women having orgasms. I know that was my first time seeing what an orgasm was. I didn't even know what they were been making in those ads. You know you're too young, but I would be so funny that's what would actually happen every morning. Well, I mean some people jerk off every morning, so that could be. Do you think anyone's ever come from? Probably have asturbated more times in a week than shampoo my hair. It's some weeks of my life. Have you ever rubbed your Have you ever conditioned your head so much that it's turned you on yourself? No, that's what I'm saying. Well, I'm just saying that you were saying it would be weird if every time you did that you would come. But I would say, the only weirdness about that would be like, oh, it's so frequent you would have to calm all the time. But really, I'm probably masturbating more than I am washing my hair, so it wouldn't be as frequent, do you know what I mean? Um, So, then I use but I use this, But I got the conditioner from this honest company, and I gotta recommend it to people there if you're a girl that likes really good conditioner that helps you just right away your your fingers slip through your hair. Like That's how I know a good conditioner is it makes it completely dentangled right away. And my hair is so tangled it takes so much conditioner to get through it. And that's always the mark of a great conditioner for me. And so this and that kind. I uses the lavender kind. So I um, but now I use way less conditioner, probably probably double the amount of shampoo when it used to literally be forty times the amount. So I washed shampoo my hair, immediately leave it on for maybe not even like I just do it and then immediately wash it out, like I don't leave it. I probably should leave it. People are gonna write to me and be like, this is not the right way to do it. This works for me. Then I do conditioner ton and then I start on the ends, and then I do maybe a little bit more, and I go all the way up to the top and I just at least soak it, and then I kind of twist it like this into a knot so that it can because I have long hair, and if I twisted up enough and it's wet, I can all make it like it just stays on top of my head like that. And so I do it so it's almost like a mask, so it's like soaking, and then I maybe take some more conditioner and then over I like pad it over it so that every stingle strand has some conditioner on it, and then I then that's when I do Okay. I go, okay, so I want this condition to the last longest. I don't take long showers, as we all know, So then I go, Now I'll shave my legs, which again will take literally a minute and a half. I don't know what other women are doing. I only cut myself once in a while. Um, but I shave really fast, so minimal. Yeah. No, I use conditioner or shampoo, same stuff. No, no special stuff, but I use Harry's um razors. I really recommend those, like the expensive kind that are like they're not even they're ten bucks, which I know is not cheap, but it's ten bucks and they come with a refillable things. They're the ones that target they just work the best girls. Like if you're shaving your vagina, stop using these like little like two blade once, like, use a big fucking nice men's razor for your vagina and I never get razor burned anymore. You can also use ten skin afterwards if you do get razor burn after you shave your vagina. There's stuff you can buy an Amazon and I think probably get out Walgreens. And it's in a blue bottle. It's called ten skin And if you put it on like a little cotton bad or toilet paper and you like dab it around, it kills the bacteria and it makes it so you do not get those but you have to do it preemptively, not before. You don't wait till after you get the infections. Do it before, right after you shave, so then I rinse out my hair and if my fingers run through it, then I know it's been a successful conditioning. And then I get out and I ha yes the night. But if it normally, I'll put up my hair and like a scrunchy, or I'll put my hair up in a towel and I'll just wash my body so that my hair doesn't get wet. If if it's you know, every day, I shower basically maybe twice a day. But if I don't want to wet my hair, do that and then I get out of the shower. If my hair is wet, and then I um towel dry. I put it up in a towel like a classic lady from the fifties, and then I take it out after it absorbs most of it, and then I brushed through it with detangling brush. And if I have any snags, I like, don't try to just brush through them. I don't understand women who do that. Please stop doing that. If you feel a snag, don't just try to push through it it's gonna rip your hair out and no, you go, no, it doesn't. It does. So then you find the not and then you work it through with either more conditioner and then you wash it out, but you try to get that little snag out so that you don't just rip that hair out. And then I brushed through it and then I either let it air dry and um and then curl it later and try to like gussie it up. But you usually the best solution is to then um oh, and then I put in a cream. Um it is, oh you ai. I first think of the name is and it's like conditioning cream. It's a white bottle. It's like oh yo, um that is. So what's a ham drip that comes before the it's that's a turkey tear and you'll see why soon. So I use that and I put a dollop in my hand about a dime sized amount, and then I rub it all over my hands and then I start at the ends and then I go to the top, eventually the crown and then um, I blowed her my hair with a just regular paddle like I don't sometimes I'll do a round brush, but right now I'm using a paddle and I use this really nice hair dryer I got that gives is supposed to give a lot of shine to your hair. Forget the name of it, but just look up. You know hair dryers that give you shine. They really actually do if you spend the extra money on them. It's like it's two hair dryer, so you know, it's packs a punch and then um, and then once my hair has been blow dried, I can do anything with it later on. Sometimes it's a little bit like two moisturized after a shower, and I need it to dry out a little bit before I curl it, because to keep a curl, your hair needs to be a little bit dryer and not have as much thickness to it. This is boring to anyone who doesn't do hair care. But then I can curl my hair and and I really do want to do a makeup tutorial because every time I go on Instagram Live and I go, guys, I gotta go because I gotta put on my makeup for a thing. People are like, do a makeup tutorial, and I'm like, I would, but I just got to throw it on really fast right now. This isn't the time, so I'm gonna do that at some point, not that I know what I'm doing, but I I kind of do. I know what works for me. And I've been watching a lot of makeup tutorial instagrams that have like these new kind of tips. I'm using one of my favorites. Oh my god, I did this weekend and I just didn't do it right now because I didn't have time. No, it's so good. So I don't know why I took off my sunglasses because my eyes are like little little tiny slivers of almonds like you would find in a good salad right now, Like my eyes are puffy because I just have been like I'll get into it in a second, but I've just been like a puffy bitch. Like not that not saying that, I'm just saying like his stamine and like emotional. I've been like very emotional, but not cry. It's just like I need to. I My face constantly looks like it needs to cry. So uh, but it's good. It's all good. It's it's good to feel your feelings even though you don't let them out ever and you hold them back. So but this is the best tip that I saw. No I should send you some of these tips because I always send them to Robin, my makeup girl, to be like, what do you think about this? You'll like this one because you're a big eye makeup girl. So you take tweezers, okay, and you take your mass scara wand and you get a bunch of goop on it, and you take the tweezers and you tweeze goop between them. So you you tweeze the masscara goop with the tweezers. Okay, So you get a bunch of goop that just looks like almost like a paint brush of goop. And then you this for your under eyelashes because when you do your under eyelashes, they collect too much with the wand they bleed onto your uh skin and it will just look clumpy or or bad. So then you lightly do not tweez like you're tweezing out hair, but you take the hair gently and you know how to do. You think you're going to tweeze your hair out, but you you will not. There's not even a part of you that could ever out your own eyelashes unless you have trick it tilmnia, which is a different thing. Altogether, and then you go through individually and you grasp inside the gloopy between the tweezer. You just gently like tug on each of your eyelashes to do like a singular, and it gives it this like awesome, like you know, kind of Twiggy. I was gonna say, Twiggy, Yeah, Twiggy goldie hawn um like look underneath your eye like for your lower lashes that I did this weekend, and I was like, oh my god, I don't even need like it was just such a cool look that I love when something makeup wise, I discovered like a whole new look to my face. And then I just found out last night. If you're in over forty and you're doing contour right here where your cheekbone, right below your cheekbone where everyone thinks you're supposed to do contour, now, contour is the dark line that you do. Like if you're doing contouring, you do like a brown line. If you're a white girl, or you know, lighter skinned or just any skin color. Really, if you're contouring, you do a darker shade than your color, much darker in between your cheekbone and your jaw. I guess like where that dent is. But if you're over forty, that's wrong. You're pulling your face down. You should do the um the dark line on your cheekbone, which is totally different than I thought. It's just so interesting because it is all really like painting. It's like Bob Ross and there's all these tricks. It's all an illusion. It's optical illusions. You're drawing on your face, but you can highlight different places and truly look like so much different with just a little bit of It's just it's so easy to just do these things. And and by the way, like the things that we think we're doing to make ourselves look younger, in fact sometimes can be making us look a lot older. Like eyeshadow for me makes me look so old because it closes off my eye. It makes it look smaller, or like gives if I use just um, if I use concealer on my eye and make my eye like almost a lighter color than my skin tone and my it gives me a youthful look because k it's don't wear makeup, so if you look like you're not, if you wear less makeup, your face will look younger. It will also look more masculine. But then that's why you do the eyelashes. Eyelashes are the thing that sets part women. And then final answer, I fucking forgot I have bottom eyelashes. Yeah, mine are I had no idea. I really haven't thought about. Like, I would love to give your eyes this look because bottom lashes are such it's a thing that everyone forgets. Really and browsed change everything. I was looking an old eyebrow or old eyebrow pictures. Oh my god, can noah no, what can you tell him what you discovered? Please? So on your Instagram story, you posted a close up photo that you just recently took on tour of you turning around looking kind of sultry, and then you posted a younger version of yourself photo but like just a lot younger, and I said younger, Andrew reminds me of Brenda. You look like Brenna's brother. Do you look like a hot girl like you? You have the face of like a really like Brenna has one of the prettiest faces that you'll ever see in person, and trust like she pops on his Instagram, but like in person, she's one of the most striking, beautif naturally beautiful people I've ever seen, and you have night and I was like, they do look so similar and this and this is no insult to Brenna or to you know, it's actually like the most compliment to both of you because you just have a beautiful face and and it supports our thesis that is not even ours. It's like one that I think it's biologically proven, is that we're attracted to people with our same like face structure. And like that kind of looked like us and Chris I realized, looks we both have like big smiles, big smiles, very little but yeah, but I I could see that how back in the day, the back in the day, but I realized my eyebrows were very manicured. Then then that photo and my mom would make me wax my eyebrows. Maybe you should go back to that. It's a good look. Yeah, I don't know the bottoms. It hurts, man, I know it hurts. But you know what, every girl knows what you're talking about. And you get I know this sounds stupid, You get callous to it, like it doesn't hurt anymore. Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe if you're sensitive ones talking about sensitivity, I just want to say, I am like, I you got off Zoloft recently, right like about two months. Was that a choice or did it just you miss some doses and you go, I'll just see what this? What do you remember? What was the impetus? It was? We were in um Cabo and I think I was just in a really good space head wise, brain wise to the point eyebrow wise. Um, well we'll never get there. But that has nothing to do with off. Oh my god, So I um want to talk about library Liberry was funny, he said, Lieberry this weekend, and I go, I just have never known you to not say that word. It was um. So I ended up Yeah, So I just like I took one and then I was like down to three days. I started well beautron too, So I felt like I was getting whatever endorphin or whatever feeling of like less anxiety from that. So I could slowly get off the Zoloft. I know plenty of I read. I read a lot about people being able to wean off one for the other, and then I got off the Zoloft. I didn't feel too many. Uh, I felt a little zappy little people talk about but I wasn't sad at all. Like I wasn't feeling Those are withdrawal symptoms, so maybe you go all wait him out. If they persist, then we'll think about But you you were monitoring your withdrawals. And then and then with well Beautron, I was like, okay, well I don't really, I'm not really I was getting a little anger. It's like I felt like very on edge, a little bit from the well you. And I was like, okay, let me slowly get off this too. While I'm here. It's kind of like a rehab down there. And I you know, the only tough part was looking in the mirror that one day at my body and like that was a great day for me. I mean it was offe so anyway, so I was able to just get off and there it felt like I was in I mean, I was in paradise. Yeah. So and then I came back and it's been it's been good. It's been really good. I've noticed that you have. There's been an uptick. And this is just me being aware because I'm usually suffering and I'm trying to look for other people suffering around me to justify my suffering. Let me just be honest with that. But I've noticed that there's been more like like doing the biting your fingernails than when you were on well betim, but it's not as bad as it was before you were on that stuff or before so left. It's just for me. I look at you biting your fingers and I go, that's just me, like going like I'm worried, Like it's okay to bite your fingernails. Before it was the thing where you were sometimes clawing on your hand constantly. Well, there's a time when I clawed my hand and it's when my anxiety is the highest. And when when I bite my nails. I know when I do it. It's when I fly, especially after I drink a lot of coffee, or and when I do shows. And I noticed it other times too. Okay, but I'm saying for me, I know that I get I get it. I know, you know. But I do things too where I go, oh, I know I'm doing this because I'm stressed. But I think sometimes we do those things and we don't realize we're doing it. But it's not a bad thing. It's not like we should be able to chew on our fingernails instead of taking a drug so that we don't have to do that if if we know our fingernails aren't bleeding, let's talk about this stuff like these are all coping mechanisms in the short term because I am only bringing this up because I, uh recently got off an antidepressant and I'm going to talk about it right when we get back from this. But I really relate to seeing little things like that come up for me where I'm like, it's okay, you know, are you doing that on purpose? We'll be right back here. I come down the road all the time, off the street, don't freak, can eat street met unless you got utensils. It's just good advice. Okay, we're back. So as I was saying, um, I, I was wondering how you got off it, because whenever I get off antonia presence, which I've gotten off every single thirty five times, like I've been on so many things. Now, let's ever breakup. Um, But that is interesting that perfectly know it always well what really happen? And I don't want this. Please, if you are on stuff right now, please do not get off it. This is not and this was This doesn't work out for a lot of people, and it might not work out for me. Because I want to say the only reason I'm off stuff right now, because I just want to be honest with people, is that I couldn't. You know, there's got to be a solution for people with meds that are dealing with anxiety and depression, because it is so hard to get meds on time and things like that. If you have a d D, if you have anxiety like staying up with I'll have two pills left, and I'll go, i gotta call the doctor, and then I don't get around to it, and then all of a sudden, I'm missing a pill and then I know the side effects are suicidal thoughts, and I'm like, oh my god, fuck. And then i'd call and then I have the transfer to the CDs. I go to the CVS. We're in a strange town. They don't have my information. I'm just like, there's been a long line. We have to get to the next gig, and I'm like, you know what, I'm just gonna skip it and see what happens. I'm gonna be aware of any possible side effects. So I was on the drug Pristique for because I was like, you know, on they got me on anxiety men's and then I was still having like, really this urge to smoke pot. This was back in like a couple of years ago, and I was still like, god, you know, like this is taking care of this part of my life, this one drug, but this other part, I'm still dying smoke weed all the time. And my doctor was probably like, Okay, well weed, you're reaching for that because of anxiety and like, so maybe we give you Pristique. So I was on that and then yeah, the weed urges went away. I was able to quit. It didn't go away, but I was able to quit on my own and then, um, and I never really thought it helped with the weed stuff. I thought that I just found a different solution for myself. The reason I quit weed was because it was making me unfunny and like I was doing it every day, so that I shared my own path with that in multiple episodes. But anyway, so I just kept taking Pristi because I'm scared to get off it because the one of the side effects was like possible suicide, like which is so ironic, Like you talked about so all oft is like it helps depression, but then you can't come and it's like, well, now I'm depressed because I can't come. It's like, what's what is this doing to us? So you can only kill yourself, I know, and you can only come once. So I was like, and I don't want to kill myself. I don't want anything to like do. But I also know that people no one wants to kill themselves, you know, like it's not something that if even if you do want to kill yourself, it's not there's something there's a disease happening in your head, Like a disease is trying to kill you, not you know then and it's it's out of your troll. Um. So I just didn't want to catch whatever disease that would be from a withdrawal side effect. So I was monitoring it and I was making sure. I was like, I'm not having suicidal thoughts. I'm very aware of that when those come up. And so I lapsed in my like I was off it for a week, and I was like, Okay, I looked up like the half life of the stuff, like things withdrawal symptoms should be taking place. And I've never experienced withdrawal symptoms like I just I read about when I used to be on two d milligrams the ultimate dose, and I went off cold turkey because I was just, oh, I feel good. I don't need anymore. I didn't feel the brains apps, I didn't feel the suicidal thoughts. I didn't I didn't feel anything. And I have weaned in the past when I was more responsible, But there are times where I've just cold turkey it and I have just gotten lucky. I have whatever chemistry is in my body for those types of things. I do not experience withdrawal symptoms from those meds, or I haven't yet. But I was like, prostque is something I haven't been on, so I don't want to make zolof I know that I've never experienced withdraws. I've gone off in a million times, but so, but do not do that. It's very dangerous, you guys. I think I'm just like lucky in that way, like what my physiology is different, and you know, so please don't do that. I'm not saying you will have I've never heard of someone not having it, but I have not. So with f Steek, I was worried about it, and I just I was paying attention to it. But what I've discovered is no withdraw symptoms. But all of a sudden, so many feelings all the time. I feel like I'm constantly p mssing, which doesn't make sense because I just had my period and I was able to like write the feelings off when they first came in as PMS because I was like about to start my period. That makes sense, But the field it's so interesting because I just don't know how to feel like, I don't know how to cry. I don't. I truly don't know how to cry. I don't I know how. There are some things that get me to do it, like when my friends give me permission, or I'm able to like talk about something enough that starts bringing it up. I was able to cry last night. I was texting with my sister about just some stuff I felt like stupid about, and she like so sweet. She just like asked one question. I was like blah blah blah blah, and like spilled. She was like, I really want to talk to you about this thing that's going on in my life. And she was like, yeah, we'll get coffee later this week because it was late, and I was like I don't have time to get into it. And then all of a sudden, I just keep texting and I'm getting into it and then I start crying and it felt good, but it was just like not enough anyway. I'm just feeling so so much and it's okay, and it's like it almost feels good, like I I think that, but I am compelled to smoke weed again, and like I want to because I want a way out of these feelings. That's like always what everything is, that's what thinking is, that's what are I was just doing a meditation today where he was like it was such a good Sam Harris that I put on, which I'm obviously starting to meditate again because when things start coming up like this and I don't have these drugs pushing down the feelings, I gotta find other ways. So now I'm journaling, I'm getting back into meditation, like I'm finding other ways so I don't have to go back on a drug. But I was listening to the meditation and he was just like, you know, it's about focusing on the thought. Okay. Notice when a thought comes up, okay, conjure thought that stressing you out, something that's stressing you out. So I was all of a sudden, I'm like, oh, He's letting me think during this quitation. Perfect. So I conjure up the fact that I had an audition that I was supposed to turn in today at eleven am my time. I didn't even read the script, like not even didn't even do it. And then I was like just he goes, now, notice the feelings that come up when you think about this thing that is bothering you, that you fit whatever at all? No, No, but I asked for an extension, but this meditation happened after I before I got back that I could have an extension, and it really was prompt about like you needed in by nine am. P s T like, and I was like, okay, so I didn't get it, so whatever. So I was thinking about it and he was like, notice physiologically, like through your body where that feeling is, like what's what's changed? So I went from a state like a state of just paying attention to my breath and then all of a sudden, I think about this audition and I noticed like just this like kind of a little bit of ache in my chest and like my leg a little bit of my leg, and I was and I was just focusing on this cloud of like kind of tingling of like just like anxiety. And I was like, okay, that's where it is, which I don't usually I am able to feel that. I used to go to a somatic therapist and she used to be like, now where is this feeling? And I would be like, my head, I don't know, I'm not connected. For some reason, I felt it this morning and it was interesting because he was like, so what the At the end of the thing, he was like, what this was? He kind of broke down what we just did. What this was was you paying attention to when things, when emotions come up, paying attention to what those thoughts do to you physiologically, what they do to your heart, what they do to your stomach, what they do to your body, and not just notice and let it happen. Because what we do when we have normally, when we have a feeling come up, we turn off those we don't feel it. We're do anything to not feel it, so we think about something, we put on a song, we we distract ourselves with our phone, and we keep that feeling from just going through us like a wave, like just letting the wave pass over you. And what you find any what he said in today's meditation is that the half life of these feelings that you are pushing away constantly is so much shorter than you think if you just let it run through you and you let that feeling go, because all it is, all thoughts are are really distractions from feeling things. So if you're able to take something that's causing you a lot of anxiety and just look at it as almost this thing that like like a bunch of like, um god, I don't know how it like a wave, Like you're in the ocean, and your thoughts and your worries are waves. And if you let them pass over you and you suffer the brunt, it's gonna feel uncomfortable for like a bit. But if you let if you just hold on and you pay attention to how that manifests, you can notice that it's just it's a thing. It's not you. It's not this permanent thing that you are now Like Nikki you're a failed person because you didn't get the thing turned in time, your bad actress, You're you're not going have success, all these things. It's just it's just a moment. And in a year, will I even think about this audition? No, if I get the movie. Would it have happened because I asked for an extension or because I didn't like it? Most of the stuff that I think back on that causes me so much pain about myself, or just these fleeting moments that I'll never remember. My friend recently just shared a story that she someone thought she was pregnant and she's not, and she was so embarrassed and so sad because she's trying to lose weight and someone thought she was pregnant. And I was thinking about that, and I was like, oh my god, I told her, and I'm serious about this. If someone thought I was pregnant, I would be so fucking excited, because for me, as a thirty about to be thirty eight in a week, if someone thought I looked like I could a be a mom, was someone who was maybe trying for kids equals I have my life together enough, Like I associate being a mother with things that I didn't back when I was even two years ago. Whereas like, you look healthy, you look like you could carry a baby, you look happy, you look like you maybe have someone in your life that's gonna help you raise this with you. You look like content, like I would associate that with so many things that aren't fat, whereas my friend who is not wanting to look like she is having a baby, took it as only as negatives, so that also helped me. There was this great Sam Harris thing that I came upon upon yesterday and I just want to share it really quickly, and this one really is a hack for being in a bad mood, for like getting out of a bad mood instantly, And I shared it on our threat today, Noah that you have probably sixty thousand miss messages from from all the girls that went to Cabo on that Girl's trip, because everyone is suffering on that Cabo Strain trip, like in different ways, and it's so great because they're everyone's suffering. One of us is one of the girls is married to a brilliant man who loves her so much and they just had a baby in their lives are so happy, and she's a beautiful model and like has everything that we would ever have, a house in the Hampton's, the house in New York, um, a supportive husband who loves her, and she is finding ways that her life is like unmanageable and miserable. And then there's another friend who's like, has a waitressing job she fucking hates, has no time for herself, is getting woken up every morning at seven thirty by a construction literally a foot outside her window, and these two lots. It's nice because you think, like, oh, girl whose life seems perfect, shut the funk up, look at my life. But instead, what you find is that even if you had all the things that you think that, if you had what that person had, you would be appreciative of. If you if you don't change your mindset, you're gonna find things to be pissed about. We're all equal in that way, Like you're it's not about getting that TV show. It's not about getting that job. Is not abou getting the boyfriend. It's not about having the baby. It's not about losing the weight. Like, unless you're unless you fix your perspective, there's always gonna be something to fuck you up. So what this um this thing that he said, it's different than the meditation I did. I'm really getting back into sam. I'll just paraphrise it. So he says, when you're driving, let's say you're stuck in traffic in your for something, You're like, mother fuck, I'm going to relate this fucking thing stop for a second, and it's a practice of gratitude, but it's a different way of looking at gratitude. Think about how right now, a thing that could be happening in your life that would completely ruin your life, that is something that could happen didn't happen. Like let's say you're stuck in drafting, you're late for this fucking thing, and you're like, fucking give it. Think about the fact that you haven't been diagnosed with terminal cancer today, which someone in your position, with your same kind of happiness in life has been, and there's spending the next two months of their lives getting their affairs in order to die. You haven't been today. So think about that person that would consider their biggest prayers answered to be in your position, stuck in traffic, think about the things not not don't think about the starving kids in Africa unless that is something that could be you, which it could be, but let's go beyond that, Like something that could actually happen to you in your life right now that day hasn't happened. The worst thing that could happen that could happen that hasn't happened to you and just be grateful for that, and just think about, Wow, if I was that person, how much would I give if I learned tomorrow I'm dying of cancer and I have a month to live. How much would I give for that day where I was in traffic and just my biggest worry in life was being late for something. I like that because I think a lot of times we do here, well, you could be living in Afghanistan under war, Like it's always something so far fetched that you can't put yourself in those shoes. So it's interesting to think about, like something very terrible, but that's all had that happened before? Where you learn something terrible and you go, God, yesterday, I didn't even know that happened. Why can't I wish I could go back to my naivete of yesterday. You are currently whatever you're living, even if it is horrible, You are living in some version of a world that is better than one that could be happening to you right now, and so live in that moment of like tomorrow everything could change. You would long for today when your biggest worry was that your Uber Eats order got stolen or whatever, which doesn't happen with uber eats, and they will reimburse you. I want to say, but like you know, there have been times where I'm like, this is the worst, and I'm like, God, something that happened. Like with the first part of what you were saying about learning how to feel your feelings and what happens physiologically, No, I don't think it's denying it. I think that some people just really have no idea what it is, what an emotion is, and then they're feeling it in that present moment. So going back, I think it's important not to lose sight of learning what happens to your body physiologically so that you can connect it with your emotion to know, hey, right now I am anxious, or right now I'm upset about something, or I feel anger because it's it's in my chest and my leg instead of in my back. Yes, noticing Like this weekend, I was such a dick to Andrew about this thing that we're not going to get into, but I was just I was in a fucking mood and he said something that set me off and made me insecure about something, and I lash out at him in the moment when you you know when you've been a bit before or a dick whoever I'm talking to, you know I'm out of line here and I'm going to own apology and you just can't bring yourself in that moment to be in that or maybe you don't know I'm I'm I'm mindful enough that I know in the moment I'm gonna owe and an apology for this, and I'm I can't do it now. I am too weak. I don't have the backbone right now. My backbone is covered in anxiety and it's weekend and I don't have it right now to actually do this. Like it's almost like when sometimes you do a workout and you're like I do this workout every day, why can't I do it today? And it's like, I just don't have it in me. Tomorrow, I'll do this workout, like I know I can do it tomorrow. I cannot do this today, And I wasn't able to apologize for it till the next day, almost like well after it had happened, but because I was in a weekend state, like my it's not an excuse. I'm just saying, like if you get mad about something, or if you become an ugly version of yourself. I do feel that as long as you're able to account for it at some point and hopefully sooner than later, and always be working towards making that time between offending and apologizing shorter and shorter, closing that gap. If you're trying in your life to do that, you're doing the best you can, and that you're not You're not a bad person. We all have moments where like we're late for something and then our where our skin is itching because this these pants are too tight, and like so many different things are making you uncomfortable that one little thing will you'll be like and if you like, you can't even in that moment, you can't even realize. It's about being late, it's about being in traffic, it's about being scared. Do you think it's important though, to try to get ahead of that reaction and to be able to respond instead, Like if Andrew had said something that you know you don't like to respond to it as opposed to react and then have to apologize, because I think that it would be so much better for me to recognize what happens. Hey, I'm starting to feel it in my body. Soon it's going to get to my head and then I'm gonna blow up. Yeah, and that takes so much more work on That's why I'm saying, like I'm trying to get to some where it doesn't Yeah, you're right, I'm trying to I stay minimize the gap between it happening and then apologizing. I'm trying to minimize so that I get ahead of before it even happens. Where I know, I see it. I see the the Richter scale starting to go through, and I'm like, oh my god, we have an earthquake coming. Handrew go hide under a table. Yeah, I mean, it's it was just sometimes we just I feel like the argument. You know, I don't even if someone wants to apologize, I don't want them to feel that that like burden or guilt, Like I want even if I'm the one getting whatever, Like I just like I understand being on the other end of it and that I don't want that person to fucking be like I don't know whether to do. It's like just talk to me, like through it. Well, I feel like I'm you met me with a little bit of like don't feel bad, and it's like and I didn't want to. I hate when people when you apologize and that you go, don't feel bad and they go, oh, I don't, and you're like, well that's not what I want, like curse. I know Chris is listening. You used to do that in high school, and I used to get so angry. I'd be like, I'm really sorry, sorry I did this, or like person would apologize for something and I'd go like it's okay, and she goes, well, I know it's okay, but and I'd be like, well, that's not but I wanted to let you know, like I forgive myself, but I still think that what I did was out of line, and I'm doing my best to not do that again because I understand that it hurt you as and it hurt me to hurt you, but it's not something I'm going to live with and like cut myself later about. And I think that in the moment, your instinct was like no, just don't don't make don't be don't make it a big thing. And it's like it wasn't a big thing, but you are owed an apology for and there was nothing you did and it was all me and like, I but I get what you're saying of like you don't want because sometimes, like I say, when someone inappropriately touches me at a thing and I called them out for it and then they apologize, it's suddenly it's my fucking burden to make that person feel better about the thing they did to me. And I never want when I'm apologizing someone to have to go No, Nikki, it's okay, I don't need forgiveness. It really is about I just need I just need understanding from I just need to know that you understand that I um am doing better. I want to do better. Yeah, I get that. I also think, like I was just thinking about the first away from the argument or whatever, the whole uh the feeling thing and like letting it go through you. My whole thing with that is like you have to be in a mind space even before And it's kind of like what no I was saying, like before you react in a way that you're gonna have to apologize later. In order to uh react to a feeling or an emotion and let it go through you, you have to already be in a mind space that that you're stable enough to take that in like comes in. Yeah, I feel like there's two steps. The step before, it's meditating everything being preventative for it. So like knowing that the only way to get to a place where you can stop that and be mindful of your emotions bubbling up is to practice meditation and to get in touch with the mundane thoughts, not just the thoughts that are going to turn into a fight, but like every kind of thought, and when you're able to be you know, when you're like looking for a new pair of boots and then all of a sudden, all you see is boots everywhere. Or I'm looking for a car right now, and I look at every car now, and usually cars do not even enter into my scope of vision. I would not even know if the car hit me what model it was. But now I'm like obsessed with Oh, that's Alexis, that's whatever, So I literally can't think of another car. So um, But I think that's the same thing with meditation. Is like if you practice just like scrolling through your thoughts the way you practice. If're looking for a new backpack, suddenly you just start seeing backpacks everywhere, not because the algorithm knows you're looking at backpacks and start showing you them. Do you know what I'm talking about like when you start looking at something and you're in the market for something and you're paying attention to something, like you start noticing it everywhere. You Guys know that feeling, right, Well, I think it relates to you getting feelings after getting off that drug. It's like, oh, now I see feelings, I feel feelings. Now I feel all the feelings. So now I am having to go Okay, a lot of feelings are coming up that would not have come up before when I was on this drug. I need to get more vigilant. I need to start researching my thoughts and like looking at them every day, like I'm looking for a new pair of boots. So it's like that. Now, that's what meditation is. It's like the mundane observance of your thoughts and a lot of thoughts. You're on Zappos and you're looking at boots that you would never even fucking look at. You just scroll through them, you know, when you're looking for shoes and you're going through something and you go, oh, that doesn't even catch your eye. That's what meditation is. It's letting thoughts go by and you observe them, and once you're willing, once you're able to uh immerse yourself in us random thoughts enough, like you're looking for shoes on Zappos, Suddenly thoughts will start appearing to you and you will be able to dodge the ones that don't matter and pay attention to ones that go, Oh, my god, that's something that that's a car, Actually, oh, what model is that? I want to like check that out later, And you go, what is that car that drives by? And suddenly I'm paying attend to a car that would have driven past me and I would never thought about it, and it might have been a car that I actually need to have in my life. But now I see that car to go, oh, I'll take a picture of it and maybe research it later. And I think that's what meditation does, is it makes us be able to find the things that we should focus on before they hit us. It's a rough analogy, but I think it works. Let's get to the news. Probably gonna be Alexis friend to guess abe had all the swells this weekend. It's Monday. You know what that means? It is Monday? Apparently, who knows. I think we met so many besties, so many besties. Someone gave me golf balls with cut on it. Yeah, that was to carry on and her girlfriend, I forgot a girlfriend's name, but a girlfriend was like I let my girlfriend, you know, thank you, Like she almost was like she was like, yeah, be your girlfriend, Like my girlfriend is in love with you guys, and I let her be and um she was just she waited to the end of the line on UM I think it was. Yeah, it was the first show at Foxwoods on Saturday night. But she was awesome. And she was wearing a Nickolas podcast T shirt, the black one, which is my favorite one actually like the blue one too. Like people these fucking festies. And then there was another bestie on UM Boston at the Boston Show that gave me a bookmark that said like fucking read this book, bitch or something like that. It was this amazing, cute kid. I believe I know, I'm gonna suck your name. It was Kolby or Morty or something like that. And you're probably laughing because it's not even close to that. But you had your boyfriend with you. You were so cute, and you gave me a bookmark and you were like, here's this bookmark to hold your place in a third of books that you read, which was adorable. He was awesome. Again, It's Morty Molby Colby or so. It was a really cute name. And I'm so sorry I'm sucking it up, and please write me about your name. But we met so many other busties. Um, And if I don't remember your name, it's not because you didn't make an imprint on my heart. Like there's so many of you that I will if we see you again on the show, I'll remember because you just said the nicest things. And we do remember, like I remember, like, oh I was at this show. Oh you're with those two other people like you remember, we remember the best he's faces. I don't know what it is and you can't describe it. You can just sense before they even walk up, even if they're not wearing merch that they're a bestie. You can just sense it, like there's just something. You guys are the best. And we really appreciate you listening and all the love you give us via letters and just just listening. You don't have to do anything, and just the fact that you're listening it matters a lot. And um, and then we we got to talk about the at some point the weird people that came that was we had such a okay, we just say it really quick in the Okay, we'll do it. Well, you know what, we'll save it go on all right, Well if I get through the news, boom boom boom, there's a theme through it. Okay. So people on TikTok are putting their heads inside a coat hanger and getting freaked out by their head by the head turning effect of the hangar reflex. Have you seen this? The head turning? So I saw Chris on his show today. We have to take off our you can put your head, yeah, like Nikki's. So we don't need it to go past our ears at any point. No, you have to put it on the temples. Make sure that so put the so put it around the temple. So it's like squeezing. Yeah, okay, now what okay, I don't think it's working on you guys. So basically what's supposed to happen. The effect um uh is supposed to turn your head and it's it's supposed to turn your head away from the hangar's hook involuntarily. Let me take off the headphones because I think the headphones are sucking us up. Wait, what the fuck? Seriously? Is it like we g maybe where it's like I'm now that you said it, I'm doing I'm not kidding you. It kind of does it. Hold on, let me try it on the other side. I feel like this is a time where like someone like eats much rooms and I don't get the feeling. I don't gut it. I don't get it either. Maybe I don't have a magnetic brain or whatever. Hold on, I'm putting on my I can't hear you. This is exactly like the Wegi board. So this reminded me. Did you ever do that like ghost thing where you put your hands in between a friend's hands and they push as you push out, they push in as you push out, and then so you push in and they push out and then and then they let go in your arms just kind of like open wide. Yes, Or you do the thing where you you kind of do it. You can hold your hands to the side like you're doing like a bird flapping its wings and you push out. Or in a doorway, actually, have you ever done that? I haven't done. You're standing in a doorway and you push your hands up the doorway like you're trying to extend your hands like really hard, and then you drop them and step out of the doorway and your hands will just go muscle memory. Yes, so it's the same thing. Um, yeah, it's interesting. I like that you're gonna leave yours on. Yeah, I can see you at the end and see if my arms lift. Um. I never really believed in, like QUI gi stuff. I always the power of suggestion is so insane that I would want, you know, we'd be like, what are you going to be when you grow up? And I would always make it go to hooker just for jokes, and I didn't I wanted the ghost to tell us hooker, even though I didn't want to be the one controlling it. I was not someone who was like, I'm going to make it say hooker. I was thinking hooker and then it would happen. And by the way, a ghost would not say hooker. I would say prostitute or sex worker. I mean, I feel it gho, you know, hopefully it would do a word I know how to spell. It was so funny because like, yeah, you know, it's because philanthropist money, Like I have a genius, bro, Like, like the only time you could spell is with a ghost that is that always reminds me of like when um, I know this is a really dark thought, but you always hear about there's a story of remember hearing and maybe it's like a urban legend about like during the Holocaust, like Nazis, Like there was this one circumstance where a guy was had a violin and a Nazi was like, play me a song and like had a gun and was going to murder them if they didn't play this one song. And the guy did not know how to play violin, and then suddenly he was able to do this like amazing violin solo and was able to spare his life because he so or like mom's lifting cars kind of things where you can do this thing that you can't do because you are scared of death or like because you're so Sometimes when I play guitar, I'm just like, so I had a gun, what can I do? And I just like and then umg and then you started speaking Hebrew. Yeah. No, that it's interesting to like learn a skin like a car, get lifting a car, because there's probably strength. Is there anything in your life though that you've never been able to do? There used to be a human giant sketch. I want to say, by the way, it was a zas on sorry Rob Hubil and Paul Shears show on MTV, and they did. It was called um. It was a moving company that was just all moms that they always say that a mom can summon the strength of like a thousand guerrillas if their child is pinned underneath the car. So they would just put the woman's child underneath like credenzas and then suddenly the spat was just lifted with all her mind. And it was a moving company where they would just position the child in arms way. It was so funny. I mean, human giant go back and launch those on the question have you ever, either of you ever been able to do something where you go I swear to god. Yeah. My my dad accidentally um backed over my brother's kid on its leg with a golf cart, like a heavy golf cart, and we didn't know what everyone was kind of fight or flight, like we didn't know what to do. Like it was fucking obviously get the car, but do you keep reversing? Do you run back over the leg? My brother we were like still like sitting in the car. I swear to god, fucking picked the ship up and took his kid out. And after it he took the kid out. I went and I go, how heavy is this thing? I fu and I'm strong. I'm like stronger than my brother. Like, did they try to put a golf club underneath it that you had? Just? Yeah? They put a nine under and I started spinting it on my finger. Yeah. No, dude, Yes, that's interesting. Yeah, yeah, they put my brother under it. I just got on top of it and stomped. No. Yeah, it was fucking wild. It was straight up that like that happened, and I was like, holy sh it, that's a real you know, adrenaline is a real thing to say. Uh, it's a real word. Let's go to the next story that might have a theme. Bomo okay. A twenty three year old man drowned while recreating the Titanic King of the World pose with his girlfriend on a Turkish pier after the couple slipped and fell into see No, why does this a theme? No? Uh wait, he wasn't even on a boat. He was just on a dock and you're on the pier of the couple had been drinking. I bet there's been more people than one that have died from recreating that. It's such an iconic thing that I've done. I've probably tried to recreate in my life a million times, Like every time I'm on a boat, I do. I was drowned doing one. I was going to ask you, guys, what what is like favorite or at least favorite couple pos. Oh, that's great to die recreating. Um, sure they rest in peace to that kid. That's so tragic and I'm so sorry. And that girl probably has so much trauma, you know, trauma that she suffered almost maybe worst, um, I will say the worst. I don't like, um, the caressing or the kissing of the pregnant baby belly by men. And I don't like when men are shirtless in pictures with their wives who are pregnant either, like those like those those moments really great, their stach. I mean, if it's for a joke, that's funny. If they sometimes they're just like they all want like skin on skin, and so there's like these poses that really disgusted me. But other than that, I love love, and I love people's public displays of affection. I love any sweet like p d A. I don't care if you're penetrating each other in front of me at a ice cream parlor. I just as long as one of you is not pregnant, and just like caressing your baby bump, I don't care, and I support it. What about you guys, I mean they're pretty hacky, But the one with whenever girls looking at a key andre and the guys looking at her, I just feel like that relationship is doomed. And I just I don't know. It's called Myron, that's what it's. Oh, Myron. Well, the other day I actually I followed Myron on account a subreddit. It's it's called myron when like admiring, like oh, or he's Myron her m I R I N. And there's a subreddit called myron where it's just like pictures of like catching people, like just looking at the significant other, kind of just being like I love you, like just and I love If I can ever find a picture, there's one picture that actually, and this is kind of stupid of me to talk about, but it's one of my most cherished pictures that I don't even have the other side of there's a picture of me and my friend who killed himself in high school. He um. We were at this drama club thing, and I was making him laugh pretty hard, and he was looking at me with like such like she's so fun like just he had this great smile and he was just like had this amazing look on his face. And you know, he killed himself in November. In the year a book came out, you know, in May, and so when the yearbook was put together, they kind of chose a picture that made him look angelic like to celebrate him, and they cut me out of it. So he's Myron had nothing. But I know it was me because I found there. I had the original picture for so long and I used to hold it and cry and I feel really stupid because I was like, what are you in seventh Heaven? Why are you like trying to make a scene in your bedroom where you're like, my friend is dead. But that was a really important one to me. But but that's a different kind of iron. Oh, I love that mine. That's a great Myron. Well, it's like but anyway, I don't like. I don't like a Myron that stage Those are gross. Yeah, a stage Myron where it's like the guys right here and he's like this and the girl's looking at the camera like, oh, it's not for me. Chris and I did a roast for Tim's wedding last week, like we both were back. He was asked to give a speech and then he was like, you know what I'm gonna get last year at Tim's wedding because it was a redo, he was like, I gave um. We did a bunch of like um. He did this whole speech. It was so funny, but it was all like praising Tim and Emma and and their reunion and everything, and it was he goes in this year because you guys have had such a successful year with a baby, Tim's new job, Emma's promotions, I feel like you need to get taken down a notch and so I'm gonna do a little roast. Lucky for me, I just hope happened to be close personal friends with one of Tim's favorite roast comedians. But Anthony Jessel said he couldn't be here. So um, I brought my favorite roast comedian, Nicki Glazer, and he brings me up and then we do this back and forth like roast thing. And there was a picture from it. There's only one picture from it, and he's Myron so hard and it was, and I just love it because he's looking at me like she's the funniest and I love her and I was, and I sent him a picture of it. I was like, someone's Myron caught you Myron. I was like, I remember him Myron at Dancing with the Stars when you were on the belt, and um, I just happened to like look back and I see Chris and he had sunglasses and he like pulled them down and he was like looking at you in the book. Oh that was I will I will not disclude that being a sweet thing, but that was him. We often do this thing where he will try to get my attention by staring at like if you know he's the audience. He'll just look at me like really weird, like it and hold it until I all of a sudden see it. And then I'm like, like, last word, because someone's looking at you look so weird. But yeah, he might hemires all the time, and so do I. That's why I love my reality shows because I catched so many moments where I'm either I could see how much I love someone or how much like I could just see I'm not performative. I'm just like being me. And it's like a natural moment. Or I see my family appreciating each other or me and it just feels so good to see people like not posing. Yeah. Natural. Yes, I heard the episode last night was really good, but I didn't watch it yet because I was just in bed crying to my sister about something. Um, but I heard it was really invests. Yeah, I had the live podcast. Oh yeah, yeah, I was in it. How did you like your appearance? I I really liked it, to be honest, I was pleasantly surprised. There's no there are no stupid faces featured. Oh good. Yeah. A lot of people wrote to me and said, okay, now this shows kicking. There's some stuff going on. There was an I guess there's a conversation between me and Chris about having kids that was very fod jokes. We were really so much Yeah, oh my god, if yeah, I think I was. That was That was a That was a conversation. Man. That was like one of those scenes where after it, uh, there was some like there was a lot of that that conversation. There was a lot there was aftershocks of that for many many days, weeks probably still continuing of like that was not a fun conversation, and like it's just interesting to what I said it before. But I watching myself on the show, and I'm seeing like I'm seeing my biting my fingernails, things that I do when I'm nervous or when I'm like stuck in a moment and I can't get out of it. You got to get to the next segment. Are we ready to go to break and come back with why do I Care? Yes, let's do it back with why do my gar nets? Boomoom? All right? Why do I care? Wait? Whatever happened to? Oh? I'll get you all right? Why do I care? Oh? I know? This story accuses our label of holding her new single hostage over a fake viral moment. I'm want to tell these a new song. It's going to be about my baby. Please let me just sing really fast and like a little baby. I've got new music that I want to come out, and you won't let me put it out. It's all my label's fault, not the fact that I've you know, just signed with the label that I probably shouldn't have and I'm a baby. Ironically, Okay, that TikTok post went viral, so maybe we'll get that ston maybe we will wait wait, so she can't. She can't release the song because her label is not allowing her to release new music right now. For what reason do we know? Unless they can fake a fake viral moment on TikTok to market the song. Oh, everything is marketing and they are doing this to basically every artist these days. She said, Oh god, so unless she put out a viral video regarding the song on TikTok, they don't want to release. Yeah. I think like they want to do it, but the irony is that this is now going to viral. Okay, I like this. I do think that, um yeah, so many songs now have to be TikTok dances or whatever to make it or have a moment um. But honestly, that's kind of how people learn new music. I think there must be uh, it must be hard to get new music played if you're not already famous and people are anticipating it, which Halsey is. But for new artists to like emerge, I think it used to be it would just be hard enough to getting your songs played on the radio. But you would, like you would listen to the radio and you would just hear what comes on for me new music. I I don't hear new music unless I already know the artists and I'm anticipating it, like or someone as there's a TikTok, like I know there's curators and there's people, but I think that a lot of people I used to discover a lot of music by just being in public spaces and hearing it over just like just hearing it on the radio or like Now, I feel like new music is so much harder to come by because we can always control what we're listening to, if that makes sense. That's why I do. On Spotify, I'll do you know, Sturgill Simpson Radio, and then it'll give me, give me like three or four different artists that I haven't heard before, and I'm like, and then I go, I think I just want Stergel. Well, you know what, But I love when it Spotify. I was listening to the Moon Soong yesterday was uh, Phoebe Bridgers. There was like some I follow Phoebe Bridgers sub breddit because I'm obsessed with her now and there was a clip from a performance at Red Rocks and there was this lyric that I just loved, and it was something about um, you're married and you're dying and I love you. And it was just like just the idea of like her writing a song about a guy that's married that she's in love. I was just like, what is this song? So I googled the lyrics. It's the song called the Moon Song, and so I listened to it on Spotify, pulled it up, and then all of a sudden, I just was, you know, lost in my phone and other songs started playing and I'm like, I like this song. I like this song. Well, that's a song already know that I really like. How did they know? Is this my playlist? And it's like, no, it was just the Moon soong radio. If you like this song, we figured out other songs are like, it's amazing how specific they can be. But for me to be open to new things, it's so fucking hard. Why is That's why I love when besties go Nikki based on what I know about you? Again, I love this song. Just give it a listen. And I often screenshot those d m s to get back to them. But if you have a song that you're like, I know Nikki Glazer will love this, don't give me a whole list give me one song. I promise I'll give it a chance if you bug me enough. And I would would like the recommendation. Noah gave me one. How how long have you loved another? Well, I'm dreaming of us together. She got the best. If you thought of you always knew to blow? Who I learned about from you? Long? If you Yeah? To Blow has this other song that she's like, uh oh, it's about um being a piece of ship. And she's like, I eat my dinner in the bathtub, then I go to sex clubs, watching freaky people getting in on it kind of makes me nervous than anything. I'm reckless. Yeah, I've been around NFC at all. Go home and eat some twinkies, throw up in the sink like she talks about being bliemic. It's just like, so to low is great. That song is called um I forget, but check out to flow t O V E L O. I do think there's other people that will go. I don't like anything mainstream. I only try to find new artists. And to that, we say, kid, let's get to top one bottom one our category this week is in honor of my upcoming birthday celebration. Karaoke songs. Karaoke songs. Now, I want to do this as your song that you would want to sing the most if you had to sing a song in front of your fans and family, and then the worst song that you could sing in front of your friends and family, and it has to be a song that you do know, though, like I think the worst song would be when you don't know. This should be a song you know but you just don't want to sing it. We always start with worst first, and I'll start with mine the worst one. Um, I will pick a song that has the N word throughout it because I would just be so nervous the whole time that I would accidentally say the N word in avoiding sing the N word, So that is on. I do like to sing up the song by Cardi B. It is one that I have karaoke before too great success. But I did have nerves the whole time that I was accidentally going to say the N word in the places where she says it because I was trying so hard not to say it. And I think even if I accidentally slipped and said the N word while I was performing it and people did film it, that I still could be forgiven because my intention was not to say it, and I think that matters. So I want to live in a world where I can perform up by Cardi B on karaoke and if I accidentally say the N word because I'm intentionally trying not to say it, you, I won't get canceled because my intention is never to ever say that word. And sometimes things go wrong. Um, but that's my biggest fear. But the worst song to karaoke by far is one that was given to me by Henry Phillips, one of my favorite comedians, and he used to do just have an anecdote of saying, you know what, I always think the worst He talks like this, He's like, I think the worst karaoke song to possibly do, and he was always talking about like he wanted to put it on and actually do it. Is I I what a song about conditioner? Yeah, but that song would be so funny and what probably one of the worst that you could carry. The only reason why I think that would actually I think because you don't have to know the lyrics. I think people would Really it's not really the worst, It's just one of the funniest ones that a person yeah, it's a very funny turned innocence or the sting song that has the Indian guy chanting in it would be hard not that one, but that's not sick. But what's your hangerhead? Which that's not saying I wear my sunglasses at night? Was that Phil Collins? It's definitely not sting. It's that the police. No, it's not a thousand dollars says it's not the police. It really is not. I would bet everything I have on it. But anyway, what's your least favorite? Hard? Thank you? Yes? Yeah, well he he didn't originally he was arrested by the police. One point is my least favorite would be like something like um like something Whitney Houston I Will Always Love You, But that was originally by Dolly Parton, which is originally by the police, but uh yeah, something like that where it's just like so emotional and it's like what are we doing, like we're at a party. You're kind of hit No, not even not you, but like anyone like some ones that are like, oh girl, what are you trying? Because if someone can do that song, bring it on true, but I can't. So that's a very emotional song that is more of a song that you should be listening alone in your room and not sharing with other people. Spotify radio so you find out other ones. Yeah, you know. Least favorite song to hear in karaoke has to be Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen Oh You're doing to hear? Okay? Yes? Because it was too long. It's too long. It's too long, too long, too long. It's it's like you said, and you're like, there's emotional, like I hate the part, especially like if guys are singing it, like where they go mama right and like you know, you're like, God, just go talk to a therapy sing the song. Yeah, the ideal karaoke song should be under three minutes. Really, it really should. And you know what, that's why it's so important. If it is over three minutes, that is either your birthday and your people allow it, or you bring someone else up to share in it with you and you make a dance about it and you make it like kind of fun, make it fun, make it funny. Um. Also a great way to spice up a karaoke song if it's too much is to have someone come up and talk over it, like in between the interludes and like talk and do like a comedy bit with you, which is like I like you doing that with Taylor Swift songs when I'm like doing something and you're like just rapping in the background or something, and I'll make it fun and worth it if you don't enjoy the music itself. Okay, best karaoke song, what's your? What's your? What are you gonna sing? You can go? I usually my go to I have to go twos. I do Stay by Lisa Lobe. Oh my god, I was gonna say that too. We gotta do that one together. I could do that without ever tell you about. Literally, the most embarrassing moment of my life was that song in a karaoke night. Why it was a karaoke gong show, which I didn't know, not right away. I go, that might be worse to get it at the very end. No, I in the middle. It was a comedy show that I did at this place downtown Los Angeles. Such a hipster crowd. Uh no, just regular karaoke. But it's like there's no stage. You kind of like perform in the middle of the dance floor and everyone is around you, and it's like so fun. But it's a gone show. I didn't even know that I picked Lisa Lobe. I go and you say gong oh before I mean, that's not even right away. That's before I even like and I kept singing, they go no, no, and they take the micro from I was like, that's clearly a joke because I didn't do anything wrong and they were just gonging me because it wasn't a cool song. This was before it was totally because I was like, this is too this song is too tall about all right, we gotta we gotta go. Okay, so my pepper, Oh that's fun. Yeah, okay, it's a fun one. Um, I'm going to go with Criminal by uh Fyoda Apple And I know that is an emotional song, but it's in my range. My mom and I both love to sing that song. That's the one she never wants to share with me and just does on her own and then I can't do it. But it's really fun and it's very emotion Yeah, it's just like and people know it. I like a song that other people know enough that they can sing along. I don't want to alienate anyone, but you know, I would also like to get into some Britney Spears because it's just fun to like sing like her, and like if you're not gonna sing, well you might I would. I know that. Not a lot of people don't know this, but I would like to do. I used to think I had the answer everything. I'm not at though, like that would be my favorite that okay, well then I'll do it, thank you, Um noah, but you're okay. So I just want to say I cannot sing carry Okay. I would never have the balls to do it. But the song that popped into what's your biggest fear, well, it's it's not fear. I just sound terrible, So you don't want to okay okay, um okay Pony by Genuine because that would be I would enjoy hearing anybody singing it one. You know the song as soon as like the first like wow wow, like the first thing that comes out. It sounds like a guy burping a sexual root and it's such like a rawnchy song and it's I don't know, it would just be funny and I would enjoy it. Robot with acid reflix Um. That's a good that's a good song. It reminds me of like our Kelly my about is telling me, no, it's the same kind of vibe. It's very sexual. I did a joke about that song. I said that, um, I never want to get married because I don't want to do the father daughter dance at the reception because everyone watches you dance. Slow dance with your dad is so awkward. And then we you know, and our song is Genuine's Pony, and I just that's for us. I just that's are And then you're grinding with your dad and that's like the thing you guys do together and you don't want to share with other people. So that was my al Right, guys, let's go to final thought. So um oh yeah, I was gonna say I had the worst karaoke moment ever with Shoop. So like a week before I did Shoop at like a barn Brooklyn and you killed killed. Then I was in New Orleans with my little brother. We were drunk and I was like and we were in line of karaoke, like we went to this bar it's called because you were like practice this home and I'm that cats me out and I pay the guy that's doing a karaoke the bugs to bump me up to show my brother that I'm a former essentially, and then guy goes up before me and he destroys. I forget what's song he did, but he brought the like I carried off the stage. And then you go up with your and no one listens. It was just such a funny song to sing to nobody anyhow. But your brother just kind of supporting you, kind of wanting to believe you, hoping you get stabbed against. Okay, so let's just quickly talk about the worst, the weirdest, uh interaction we had this weekend. Oh god, talk about a bomb. Um. I don't want to be just specific, but there was I don't know how to do. There were some people that came to the show. I'm going to say they came to a show, even though it's not the whole story, but they came to a show and afterwards that being great, they took pictures. It was nice, they said lovely things. Um also, well, yeah, I was trying not to be if it about who they were. So they came to both shows. They came to two shows, and which is already suspect because you go, well, I don't you didn't need to do that, but thank you. Um. Two meet and greets, and then in what they took a picture and then they wanted to do a video like where I he was like, well, you just do a video where you say good job Blake. No to him, like say it to the camera and be like I'm standing with Blake and he wants me to stay at the camera. Good job Blake. You can do it like an encouraging video that he can watch when he needs encouragement. And I was like, oh, that's kind of a fun idea. Whatever. Then his buddy came over and did the same thing, and he was like, you can just say anything, and I was like, you're lovable and you deserve love, and I just gave him like a you know, positive affirmations. Then they it was the end. They were the last in line and they're walking away and we see these two. They're two older men and they're too kind of like misfits. Let me just say one looked like a bouncer to like a Mormon um church, and then the other one looked like his special friend, Like I feel like he plays the Oregon at the church. Yes, okay, nice looking guys, but like different looks right, like kind of mismatch where you go, how are they friends? But it's none of my business. Then they're walking away and they have by the way, they took this with cameras, not with phones. They're walking away and fans, and you go, they didn't like my comedy. They just want to get a picture with me, like they there's something else here. It's like they these guys just reminded me of guys that like just like meeting celebrities and collecting pictures, which is fine, like teach their I don't give a fuck. But the weird part was they were leaving and there was this old woman who was probably like she looked like, um, she was a witch from Macbeth, like had like two teeth bent over, very old. And by the way, it's to one one o'clock at night at this point, so at eleven, this is one o'clock at night at this point. This woman has been there all night long, probably and she's with these two guys and there we don't know how they're connected, but you see her go can I can I meet her? And they go, no, no, we're leaving, and I'm standing there like we're just standing. I mean, this is the end of the line. And I hear them like, shuffle her off if they don't. No, no, it's enough no, And I go, no, I'll take a picture with you, and she goes, can I have one? I'd love it, And I'd go, I love I would love to, Oh my god, And so I hold her real tight and like give her a cute little hug and they and I swear to you, I would bet anything on it. He did not take the picture because I saw him take the picture, and I could just tell it was like what you would do if you're miming taking And then they walked off with this woman who I couldn't tell if it was their mom, if it was like some woman that they had taken advantage of to get them into the Like it just went from being like this cute kind of awkward and of the weirdest thing. Andrew and I could not shake it. It was so disturbing because they yelled at this woman that she couldn't have a picture, even though I'm standing there and she's in line with them, Like there isn't like, you know, everyone has to have a wristband. It's like whoever is there gets one. There's no checking, like once you're there, you're there to get it, and she had a wristband to even get back there. Yeah, I don't know how to feel. We went backstage. I was kind of in a rage because I was like, man, what's her age? Andrew was like, she's has to be like a hundred. I'm like, probably somewhere in her nineties. That poor woman. I feel like we just witnessed a crime, see, because that man was mean to her and then they shuffled off. I wish that woman the best, but I don't have a good feeling, and I just feel off. I rhymed off with off man when I saw it. That lady. I was like, man, she's gonna fall. I think she lives inside the theater walls. She's so old she died before vampire. Huh. It sounds like a Limerick keeping you could suck my big fat little finger because it rhymes with dick. I don't even know anymore, because look, I want to find these people, and I want to find out if they live in her basement and they take her money and they fucking don't look at her. Funny got to her. You got to give her water. She's gonna die soon. The cavin for being so nice to me, and that's what late And if you were listening to this and you please explain what the connection to that woman was, to her and everything. Please tell me that you took a picture and send the picture to me to confront that that woman had her picture taken. Please do not take advantage of her and and erase my video to you because you're not a good person. If if my biggest spears are true, we gotta go have a great day, will be here all week long. Um, don't be cut and can't take the hanger off now, yeah, I know what I wasn't even making you put it on.

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