When Madam Kim falls into a depression following her divorce, her young son Kee Whay decides he should become a doctor. His wish: to mend his mother's broken heart. But as his own struggles with schizophrenia begin to emerge, their shared existence forces them to confront their relationship and what they mean to each other. 

Bio 
Madam Poh Kim Pheng, also known as Madam Kim, is currently a committee member of the Malaysian Mental Health Association, a non-profit NGO established to promote mental health awareness and public mental wellbeing. 

Episode structure 
00:00 - Trigger warning disclaimer
01:37 - Introducing host: Rahmah Pauzi
02:15 - Introducing Madam Kim and son - Kee Whay
07:13 - 'He kicked me out of the car'
12:50 - Suffering alone from mental illness
15:00 - Discovering Schizophrenia
18:21 - Underlying resentment and forgiveness
21:08 - Madam Kim's life, going to Oxford University
28:19 - [TW: Su*cide, depression] Divorce
36:43 - 'I would turn on the shower and cry, in the bathroom'
41:34 - [TW: Su*cide] Madam Kim's breaking point: attempting s*cide
45:00 - 'Forgive, and let go, and the life will come back to you'
50:57 - Kee Whay: coming to terms with past mistakes
58:40 - 'I believe all mothers will just want their children to get better'
60:59 - Kee Whay's recovery: What's he doing now?
69:12 - Find mental health support sources in our show notes
69:40 - Outro and credits

Links
A list of mental health organisations and suicide hotlines in Malaysia
Free mental health resources, in your preferred languages
Fact sheet: World Health Organisation
What it’s like to have Schizophrenia TED Talk by Cecilia McGough

Terms 
‘UH’ - University of Malaya Medical Centre, formerly known as University Hospital, is a government-funded medical institution located in Pantai Dalam, southwest corner of Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
Thean Hou Temple - The Thean Hou Temple is a six-tiered Buddhist temple of the Chinese sea goddess, Mazu, located in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. It is one of the biggest temples in Southeast Asia. 
‘Hawking’ - Stephen William Hawking was an English theoretical physicist, cosmologist, and author, widely known for his bestselling book, ‘A Brief History of Time.’ 
Cincai - Malaysian slang word that literally translates to ‘whatever’. 
Flower Bathing - Also known as ritual of ‘Mandi Bunga’, it is a popular cleansing ritual in Thailand, Malaysia, Singapore, and Indonesia. The normal purpose of the bath is to remove bad luck, ward off evil spirits and increase a person’s aura in hopes of attracting good luck. 
‘Makan’ - Malay word which translates to ‘eat’ or ‘to eat’. 
'Armstrong' - Neil Armstrong, an american astronaut and astrophysicist, and also the first person to walk on the moon. 
Apollo 11 - The spaceflight that first landed humans on the moon, piloted by commander Neil Armstrong and lunar module pilot Buzz Aldrin. 
Tau jiong - Malaysian soymilk. 
Tau fu fah - A sweet chinese snack made of very soft tofu, often referred to as ‘soybean pudding’, ‘tofu brains’, or ‘tofu pudding.’

When Madam Kim falls into a depression following her divorce, her young son Kee Whay decides he should become a doctor. His wish: to mend his mother's broken heart. But as his own struggles with schizophrenia begin to emerge, their shared existence forces them to confront their relationship and what they mean to each other.&nbsp;
Bio&nbsp; Madam Poh Kim Pheng, also known as Madam Kim, is currently a committee member of the <a href="https://mmha.org.my/">Malaysian Mental Health Association</a>, a non-profit NGO established to promote mental health awareness and public mental wellbeing.&nbsp;
Episode structure&nbsp;
<ul>
<li>00:00 - Trigger warning disclaimer</li>
<li>01:37 - Introducing host: Rahmah Pauzi</li>
<li>02:15 - Introducing Madam Kim and son - Kee Whay</li>
<li>07:13 - 'He kicked me out of the car'</li>
<li>12:50 - Suffering alone from mental illness</li>
<li>15:00 - Discovering Schizophrenia</li>
<li>18:21 - Underlying resentment and forgiveness</li>
<li>21:08 - Madam Kim's life, going to Oxford University</li>
<li>28:19 - [TW: Su*cide, depression] Divorce</li>
<li>36:43 - 'I would turn on the shower and cry, in the bathroom'</li>
<li>41:34 - [TW: Su*cide] Madam Kim's breaking point: attempting s*cide</li>
<li>45:00 - 'Forgive, and let go, and the life will come back to you'</li>
<li>50:57 - Kee Whay: coming to terms with past mistakes</li>
<li>58:40 - 'I believe all mothers will just want their children to get better'</li>
<li>60:59 - Kee Whay's recovery: What's he doing now?</li>
<li>69:12 - Find mental health support sources in our show notes 69:40 - Outro and credits</li>
</ul>
Links
<ul>
<li>A list of <a href="https://thesmartlocal.com/malaysia/counselling-mental-health-services/">mental health organisations and suicide hotlines</a> in Malaysia</li>
<li><a href="https://www.therakyatpost.com/2021/01/21/need-help-there-are-free-mental-health-resources-for-you-in-your-preferred-languages/">Free mental health resources</a>, in your preferred languages</li>
<li><a href="https://www.who.int/news-room/fact-sheets/detail/schizophrenia">Fact sheet: World Health Organisation</a></li>
<li>What it&rsquo;s like to have <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xbagFzcyNiM">Schizophrenia TED Talk</a> by Cecilia McGough</li>
</ul>
Terms&nbsp;
<ul>
<li>&lsquo;UH&rsquo; - University of Malaya Medical Centre, formerly known as University Hospital, is a government-funded medical institution located in Pantai Dalam, southwest corner of Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.</li>
<li>Thean Hou Temple - The Thean Hou Temple is a six-tiered Buddhist temple of the Chinese sea goddess, Mazu, located in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. It is one of the biggest temples in Southeast Asia.&nbsp;</li>
<li>&lsquo;Hawking&rsquo; - Stephen William Hawking was an English theoretical physicist, cosmologist, and author, widely known for his bestselling book, &lsquo;A Brief History of Time.&rsquo;&nbsp;</li>
<li>Cincai - Malaysian slang word that literally translates to &lsquo;whatever&rsquo;.&nbsp;</li>
<li>Flower Bathing - Also known as ritual of &lsquo;Mandi Bunga&rsquo;, it is a popular cleansing ritual in Thailand, Malaysia, Singapore, and Indonesia. The normal purpose of the bath is to remove bad luck, ward off evil spirits and increase a person&rsquo;s aura in hopes of attracting good luck.&nbsp;</li>
<li>&lsquo;Makan&rsquo; - Malay word which translates to &lsquo;eat&rsquo; or &lsquo;to eat&rsquo;.&nbsp;</li>
<li>'Armstrong' - Neil Armstrong, an american astronaut and astrophysicist, and also the first person to walk on the moon.&nbsp;</li>
<li>Apollo 11 - The spaceflight that first landed humans on the moon, piloted by commander Neil Armstrong and lunar module pilot Buzz Aldrin.&nbsp;</li>
<li>Tau jiong - Malaysian soymilk.&nbsp;</li>
<li>Tau fu fah - A sweet chinese snack made of very soft tofu, often referred to as &lsquo;soybean pudding&rsquo;, &lsquo;tofu brains&rsquo;, or &lsquo;tofu pudding.&rsquo;</li>
</ul>

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When Madam Kim falls into a depression following her divorce, her young son Kee Whay wanted to become a doctor. His wish: to mend her broken heart. But as his own struggles with schizophrenia begin to emerge, their shared existence forces them to confront their relationship and what they mean to each other.

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