When two Victoria Police officers were murdered by sex offender Dezi Freeman, it shone a harsh light on what frontline policing really costs. Adam Shand sits down with recently retired Victorian officer Jason Doyle — whose raw column in The Age sparked national conversation, to talk about a career lived entirely on the road.

From welfare checks that turned deadly, to serving in the aftermath of Black Saturday and losing a close friend in the fires, Jason opens up about the split-second decisions that never leave you, the PTSD diagnosis he pushed through for years and the moment the nightmares finally broke him.