Nicole Avant ON: Why You Should Let Yourself Cry & Ways to Channel Deep Grief Into Grit and Gratitude

Published Oct 20, 2023, 7:00 AM

Has your perspective on life changed since you lost a loved one?

How has forgiveness made a difference in your path to healing?

Today, we are joined by Nicole Avant, a producer and political activist who served as the United States Ambassador to the Bahamas. Her new book Think You’ll Be Happy: Moving Through Grief with Grit, Grace and Gratitude takes us on a personal journey of grief and healing. 

Nicole opens up about facing unimaginable challenges, including the loss of her beloved mother, Jacqueline Avant, in a tragic incident. Through heartfelt anecdotes and profound insights, Nicole reveals how she found strength in the face of adversity, and the role that resilience played in her healing process.

Throughout the conversation, we explore the power of vulnerability, the importance of community, and the beauty of honoring one's emotions. Nicole beautifully discusses the transformative effect of grief and how it can shape our understanding of ourselves and the world around us.

Whether you're navigating your own journey of resilience or simply seeking inspiration to overcome life's obstacles, this conversation will touch your heart and leave you with a renewed sense of hope.

In this interview, you’ll learn: 

How the power of resilience allows us to overcome adversity

How grief will transform us 

How important community is when we are facing pain 

How to turn pain into purpose 

How to face life’s obstacles with resilience and determination

Think You’ll Be Happy by @nicoleavantofficial is now available wherever books are sold. A moving story that is sure to inspire us all. 

With Love and Gratitude, 

Jay Shetty 

What We discuss:

00:00 Intro

02:53 The Essence Of Showing Up for Others 

04:46 Allowing Yourself To Pause And Repair

07:25 Always Pay It Forward

11:18 Leaving a Lasting Impression Through Emotional Memories

12:42 Nicole Recalls the Time She Tragically Lost Her Mother

19:07 The Real Definition of Courage

21:22 Self-Expression as a Form of Healing

24:02 The Best Way to Honor Anyone You’ve Love

29:55 The Power of Choice

34:37 Grief Is Proof That You Loved

39:44 Different Ways We Deal with Tragedy

43:41 The Invisible Threads That Connect Us

47:21 You Must Carry On

51:12 Honoring the Departed by Living Life to Its Fullest

55:22 The Lessons Life Offers

01:00:35 Do You Still Cry?

01:03:10 Nicole Avant on Final Five  

My husband called. I said, what's going on? Because you have to get up. Your mother's been shot. What he means, she's been shot? Everything that I had known for fifty three years. I felt that it was just pulled out from underneath filmmaker, activists, and former US ambassador. This is her new book, Nicole he Thank you forgiveness for me? Was I am casting these burdens of anger and shame and doubt and disappointment and fury because I was furious. I hold on to these feelings. I'm going to sink myself.

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The number one health and wellness podcast Purpose with Jay Shetty. Everyone, and welcome back to On Purpose, to number one health podcast in the world thanks to each and every one of you who come back every week to become happier, healthier, and more healed. And I'm so grateful because on this platform, I get to sit down with people with remarkable stories, incredible experiences, people who've been through challenges and hardships that we can all relate to and hopefully extract lessons, principles, blessings and insights from so that we too can help heal our hearts and lives. Today's guest is a dear friend, someone who I have connected with that really special moments and someone that I'm really excited to share her story, her love, her work with you. Today I'm speaking about Ambassador Nicole Avan, who served as the thirteenth US Ambassador to the Bahamas after being nominated by President Obama and unanimously confirmed by the US Senate, becoming the youngest as well as the first African American woman to hold the position. Today, we're talking about her new book that's out called Think You'll Be Happy Moving Through Grief with Grit, Grace and Gratitude. And Nicole kindly allowed my testimonial to be here, so you know how much I endorsed this book. I recommend a lot of books, but this is a book that I've realized I needed more in my life because of how many people I have in my life that are losing people that they love, and I now finally have the book to encourage people to read and receive in their life to know how to honor the people they love. Please welcome to On Purpose, Nicole Evan. Nicole, thank you.

Thank you for being here. Beautiful introduction. I'm very honored. Thank you.

No, it's from the happy to be here now, Nicole. I mean, I mean what I said, and I was just saying it too a few moments ago, and I wanted to repeat it for my community. I'm so grateful you wrote this book because honoring the people that we love, remembering what they taught us, what we gained from them, and then passing it on is without a doubt, one of the greatest acts of service that we could possibly ever do, not just to that individual, but to humanity. Yes, and I was so touched not only by you sharing this with me earlier when the writing process was happening, but you trusting me to be a part of this journey with you because it's so deeply important to you and it's so deeply intimate and close to you, and so I couldn't be more thankful and grateful. So thank you so much.

Well, thank you for taking the time while you were on your book tour. And I'm sending you first draft, second draft, Jay, what do you think about this? And you took the time to read it. And again, that is a part of showing up for people, which I've been talking about about this book of you know, my mom really her superpower was really showing up. And I think we're all forgetting. I think when we all like things on Instagram and all this, that that's showing up for someone. But that's you know, the icing of showing up, but the cake of showing up, of really taking the time out for somebody, whether you feel like it or not, whether you have time or not. But it's honoring somebody else's soul because not all of us are on the same soul journey, We're not all going through the same thing at the same time. And so I thank you for giving me the encouragement to keep writing and to finally get this book done. Absolutely, and it feels great.

I know, I'm so glad that we're finally Yes, I know and Nicole, I want to take a moment before I dive in. I have so many questions I want to ask you today, and so many questions I'm excited to ask you. But I want to say a big thank you, because people show up in our lives in different ways, and towards the early stages of my career, I was wonderfully invited by Jennifer Aniston to a home to give a short presentation and you were in the audience that day. It was only a small group of people, and we instantly connected, and I remember your enthusiasm for my work and your energy for my work was so reassuring. You showed up for me without even knowing it, maybe, but it was so beautiful to have such a real interaction. You know, you can have people say that was wonderful, that was nice, but when you were sharing your thoughts and your feedback and the energy I felt from your words were so deeply encouraging when I probably needed them most. So I just want to thank you for showing up.

I'm happy to hear that. I remember. I remember sitting where I remember exactly where I was sitting and then standing, and I remember affirming you the whole time, like nodding up and down because that was it was a small group, but it was an intimidating group of people to be in front of. And you were fantastic. And what I thought in that moment was, finally, somebody is really coming out and talking about the human spirit and the soul and our energy and who we really are as people, as just not what we do, but who we are. And I think that conversation has been missing in society. And I was so happy that it was you, and I thought it was perfect. I said, this is exactly what we need. And I was not surprised by everything that has happened for you. I said, of course has happened, you know. And even my husband ted when I told him I was coming on the podcast, he said, isn't it phenomenal? Think about it, how you started this journey with Jay before he even put out anything, and look at him. I mean, you're all over the world. You're helping heal people, You're helping souls repair, which I think a lot of us forget that our souls on our soul journey are going to need to go into repair sometimes, and none of us want to go into repair. But there's no way you're going to be on the earth and not have to go into repair. Sometimes, beautiful we just you know, we just do like and I say to people, how are you doing after this? I'm in repair. I'm in repair. I am allowing my friends to heal me, life to heal me, circumstances to heal me. But I am in repair. We have to make it okay to be able to say and own I'm in repair. I'm still going to show up, but I'm in repair.

What a beautifully beautiful way of putting it, Nicole. I want to dive in, and I want to start by asking you, what is your earliest childed memory or your most memorable experience as a child that you think has defined who you are today.

Well, there's a couple of things. One, my mom was very open to various scriptures around the world, so it didn't matter if it was a Hindu scripture or a Buddhist scripture, whatever it was Christian scripture. She loved the idea of understanding energy, your thoughts, your words, and everything how it helps create and shape your reality. And I remember specifically there was one time my godfather, Quincy, gave me a book, and it was called creative visualization. Now, granted I was older at this time, I wasn't a child, but I'm just going to this right now. Is that it was everything my mom had said, but I found it on paper and someone was saying no, And then I started doing it. I started saying, oh, Okay, if I really say this all the time, this is going to happen. But I did notice my energy shift and I did start to understand how the universe works. No, we can't control every single situation. We are in control of how we respond to it. But I think one of the earliest things that I learned, the most important life lesson, was that we are all here to share our blessings. I learned that firsthand as a young child who realized with all these people, yes, they might have been very successful and very famous, but the difference with the group that I had was that it was never about them. It was always about how are we going to move people forward. We have this door that has been opened for us, and our job is to make sure we keep the door open for other people. And the power that I got from that was there is such a power in helping people get to where they want to be help them on their soul evolution. And that has to do with being unselfish and aware and focused on progress, moving energy forward and not staying stagnant and not feeling that, oh if Jay gets this or so and so gets this, then I'm going to get nothing. No, it's there was. The lesson I learned was there is enough to go around for everybody, because everybody is on a different soul path and everybody has their own mission. No one can take it away from any of us. No one They can try to come in and steer you off course. But Jay Shetty is Jay Shetty in this lifetime. There is no other Jay Shetty. There is no other Nicole Amant. There's one of all of us. And we get to do what we choose to do, and who we want to be is even more important than what we do. But who we want to be on this planet? Who? What do we want people to say? Because believe me that Another thing I've learned now after my parents have gone is you know, everyone says, you know, you don't take anything with you. We know that technically, but when you really see it, I have everything. Everything's still there. My parents didn't take one possession with them. But the beauty is is that everybody they left their character, they left their stamp on humanity. People smile when they hear their names, people say thank you, People write me letters about how they change their lives. So all of this comes into the lesson that I learned is that everyone's significant and everyone's energy can help each other move to where we.

Need to be.

Mm.

Yeah, those famous words again, which we've heard many times, but you've experienced this and you feel it. And I want to talk about some of the honorings that you received for your parents. But Maya Angelou who said that people will forget what you did, people will forget what you said, but people will never forget how you made them feel. And we say this, we repeat it, you see it on Instagram. But then you've probably experienced that very deeply, that people have not forgotten how your parents made them feel.

That's exactly it, how they made them feel, and it's through the small actions. It's the note, it's the phone call, it's the text, it's the email. I'm checking in on you. I want you to know I love you, I've been thinking about you. These are all things that I've had to relearn of, oh, this is important. It's not just about me and my feelings and what I'm going through. People that i'm on my journey with that need check ins, that I need to say, Hey, I'm just thinking about you. I know you're you're traveling, and I know you you know things are going well in your life, but I just want you to know I'm thinking about you. Those little things mean everything. They mean everything because you're not alone, and you want to feel as if you are important to somebody. You want to feel that you're significant. You want to feel that you're seen. You know, you want to feel that someone. You want to That feeling of being loved changes everything.

That's what we're yearning for, all of us. For everyone who doesn't know, I'd love to give them the background so we can really go deep into this conversation. You start this book by and I'm reading from the book. You receive this news love, You've got to get up, get dressed, and get deceit as your mom's been shot. I mean, every time I read that line as someone who didn't know your family, every time I read that line, and I just only could put myself in those shoes to even try to imagine what that would feel like to hear don't have You can't. You can't. It's something that you've either been through you haven't, and so you can't fully empathize, you can't fully understand. You can't no matter how hard you try. I cannot imagine how difficult that is. Walk us through that moment so that our audience can come with you on this journey, as we extrapolated after it.

So, my husband had called me. It was early in the morning, round two thirty, and my phone had been ringing and I didn't hear it. My brother had been calling and I and then you know how your intuition gets you up. Something told me to get up, and I just happened to roll over. I looked at my phone. I see all these miscalls from Alex and thank god I was looking at my phone because my husband called again and Teddy said those words love. I'm so sorry. You have to get up. I said, what's going on? He goes, you have to get up. Your mother's been shot. You have to get to What do you mean she's been shot? What are you talking about? So then I'm thinking, oh, it must be eight o'clock at night. I was so from that moment, I went into a whole different spear almost. I just don't know where I was. And I said, what are you talking about? Where was she? And I was asking Teddy all these questions, and he said, Nicole, you have to get to the hospital. I don't have any answers. I just got this call. I'll meet you there. And thank god, he was in Los Angeles. He was on a work retreat, but he wasn't far Jay. I froze, my knees buckled a little bit, and then my heart rate just starts going, and I'm thinking, wait, what, And I remember, you know, our dogs sleep in the room, and I'm looking at these two sweet souls, and you know, dogs pick up on everything, so they immediately jump on me, kissing me, looking at me. And I just remember getting dressed quickly, getting dog food out, feeding the dogs, leaving the door open for them going out the back. My life changed. Whatever the outcome was at the hospital, that my life had changed forever. That if my mom survived this, which I was praying for, that she was eighty one when this happened, that okay, this is so traumatic that I don't know if she's going to be able to function emotionally after this or anything. So I'm driving and I'm on my way to the hospital, and you know, everything's energy to me, and I have all green lights, and the last one I remember, I was turning right on San Facente and it started flickering and I just started for myself. I just started talking. I said, Mom, Mom, if you can hear me, I don't know what's happened. I know you've been shot. I don't know by whom, I don't know where, I don't know anything. But I'm on my way and I don't know how hard you're fighting or what happened. But you don't have to come back if you can't, you know. I just all these thoughts just and I and I remember saying, I'll take I'll take care of dad, I'll take care of everything. I think I was saying that Jabe because she always did that for everybody else. And so there was just this new energy flowing through me. And I don't even know what I was talking about, but it was keeping me sane because I had to. You know, I didn't know where to park. I was in the wrong building. I was so discombobulated. I didn't know what was happening. And then you know, I got to the hospital and I was with my family and we waited, and unfortunately, I mean, God bless her. She was eighty one, you know, somebody had broken into her house and she happened to be up, so she they encountered each other completely, opposite souls, completely, but she made it to the hospital, which I love about my mother. Of course, she did shot in the back, you know, with a rifle, and she made eighty one and makes it to the hospital, and she just didn't make it through surgery. Everything that I had known for fifty three years was just I felt that it was just pulled out from under me. But then I became her. I decided, okay, I'm what would Jackie do? You know? And I started delegating. That's how I went into that mode. But the shock and the trauma and the stress and the fear, I mean, I have there were veins I didn't even know I had because they were all It's just it's amazing with the body how it responds to trauma. And then I just decided that day, okay, I have to decide who I want to be in this moment versus what I want to do, because I kept saying, Okay, I'm going to do this, I have to do this, I'm going to do this. And then I looked at myself in the mirror when I got home from the hospital, and I said, no, no, no, Nicole, who do you want to be in this time, in this trial, Because now here's a trial, and this trial is here, who do you want to be? And I just looked at myself and I said, Okay, I want to be as courageous as possible. I want to be as peaceful as possible, and I want to be as helpful as possible. And I just went downstairs as that woman tended to my father to you know, the police officers are at the house, detectives areout the house. I I it was like out of like a CSI, you know TV show. I'm like, oh my goodness. You know how we all say one day at a time. I tried that. I was like, this is not one day at a time, this is one minute at a time. This is okay, Nicole, every five minutes, you're going to check in on yourself. Let's just And so I knew I can get through one minute at a time or five minutes at a time. But when I said tomorrow, I'll be better, my whole body was like, no, no, no, I'm not going to We can't live till tomorrow. Wow that's how heavy the pain was. Wow, it was too much shock. It was an energy that I had never experienced before, because it was such a cruel energy on such a deep level and a violent energy that I had never experienced it. So I found myself in new territory.

I've never heard it put that well in terms of how heavy it can be. And this idea that we say one day at a time, I really hope that anyone and everyone who's listening right now, who is going through their own version, their own path of this sort of pain, is able to simplify it to one minute at a time, one moment at a time. So I already deeply appreciate that. How do you think you had this ability? And I'm I'm assuming or guessing that it also came from your mom that you could go upstairs and say, I'm going to be courageous, I want to be peaceful, I want to be helpful. Like those three words are not accidental. They are very intentional powerful special words courageous, peaceful, and helpful. How did you find that clarity so quickly which could have taken months or even years.

Thank god it was my mom. She My mom was a big believer in vibration, and she'd always used to say, you know, your your soul emits energy, and you you have to think of yourself as a radio tower, and you have to think of yourself as a you know, as a station on the channel on the TV, because you know, as long as you change the channels, you'll get different vibrations. We all see that. So what are you tuning into? She'd always say to me, what are you tuning into? In your mind? What are you tuning into? But she thought those three words are from her. She always wanted to be courageous and helpful and kind, and those were always her intentions of how she was going to show up in the world. And it's interesting because she used to say to me, courage isn't not being afraid, it's being afraid. And you do it anyway, You do it anyway. You do the thing you're afraid of while you're afraid, and that's when you're courageous. And it's so true. So I just decided, Okay, I have no idea what's happening, and I'm very afraid, but I'm not going to turn my back to it. I'm going to go through it. I'm not going to have necessarily get through this. I never put that pressure. But I am going to walk through this season. I am going to walk through this challenge with as much grace as possible.

To the best of your ability. And thank you so much for recounting that for our audience, And of course, as I've said to everyone, I highly recommend you get this book because not only is it, of course in a cold story, I feel what Nicole does exceptionally well is through and you can tell already from the way she speaks. And for those of you are listening and watching, Nicole, you have this way of bringing us on this journey with you, but also giving us these steps and insights along the way of how to honor people that we love, how to learn from them, how to just what you just said. Now, I think this idea of becoming and being the people we lose is the most beautiful way for them to continue to live with us and through us and live on.

Yeah, I listened to. Part of another healing step for me was listening to her favorite music every day. I thought, Okay, what did mom love? What music did she love? What flowers did she love? Anything that she loved? I put around me if I could so, the orchids that she loved, the certain color that she loved. I ordered them and made sure I looked at them every day because when I looked at them, it reminded me of her, and I smiled, and it helped heal my heart, you know. And listening to the music, because music was so healing and it is so healing, and so I listened to all her you know. She loved Johnny Mathis, and she loved the Commodores and the Beeges, and she loved really eat like Gordon Lightfoot. She loved really easy kind music, and it did help me become more of her. It was really helpful. And a lot of rituals, you know. She loved taking baths. My mom loved that. And my mom was always get the magnesium, get the salt, and get whatever. It doesn't have to be fancy, get in the water. You know. She was such a pisies and I'm born on her birthday, so she was always you know, take a bath, soak it out, you know, talking, and I I started doing those things. So at night, I would take a bath, and I started to talk to her as if she was there, as if I could hear her, even if I couldn't. I didn't need to hear anything. And it wasn't even about so much feeling anything, but I needed to express myself. And it was very healing for me to act as if she was listening and that she could hear me. Whether she could or not, it was the act of doing it for myself, which was very healing.

That's so reassuring to hear. I was speaking to a friend the other day about their loss and they lost a parent very recently, and I recommended your book because I really really do believe that it's my go to recommendation when people have this experience. And they were talking to me, they said, you know, if my mom was here right now, she'd laugh at this and she'd do this, and I was like, that's it. I was like, you know, and it's wonderful hearing from you. I was like that, like you know how your mom respond to what you would say, Like you know that when you love someone so deeply, and so that doesn't have to disappear. It doesn't have to stop.

No, it does not. That's a really good point. It does not have to stop. It changes form, the energy changes form, but the energy is there. You know, we're spirits in the material world, So for spirits in the material world, and everything is everlasting and the soul never dies, and we all know that. If you believe that, then yeah, she's in a different form, but she's still around and her energy is with me. I feel her now stronger than I ever did before. I really do. I really feel her presence much stronger, and even writing the book, because you know, she wanted to be a book editor, and there were certain drafts I was doing and I just put the pen down there. And there was one night and I had a dream and it was I just saw her red nails typing on the typewriter. And I had asked myself before I went to sleep, I wonder if I should change that paragraph, rewrite it and move it up. And I took it as a sign, which I did, and I did move the paragraph. But as soon as I saw her nails, her fingernails on the keypad. But thank you, Mom, I'm going to move that. Thank you for editing. You're still editing in my life. You are still working, and it's just a different form of energy. And my girlfriend wrote me a beautiful letter and she said, remember, the best way to honor anyone you've loved, but especially your parents, is to live a full, significant life. You owe them a life that that's the only thing you owe them is to live, because that is the best way to honor them. Is if they've taught you great things and given you great lessons and given you tools, go on and carry the baton. And even for the ones who don't. Let's say you don't have parents that were good to you. Because that happens, and you don't have parents that show up for you, you can choose to be different than they were and show up as a completely different type of human being in the world. I've seen it, you've seen it. I've heard about I've heard horrific stories about abuse and trauma and neglect, and these young people have chosen to be very different from what they receive from their parents. And I have such respect for that, because that's hard. It's hard to carry on a memory if your memories are terrible and when that happens, then your job now is to I have to create new memories.

Yes, yeah, people by their actions are either showing us how to live or how not to.

Live, or how not to live.

And oh yeah, I can definitely identify with that. With the home I grew up in, I was just taking notes to my whole life of how not to be a dad, to be a husband, how not to be a person in the workplace, how not to be a family member.

Especially in the workplace. I mean, yeah, I had people around me all the time where I would say, okay, so when I when I'm older and I'm working and i have this position, I'm definitely not going to be like that. And then there were certain people where I'd take notes and I'd say, I want to be just like Carol. She's great, she's so helpful, she's so patient's you know, and then serving, I mean I was a waitress for a long time. My parents had me work, you know, since I was ten and thirteen, and just on and on and on. I sold shoes, I worked at a dry cleaner, I did My mom would say, I'm throwing you into these experiences because to your point, people will show you who they are, and you can learn how you want to be. But the only way you do that is when you're in interaction with others, and gosh, especially serving people. You see, I saw the best of people, and I saw the worst of people. I was either completely just non existent, or somebody took the time to be really kind and smile at me and ask me how I was. And so you become very sensitive to it.

Yeah, you know.

And Tony and Sarah. You know my stepkids with Ted, they they're the same. Sarah. I threw her into waitressing and she said, my gosh, some people don't even see me. I'm nobody to them. And I said, now you know, And now she's very sensitive as a young adult when we go to restaurants. Did you make sure you tip this? Did you make sure she looks at the waitress and waiters all the time? She looks at every server. How are you? How was your day? How are you? I mean, she's so engaged, but to your point, because she's experienced the opposite, and she took notes. I don't want to be like that.

Yeah, so beautiful. I was reminded as you were talking about you said this beautiful statement of you know, we're spirits in the material world having this experience, and therefore energy lives on and there's this beautiful mess that you receive. You say, I'm reading from your book if you don't mind, if that's okay, So this is page fifty three for those who are reading along with us and think you'll be happy. And you say, a few days after my mother died, Pharrell Williams called. He's like a brother to me, he's family, and he says, we're going to celebrate your mom. He said, we're going to celebrate her legacy. She's a big deal and we're not going to let anyone forget her. She created a life worth talking about. Do you realize that hundreds of thousands of babies were born around the world the day she passed over. There are one hundred and forty million a year all around the world. Life is always continuing, Nicole, and you must continue her life by living yours to the fullest. And he concluded, God is still the greatest. And you said that for our says this all the time, through good or bad times, and he's right, God is still the greatest. What I find really unique about your journey, Nicole, as well, is that you are able to keep and strengthen your faith in your own spirituality in the way you practice it at a time when it's very natural. And I would never judge anyone if it would actually veer their way.

Right and just say no, no, exactly, Yeah, what do you mean? Yeah, I've been so good and I've had so much faith, and how can this happen?

You know?

And as I say in the book, it's like why not us? It tragedies and trials and everything it happens to, you know, as it says in scripture, it rains on the just, and it rains on the unjust. It's everyone kind of gets hammered. But it goes to the power of choice. For me, and the reason that I grew stronger in my faith as opposed to leaving it is because I really do believe that the universe has kind of laid it all out. Life has laid it out various scripture, you know, your Buddhist script everything is laid it out, which says here it is, you're on this earth, and it kind of here, here's how you play this game. But these things were not gonna lie. These things will show up. But the power of free will, which my mom always reminded me about of is that. You know, listen, we as human beings do have free will. We have the freedom to choose how we're going to live, choose how we're going to think, as opposed to any other animal, you know, they don't have the power of imagination and choice. We do. So to blame the creator for the choices that people make is not something that I wanted to subscribe to. And I was like, I'm not even going there. People make choices all the time. I see it every day. We all do. People who've had the worst childhoods make great choices, have great lives. I've seen people who I grew up with in a very affluent neighborhood make the worst choices and had nothing to do with their environment. It was their choice. So I wanted to stay my faith. For me really was believing in something that is so much bigger and greater than me that you know swing. You know, the stars come out at night, I'm not in control of that. The earth is spinning, that's not my power. You know, the birds wake up every morning, the sun is up, the sun goes down. That's a power that is Yes, I'm a part of that and I'm connected to it, but I did I'm not the creator, and so I just decided to lean in more with that power and just say, Okay, I accept this. I don't understand it. I may never understand it, but I still do love life, and I still do believe in life and the goodness of people and the goodness of life. And I don't want to get bitter. That was my mate ja. I was so afraid of becoming a bitter person. And I could feel the root. I could feel, I could feel it starting, and I was like, no, no, no, no, I got to get rid of this. I And that's where I just went into the forgiveness of not condoning the behavior, not saying oh, it's okay that this happened, and making an excuse forgiveness for me, was I am casting this burden or these burdens of anger and shame and doubt and disappointment and frustration and fury, because I was furious, and I thought, but if I hold on to these feelings, I'm going to sink myself. And I'm not giving anyone the power to take me out.

Now.

I'm not doing that. So I'm going to stand in my faith. I'm going to believe in what I believe in, and I'm going to believe in life, and I am going to I choose to believe that things will get better. I don't know when, and I don't know how. I didn't care, but I knew that they would, and I believe. And I'm a big believer in tomorrow. I love tomorrow. I do, I really do. I'm always saying okay, because if I don't get it rid, I'm like, oh, there's always tomorrow, and it keeps me hopeful. Tomorrow keeps me hopeful. I don't try to out of the present, but I do look forward. You know. My mom always just to say you have to have something to look forward to, because otherwise you if you don't train your mind to And I'd say, well, I have nothing coming up that I'm looking forward to. And she used to say, make it up, make it up. Pretend you have some partner, Pretend you have some whatever it is, that something that's going to make your heart smile, because we can all fall into despair very quickly.

I love that. That just brought a massive smile to my It's so beautiful. How how someone's energy and spurke can be so big that it can, you know, truly live on and and truly truly be fought and shared. It's Yeah, there's this beautiful line that you share from your friend Penny who says, grief is the receipt from the universe showing that you loved someone or something and loved them very deeply.

It's not the best. When she reminded me of that, I said, okay, wait, say it again. I have to write this down. Say it again. That is so good. But she said, baby, that's that's what it is. It's a receipt. And it could be a mother, a father, a sister, a brother, a dog, cat, whatever, something that you love that is no longer there, that has changed form. Even if it's the most peaceful transition, the grief is proof that you loved. You know, the grief is most of the time, and there's a lot of brief also where there's regrets and all that. I understand that and I respect all forms of grief, but it is it's a receipt.

Yeah, a receipt that you loved and you were loved and I was loved deeply deeply. This one line in the book. You really I just felt it was perspective shifting in a way that oh, I just I just feel like that statement, just like you know, you just embodied and captured everything. And you said that even though your mother's death was shocking, her life was beautiful. So imagine even though the end was so terrible, her life was beautiful. And that's what you're celebrating. That's what you're putting emphasis and focus and your light on. And I find that's very difficult because when we lose someone, it's so easy and natural again and normal. And that's when it's normal for us to obsess over how we lost someone and how we left them, which is the shortest amount of time we actually experienced them most mostly, but we have all of this time. But the brain and our memory and our mind is so good at just fixating on the end.

The end, and not the life. Yeah was yeah, and not the life. And I had to get to the end. So I used to say, but, but, but, and then I realized, wait, I can have both. This is shocking and terrible and hurtful, and I'm going to celebrate her life and I'm going to think of the good times and I'm going to try and think of all the great memories that will bring a smile to my face. So it was no longer a butt. And once I changed but to and I didn't have to choose which one. I was going to do both and move through life with the shock and the trauma and the stress and the beauty of her life, the beauty of how she lived, the energy of what she gave. So I was I was moving with all energies and it was only until I shifted, because I was definitely in that. But this happened, So I don't know how I could ever smile again. But this happened, and it was so tragic. And then as soon as I said, this happened and it's tragic, and I'm going to think positively, I'm going to think constructively.

You know.

My dad always used to say to me, girl, keep your mind right, keep your mind right, crucify your mind every day. You got to keep your mind right. And so that really helped me, you know. And that my friend TD Jake's had called me and he said, I understand you're angry. Of course, it's normal to be angry and all the things you're feeling, but I have a question for you, do you want your focus to be on her last five minutes or are you going to focus on the eighty one years that she lived? And it's your choice, and you have to choose every day which one are you going to focus on? You're going to give him five minutes, the five minutes and the trauma, or are you going to focus on the eighty one years? And I remember it through all my tears on eighty one years, eighty one years, and it was but it was beautiful because he helped me shift and I had to go to that every day. It wasn't like he'd said it one day and then, but every day and every time it was very challenging for me, Jay, and every time I did want to quit. And there were days where I didn't stop all the time. But you know, sometimes you have to push pause in life. And there were days where I would lay in the bed and just lay there and be still and think or not think and just lay there and I but I still decided to focus on her eighty one years and to focus on what I loved about her, and to focus on her contributions to life and society and other people and how she made people feel so powerful.

That shift for me was you know, I was like that, I can That's something I'd like to remind myself every day with the people that I've lost. Like that, that really felt like a real gift, that that gem of advice and insight. Think you you know again, another natural thing is, especially in a circumstance like this, is to focus on how to get justice on you know, how to make sure that the perpetrator and the person gets what they deserve. And I found and like the and that that again is a very normal reaction. It makes sense. How did you navigate that at the same time as navigating grief, like, walk me through that, because sometimes we lose people naturally. This wasn't that. This was rare, So it's an additional kind of energy direction because here you are dealing with loss, but then you're also dealing with an individual who's you know, acted so recklessly.

Yes, And I thought, oh my god, and my father it broke my heart one day because he said, oh boy, because they hadn't caught him yet, and he said, and then he was curious about that obviously, and like wondering, oh my god, this person is still around. And my dad immediately went to other people. He wasn't just focused on my mom. He immediately went to Oh my gosh, I hope this person is not hurting somebody else, because he's obviously shown he can do this. He does this. But I still I had to present on behalf of my mom and the family to the judge. You know what my intention was, and it really was, listen, you know, whatever the divine justice is going to be in this. I'm not the divine justice here, but I will say that my intention was, I want to make sure that this doesn't happen to another family. I don't want this to happen to anyone else. I don't want other people to feel that. So if I had any little way of just stating that and making a difference, that gave me something to live for. Actually, can I try in my little square? Can I hopefully stop this from happening to other people? And thank God that that he's not on the streets, you know, because there's a lot of reckless people on the streets and a lot of violence today in various different forms, and it's really heavy, and it's so unnecessary, and it's cruel and unkind, and but I like it. It's reckless.

Yeah, it's I mean, it's horrific.

It's horrific.

It's reckless.

But it happens to so many people in so many different ways, and I don't think people realize, you know, what we see the science of what it does to families when there's a tragedy. It could be a child drowning or a car accident or anything, and families sometimes fall apart. And I understand why. And Ted and I had to look at each other. And I sat with my dad and I said, listen, you're going to come live with me. I'm never leaving you. We're going to be Lockstep. You're gonna be my road dog wherever I go. You're in the car with me, whatever my life is. We're just going to merge. But I had to sit with Ted and I had to say to him. We had to look at each other in the eyes. I said, listen, this is horrible, and both of us are grieving in very different ways, but we have to make a decision and look at each other in the eyes right now and make a commitment to each other that we're going to walk through this and no matter how hard this gets, and no matter if any each of us want to bail, i'd understand, but we're not going to. We're going to stick this out. I've got your back, You've got my back. We're going to be here take care of my father. And my intention was we're going to give him a space where he feels loved and honored and safe and scene. And if we can do that, then we've done our job. But we have to have a commitment because the pain is so deep, Jay, and I see it now. I used to read articles like why would they they had a baby, and I understand this strategy, but why would they divorce them that? Why would they? Oh? I get it until you go through it, I get it because the shock is so insane. It's your brain isn't the same, Your heart's not the same, your brain's not the same.

Yeah, And that's another reminder to us all where it's like, if we haven't been through a experience, how not to judge, how to take a step back, how to be compassionate. But when I hear you being able to take a step back to the point of view of saying I want to look at this from the point of view of how this will not happen to someone else. That's like model behavior. I mean that is that is such an elevated spiritual space to come from that you're not going. I think this person deserves this because of what happened to this, which would be fair, Like that would be totally fair. There'd be nothing wrong if you fell that way. But the fact that you could come from a place to say, actually, I just want to make sure it doesn't happen to anyone else again. And I believe actually after the unfortunate event at your home, like he went off and did more that same day, right after, you were very right to actually, yeah, have that feeling.

Yes, that news was crazy.

Yeah.

And so one of my friends, Amy, who's in the book, she's the one who went to the house and got my mom's things for me and got the Bible and found the Christmas card, all these things. Amy shows up at the house that afternoon and she says, I am so sorry, I'm late. I heard about your mom this morning. But we were woken up last night by helicopters and sirens. Right next door to my house. There was a home invasion and it was craziness, and the guy shot himself and there was madness and blah blah blah, and we were all out in the streets. She's going on and I said, really, She goes, can you believe in the same night it happened to your mom? She comes over twenty four hours later. Why does a ghost eyes wide open? And I said, what's going on? She said, uh, remember I told you that there was a home invasion next door to me And I said yes. She said that was the same person. That was the same person that left your mom and showed up right next door to a best friend. Just that out of all places, LA is pretty big. Out of all things, but the energy and the connection and interesting enough, I had this huge crystal that I bought from myself and I couldn't figure out the right place to put it. And it happened to be Amy's birthday coming up, and I was on the phone with my mom. This was months before she died, maybe six months before she died, and I said, I don't know what to do with this crystal, so gorgeous, but I don't have the right room. And Ted's like, what are you doing with that big thing? And she said, well, didn't you say you didn't know what to get Amy for her? They why don't you give that to Amy? I said, oh, I absolutely will, And of course she had put it right in her backyard on the fence line of where all this Amy just fell, my mom everywhere. It's just but again of how we're all connected, and you don't even realize that out of all places. But yeah, he did this as someone else, and that family was traumatized. There was a young girl in the house, So I think that also helped me knowing that story, knowing that there was a teenage girl in the house and she was petrified and all this and thank god nothing happened to them, but that it is about other people too, that this didn't just happen to us. That's why I went to the place of Okay, there's so much trauma here. My prayer is that it doesn't go any further.

You know, I'm listening to you, and obviously I read the book and I'm hearing just it's almost like your mind. You allowed your mind to naturally go to all of the the butts, but then you've found like that tiny crack of light and that breakthrough, and you've kind of found your way there. And for everyone who's listening, I can see Nicole nodding, and it's like that that feeling that we often have is like the amount of light that shining through is so small, like the teeny right, like the tiniest yeah liad of oh yeah, yeah, it's not because it just looks dark. And you know, one of the biggest ones that I think a lot of people again naturally feel, are why me, I could have done this, I should have been there like that can just you know, I've heard that like destroy people inside.

It's just going to use that word. It will destroy you. Yeah, it will destroy you. And I felt it, you could feel the destruction in What did you do with that emotion? I immediately said, you know, why not me? First? I was like, Okay, we're human, We're in a human experience, and bad things happen around the world to really good people all the time. Bad things happen to bad it it's everybody, right, you know, It's funny. My mom used to she loved the theater, she loved stories, she loved television and song. Also, because her point was each of these mediums, most of them, especially film, intelligence is showing you the hero's journey. You are the hero of your story, but you don't go to the movie because you know the ending. We all go and we pretty much know the ending and the trailer, but we go because we want to see the middle, which is the challenge, which is the butt, which is what do I do? Am I going to survive? The decision, the turning point, the pivot. So the pivot for me was everything because I thought, right, Mom told me this, like things happen. People make decisions every day. You know, you've got laws on the books now, you know mothers against drunk driving, all these things. But that happened. Those good things came from a very tragic place. And it is looking for the light at the end of the tunnel. It's really grasping for that light, looking even if it's I was looking around like it's got to be there somewhere. And some days I didn't see any light. I have to be honest. There were some days there was no light. I felt it, but I didn't see it. But there were some days where I just was sitting in darkness, and sitting I felt like I was sitting in mud and just or quicksand and it just was heavy. And those were the days that I thought, Okay, I've got to now purposely look for a little light. And I would go outside and I'd sit in my yard and I would stare at the flower. I would sit in nature and I would look at the trees, and I would watch the birds, and I would watch life. I would watch the sunsets every day. I never looked at him every day. I took advantage. I took that for granted. Oh there's a sunset, you know, a couple times a year. Oh, every day since my mom, I would watch the sun go down. I would make sure to watch that sun go down because it reminded you there is a cycle of life, and the Sun's going to rise again. And if I knew the sun was going to rise again, then I knew I was going to rise again.

You know, the more disconnected we've be come from Nate to the harder it is to acknowledge the natural transitions and the natural seasons, the juvenations, the seasons, the the ability for things to wither and then yeah.

And then come back, come back. And my mom died, you know, in the it was winter. It was December first, and I remember I just trimmed back everything and pruned everything, and everything was barren and then I remember in April everything that I had cut back, everything was reblooming, showing up again, gorgeous, and it had pushed through that. It was that harvest time. You know, there's seed time and there's harvest, and there's this growing time. And I understood growing pains. That's what I was like, Oh, this is what growing pain. Oh this is what this means. Okay. But nature helped because the seasons helped me because, like I said, it was rainy and it was dark when she passed, and then a few months later the sun was coming out, the the weather changed, the flowers were out, the hummingbirds were around, and it was a reminder of this too, Shell pat like, things will continue and you have to go on with life.

And of course while you were writing this book, I believe it was when it went to print. You also lost to your father at that time, and he knew you were writing the book.

Yad was he Yes, he was into it. He was great. He was pushing me to write because he knew it would be cathartic for me. And I said, Daddy, I've been writing this book, but mommy's died, so I'm going to put this away. He goes no, no, no, I want you to write about Jackie. I want you to write about life. I want you to write Nicole. And he was so I was so happy to have his presence in my home because yes, I was taking care of him, but he was really taking care of me too. And Ted, like you would just acknowledge he had just lost his father, so to have a patriarch back in the house when Ted is grieving the loss of his own father, to have my father's energy was great. And my dad was a real doer. I mean he was always moving and shaking and getting things done. He never really sat down, never really relaxed. And he said to me, you have things to say in this book, and you'll help people, hopefully, you know. And what I loved, He's like, this book is about being an offering. It's not about business right now. This is an offering, Nicole, write your book, Finish your book. Your mother would want you to finish the book. And I said, I know, but I don't know how to pivot this. Hecause, you'll figure it out. You could throw Jackie in there. But he did read it, and he read five chapters for sure, and then he said he flipped through a lot, but he was so proud Jay because he knew his legacy and my mom's legacy were not going to be lost. And he was a big believer in history and legacy, and he said, every generation has the responsibility to honor the generation before them, of all races, of all religions, everybody who sacrificed. The greatest way to say thank you to the people that you will never have met you can't say thank you to, is to honor them by taking the baton that they've given you and live your life. That's why my dad's big thing to me growing up was you better use your freedom wisely. I didn't have the freedom that you have. We're living in the same lifetime right now. I didn't have what you have. I couldn't go to the school I wanted to go to, and then go the hospitals I wanted to go to, couldn't get the healthcare nothing. I didn't have your rights. But I did not stop because you are the promise, and you j are the promise, like all our generation, everybody is the promise. You think of all these wars that have been fought and all around the world, and it's for a freedom that the Western world has. And war is not pretty, it's ugly, it's unfair, all of it. It's all nothing great. But the truth is that it has happened from the beginning of time. So I think I love that my father reminded me use your freedom wisely, and remember your ancestry, remember the people who came before you, and remember that you are the promise. You are the promise, So show up.

Your parents are phenomena. Yeah, they're just.

They're so it's so funny because they were so opposite. I was, I told somebody today my dad was Archie Bunker from all the family, and my mom was Queen Cleopatra, and they but their energies got together and they made magic, and they were complete opposites.

But I just love how clear they were in their communication with you, that today their ideas are so clear for you, and they're so coherent for you, not just that you can repeat them. You know, when children can repeat smart things, we get impressed, But when we become adults, we don't get impressed by repetition. We get impressed if someone can actually live and apply the idea, apply the d and to be living and applying the idea is in this much at a time of such horrendous pain, that speaks volumes to just how deeply your parents taught you these incredible.

Yeah, they really wanted to make sure I never forgot, and it took advantage or took for granted what I had, you know, and the blessings that I had.

Yeah, there was one line in here about the blessings that I loved, because you have an area called the blessings of our ancestors. The No, actually there was this. It is this that I wanted to pick out. This is for anyone who's going to be reading the book as well. This is on page ninety nine. I know now that my parents, my mother especially truly were preparing me for a terrible day like this. The lesson was this. It's not about the loss and the death. It's about the life, the dash between the dates. As my dad would say, that there is truly the art of living. YEA. The fact that you believe that your parents were preparing you for something hard and different.

It was a subconscious knowing. But I would always say to them, does everything have to be a lesson to a lesson? It felt like every day I came home I got it. Can we just can I just go to soccer practice and come home and eat dinner and go to bed. And there was always a lesson. But my dad would say, you come with a number and you end with a number. What are you going to do with your dash? And it was all the time. And because they had seen so much tragedy. And my dad, I mean, he's born in nineteen thirty one, segregated America. He has seen his fair share of tragedy. So he didn't want me to be ignorant to the ills of people. He had already grown up with it. He had seen it. He was taught do not look up in the sky because you might see someone that you know who's lynched. That was the world he grew up in. But the beauty of him is that he still found a way to look at the great things of life. He still felt I have something to do in this life. He still felt I'm sick, eificant. He still felt that I'm going to go out and fight for my rights and fight for the rights of other people. And so he wanted to make sure that I didn't become complacent. And so I think a lot of their lessons of reminded me of my history. There was so much pain or history in general, of all people, of all races. Because my mother loved you know, you know we all say now like cultural appropriation, She's like, it's appreciation. It's appreciation because she believed that you have brothers and sisters all around the world, that you're connected energetically. They're going to be different races, different religions, different genders, doesn't matter. You're still connected. And they were really big on that, which I love. But with that came the history of a lot of people. And so that's why I think they were preparing me, because I saw with all the great history of every culture, there is also so much pain and trauma that got them to the prom yes, And so my mom, that's what I meant by that, that they had prepared me because they gave me this appreciation of every culture that has been through something horrific and yet they still chose to live, and they chose to to still be good. And my mom's prescription always was be good, do good, Be good, do good. That's that's a start there. She'd always say, I'm going to start there. What do I do with this? Be good and do good? And even Right after she passed away, I went to a restaurant and the hostess was really rude and I was still fresh in my trauma, and she said something to somebody, and I remember I pointed my finger at her. I go, no, hey, wait, stop that, and she said, oh, I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. But even though I was quote in the right, I walked in and I could feel my mother inside me saying, you don't ever put your finger in somebody's face. Now, don't you ever put your finger in someone's face. So I remember walking over to the owner of the restaurant. I said, I'm really sorry. I just want to take ownership of this. I did do this. I am very sorry. I have apologized to her. It was rude and it doesn't matter that just I just want to own this. And he thought, you don't have to you really, I go, no, I really do, because I can feel my mother and I do not want to be haunted by her. But I could just hear her saying, doesn't matter how if something an eye for an eye doesn't work. So just because she was rude, doesn't mean that you have to go and be rude, you know, And that's what I had done. She was rude, so I said, I'm going to get you back, and I'm waving my finger and I could. My mom used to say, an eye for an eye does not work. We all know that. It's proof. It doesn't work. The karma doesn't settle. You just create more karma. You just create more karma. Yeah, so it doesn't work, it doesn't cancel it out. We think it's going to cancel the karma, and all it does is make more karma to get over.

Yeah, it's really fascinating. How I'm so glad you went there. I feel like we were so convinced that if someone does something bad, then we can react however we want. We're justified, but not realizing that it just creates more negative energy. It doesn't perpetuate. Yeah, it creates more chaos.

Yeah, there's nothing positive that comes out of an eye for an eye. We think that there is, but it doesn't.

At the start of this interview, Nicole, you said you're in repair. I love that word. I think we're all at the workshop. Yeah.

I like that we are.

Getting repair done and you know, being renewed and refueled in so many different ways. And I do you still cry?

Yes, a lot. Just the other day, I saw something and it reminded me just right there. It was this dragon all a bunch of dragonflies. It was like a beehive, and I've never seen that before, and my mom loved dragonflies. And I when I tell you, I burst into tears, but deep cry, like belly cry, and I do cry a lot, but it's helpful for me because I've noticed the times where I want to stop crying, like, oh, Nicole, it's been twenty months, stop crying. No, it's and it does release. It's a release. And that's why I think that the creator gave us the ability to cry, to move that emotion, to get that emotion out, and to honor the emotion, to look at it for what it is. Because until I cry, I don't really know how I feel about things. Until I do cry, and then I realize, oh, that really did make me feel this way, or it did hurt me. I didn't realize how much that hurt me until the tears come.

I'm so so yeah.

Yeah, the crying is important. And I actually will play music sometimes that I know will make me cry if I'm feeling stuck. And I know that as soon as I get this out, it's going to create a space for new energy to come in. But you know it's once you have that hard, stagnant energy, and if you don't move it, new energy doesn't get to come in.

And Nicole, you've been so generous by sharing your journey with us today, and I'm really just appreciate how you've been down every normal natural path that anyone would mentally and emotionally and spiritually after this and you've found the and at the end of every path. You know, when we get to the end of every path and it feels like there's nothing beyond it, and then you've found the and which is that extension that we all need to find? And I genuinely, genuinely, genuinely believe that if anyone has someone they love, this book is a toolkit. It's a guy to give someone the transformation that we know is possible. But I am in awe of how you've responded and been able to channel your parents in this very difficult time. It's so easy to say it and share it, but to use it at this time is beautiful. And I pray and I meditate that anyone who reads this book receives the the courage that you have, the piece that you have gained, and the helpfulness for others to pass on what they've gained as well. Thank you. I appreciate that, Nicole. We end every on Purpose episode with a final five. These are questions that have to be answered in one word to one sentence maximum okay, And I believe it will be a really useful exercise because I think we'll even discover further. So, Nicole Evan, these are your final five. Oh boy. The first is what is the best grief or advice you've received during grief?

Love? Love matters that game changer for greed healing bomb.

And what would you say is the worst grief advice or words to hear during times of grief.

I know how you feel. I've said it so many times to people. I mean, I had to learn I was going through my own thing, going oh my god, I've said all the wrong things and done all the wrong things. But it's just a reaction that we all say.

Yeah. It's because when we say we know, we actually limit the other person's ability to share.

Then share, yeah, so it's over. I know how you feel, like, oh well, I can't even tell you how I feel I can't even call on you to come and sit and talk with you and talk this out because you're already know.

Yeah. There's no chance for me to feel understood or seen scene yes, or loved because.

Heard any of it. Yeah, because you already know.

Thank you. That's really beautiful. I wanted to ask you these three words you so eloquently chose. Third question for you is walk me through when you needed grit, when you required grace, and when you chose gratitude. You can give me one for each.

So the grit showed up for me on this journey right when I got the news. I had to pivot and I had to Your grit for me is a hustle, it's a pivot, it's an action. And I had to have grit to move through these terrible times where I just want sit down and do nothing, and I had to be present and on and figure this out. The grace was choosing to forgive, choosing to give up the anger and the frustration and the pain and giving it up to a higher power and not letting it poison me. So that was the grace, and the gratitude was being so grateful that I had two parents who paid attention to me and supported me throughout my life. And I didn't understand a lot of things when I was younger. You know, they were a little more strict than the parents and a little more disciplined in all this. But thank God that I had parents who did show up for me, even in disagreements, even in hard times. I never once thought they weren't going to be there for me. And that's what I was the most grateful for that I had, that I had them and my friends and my friends that showed up for me. I'm grateful that. That's when I went into the gratitude of my gosh, people are showing up for me, and people are taking care of me.

Thank you so beautiful. Question number four too left, Question number four, what was your most frequented prayer?

I would say over and over again, my grand It was my grandmother's prayer, which is today is the day the Lord has made, and I choose to be glad and rejoiceful. And I just I choose to be glad and rejoice in it. Sorry, that's it. And I'd look at her like, okay, grandma whatever, she uses to sing the song, and she'd be cooking her food but I found that because it was repeated over and over again and I overheard her when I spent time with her, and it was that word choice, and I choose to be glad and rejoice in it. So I just thought, Okay, I can do that too. I don't feel like it and nothing is showing me that I should be joyful or glad, but I choose to rejoice in and choose to be glad, and then I found things to be glad about.

That's how you found Yeah, that's how That's how.

I That's how I found it. I really was. And then my big monitor was, you know, I'm just standing in my faith. I'm standing in my faith. I would say that over and over and over again, even though I didn't really believe that I was. I just said it over and over again because I needed to create some solid platform under me, otherwise it felt like Quicksand.

Fifth and final question, Nicole. We asked this every guest who's ever been on the show. If you could create one law that everyone in the world had to follow, what would it be?

The Golden Rule?

Nicole, Again, so grateful to you for coming on on purpose, for everyone who's been listening or watching. The book is called Think You'll Be Happy. I want you to find out why it's called out when you read the book. That's why I did not ask the question. It's it's a beautiful reason why called think You'll be Happy. The book is full of so many more stories, deep texture of explanations behind things and call shared with us today. Please go and grab a copy, Share it with a loved one, Share it with someone who's lost one when you don't know the right thing to say or the right thing to text. If you feel the person who's ready to offer this to them, like I said, I'll be offering it and have already been offering it to friends. I wrote here as part of my testimonial, this book should be required reading for anyone wanting to understand how to trust in the light, even at the darkest times. And I truly mean that. The book by Nicole Evan. Please, of course, clip and cut as you always do. TikTok's Instagram reels that resonate with you, that connect with you, Share them across, spread them because I hope you felt the energy that I felt by sitting here. I want you all to feel it, and I want you all to share it because even if we're not going through something like this right now, I know this energy will be extremely he for those who are, so please pass it on and call them so grateful to.

Thank thank you, so grateful, to you, Thank.

You so much, thank you, thank you. If you love this episode, you'll love my interview with Dr Gabor Matte on understanding your trauma and how to heal emotional wounds to start moving on from the past. Everything in nature grows only where it's vulnerable. So a tree doesn't go overhere it's hard and thick, does it. It goes where it's soft and green and vulnerable.

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