Acting like this was the big dirty secret isn't actually the truth.
People knew.
Plus, Rachel responds to Jax saying she's not welcome in The Valley.
This is Rachel Go's Rogue. Welcome to another episode of Rachel Goes Rogue. This is your host, Rachel Savannah Levis, and today I just want to rant a little bit. I just watched episode eight of vander Pump Rules, and I have some thoughts and opinions that I would like to share. But before we get into the episode, I would like to just clear the air a little bit, because, well, I suspect that people now know that some of our mutual friends have known about this affair while it was going on. I kind of just want to like clear the air on who those people were and whether or not I know for certain that they knew, but there were instances where it was pretty undeniable. So let's go through that list. Obviously, Number one is Shwortz. He has known from the very beginning, and we already know that because I've already dropped that bomb, but maybe people don't realize or have suspected. But Kyle Chan has also known. And Kyle Chan has been a good friend of Tom's for quite some time, and he was one of the people that was trying to talk some sense into Tom, but he also liked keep that secret for him. I just feel like it's a little bit of a double standard to be icing out a certain person for knowing, yet Kyle Chan is still accepted into the group without any consequences. Just throwing that out there. The reason why I bring that up is because, as we know, the last episode that the cast filmed in San Francisco was for Kyle Chan's party, and nobody seems to have an issue with Kyle knowing. Next, Jason Bader is Tom Sandoval's drummer and band manager. You have seen him on Tom Sandoval's podcast. He has also known. It just goes to the double standard of Tom was allowed to tell his best friends, but I wasn't allowed to tell anybody, and if I did, he was not happy with me. So just a reminder to everyone that is not love, all right. Next, Max Boyan's. I don't know the extent of what he knew about the fair, but Max Boyan's was one of the people that we would meet up with regularly at one of the dive bars by Tom Sandoval's house, and you know, he didn't ask any questions, but it was an often thing that we would meet up, and it would be hard for me to think that he didn't have an inkling of not that this was going on. This one's a little sus because Tom and I we were very reckless and stupid and we decided, my god, this is really embarrassing. But basically Tom and I like snuck off. I don't even know if I want to see these details, but basically Tom and I were cuddling in the social media room, which is downstairs of their house, and there was a party going on, and Arianna's best friend, Logan Cochrane walked into the social media room and he was like, oh okay, and we were just like cuddling on the floor. We were clothes and everything. There wasn't a blanket or anything. It was just us looking at each other because like, it's stupid. I thought I was in love, but Logan walked in on us and then he's like, oh, I'm really I'm really messed up. Ok it by and then left. And he's Arianna's best friend, so I'm sure that that got back to Arianna. You know, Like Logan definitely had to have some sort of suspicion that this was going on, because why else would be be cuddling. That's weird. Logan is also really close with Brad. I don't think Brad like really knew the extent of it, but I'm sure as things started coming out, it was like easy to piece these things together. So when I went to Saint Louis, I met well, I've met Tom's mom before when she came to LA, but this time it was different because he was like bringing me to the house. It honestly felt like I was his girlfriend. Like it was the weirdest thing because obviously I wasn't he had a girlfriend, but he like brought me to his mom's house and we made food and I slept downstairs in their like basement area, and his mom like had the Christmas tree up, And I mean it was weird. The way that Tom would present things made it feel so normal. So then it's like, oh, maybe I am overthinking this, and like he had a way to convince me that it's all fine and to normalize it and to like relieve stress. And then we would also drink a lot, so that would help relieve the stress too. But yes, Tom Sandoval's mom also knew, And uh, I think that's a really messed up position to put your mom in, because you know, now she's keeping this secret for her son, but I think she also knew that Tom and Ariana haven't been good for quite some time. There was like a conversation that was had. You know, Ariana hasn't come to Saint Louis and you and and this isn't to excuse it either, because Tom needed to like make that public that they were no longer in a relationship. But yeah, there was trouble in paradise there. That concludes my list. There's no reason to be protecting these people anymore. I think they can all handle it. I think the worst of scandaval has already come and gone, and we are all stronger for it. I think there's power in owning up to what we know. I'm not hiding it anymore. It's freeing, all right. Let's switch gears into episode eight vander pump Roles. I thought it was a pretty boring episode, to be honest, But we got our crossover, we got our transition into the valley, very exciting. That show just seems like it's going to be a mess also, but I guess that's what the people want. But overall, I thought the episode was pretty boring. And that's not me like hating. It's just how I felt. A few things stood out to me. First was the never have I ever gain? Second was Tom's journal entry and crying to Tom Schwartz, And then, oh, I'm the pool party. Let's talk about the sexy singles pool party. Watching it now being so removed from the situation, it's like the audacity of Tom Sanderbal to have these girls over how disgusting. And then I remind myself that I was that girl and how frustrating that is to me just knowing that that was me at one point. But I just feel like he is so shameless with it, and that he thinks it's like funny to joke about being roommates with his ex as a way to break the ice. Yeah, those girls did not look like they were feeling it. I saw some people like commenting like, why is Tom crossing his legs and sitting like that? I think, physiology wise, that is something that guys do to hide their excitement, if you know what I'm saying, you know, I also find it ironic that Tom is working over time to make it seem like he is so out of practice and needs to start flexing this muscle of being single and picking up girls. Because he hasn't done that in so long. But we all know, while I was in metas he was seeing other girls. One of the girls went on Howie Mendel's podcast and kind of explain the timeline of how that went down. What people may not realize is that when I was in the meadows and Tom was, you know, trying to get me to leave, he was calling me selfish for taking care of my needs, and he felt like he was coming second and that I wasn't attentive to what his needs were. Oh so frustrating. But basically I told him, like, look, you haven't been single in a very long time. It's been over ten years. Especially more than that, because before he was serious with Ariana, he was dating Kristen and that relationship was over two years, right, so it's been a very long time since he's been single. And I was, you know, I was working on myself and I was realizing that I could have this thing called love addiction, and that like, it's probably best for me not to date other people this time. So I kind of gave him the green light, like, go ahead, date other people. I feel like it's important for you to do that, because a you need to get it out of your system, be you know, get your needs met, because I'm not there to help meet your needs. And I was also hoping that he wouldn't be as attached to me and I would have more space because he was very suffocating with his demand for attention and validation. So I encouraged him. I encouraged him to date other girls. But then you know, these photos started surfacing. I guess one photo was taken before we had that conversation. It doesn't matter, really, but it just kind of shows that he wasn't actually saving himself for me like he's presenting. I feel like he's kind of doing this revisionist history of trying to get back in the dating scene and oh, he's so out of practice when we all know that he's been doing this. Let's go back to the never have I ever came This part of the episode was a little disturbing to me, just because the show is publicly shaming me for something that I did not do. They're pushing this narrative that, oh, apparently I abandoned my dog in the middle of nowhere because I didn't want it anymore, which is not true. And this is like the continued propaganda against me, which I can say I'm not surprised, but it still infuriates me. So basically, Ali had a card that said, never have I ever dropped my pet off in the middle of nowhere because I didn't want it, And it's like, a, is that card actually a card in the game? Please let me know. B I just feel like that is so gross and messed up. To keep pushing this narrative and then being like, Oh, it's just a game and not taking any responsibility for that. It's really disgusting. So shame on you, Bravo and two can play that game. Never have I ever shown my love for someone by putting a ring on a string. Never have I ever thrown a fit over pasta. Never have I ever worn a crop top to my own wedding. Never have I ever told my boss to suck a dick. Never have I ever done a remake of my own song and made a scream oversion of it. Never have I ever body shamed someone and told them that they haven't been working on their summer bodies. Never have I ever gotten my ass tattooed. Never have I ever called somebody a crackhead, especially when they weren't. Never have I ever told Lisa vander Pump that that vander Pump Rules is my show. All right, let's switch gears a little bit. I want to get into some headlines, because as we're talking about the Valley, one of the headlines that came out recently was from US Weekly, Jax Taylor wants rackhel Levis to get a real job, hopes she'll stay away from the Valley. I just think it's very ironic, first of all, that Jax Taylor wants me to get a real job when he also has a podcast and is on a reality TV show. But almost seems like they're really pushing to have my name and the valley in the same headline story to make it seem more controversial, like ooh the Valley, Like Ooh, is Rachel really considering going to the Valley? No, I'm not, by the way, so you don't need to worry about that. And also, don't tell me to get a real job when my job is literally the exact same as your job. That doesn't make sense and I'm not going to listen to you. Bye. Another headline that's a little bit more serious and a little difficult for me to talk about because it is personal. Radar Online had posted a video of James Kennedy getting kicked out of the Canyon Club and some of the Bravos sites have reposted it, and the amazing Internet Salutes have pieced together the clips from when I was describing this incident on Vanderpump Rules, and they like put the video footage with my audio speaking over and narrating that night and what happened. But basically, if you haven't seen it, it's a video of James allegedly yelling at Ali security coming over and telling him that he needs to leave immediately. I think the reason why security got involved in the first place was because he allegedly grabbed Ali's arm and they were like, no, that's not acceptable, so they kicked him out. And in the video you can see us having a conversation checking out with Ali, saying if she was okay, and just James allegedly yelling at her and yelling at everyone to leave them alone. And I just think it's interesting because it wasn't that long ago that everyone seemed to have been talking about James and the alleged abuse allegations that were coming up, and for the past few weeks, it's been like radio silence. I don't know, I just feel like there's no reason in holding anything back anymore. I think everything comes to light with time. I mean, here's another incident that is similar to the situation that Teddy and tam Are described on their podcast, the interaction that they had with James and Ali in the backseat of the car on the way to Tom Tom and there was some sort of alleged altercation that happened, and here we have like actual video footage and me explaining it how it happened that first time. Another headline this week, this was something that was picked up a lot by the blogs, was Katie Maloney's tweet saying that she'll light Joe on fire with me. Basically, she says, Joe is spooky. I mean, none of us could stand to be around her. Her energy is on par with a crackhead. She is a psycho and I will also light her on fire with Rachel. So she's really, uh, doubling down on lighting people on fire. And I think this is dangerous because there are some psycho crazy people out there in the world that will actually do this stuff. And it's like she's giving people to go ahead to do that. If this was an employee in any other work environment, this person would be terminated, effective immediately for inciting violence, So keep that in the back of your mind. Also, Joe is a lovely girl who I love her energy and I love being around her, So that is not an accurate statement to begin with. Let's switch again back to episode eight of vander Pump Rules. Tom Schwartz comes over to the house and Tom Sandoval is writing in his journal and he's explaining how he stopped drinking alcohol because he knew I couldn't drink alcohol. And he's writing in his journal because he knows that I've been writing in my journal and it's a way for us to connect to each other. And before you guys get all mushy and soft on Tom Sandival, I need to remind you that this person did not love me. And as much as he is trying to convince you that he did, he absolutely did not. And I know this without with every single fiber in my being. And he is playing into this just to get your guy's sympathy card, and I am not falling for it. This person did not want me to get mental health treatment. He did not want me to better myself. He wanted to keep me under his control and he was doing everything in his power to have power over me. Also, have you noticed when Tom Sandibal fries he is crying up against a wall away from the camp because these are not actual tears. He is not a good actor. There is a reason why he has failed in acting. And I am not falling for this BS, so I hope you guys aren't either. When Tom Sandobal is showing Schwartz these photos that were taken at Tom Schwartz's apartment, love that they have to blur my face by the way, you can see that he's, you know, acting super torn up about it. Maybe there is a part of him that is grieving the relationship. But I think the usage of words when he says, I will never have this again, I feel like it's a a dig at Ariana because he seems to be grieving the relationship that he had with me more than he's shown any grief towards the relationship that he had with Ariana. B The way that Tom Sandival and Tom Schwartz were talking about, oh, I'll never have this again, it seemed like Tom was quote unquote mourning the relationship or the concept of our love connection instead of like actually mourning the loss of me, because you know, Tom Schwartz was like, no, you'll have this again. Clearly he's not gonna have me again. I think that just further supports the concept that he is in love with the idea of being in a relationship, not necessarily it being me. Just something to point out. And you can see like the manipulation that is happening between the cast because you see how Sheena really wants to be friends with Tom Sandival and she's trying to quote unquote help Tom take accountability so that the cast will be more forgiving to him. In that scene at the Belmont, she mentioned something about me cutting Tom out of my life, and she was like, hey, have you considered that maybe you really did hurt this person? And then she's like, let's talk about Katie. You know, you had a role in the demise of that relationship that Katie had with Shorts. And then you see Tom Sandoval disassociate. He does not want to hear what Sheena is telling him. I think Sheena did bring up a good point about hurting me, but I think she lost him when she like pulled Katie into it too, and he's like, all right, no, this is not the conversation I'm happening. But Tom said, I want to prioritize things that are important to Sina hut to Tom having a conversation with Katie in the case of the house, and you can see the manipulation. He does a compliment sandwich and then he apologizes, and this apology is so forced you can just tell that it's a means to an end. He is apologizing because he knows that it'll make Sheena happier and then he'll be able to get Sheena back sooner. And then he like leaves the conversation like already walking away, saying, oh, you look great, Katie. But you can't see the manipulation. You can't fool me anymore. You can see it. I didn't think that I was gonna have that much to talk about, but once I started getting into it, things just came pouring out. And it's a little all over the place, so please bear with me. But one last thing that I wanted to point out. When Jackson came into Tom Tom to hang out with the guy, and Tom Sandoval is talking about Katie's hatred towards me and towards Joe, and he says, well, Rachel and Joe happen to be the only girls that have quote unquote hooked up with Tom Schwartz, and Katie just like despises them something along those lines. And I just want to say, this term hooking up is so broad, and to me, hooking up means like more than kissing. So I don't appreciate Tom saying that Shorts and I hooked up because we absolutely did not do anything more than kiss on camera. So I don't like that narrative that he's putting out there with that either. And that's also another reason why I know that he has never loved me. So pull it with that, all right, feel that's a good place to end this episode. I apologize that it's a little all over the place, but I've had a lot of thoughts and I appreciate your patience with me, and I will see you next time on Rachel Goes Rogue. 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