Milli had always wanted to live and work overseas. But when she finally made it over to London, she found herself unemployed and homesick. Struggling with the pressure to get a job and ‘live the dream’ she started experiencing panic attacks.  She had no idea what was happening. She thought she was having a medical emergency. It wasn’t until she found a website about anxiety that things started to click into place.  With the right support, time and patience, Milli was soon able to enjoy her time in London. When she moved to Melbourne, she was worried about it happening again. This time round however, she knew what she needed to do to look after herself and stay well.  Hear Milli talk about what her panic attacks felt like and the steps she took to manage them.  This episode of Not Alone was produced by Audrey Hughes and narrated by Thomas Milana. Sound design by Jan Wong. Our theme song is Friends with Feelings, written and performed by Alice Skye, and produced by CAAMA music.   You can access resources related to this episode, including support information at bb.org.au/panic-attacks 

Daniel went a year without saying a word. He's lived with a stutter his entire life, but at high school relentless bullying pushed him to a point of exhaustion. It became easier to stay quiet. And he questioned the point of going on. This is a story about finding your voice.  Show Notes: This episode of Not Alone was produced by Nick Budicin and narrated by Thomas Russell. Sound design by Jan Wong. Our theme song is Friends with Feelings, written and performed by Alice Skye, and produced by CAAMA music.  You can access resources related to this episode, including support information at bb.org.au/my-stutter

As a kid, Nicole was loud, bubbly and dancing. It was her dream to be a professional dancer. And one she worked towards every day.  When she was a teenager, Nicole went through a traumatic experience and dancing became her way to cope. To express herself. To help her manage these emotions she was struggling to control.  After suffering an injury, Nicole struggled to deal with the impact of losing her dream and greatest outlet. Seeing a GP and sharing what she was going through with her friends and family made all the difference.  Hear Nicole talk about how letting go – and letting people in – can help us heal.  This episode of Not Alone was produced by Audrey Hughes and narrated by Margot Moore. Sound design by Jan Wong. Our theme song is Friends with Feelings, written and performed by Alice Skye, and produced by CAAMA music.   You can access resources related to this episode, including support information at bb.org.au/healing-from-trauma

Catriona Bisset is an Olympian and the fastest Australian woman to ever run the 800m. But for a decade, she left the sport she loved. Anxiety became a constant companion and centred on one thing she couldn’t outrun – her body.    Through therapy, she is learning to accept anxiety and depression as part of who she is. And to replace fear with self-compassion. This episode of Not Alone was produced by Darcy Sutton and Nick Budicin, and narrated by Tom Russell. Sound design by Jan Wong. Our theme song is Friends with Feelings, written and performed by Alice Skye, and produced by CAAMA music. You can access resources related to this episode, including support information at bb.org.au/friends-with-anxiety

For Geoff, mental health was something briefly touched on in medical school as something to be aware of in patients. Not himself. Doctors don't get sick. So when the stresses of work started to catch up with him, Geoff didn't know what to do. And it was a long time before he sought help.  Hear Geoff reflect on his experiences at medical school and in the field, how he manages his mental health today, and his dreams for the medical industry.  This episode of Not Alone was produced by Darcy Sutton and narrated by Margot Moore. Sound design by Jan Wong. Our theme song is Friends with Feelings, written and performed by Alice Skye, and produced by CAAMA music.  You can access resources related to this episode, including support information at bb.org.au/depression-at-work

At 20, Sandi lost her brother to suicide. In 2018, her long-term marriage broke down, and she found herself living alone. Slowly, Sandi’s friendships began to deteriorate, and she was eventually hospitalised with major depression. Moving into a retirement village at a relatively early age, Sandi realised how important spending time with others was for her mental health and wellbeing. Sandi’s story is about overcoming grief and understanding the power of connection with others. This episode of Not Alone was produced by Nick Budicin and narrated by Thomas Russell. Sound design by Jan Wong. Our theme song is Friends with Feelings, written and performed by Alice Skye, and produced by CAAMA music. You can access resources related to this episode, including support information at bb.org.au/overcoming-grief.

Growing up, Sean loved his life. He was surrounded by his brothers, and they spent all their time playing sport. He didn't want anything to ruin it. And being gay - well, he didn't know how that would go down.  Ignoring that part of himself led to the creation of Sean’s alter ego, Hank. Appearing whenever Sean drank alcohol, Hank was loud, obnoxious and always getting into trouble. Something that Sean wasn’t and didn’t want to be. But if getting drunk meant he didn’t have to pick up a girl, then he’d rather be Hank.  Over time, Sean began to isolate himself and his mental health deteriorated. Finding someone to talk to, someone who shared and understood Sean’s struggles, turned everything around.  This episode of Not Alone was produced by Audrey Hughes and narrated by Margot Moore. Sound design by Jan Wong. Our theme song is Friends with Feelings, written and performed by Alice Skye, and produced by CAAMA music.  You can access resources related to this episode, including support information at bb.org.au/self-denial

Guilt and shame defined Jake’s life for over a decade. He couldn’t see past his own self-loathing.   When he asked for help, everything changed. And while talking was hard, it was nothing compared to the anguish and loneliness of silence.   This is a story about recovery and turning down the volume on the negative voice in your head. This episode of Not Alone was produced by Sarah Alexander and Darcy Sutton, and was narrated by Thomas Russell. Sound design by Jan Wong. Our theme song is Friends with Feelings, written and performed by Alice Skye, and produced by CAAMA music. You can access resources related to this episode, including support information at: bb.org.au/ManagingDepression 

Emily’s childhood was defined by pressure. Pressure to get the perfect grade, to fit in, to excel. Their impossible standards left them feeling like a failure. All the time.  This episode is about the constant battle between anxiety and depression and how recovery looks different for everyone.   Emily’s recovery started when they found an online forum community that showed them, they weren’t alone. It’s a story that shows recovery looks different for everyone. No matter how dark life gets.  This episode of Not Alone was produced by Audrey Hughes and narrated by Thomas Russell. Sound design by Jan Wong. Our theme song is Friends with Feelings, written and performed by Alice Skye, and produced by CAAMA music.  You can access resources related to this episode, including support information at bb.org.au/anxiety-vs-depression

Living out his dream in the AFL, Liam Stocker thought mental health wasn’t something he had to worry about.   His anxiety had other ideas. Panic attacks became a regular occurrence, although Liam always felt he had to hide them.  This latest episode of Not Alone is about accepting help, however scary it may be.   This episode of Not Alone was produced by Darcy Sutton and narrated by Margot Moore. Sound design by Jan Wong. Our theme song is Friends with Feelings, written and performed by Alice Skye, and produced by CAAMA music. You can access resources related to this episode, including support information at: bit.ly/AnxietyAndMyAFLCareer

From an early age, much of Amy’s life has been consumed by anxiety, especially in social situations.  Dating was especially difficult.  Nerves around dating are something almost everyone can relate to. But for Amy, it was overwhelming dread. And for many years, it stopped her from even trying to form a relationship.  Now in her 30s, Amy reflects on her early dating experiences.  This episode of Not Alone was produced by Audrey Hughes and narrated by Margot Moore. Sound design by Jan Wong. Our theme song is Friends with Feelings, written and performed by Alice Skye, and produced by CAAMA music. You can access resources related to this episode, including support information at bb.org.au/dating-anxiety

From the time she could walk, Aria had always dreamed of the performing arts. Being on stage gave her a profound sense of belonging.   But when school arrived, she was the target of relentless bullying. Anxiety became a constant in her life and eventually she was forced to drop out of school entirely. She'd never felt so alone.   Then she stumbled across an old wrestling gym.  A story about anxiety, depression and finding your community, wherever they may be. This episode of Not Alone was produced by Darcy Sutton and narrated by Thomas Russell. Sound design by Jan Wong. Our theme song is Friends with Feelings, written and performed by Alice Skye, and produced by CAAMA music. You can access resources related to this episode, including support information at https://bb.org.au/scarsofbullying

Mental health issues cover the full spectrum of feelings. But for many, they can be defined by a distinct lack of feeling. Growing up in a small coastal town, James' love of the water drew him to work on a ship when he finished school. From day one, James experienced bullying and abuse that left him feeling numb. In a constant state of fear. Suicidal. On leaving the ship, the trauma followed him. In this episode, James talks about how he rediscovered beauty when he stopped trying to outrun his trauma. Not Alone is a Beyond Blue podcast hosted by Marc Fennell, produced by Sam Loy and executive produced by Darcy Sutton and Sarah Alexander. It was recorded by Ryan D’Sylva with mixing and sound design by Que Nguyen. Our theme song is Sense of Home by Australian artist Harrison Storm. You can access resources related to this episode, including support service information on the Beyond Blue episode page: bb.org.au/numbness

Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional. It’s a mantra Priscilla wholly believes. Living with chronic physical pain. The grief of losing a loved one. The breakdown of a marriage. When daily tasks became insurmountable and life overwhelming, Priscilla couldn’t see a way through. But in adversity, she has come to understand that while pain is inevitable, she does have control over how she handles it. This episode is about finding purpose through pain. Not Alone is a Beyond Blue podcast hosted by Marc Fennell, produced by Sam Loy and executive produced by Darcy Sutton and Sarah Alexander. It was recorded by Ryan D’Sylva with mixing and sound design by Que Nguyen. Our theme song is Sense of Home by Australian artist Harrison Storm. You can access resources related to this episode, including support service information on the Beyond Blue episode page: bb.org.au/growththroughpain

I am a gay man. Five words that Maxim couldn't bring himself to say out loud. And so, for the best part of a decade, Maxim hid, refusing to accept his sexuality. But with this silence came a sense of complete disconnect – to everything and everyone around him. This is an episode about sexuality, self-acceptance and finding your voice. Not Alone is a Beyond Blue podcast hosted by Marc Fennell, produced by Sam Loy and executive produced by Darcy Sutton and Sarah Alexander. It was recorded by Ryan D’Sylva with mixing and sound design by Que Nguyen. Our theme song is Sense of Home by Australian artist Harrison Storm. You can access resources related to this episode, including support service information on the Beyond Blue episode page: bb.org.au/selfacceptance

For nearly three decades, Ross carried a burden that he kept to himself. By not speaking of the trauma he experienced as a child, he hoped it would become nothing more than a memory. But his anger bubbled away, sometimes beyond his control. And it was in his relationships with others he saw just how much the trauma was affecting him. This episode is about the far-reaching impact of trauma, and why it's never too late to seek help. Not Alone is a Beyond Blue podcast hosted by Marc Fennell, produced by Sam Loy and executive produced by Darcy Sutton and Sarah Alexander. It was recorded by Ryan D’Sylva with mixing and sound design by Que Nguyen. Our theme song is Sense of Home by Australian artist Harrison Storm. Additional music for this episode sourced from purple-planet.com. You can access resources related to this episode, including support service information on the Beyond Blue episode page: bb.org.au/understandingtrauma

In 2021, Dr Miriam-Rose Ungunmerr-Baumann was honoured as the Senior Australian of the Year. It is recognition for a lifetime of work as a teacher and role model in her Daly River (Nauiyu) community. In 1975, Miriam-Rose became the Northern Territory’s first fully qualified Aboriginal teacher and a strong advocate for integrating art into mainstream education. Perhaps her greatest achievement however, is bringing the concept of Dadirri to the world. It speaks to the value of deep listening and quiet stillness, and has been a part of Aboriginal practice for thousands of years. In this special episode, Miriam-Rose talks about Dadirri, healing and the importance of listening. Not Alone is a Beyond Blue podcast hosted by Marc Fennell, produced by Sam Loy and executive produced by Darcy Sutton and Sarah Alexander. It was recorded by Lori Uden with mixing and sound design by Que Nguyen. Our theme song is Sense of Home by Australian artist Harrison Storm. You can access resources related to this episode, including support service information on the Beyond Blue episode page: bb.org.au/dadirri You can learn more about the Miriam-Rose foundation, and donate, via their website: www.miriamrosefoundation.org.au

Shantelle had always wanted to be a mother. Growing up as one of 18 siblings, family held a special importance to her. But when her twins arrived, she felt no connection to them. She was terrified by thoughts of hurting them. Approximately one in six new mums experience postnatal depression. Shantelle never thought she’d be one of them. This is an episode about a proud Barkindji woman who found recovery by connecting with her culture on a deeper level and finding peace on the Jiu-Jitsu mat. Not Alone is a Beyond Blue podcast hosted by Marc Fennell, produced by Sam Loy and executive produced by Darcy Sutton and Sarah Alexander. It was recorded by Ryan D’Sylva with mixing and sound design by Que Nguyen. Our theme song is Sense of Home by Australian artist Harrison Storm. You can access resources related to this episode, including support service information on the Beyond Blue episode page: bb.org.au/postnatal

On average, nine Australians die every day by suicide. Seven are men. Behind every number, there are many stories. Brad McEwen grew up in a small regional town in the 1980s. A time when men didn’t talk about feelings. In the space of two years, Brad lost his brother and father to suicide. He didn’t see either coming. For too long, talking about mental health has been a no-go zone between mates. It’s an attitude that Brad has long dedicated himself to changing. This is an episode about suicide, stigma and starting conversations. Not Alone is a Beyond Blue podcast hosted by Marc Fennell, produced by Sam Loy and executive produced by Darcy Sutton and Sarah Alexander. It was recorded by Ryan D’Sylva with mixing and sound design by Que Nguyen. Our theme song is Sense of Home by Australian artist Harrison Storm. You can access resources related to this episode, including support service information on the Beyond Blue episode page: bb.org.au/shiftingmaleattitudes

When it comes to mental health, we all have our own unique stories to tell. But no matter what we are going through, there are other people experiencing it too. Join our host, Marc Fennell, for the second season of Not Alone - where everyday Australians talk about their mental health journey to help you with yours. Season Two launching May 18 2021.

When it comes to living with a mental health condition, often the loudest voice of negativity comes from within. In this episode of Not Alone, Amy opens up on how her inner critic began to creep into all aspects of her life as she entered her final years of high school. Not Alone is a Beyond Blue podcast hosted by Marc Fennell, produced by Sam Loy, mixed by Saskia Black, and executive produced by Darcy Sutton, Sarah Alexander and Tom Ross. Our theme song is Sense of Home by Australian artist Harrison Storm. Say Yes to Life is written and performed by Gang of Youths, courtesy of Mosy Recordings, by arrangement of Sony Music Entertainment Australia Pty Ltd. and published by Universal Music Publishing Pty Ltd. You can access resources related to this episode, including support service information on the Beyond Blue episode page: bb.org.au/innercritic

Noel will never forget that Saturday in October, 2004. The day Maris, his wife of 42 years took her own life. At the age of 72, amidst grief and a sense of hopelessness, he promised he would live a life in honour of his beloved wife. This episode of Not Alone is about losing a sense of purpose, and more importantly, the journey to rediscovering it. Not Alone is a Beyond Blue podcast hosted by Marc Fennell, produced by Sam Loy, mixed by Saskia Black, and executive produced by Darcy Sutton, Sarah Alexander and Tom Ross. Our theme song is Sense of Home by Australian artist Harrison Storm. You can access resources related to this episode, including support service information on the Beyond Blue episode page: bb.org.au/purpose

It seems strange that in a world of nearly eight billion people, anyone could feel lonely. But as studies keep telling us, it is a common experience in today’s society. In this episode of Not Alone, Cecile shares her story of isolation. It is an important perspective on loneliness and the cultural stigma that can stop someone from seeking support. Not Alone is a Beyond Blue podcast hosted by Marc Fennell, produced by Sam Loy, mixed by Saskia Black, and executive produced by Darcy Sutton, Sarah Alexander and Tom Ross. Our theme song is Sense of Home by Australian artist Harrison Storm. You can access resources related to this episode, including support service information on the Beyond Blue episode page: bb.org.au/isolation

Contrary to the name, work stress isn’t just bound to the places we work. So often, work stress seeps its way into our home life and our relationships. In this episode of Not Alone, Tim opens up about how the stress of a new business venture, combined with his refusal to seek help, led to a range of mental health issues that began to affect all areas of his life. Not Alone is a Beyond Blue podcast hosted by Marc Fennell, produced by Sam Loy, mixed by Saskia Black, and executive produced by Darcy Sutton, Sarah Alexander and Tom Ross. Our theme song is Sense of Home by Australian artist Harrison Storm. You can access resources related to this episode, including support service information and an episode transcript on the Beyond Blue episode page: bb.org.au/workstress

When it comes to supporting a loved one with a mental health condition, there isn’t one single strategy than perfectly walks you through how to handle everything life throws at you. People are different and experience things differently, and what works for one person may not always do the same for the next. In this episode of Not Alone, Caroline takes us on her emotional journey as a mother supporting her eldest son. Not Alone is a Beyond Blue podcast hosted by Marc Fennell, produced by Sam Loy, mixed by Saskia Black, and executive produced by Darcy Sutton, Sarah Alexander and Tom Ross. Our theme song is Sense of Home by Australian artist Harrison Storm. You can access resources related to this episode, including support service information and an episode transcript on the Beyond Blue episode page: bb.org.au/supporting-a-loved-one

The Black Saturday bushfires of 2009 are etched in the memory of so many Australians. For Cliff, a CFA firefighter during this time, these memories refused to fade. The death and devastation he witnessed would intrude on all parts of his life for the days, months and years to come. In this episode of Not Alone, Cliff shares his inspiring story of coming to terms with his trauma, and ultimately growing from it. Not Alone is a Beyond Blue podcast hosted by Marc Fennell, produced by Sam Loy, mixed by Saskia Black, and executive produced by Darcy Sutton, Sarah Alexander and Tom Ross. Our theme song is Sense of Home by Australian artist Harrison Storm. You can access resources related to this episode, including support service information and an episode transcript on the Beyond Blue episode page: bb.org.au/overcoming-trauma

When it comes to mental health, we all have our own unique stories to tell. But no matter what we are going through, there are other people experiencing it too. From Beyond Blue, this is Not Alone. A podcast where everyday Australians talk about their mental health journey to help you with yours.