The pod merch is reaching Besties and we're all very happy about it! Nikki and Andrew are separated because Andrew has the C word and had to deal with it on his birthday. Despite that he is in good spirits and so is Nikki for having to cancel her trip to Los Angeles as a result. Nikki had the weirdest three hours of her life last night. You Heard It Here First, a lawsuit that Andrew might win and the ups and downs of working with your lover. Just when you thought things couldn't get weirder, Nikki shares her Reddit saves.
The Nicky Glazer Podcast. Here's Nicky. Hello. Here, I am Nicky Glazers Nicki Glazer Podcast. Good Um, good week, Good umme to the week. Usually I was gonna say good Moon tomorrow, and then I was gonna say good Monday. It's Tuesday. Um, welcome to the show. We did not have a show yesterday. Andrew and I are both different versions of sick. I'm loving it. Never get sick. I really embraced it. I'm already better and I'm kind of annoyed by it. Um. Andrew is in his apartment. We're keeping distance just because we don't know what each of us might or might not have. Um, and we got shows this weekend. But uh yeah, we're doing the pod. Sorry we missed yesterday. Um. Noah is in Arizona. She is wearing a bestie hat. That is so much people got their merch yesterday. I was getting so many messages from besties. So cute guys are getting yours on Thursday. I'm so excited. Um, well, I hope it gets there before I probably won't get there before I leave town. But um, we're going to New Orleans on Thursday and then Jacksonville Friday. Fort Lauderdale, Saturday, Nashville, Sunday Nashville. It's not the other way around. Okay, maybe it's Jacksonville, Fort Lauderdale, Jacksonville. Would that make more sense? Just well, I don't know that the topography of Florida. You think I know where Fort Lauderdale and Jacksonville. No offense to anyone. You just found out St. Louis was where it is and you've been living here. Florida is such an easier state and St. Louis Is they're all squares out here. No, it's not a square. Has a little boot heel, has a little chunky boot heel that you would wear a little pair of Flayer jeans with. Would be so cute. I love that. Little people will probably like, dude, Missouri's just like Italy with the boot. Oh yeah, it least like a stiletto. Um. I wonder if someone's I bet you anything there have been still that it was made that are the shape of Italy, that like have all like the Craggley You know what I'm saying. That's how it all started. Yeah, it was in Rome and yeah my birthday, Yeah it was my birthday, and uh, I didn't do anything, absolutely nothing, and honestly, I don't want you went in the car and got CPK. We saw that with your you took your cat in the car, which is hilarious. Dude, a cat in the car. I was talking to know about this is people don't expect. It's like seeing a lizard in the car, like people don't expect to see a cat in the car. Like so we pulled up. People wanted to destroy your house when you're gone, or you just wanted to still be with it, just be with it. And it's just like our cat is like a dog in a way to take him on an adventure. Yeah, he was kind of freaking out. I mean, imagine if you're an animal in a car going eighty on the highway and you know it's no matter what love it. For some reason, dogs can embrace it. They just get it. Buzzy loves its, Buzzy loves the passing. He's a good car cat, car cat. What's your cat's name again, Mango or Nacho? I'm really sorry, I'm not playing dumb. Hold on, let me try to get that was an off camera hand trip. Um wait a second, hold on, I know your cosmo. No, it's mangoes. Okay, that's the thing that Kerson is allergic to, that's all. Remember it. Yeah, Mango is his name. He just memorized another cat's name when I did beat Bobby Flay and his cat's name was Nacho, and I had to like create a mnemonic device. Remember that, And so a new cat within a week of me memorizing that name. That's why if it up and I haven't met met it yet. Yeah, I mean no, it's tough two cats. It's a yeah. No, Nicki's never come into my apartment. She's waiting for it to be perfectly ready. No, I've been in the apartment. I love your apartment. I haven't been in town really, And now you have a a disease? Is it? It's COVID disease. I don't know. I mean, all I know is that COVID. I have high blood pressure. Remember I told you about that years ago, and I was trying to get it down. I haven't. It's funny when a doctor asked you and you haven't gone on a like you find out you have high blood pressure. I never really went back and like worked on it to realize like as it gone. I'm just impressed that you even got that diagnosis. Like I just yeah, I'm just I'm I'm impressed with you. Like you you got COVID. We we both got exposed to COVID. Uh Friday night. We were like in the tiniest we were like in a COVID um it was. It would be like what you put people in to give them COVID so you can study them. We were in that room with Natasha and Mosha at Moontower in Austin, a little tiny green room at the Paramount Theater, which was the best theater I've ever performed in in terms of like comedy, acoustics and just the people. But um, it was worth it. I loved hanging out with them. And then the next it's so funny because we were talking about how Natasha is like, you know, I I haven't gotten COVID yet. I I literally do nothing. I don't do anything. I just didn't want to get it. And she wasn't what are you talking about it? That's just how she talks. But she was like, no, Nikki, I literally do nothing. And there's a picture of us that and she actually took a picture of me at one point and she sent it to me later and she goes, this was mid transition, transmission, mid transmiss But the next day, you know, we get the call from I get a call from Mosha. We're pulling into wherever, and he's like, Natasha has COVID and I'm just like, oh, like, we didn't even care. I mean, it's just you know, we've we're vas were boostered, we've traveled so much. We've definitely been in contact with you with COVID. The irony, everyone's getting it, and the airlines just lifted the mask mandate. Did you hear that? Everyone on planes like the you know, they're getting over the thing and they're going well mass air now optional starting now, and people are throwing them off and cheering like I've reading reading I'm redditing, uh reading on Reddit all about it. Um, but you tested Popo? Yeah, I tested Popo Sunday. Um. I was feeling a little on their weather and in Sunday night I was really fucked up. So then um our show runner a lee from Nicky Glazer Welcome Home comes watch it on May first, all gonna try again. I just feel felt rushed. I don't know why. Welcome Home Nicky Glazer. That sounds like there's an exclamation point. Yeah there is. It's just has like it's drunk. It's just look, I still think it should be analized nicky glazer. Come on down now it's and it got to the higher ups and eat it got shot down. Um. So she posted that you had COVID and she wrote you yeah, and she's like, look, I had. I thought I was out of the Weird thing about COVID is you can be like fine, you think, and then a day later it's like, now I'm still in your bitch, you know, right still here. So she got a doctor packs lovid is a drug and anti viral drug that's like the drug it's the COVID drug, but you have to take it within like thirty six hours of getting symptoms right away. And then so I she's like, I'll have my doctor call you. And I was like okay, Like I never would have done this. It's so nice. She's such like a mama bear, like she's found like a pharmacy that has it. Like it was extreme. It was extremely nice. That's the person that was in charge of putting my family and friends on the reality show. Like that's who you want in charge. He's not gonna take advantage. Go on. So the doctor's like, I'm universal with my kids. After I get out of there, I'll I'm like, I probably got him out of there quicker. I'm sure he wasn't loving it. But he called me and he's like, yeah, He's like, oh, I'd love to stay here, but I gotta help this random guy i've never met. Um he called me. He's like, then, when you talk to a doctor, you can feel as sick as you can. But once you talk to a doctor, like you're like, I'm not gonna die anymore. I don't know what it is about a soothing voice of a physician. And I think, you know, my dad always talked about like bedside manner, Um, you know, when you blow your patient no, But like I don't, I don't know what like, But being a doctor is making people feel okay with because a lot of times doctors, it is so important, But a lot of times doctors have terrible bedside manner. The side manner sounds like a subdivision that you into when they're ready to when you're ready to say goodbye, mom, Dad, I got you a condo at bedside manner, and it's gonna be the asked gate you passed through before the pearly ones. Your parents are going to heaven over there are, Um, wait, just get so, but I like that. So you grew up hearing about this elusive bedside manner, your dad talking about how it's important. But you're right, like there's something very soothing about a doctor just but so much so often as women, we read about and and also you hear about, uh, black people like don't have their pain taken seriously because there's like a doctors tend to think, you know, there's been studies of it of black people don't can like are can take more pain than white people, and so there's not as much empathy for them, and they that's why a lot of black women die in childbirth because their pain is not taken seriously, Like they have way more They have a higher death rate during childbirth than than white women. And then also women in general um are kind of treated like, oh, you're hysterical, like we're always like crampy and bampy and I'm cody body baby boo, and so I think that when we actually like our pain isn't taken seriously, but it's it's so soothing when like when I had a U T I and I just emailed my doctor, who I haven't seen fucking forever because she's in l A. The second time I emailed for her firm me and she goes, you gotta kind of come in and see me, you know, like I gotta make some money for this. But she was so nice to be, like just think just writing like my vagina is falling off again. Honestly, you got you got, I gotta see you in person, lady, Like, she just was like this is normal. I was like, I've never gotten him in my life. It's I feel like I have to shoot out of my vagina constantly and it won't come out. Like I described everything. I was on the way to six your email subject on that U T I help ss all caps possibly covid um but yeah it is. It does feel good, uh too so your but your doctor said that COVID loves high blood pressure. Yeah, and he's like you COVID being personified, like COVID goes like can't yeah, like I dressis a COVID, like drooling and like being like like yeah, I like just a horny little boy, be like looking on that blood Oh it's high. Yeah, that's what it was like. And uh so, apparently if you have high blood pressure you can get into your cells easier, apparently, and did not freak you out a little bit about dying from COVID at any point? Were you that sick? Because I kept checking in on you and I was like, because you were like, I feel like hell, and I didn't know. I didn't. I'm always curious about how people feel because I want to know, like, what does it? Because I do not bragging. I rarely get sick, so I don't understand what when people are like, I'm so sick. I just want to know, like, what's the feeling? Like what? I don't know. I just think more than anything, it's brain frog. It's delirious nous. It's like feeling like you can't connect with your own body, with your own mind. Well, brain frog is how you describe brain fog when you have brain fog. I didn't say frog. Did I got a little bit of a thing. Yeah, there was something. They're jump in my throat, um, hop at my skip. Wait does that get so your birthday the celebrations were I know you were going to go out to dinner, you were gonna get maybe a facial You're gonna probably like you were just gonna have a nice evening you were getting back from tour. It was going to be like a nice calm You're probably gonna play some golf. Um. But that didn't happen. But is it is a birthday you'll remember at least that's what I said yesterday. I was like, I was telling brand I was like, I know that this kind of sucks that I couldn't really do any of that ship. But you know me, I'm pretty fucking simple. I was very happy with like not doing anything, and I will remember. I will, yeah, you know. But going back to a doctor with the high blood pressure, when when a doctor asked you, like, you know, what meds are you on? Do you have any medical history? For some reason, whenever doctor asked me if I have medical history, you know, when you're going through the line at the airport and and you think you have coke in your bag because you were in Vegas or whatever, like you think you did something wrong. Yeah, So when they're like what's your medical history, like do you have any And I'm like, uh, yeah, I think I had cancer last year. Like in my mind, I'm like thinking about I don't know, like I almost have to prove in that I do have liked you're almost like because you feel like you'd be lying if you said no, yeah, yeah, like you have a week, you know that line, You're like three last week, but before then zero for three years pretty much, you know. That's what funny? Was it? This weekend when there was a guy there was a chef that came in and made us an whole meal in um just in box. It was in Dallas, and he made us this whole vegan uh for free course meal. It was beautiful, and he was talking about being sober and thirteen years, and an I was like, oh, I have, um eleven years. And I was like, oh I have ten years, and Andrews like I have I have nine days? What was it? It was so funny, I have five days. It was such a good moment because I wasn't even thinking about it. We were just going around just like kind of saying are and I don't even count, Like I haven't been sober for ten I've been sober from alcohol for ten years. But um, that was just it made me laugh so hard, so funny whenever someone's like it's all about the streak. Baby that yeah, but it it. I will say, we talked about the streak before, and I'm not responding to anything I got feedback on. But I think that a lot of times that streak is something that keeps severe attic sober, and so I like it for them, like being able to say years like that's a big deal for some people who have had their lives like in the fucking gutter to say thirteen years whatever. Like for me, I don't. I like to lose track of streaks because I get obsessive about them. But um, you know what, and even if alcoholics are obsessive about the streak, it's better that than being obsessed with alcohol. But I do agree with you that you know, streaks are what I said it on the podcast before, they are what tech companies use to psychologically get us addicted to their things. They know we love a streak, so that so try to fight streaks as much as you can in life and be easy with yourself to go, Okay, I can skip a gym day. I don't need to go, oh, I've done the gym nine days in a row. Like, take moderation, let yourself. And that's why I said to Andrew like you can. Okay, so you have three years and now you drank two nights in a row. You can go back to just not drinking, or you can go like, just be easy, because if you feel defeated, if you feel what leads to addictive behavior and abusing sub sence is is the feeling we have towards ourselves. It doesn't it's not about the drink, it's not about the food. It's about feeling bad and needing to anesthetize that feeling. So when you funk up your streak, don't punish yourself. Be like, Okay, well I did it. We'll go, but like, just be gentle. I have a hilarious thing to tell you about that I don't even know that I'm ready to tell you guys about after we come back from Okay. It's so insane, and I'm really worried about even talking about it because it's just it's the weirdest thing maybe that's ever happened to me. And I'm not joking. So it was last night, what should oh? I thought you should shins when I gave that guy a shin job um because I didn't want to touch his penis. I gotta bring that joke back in my act. That was really good. Um. No, it is weirder than shittens what I did last night. All right, Well we'll hear about that when we get back right after this. Andrew coming now now you're not okay, welcome back to the show. All right. I think I'm ready to divulge what happened. I'm just saying, going for it. I was gonna say, I wasn't gonna do it. You could not guess if you tried, you could not guess. Okay, I'll give you guess. Okay, it is inspired from It happened because of Whitney commings. Okay, it happened because, Yeah, this would not have happened in my life had Whitney compings not. Um. It doesn't have to do with the family constellations. WHOA, Okay, I'm excited. Okay, I have to. So did I tell you about this on the podcast? Okay, you talked about what it was I which, by the way, I don't. I don't know what it is to this day. So I talked to this woman. You guys, if you didn't hear, I talked to this woman the other day to have like a preliminary talk about what this would be. I found out during the talk I knew nothing about it. Whitney was just like, oh, in my past, I learned that I was scared of horse carriages because in my past, my you know, great great grandfather like had something to do with horsecared or something like that. So she's like, So I call this woman. She's talking to me about my fears, and I'm like, how does this work? And I kind of glean that it's like a psychic thing, which I am only now really open to it, like it maybe thinking psychics have some sort of actual ability, which I believe mostly that they're full of shit. I only believe Psyche's real because of Tyler Henry and his Netflix show. It's made me believe and like people are intuitive. I don't think he is like a Charlotte in who is trying to like get famous from this thing. It's just it would be too weird, it would be too out of character for him. Um. So I talked to this woman the other day for about an hour. She talked to me about my fears. I said, I have fears of perfectionism. I have fears of you know, um, streaks of h I have fears of being unloved. I have fears of you know. I just talked about all my stuff, and it was actually pretty hard for me to come up with stuff because I feel so accepting of these things. There's not I really don't feel like I need to fix anything in my life, Like I have tools to fix the things. I have a recovery program. I I already like, I'm not saying I'm fixed because I love that things keep bubbling up because it makes me, you know, who I am, and it makes challenges in my life and it makes me do weird cookie things. But I just don't need another thing to fix things, you know. And I felt like this was a little bit it had some twelve step stuff in it, it had some therapy type stuff. But then she started talking about you know, she started just reading through the phone, like something happened to you when your four and a half, Your your parents put some kind of punishment on you, like and she I thought she was giving an example of what our work would look like because this was preliminary. I thought she was because I was like, how does this work? And she goes, okay, well, you know, and she's talking me through and she goes, so, let me just see it happened to you. Let's go buy years one, two, three, four, four? Okay is it four? No, it's five. No, it's four and a half. Something up And I go an example, or is this what you're feeling. She's like, no, something happened at four and a half. I'm like, okay, I don't really even know what that would be. Um, I blacked out everything at four and a half, so clearly nothing happened. Um, that's a joke. But so last night I have my session with her. I was supposed to be in l A. But like we talked about in the first part of the show, I thought I was getting sick around the time Andrew was getting sick, a lot of stuff happened. I was headed to the airport to go to l A yesterday or on um, sorry Sunday morning. I was supposed to be in l A all week. Andrew texts me he goes back to St. Louis much earlier than me. I'm in the middle of the day. I'm late for my flight and my bags are not gonna be checked, so I'm trying to get on the later flight to l A. As I'm doing that, texting Jen Jen, my assistant, trying to figure it out. Andrew text me, I tested positive for COVID and I'm like, yes, because I just did not feel like l A. I just wanted to go back home and I was already feeling kind of sick. And I was like, you know what, I just want to go home anyway. I'm missing home, missing my dog, even though I don't have my fucking dog. So I write Jan, screw finding this a later flight, l A. Let's go to St. Louis. Then I go to St. Louis And I was supposed to be in l A having the session with this woman last night Monday night. We're supposed to go from seven and she said it's two hours long. So last night I get on, um, she moves it slightly, so it's seven thirty my time, seven thirty my time. I get on with her on Zoom and I really am still unclear about what I'm doing. I don't know what this is at all, and she's kind of talking to me about She goes, well, you know a lot of people think humans are humans have been around for billions of years. And I was just like h and she goes, a lot of people think we did not derive, We did not evolve from monkeys from apes, and I go, I'm I'm really gonna have a hard time with that, because that's like I've I'm very indoctrinated by my whole belief system is evolution, and um, I have like science to support it, and I just believe that, And she goes, I did too for four or five years. But it's actually, Yahweh was the great creator. He created humans. Humans are a are the royal species. It was about like humans being royal. Aliens have studied us. It was a lot of It was a lot right away, and I go, doesn't take weeks, months, years to get someone on board with these kinds of concepts, Like it was just like introductory, Like okay, so humans have been around for billions of years um, and we are all on this quant This this work is on a quantum level, which means what she does with Family Consolation is she taps into she's intuitive. She believes that all humans are intuitive and we do not tap into our intuitive powers. And so she teaches me. It doesn't even teach me. She just asked me questions. And I have to just intuit the feeling, and what we do is we go back and repair family ancestral history of you know, we have billions, we have millions of like thousands, millions whatever is of answers? You remember any of the questions. Yes, it's about to get fucking weird. Believe you me, it's about to get weird. So I have no idea what this work is. So I'm sitting there. This probably takes thirty minutes. She's talking about how we go back and repair different examples of like how this is. Her brother does this work too. I'm really just kind of going along with it because Whitney said, whether or not it does anything for you, believe in it. It's just a good story. She was right, So I'm trying to actually believe it, you know, I'm trying to just like wrap my head around what would it be like to just surrender to this is true, you know, like instead of me being a skeptical a time, just like enjoy it. So I'm on board. I'm like, just be a fucking believer in this. So then we start doing the work, which is so we go back. She takes on. She's like your yellow shirt, I'm red shirt. She's wearing a red shirt. I'm wearing a yellow, uh blue lemon shirt. And she's like, your yellow shirt. Now we are going to take on the rolls of different ancestors from your past. I don't know who these people are. They're just going to come through. Let's set an intention, let's set energy out there. And so we take a second and then she's like, okay, I'm I'm red shirt, and I'm going to show she interacts with me. And this is all stuff I've glean because it's very confusing. I'm just go she doesn't explain it well enough. I have to say if I could give her some notes, I just I don't know anything about this. All of a sudden, she's like, okay, your red yellow shirt. I'm red shirt. Okay, I'm red shirt, all right? Oh oh, I don't want to even look at you. I can't even look at you. No, no, no, no, I'm not I'm looking over here. I'm not looking at you. I do not like what you did to me. And she's and I start going, okay, I don't. I'm trying to like just feel I'm a character or now in my past. I don't know who I am how am I relating to this red shirt? So red shirt? It turns out she starts going, okay, um, what am I? Who am I? She's talking to like a great spirit or something. I don't even know who's talking to the universe. She's like, who am I? She goes, am I? How old am I am? My girl? Yes? And my boy? No? Now, I always have to double check because sometimes you think it's a girl because you have your own preconceived notions of what a girl is and and but I'm feeling okay, it's a girl. Okay, how old am I? Let's go by? Do we go by years? No? Do we go by months? No? Do we go by weeks? Yes? Okay? One? Two, two weeks old? Okay? Ah? My neck? Ah? I feel and I feel someone holding my arms and my neck. I feel was I shaken? Am I a shaken baby? Yes? Okay? Who is yellow shirt? Who is this to me? Is this is this my mother? No? I can't look at you. I can't look at you. Okay, is it my Is it my father? No? Okay, yellow shirt? How are you feeling in relation to me? And I'm just like fucking weirded out. I don't know, like I'm Nikki, like, I am not my great I don't know who I am, and so I'm just like, okay, what do I feel? And I'm like, um, that you're being ridiculous. I didn't know if that was my answers are coming through or Nikki, you know. So I'm like, I honestly feel like you're exaggerating and like you deserved it or whatever, like I was just trying to tap into, like what I felt from this woman who was like pretending to be a baby that couldn't look at me, that was shaken, And she goes, Okay, was this a nanny? So it turns out that I am a nanny. I am a caregiver that this baby's mother purposely gave over to the caregiver because the mother didn't want the baby, because the baby was born deformed and the mother didn't want it, so she purposely put it in the care of someone who was abusive, who she knew would shake the baby. And I'm the person who shook the baby. And so then she starts as the baby saying, I release to the universe my victimization because this baby feeling like a victim has permeated my family history. Back and backwards and forwards, and has led to all of this victimization of like all my ancestors feeling like victims. Any questions so far, you guys in my black shirt, Yes, who are you to me? Black shirt? I mean yes, the beginning, I'm not gonna I will try to like make it as short as possible, but this is just the beginning. So then I, as yellow Shirt, really get into character and I'm like, well, actually, you know what I feel like. I feel like I did that baby a favor because life is sucking hard, and we figured out this is five generations from me or whatever, you know, like we're doing fucking this is acting right, So five generations ago, it's like eighteen twenty, and I'm like, on slee life sucks, and I did this baby a favor by shaking it because my life is hell. I'm like a weird wet nurse. And yes, Noah, is there any way for you to verify this with your family tree? So then yes, thank you very much. So then no, there's no way for me to verify that unless I was to do some really deep digging, which I haven't, I might be inspired to do just a fact check. So then we so I release the guilt I feel over shaking this baby, and the anger I feel that the baby. I released all this stuff. So it's so on a quantum level, it supposed to permeate through not only me, but my you know, Poppy, my parents, and like all of this healing will happen in my life now because of that. Then she takes on, so she takes on a bunch of different people. We are an hour and forty five minutes in and I'm looking at the cock being like, and I'm tired, because this makes this drains you because you keep you're taking on these characters You're trying to like really pull your energy. I mean, it was late at night and I had a long day, so maybe that's why I was tired, But I was starting to go I was really trying to believe it, because why not why sit there skeptically the whole time? Like I was just like, let's just have fun. And then it gets to two hours and she goes, how are you on time? And now at this point we're different. We've been different people in my past, and I'm not gonna bore you with those, but it was all this stuff and I go I'm good, meaning like this was good for me. I'm done, and she goes, okay, so okay, now I'm white shirt. She takes off her jacket and I'm like, oh no, and she goes, you're a gray shirt and I'm like, oh god, because I'm wearing like a thing underneath. And I'm like, oh god, here we go again. Then she becomes someone else. She keeps asking like, who is this person? I can't even again, I have a great relationship with my mother. You're my father, and I hate you. I don't like you, but my mom. Oh, this feels inappropriate. How much I love my mom. She's just smiling in the corner at mom, being like I love you. I love and I'm just like and I'm the dad, just being like I'm just acting like this, and she goes, how do you feel in relation to me white shirt? And I'm like, I feel disgusted, Like I think it's weird that you're like so close with your mom. And then it gives into this old thing. Then I turned into my grandpa. And then this is where I started going, Okay, so I'm my grandpa. No, yes, I'm a grandpa. She is my grandma. At one point, and she's like, I'm a pistol because she finds out I go, you know, they were divorced when my dad was very young. She's like, I'm a little pistol and he you don't understand me, you can't handle me. And I did your did your grandma leave your grandpa? And I go yeah, and she goes, you just you know what, you didn't give me enough attention. You weren't you weren't there for me. You didn't understand me. And I go, he also beat the ship out of her, and she's like, that's the ringing in my ear. Okay, I'm getting like someone hit me in my ear and I'm like, yeah, and that might be like the guns he like shot off in the house when he was violently drunk, and that's why she left. And so then it becomes like it just shifts, Yeah, that's she's the best. So no, there's a fistal next to my head. So it just shifts. And I start to see like the little stuff you give them, what they do with it. And I do believe this woman believes what she's doing. But I was did this for three hours and I'm texting Whitney on the side, like I am role playing as my closeted great great uncle, and I don't like this is the most dramatic, this is the best acting like we should Yeah. Yeah, I was gonna say, by the way, at any point where you like she would make a great acting coach, at least I'm getting that out. Yeah yeah. I was like, does it feel like she's almost showing how good she is as opposed to like really getting to anything. No, I mean I believed her, Andrew, It's a weird thing, like I believe that she was. I was kind of like looking at her tissue, like is it actually wet? Is she wiping? Can I see tears? But then I saw tears and she was like, I you know, I'm an EmPATH and I already like feel so much, but I I I So it just all the stuff just started coming out. So I wrote, so part of it was my was I playing. My grandpa was watching. It was something about my grandpa's family and like he was very close with his mother, his dad was jealous of them or whatever, and so I wrote my dad being like, what was your relationship? What was Grandpa's relationship like with his mom and dad? And that's where I'm like, okay, I'll fact check this, and my dad goes, I don't know. And my dad knows everything about his dad about like my dad's obsessed with lineage, and he goes, I don't know, and I was like okay, and he goes, I have a feeling that his dad beat him a lot. Um. That's just a feeling I have. And I go, well, I could have told you that because grandpa beat you. You know, Grandpa was abusive and hurt people, hurt like you know, of course he got beat and my dad just wrote back yep, And so I think it was very painful for my dad. But this what this does is it does get me into my like exploring, like okay, I want to fact check this now. And it was interesting and it was like it was experience and Whitney and I don't think I'll go I'll have to limit them the one hour sessions because this was so it was three hours until ten ten thirty at night. I was playing the role of my ancestors and it was so weird. Do you ever find yourself? It honestly reminds me of like when I I think I hear people do sexual weird things. Where they're like, this guy wanted me to do this thing, and I don't know. I was just up for it, and like we were doing a three some and I'm like, how did you do that? That's so scary. I felt like that, like I felt like I was being a little bit coerced into doing this very weird thing, and at one point you just give in and you go, okay, let me just like see what I can do. And I maybe this didn't pay off as much as I alluded to like to it like saying it was, but it truly was the weirdest thing I've ever done, because acting like my ancestors when you don't really believe it, it was so weird. And also it was just on Zook the conclusion, and also her son's minecraft kept going off on the computer and be like, I'm just feeling like I'm going to forgive you for being violent and be like beating but ding but ding, and I would just see her eyes kind of go to the side and go like like look at the alerts and kind to get frustrated, and I release my resentment and I released my victim. But ding ding Ding, It's just like, what is my life? And Why how do these fucking spirits come through on Zoom? How are they getting it to work? How it's just it all. I was very much like I would love Sam Harris to weigh in on this and how much of an ey roll this is? But you know what, you don't You can't learn new things unless you open your mind to actually accepting them and not walking in cynically to everything in life. And so it was a lesson in that. Yeah, it feels like it's like taking ayahuasca without taking a drug. Like this was our ability to kind of release and let go and and kind of you know, take off that like skeptic brain that we all have, which is which you can learn a lot about yourself when you do that. That being said, three hours of that skeptic brain, it starts to like for an hour, I can let it go for three hours. I start texting my friends saying, you would not believe what's happening. And I did record it on Zoom so I could have it for myself. She told me to, But it's on our work computer and I didn't want to save it because it was a three hour video session. But man, I wish I could. Well, how did it conclude, like, how does it end? How does it with her going okay at three hours? Okay, she goes okay, now Sam shirt and I go, I gotta be honest, I can't do it. I go, I am exhausted and I gotta go. My grandpa says that my grandpa's coming through, and he's telling me that I need to watch the next episode of the Ultimatum with my boyfriend over the phone. That's what he wants us to do, and I want to release me from the guilt of finishing the session early. Um so I did watch the Ultimatum, which is amazing. Let's get to you. Woren't too many layers, Nick. That's the funniest part about this is that she had on so many sure. Oh my god. She's like, I'm nude, bra and I'm like, oh god, please keep on. I'm in her tits. Oh boy, it's Tuesday, folks. You know what that means. It is Tuesday. I hope you're having all the swells out there, And um, I haven't been because you know, I've been dying from a virus. I'm on a venerlator right now, just kidding. Everything's fine, all right. I did test negative just now, and I want to say the COVID test that uh, thank you so much to Brenna, shout out, love you so much, miss you so much. She gave me one of her tests. When you do the COVID test, the line shows up either C or T in my line CT, like when you're positive cen T show Oh it's both. It's oh well, I just I didn't read the instructions and I just saw a line on sea and I was like, oh, well, that's COVID, and Andrew goes no. I sent a picture. I go, mama's got it, and he goes, no, you don't. Let's just see. I'm like, so I don't. I don't have COVID. I just have a cold from um uh my boyfriend who gave me cold. But um, COVID's out there. Even though no one's wearing masks anymore. People are. It's surgeon um, surgeon general. Let's get to the first news story. Alright. A man wins a four hundred and fifty thousand dollar lawsuit after his coworkers threw him in office birthday party against his wishes that triggered a panic attack. I heard about this and I did not click on the article because I just go what I had a feeling I would hear about it on here. So you're telling me the medical and the suffering that he endured because of having a panic attack, because of all the tension on him from the surprise little cake situation. That's what he wants compensation for. It's it's a little bit more complicated than that, because he ultimately got fired during this panic attack that got him fired, so UM he so they threw him an office birthday party and he had to go to his car because you know, he had to go through all the coping mechanisms. He had to be on his own, and UM, his managers were like confused and they said that he stole his coworkers joy Um. They then later on called him into the office, which triggered another panic attack, and ultimately they fired him. So the lawsuit was a d and twenty grand and lost wages and benefits thirty thousand and future wages. Because the company is like a like a medical company that UM profited a lot off of the pandemic UM and he was not there for that because they fired him. And so this is a while ago, this happens and UM grand for past, present, and future mental pain and suffering, mental anguish, embarrassment, humiliation, mortification, and loss of self esteem. Andrew, you have quite a lawsuit against me if this is going to hold up in court. No, but you know what, I like, this reminds me of me having COVID yesterday, where I I didn't even have to return phone calls. I didn't do anything. This guy with this birthday, these fuckers all made it about them. It had nothing to do with him his birthday anymore, to the point where they fired him because he caused them to be sad that he wasn't happy enough with his cake, Like well were You know. There's a part of me though, and I hear what you're saying, and I and I want to believe that that's like, I want to believe that he was wronged. But this guy seems like kind of I don't know, he's trying to get a money grab. No, I mean, I feel like this guy dramatic, this dramatic dick like this kind of And I don't know the situation because I would hate to be this guy. And here some two people on a podcast, you know, saying what they think because they don't know anything. But this is sort of sort of sounding like, you know, I went to a comedy show and like I suffered because she brought up this word and like I can't listen, Like it reminds me of the girl in high school that I wanted attention because this boy that she barely even dated broke up with her, and she wanted attention from everyone at the party. So when Eric Clapton's you know, she go to a party, that song came on Wonderful Tonight, she started crying, being like I can't turn it off, Like it reminds me of whick please, And it's just like there's a little bit of that. But also I do understand like some people make birthdays about them and like give too much. I mean, that is the classic thing. So I can't decide. I just think that when people get this litigious, it's just a little susp act. But I also it could be the McDonald's burning thing where we just go, oh did you get burned, and it's like, yeah, her fucking skin burned off to the bone. She maybe deserves four million dollars. That makes billions if you're a better Jerry on the case, A twelve person Jerry, So twelve you know, twelve people had to listen to everything and decide that and he got it. Yeah, oh well you know what. Good? Well then I trust I mean, I'd like to trust juries. But um, you know it is interesting that like how good of an employee, like if if he was very important to the company, one panic attack, temper tantrum, is that going to cause me to fire him? Probably not if I was the boss. Have you guys ever considered doing a lawsuit? No, because it's too many forms. I'd have to mean an attorney, I'd have to be so to do it for you? Yeah know what to think of what it is? Okay, I had I had a lawsuit, Remember I about the speaker falling on my head. Um, my lawyer advised me to take the settlement because once you call in doctors to the podium and all that. He said, suing people costs a lot of money and are you sure you want to get into this right? And that's why Trump constantly can get people silence because he just sues them and they don't have money to actually fight it. So they just forgot to say. I sued my landlord and I had to get I did do a lot, Like no bullshit, it's like the most work I've ever done in regards to getting shipped together talking to all six of my roommates. Yeah, I remember that was being so impressed by that, and it was, um, what's it called when the lawyer does it for free? Because yeah, pro bono because they felt so bad about and they love you too. Um, so we did all of this and they're like, yeah, you guarantee you have a case, blah blah. We didn't win, like and it took like three years to find out if we'd win or not. And I stayed in the apartment probably a year longer than I probably would have because I was like, money interesting, whatever, No, do you feel like it was? Was it a good amount of money? Was it decent? Or where did you go back for more? You givet of it to your lawyer and then the rest of it is taxed and then you're left with like nothing. That's the thing is like I whenever, I mean, that's what I do. What's that's the math I do? Whenever I get a a job, you know, Like I there was something I recently my business manager wrote me recently about I'm paying taxes. I do it like quarterly, I guess, and the amount of money I don't even want to know. It's not mine. Like you know, when I get a gig, I take away three fourth of it and that is probably what I can say I walk away with after all is said and done. Really, I mean, I think that it would be nice almost. You know. It's almost like when you go to Walgreens and I remember as a kid being like, why don't they just put the tax on it? Because I get it tax changes, but like you always get this new higher amount. I just want to know what I had, Like I just want to know, Like I don't want to see what I would have made and what they take out. Just take it out and then give it to me, because it feels like it was mine then when it was never mine. And also, you know, there's been been this TikTok going around that I love and and different people kind of say the same thing. But how we live in a country where they we have to pay taxes obviously, but we have to figure out what we have to pay, and they could really and then they come after us for like, actually you owe this, and it's like if you fucking know, then just tell me, don't make me figure it out. But the reason they do that is because turbo tax and these companies into it. They lobby Congress to make it so that they can exist. They don't need to exist. They pay Congress to make to make it so that this is the system that we have to go through them. We have to turbo tax things and pay them to do our taxes. They don't need to exist because the I r US knows how much we owe, they come after us for it. Eventually. It's just so weird. It's also way harder if you have like a job like we have where you can make money from like nineteen different things. It almost and so do like entrepreneurs and people starting their own business and almost it's so much easier to pay taxes when you just have a normal nine to five, like regularly pay Oh, take it out already. I could not. I didn't. I had to have my dad do it before I got my own business. Man. I don't know how people do it. I'm just so like asually with an accountant. I don't know how how people do it on their own, but they do turbo at tax or they you know, are smart enough to figure it out. Or they get you know, someone but it's or they just don't do it and then they're fucked later on down the road. I want to say that I almost did a lawsuit um or I looked into it when I found that cap in my vagina that I thought that that was from a yeast infection thing that I didn't even remember doing it. But this cap was in my vagina for years possibly, and I looked into it. I like wrote lawyers about it, being like what this cap was in there a year a year and I had infections from like it was a cap from a monostat thing was a blue cap that I found that my boyfriend, my first boyfriend, found in my vagina at the same day that Sully Selimburger landed in the Hudson. He was fingering me and goes, what's that. I felt it on my dick so much. I always feel the screaming dick. Yeah, And he said, um, you know, get your flotation divide. Yeah. No, he said, um uh, and then he breached his fingers up and pulled out this cap and I was like, I don't know what the funk this is And it was my first boyfriend. I was so nervous about like this guy finding this weird thing inside me. We were at a hotel that I got for us because we both lived with our parents and couldn't like hook up, and um, I you know, there's this whole story around it. But I finally find out that this cap that I can't identify is from a monostat thing because there was this other girl that had it too, and she found one in her vagina. There's a bunch of girls that I found online, not a bunch to one of them thought it was aliens put it in. I stopped talking to her right away. Then the other one was like, no, it's a Monostt cap and I was like, oh fuck, because I wrote my you know, I wrote lawyers. I wrote my guy to college, just being like anything like this, like in your office did you leave something in me? Like I didn't remember using it? And um, And then I found out it was this Monostt cap. So I wrote my lawyer being like can we do like what's what do we have? And then I realized I'm just a broke person looking to make some money off of this unfortunate thing, Like I see an opportunity. I wasn't really you know, I had some mental anguish because my boyfriend found a cap and me and it was embarrassing. Is that financially is I'm probably gonna make money off of the story, and like the trauma that that gave me, Like it just felt it felt like me because people were like, NICKI you gotta sue when I was like, okay, I mean I'm broke at the time, I'm like, let me look into it. And I was just like in the end, I was like, no, this would be a lie to act like. It was really mental distress so that you feel like how did you First of all, how did you get the cap? Like did you how did it stay in you? You think like do you think you had a case? I think you. Yeah. It was like that I just didn't read the instructions right, you know, and and that that could be like they didn't make the instructions clear enough because there were three girls I found online who also had the same thing, and this I also thought COVID, So you know that's the problem. I thought a bed cap. I'm like, there's another one in there, there's one of my nose. All right, we gotta go. We'll come back with why do I care, all right, Why do I care? Why do I care? Joe Alwyn reveals if he'll write more songs for his girlfriend Taylor Swift under his pseudo Millium Bowery. Um does is he? Of course he will? He loves he loved it. So in an interview l he responded, it's not a plan of mine. No. He They are so private, these two. They do a really good job. They don't talk about anything. There was this head boyfriend. Oh dude, she's been with him for I think five or six years now. They're serious. I mean, people speculate that they're already married and stuff. But he um, yeah, she had attributed songwriting credits this William Bowery, and no one could no one knew who that was. And it turns out that William, I believe is his maybe his middle name or something. And then Bowery is the Bowery Hotel is where they first met. Fans have discovered, so that's like was his thing and um, and she talks about on the long pun sessions like having written with him and he, um, yeah, he's musical, and so they wrote I think Betty together. I think he wrote like he had the melody for Betty going um and a couple of songs off Folklore and evermore and um, yeah, it's Uh. It's interesting because there was an article this weekend, the headline that said, you know, Joseph Alwyn says, um, he doesn't want to keep his relationship secret. Uh, and it was that was the headline, and I was like, he would never say that, Like their their relationship is more secret than any Hollywood relationship, Like you do not see footage of them unless she is very much into like putting it out there. It is, there is no They are private as fuck, and she does a good job of because she knows how much that stuff affects relationships. So I was really shocked to read this article. But then I read further and all he said was, you know this, we wouldn't be keeping it secret if it wasn't this way. This isn't what I want. This isn't what I want. It just is the way it has to be. Like he said it in a way that was not that these articles always do clickbait of like he doesn't want to do this, She's making him. That's what it made it sound like. It's so interesting how journalists can minutely it would be great if he's like breaking up with her, but he's like, here's six songs I already wrote about myself that I'm sure that you're gonna love how shitty they are towards me. Um, you can just pay my manager. Here's the whole album. I'm sorry broke your heart. Uh would you feel get paid for that? Does he get paid for that? How do you think? How do you think that goes down though? Do you think that, um, like the pay scale is like or whatever writer makes like DoD they talk about that, you think as as I think it's already like it's there's rules, you know, like if you have this kind of credit, it's not like up to the artist. It's pretty much like set like union like scale stuff. I don't think it would like I guess it wouldn't really affect the relationship. But anyhow, what were you about if you worked with Chris? Yes, yes, I have. Chris has helped you on your specials and I just talked to him about it, yes to day. Um, I have begged for him to take money because he's helped me so much, and like I've paid people my friends who have like assisted with producing Ellena Baker like helped me on Bang and she helped me like put it together and kind of come up with a theme. I paid her, you know on this like on the side from my own money. Um. And then Chris has helped me with all of my specials producing wise and will not accept money. I asked him. I sent him a check once when we weren't together because I was just like, I don't want him to think I just used him or whatever. And I think we kind of had like a break up at then of it. Um, I'm the opposite of Taylor Swift, I say too much. But we yeah, we it was the end of ID just taped. Um, I just say banging actually, and I was we had become so close during banging, and I thought, you know what, we're getting back together. He is just amazing. I want to be back together. And he was like, no, I just I don't. I'm not ready for that. And I didn't know that this meant that you were and we just had a misunderstanding and I was like, okay, fine, and then I sent him a check, being like, well then that you can't even I'm so hurt that you don't want to be with me. That like, all that help you gave me, I'm gonna pay you off so that you don't that it. It meant nothing to me either, you know, And I don't think you ever. Yeah, but I love I love working with your I think it's the best thing ever is that you can work with your friends and family. And but it does get tricky, all this stuff does get when there's money involved. It becomes like, you know, I just want I want to work with Chris all the time, and I want it so that he can just work with me and not have to do other jobs because he's so good at helping me be better. And it's just a thing of like, but I do that anyway. I don't need to get paid. I'm like, but I want you to be more free so you don't have to do other work, so you can do me. So can I please pay you? And then it becomes like I don't want to be in your payroll, and I'm like, but like, what's the difference between like a husband and wife? Like like a husband, you know, it's just it's different when it's a woman with money. And he's not like any kind of sexist old man rules. He's just you know, wants to respect me and my money and doesn't want to like he just does things out of love, not because of money. But I'm like, but this is a job and I wouldn't be as I wouldn't be making as much money without you. So it's a it's very it's it's it's interesting. I'll figure it out someday. Let's get to Reddit dump karaoke mode. This is your Reddit dom. Alrighty, here we go, it's time for Reddy Dump. I love that little giggle you have at the end there. Um. Alright, So I liked this tweet yesterday that I found on the subreddit hold up h O l u P. It's like at the hold up is where everything something's fine and funny, and then at the end it's like, wait, what that's hold up? This is from um a tweet by kay Thor Jensen. It's a screenshot of tweet on Reddit. My wife just said boukaki in front of the kids to my shot. She then admitted that she didn't know what it meant and thought it meant like bullshit or something fake, And she said I say it in meetings. I made her google it and now she's having a panic attack. It does sound like something in all that BOOKACKI like, it doesn't sound like a bunch of people that though, um, because I feel like I've thought that before too, before I like found porn and like seeing bo Wait, what is bookaki? That's like the car Okay, they we're learning that Andrew doesn't know what BOOKACKI means. So you would hear that not think a sexual thing? What would you telling Andrew what BOOKOCKI is? A book hocki is one like a bunch of men just like come on a subject at the same time at the same time. That's okay. So yeah, So man, she was saying that in meetings, and I'm sure guys who like knew what she was talking. I wonder how she is it in a sentence at a meeting. I believe it was probably like, oh, that's a bunch of bukaki. Listen, we gotta get back to these TPS reports, you know what I mean. It was just it's like, you know that is so if our best sees have any examples of when it used words like that, because I think I feel like I've done that before to where I didn't know what the oh I know what I did. I in a I was in college, and I said, um, I said, I used the word castrated instead of um no, instead of cast cast out, like he was castrated from the community. And she was like. I remember her circling it and being like, look up this word, Nikki, No, it was. It was my ap English teacher in high school, Miss Larson. Miss Larson used to be very She was the one that when the September eleventh happened, and the right after I got announced, the twin Towers got hit or the twin Tower was one tower. I go, what's the twin towers? And she goes, you don't know what the twin towers are? She was so like. I was just like, I don't know. Um. So I remember her being like, look up what this look means. And then I remember in college my professor circled the world. I said, um, and a colored color and he had so many colored friends, like colorful, I thought, and she he circled it and goes, you might want not want to use that word, but I thought it meant colorful. So those are my examples. UM, here's from ask credit. This made me um happy to to read a bunch of these. What never fails to make you horny? What never fails to make you horny? So one said, being wanted, not just wanting my pussies so you can come, but wanting me. This one is my newest EROGYNI stone that I didn't know I had, But I'm so glad. Some other woman put it talking where I can feel his breath on the back of my neck. Yes, holy moley, I didn't know that was a thing. Wait, what do you mean by that? Right here? Like right take your ear, like behind your robe, go down behind you. Yes, he is behind you at this or you know they can be like they can just but like breathing right there. For some reason, it is I can't even I can't even take it. It's and this is something I learned. No, this is I think we were just he was like laying on top of me, maybe just like whispering hot things. I mean, it was already a hot scenario, but what it did to me I just was like kid like. It was like I was being tickled, but horny nous. It was so good. Someone said, a really good tight hug from behind, so I can feel his junk up against me, wrapping his arms underneath my breast and either whispering in my ear or kissing them. When a man puts his hand on the small of my back and draws me in close. Oh my god. Um, actual moans, not fake ones or joke ones l O L. Just real ones. When a guy wear short sleeves and does that stretch with their arms behind their head. All right, these are all women. This is supposed to be. Um, you know men too, But Andrew, was there anything that you? Oh, someone said, come inside me. When a woman says that, what never fails to make you horny? Andrew's frozen, I think because he just heard the words coming coming. You guys need to see his face. I hope that's recorded. It's so funny. He's frozen. Just looks like someone just said come inside me, and he's like, I, Andrew, welcome back. Oh Andrew dropped. Well. Someone also said a woman in a tank top and jeans. Don't know why, but it doesn't for me. Is there anything that comes in mind for you? Noah? As we wait for Andrew to come back, uh uh moaning from men or like any kind of like grunting sounds like the men mike the men totally mike the men's situation um, all right, Andrew, You're back just in time for this one is so fucking weird. It's a little bit of a story, so story time. Final thought. This one is from True off my Chest. Oh boy, this one's fucked Mike When and I had a sexual relationship for years. I'm so ashamed. This might be the one that makes people party pretty much the title. I've never told anyone this. The twin and I do not have and have not discussed. I don't even remember how or why it started, but we eventually grew out of it. We're both doing fairly well in our respective careers and lead stable lives. We've had a normal sibling relationship for many years now. I don't think about this as often, and I'm left feeling really gross ashamed when I do. Please don't ask for details. I'm only posting because I want the secret to not weigh on me heavily anymore. So if anyone wants ever get a secret off their chests, just do an anonymous post on True of my Chest. No one will ever know, so if anyone is curious, yes, I have been to therapy, but I've never broach the subject, nor do I plan to. So then they then they update it because people started asking questions, so they go so the questions are, what are your genders? I do not feel comfortable answering this question. Um Am I from Alabama. While I get that that this isn't just no, I am not um someone said this, you should bring this up in therapy because I have been This person said, I've been tempted to, but I honestly cannot even get the words out. I have never actually voiced this, even to myself. I don't think the aftermath would be worth the potential relief of having told a professional. Um. Someone said fake post. He says, I mean, well, you're welcome to leave that, but it is not. I honestly wish it was. Though. Someone said you're disgusting sick, and he says, I think so too. Really appreciate all of you sharing your stories and some of the studies behind this. I feel less alone and a little relieved. UM So I read into this and apparently this is a very common thing that happens between twins, is that they have weird sexual stuff happened between them. Have you guys ever heard of anything? Is the story? Is there a story in detail? Here? No? They don't go into detail. They just wanted to get it off their chests. Me and my twin have hooked up. There is something about when you carry something like that, being able to take it somewhere. And I feel like, you know, getting back to my favorite subject, molesters, if you're having those thoughts early on and you've not acted on them, there's nowhere for you to go and say, I'm you know, this is what I'm dealing with. And I think that not just that secret, but like any secrets that we carry, there are certain ones that you can't share with anyone like this, right, but um, I'm glad that this person had that place to go. Yeah. I had a guy right in. I asked for stories on puddles or whatever, and the guy rode in and said that he didn't. Him and his sister were fighting when they were kids, so he would constantly killer beta fish like for years and like just needed to get it off his chest. And I was like, I mean it felt weird. I could go to you. I mean, I guess it felt pretty good, like I'm a priest or something where I'm not gonna judge him. But he's like, yeah, thanks, man, I needed that and I was like, you're welcome. I think. Uh. I mean, is that you know how serial killers start out torturing little animals? Yeah? I mean and beta fish in like two days anyways, so it's like, yeah, good animals that lived for two years. Yeah to me, um, but that's so weird. You guys are trying to find it. Last night I was on Reddit and I didn't save it, but someone had said maybe on the same subread I forget that there. She just found out her parents were twins. And she said that her parents what this girl on Reddit said anonymously, I just found out my parents twins. She's thirty seven. She was driving her parents, her mom, her mom just her dad died like a year ago, tragically in a carcon. Her mom tried to kill herself. Was in a psychiatric hospital as soon as it happened, because she said her parents growing up were like everyone always said, oh my god, they look like they newlyweds. Like it was. It really fucked her up because there was no She's never seen a couple like it, and she could never emulate like their love and what she found out her mom got drunk following the psychiatric thing, and like you know as out of the hospital doing well as stable. And her mom got drunk on Easter and and she was driving her home and she was like, I need to tell you something. Your dad and I are twins. Were fraternal twins. We grew up in Germany. We started masturbating in front of each other when we were little. Then it turned into mutual masturbation, then it turned us hooking up. We would stop hooking up because we knew it was wrong, and then we would eventually do it again. Eventually, we were just so in love with each other that we knew we would never be able to be together. So they left Germany, where they were from, created new identities in America, completely just disappeared from their lives, and then had one child, which is her and she has no deformities, She's totally normal. Um, and is it? And and then everyone was like, oh my god, there was another thing about twins looking up and which was the one I just read so read it's a weird place. And I believe all of it, but maybe, you know, maybe I shouldn't. Um, And I wanted to also, let's do one of my videos. No, what would you be prepared to play? The will Smith one because I forget what this is, but I did save it, and I know that the Will Smith slap stuff is all kind of We're over it. When I was years old, my first girlfriend cheated on me, and I remember making a decision that nobody would ever cheat on me again. And the biggest actor on someone's laughing whom there's been this weird psychology. My movies are number one, My life is interesting I And the truth is he doesn't get cheated on because he knows about it. Do you know what I'm saying? Like having an open relationship, it's not necessarily cheating. So and it is interesting though that he thought becoming the number one actor he was motivated by getting cheated on to become the best because the number one actor doesn't get cheated on, which we all know is not true and doesn't prevent it. But it's so funny to see all these Will Smith things resurface and these different quotes. Did you see them high five over like bad marriage for Life? Did you see that one? No? But do you think if you're if the person decides to being an open relationship even though it's not cheating, I feel like whoever decides the first to say, hey, I want to be an open relationship. It feels like like a like a kind of cheating, you know what, betrayal to say that you want to maybe open up the relationship if you haven't already. That's not a betrayal. That's honesty. If it was me, if if someone brought it, whoever brings it up first, and if and if I agreed to it, maybe reluctantly. Even though that's that's I get that. I get that. I'm just saying, but it doesn't get a cheating. Cheating is when you don't know when the person does it to you and you don't know. I believe what I don't believe. That's a debate. But I'm not saying it's cheating. But I'm saying it's a soft a soft betrayal, a soft cheat. Yeah. I mean, going into an open relationship just to keep the relationship is one of the dumbest things I've ever heard. But I understand people aren't strong enough to leave and so they put up with stuff. I've done that before in different ways, just not in that way. But um, Andrew, uh, I hope you feel better. We'll see you tomorrow. On the podcast, this weekend. We will see you on the road. We will be five days or more outside of any COVID symptoms, so don't worry. UH. We will be in New Orleans. We will be in UH Fort Lauderdale, Jacksonville, and Nashville. Uh I can't wait to see you guys out there. Get your bestie merch now sported on your instagrams, will repost it and we love you so much and Delbeka and Chick. 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