Marissa Rose has spent 14 years as a paramedic — chased out of houses, holding arterial bleeds with her bare hands and sent alone to crashes in the middle of nowhere on her first day on the job. But long before the ambulance, she was a little girl making tea at four years old, hands shaking, never knowing if it would be good enough.

In Part 1, Neil traces the line from a traumatic, abusive childhood to the woman who spent 14 years running towards other people's worst moments. They cover growing up without safety, why people from broken homes so often become the ones who protect others and what it actually looks like to be thrown in the deep end on your first day on the job — solo, at a multi-car crash, 40 minutes out of town.