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Welcome the Guys We Find the Anti slut shaming Podcast. I'm Christina Hutchinson. I'm Kuren Fisher and.

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Friends bring us to sludie, your horning and your shame.

Hey with what yes? Okay? Talk about Hey everybody, how you doing? Welcome to another fun filled episode of Guys We It's the Anti slut Chaming Podcast. I'm Karen Fisher, Christina Hutchinson. Welcome to the show. If you want to see us live in New York City, you're going to head over to the link tree links in our bios on Instagram or the Guys We Fucked Instagram and you are going to click on it and then you're gonna go purchase tickets to the Midnight Theater October nineteenth, which is a Thursday shows at nine thirty pm. We've already started, uh moving tickets pretty quickly, so make sure to get on it because these live shows are so fun.

Hey with what yes? Okay? Talk about Hey everybody, how you doing? Welcome to another fun filled episode of Guys We It's the Anti slut Chaming Podcast. I'm Karen Fisher, Christina Hutchinson. Welcome to the show. If you want to see us live in New York City, you're going to head over to the link tree links in our bios on Instagram or the Guys We Fucked Instagram and you are going to click on it and then you're gonna go purchase tickets to the Midnight Theater October nineteenth, which is a Thursday shows at nine thirty pm. We've already started, uh moving tickets pretty quickly, so make sure to get on it because these live shows are so fun.

They're so fun.

They're so fun.

Mike will be there. Sure you can participate. It's yeah, so fun, and there's two ticket levels, so if you want to be in the front, it's like ten bucks more you can participate, or if you want to say, keep me the fuck away from these ladies, they're out of their minds. Still good seats in the back of the theater, absolutely, and we hope to see you there. If you want to email us it's sorry about last night's show at gmail dot com. This first subject line says, I don't want to be an abuser anymore. Amazing, good work. That's a good place to start. It's going to be a good fall for you.

Mike will be there. Sure you can participate. It's yeah, so fun, and there's two ticket levels, so if you want to be in the front, it's like ten bucks more you can participate, or if you want to say, keep me the fuck away from these ladies, they're out of their minds. Still good seats in the back of the theater, absolutely, and we hope to see you there. If you want to email us it's sorry about last night's show at gmail dot com. This first subject line says, I don't want to be an abuser anymore. Amazing, good work. That's a good place to start. It's going to be a good fall for you.

Hi.

Hi.

I am a twenty nine year old woman married to a twenty nine year old man, and I have deep anger management issues. To preface this, I'm actively seeking help and have been for the past few years. This actually makes it extremely difficult to recognize my toxic behavior and allow it to bubble over and not feel like the absolute worst piece of shit almost instantaneously, like why the fuck should I get the right to wallow right right?

I am a twenty nine year old woman married to a twenty nine year old man, and I have deep anger management issues. To preface this, I'm actively seeking help and have been for the past few years. This actually makes it extremely difficult to recognize my toxic behavior and allow it to bubble over and not feel like the absolute worst piece of shit almost instantaneously, like why the fuck should I get the right to wallow right right?

Anyways?

Anyways?

I have some clinically diagnosed mental issues, and I find it pathetic that I almost always want to use that as a crutch, but I can't. I can't bear the thought of hurting the ones I've loved, but I have and living with it is the hardest part of myself to accept.

I have some clinically diagnosed mental issues, and I find it pathetic that I almost always want to use that as a crutch, but I can't. I can't bear the thought of hurting the ones I've loved, but I have and living with it is the hardest part of myself to accept.

And yeah, we got to accept all the parts of ourselves.

And yeah, we got to accept all the parts of ourselves.

I've grown and matured from throwing pots and pans in the street and destroying entire rooms of furniture and walls late teens early twenties, but I still manage to let the heat of anger overtake my entire being to the point of self destruction, as well as physically lashing out on my husband twice in three years. The inner workings of our relationship and our individual past trauma therapy has followed us to give us the space to try and work it out. But this self doubt of am I doing this for the right reason inevitably rears its ugly head into the forefront of my thoughts, and I begin to feel like a manipulator. My parents were in an abusive relationship, and it makes me sick to think I will recycle this horrible coping mechanismanism. I'll cut myself off for now because it's feeling narcissistic. I don't really know why I am writing in this intimate part of myself, but maybe I'm putting my true intentions into the universe to manifest a better outcome. I wanted to write in some perspective from a fucked up brain. I hope it makes sense and opens up some dialogue. PS. I don't excuse domestic violence, and I'm not an apologist what our family looks like most of the time. And then she included photos, so it's very cute.

I've grown and matured from throwing pots and pans in the street and destroying entire rooms of furniture and walls late teens early twenties, but I still manage to let the heat of anger overtake my entire being to the point of self destruction, as well as physically lashing out on my husband twice in three years. The inner workings of our relationship and our individual past trauma therapy has followed us to give us the space to try and work it out. But this self doubt of am I doing this for the right reason inevitably rears its ugly head into the forefront of my thoughts, and I begin to feel like a manipulator. My parents were in an abusive relationship, and it makes me sick to think I will recycle this horrible coping mechanismanism. I'll cut myself off for now because it's feeling narcissistic. I don't really know why I am writing in this intimate part of myself, but maybe I'm putting my true intentions into the universe to manifest a better outcome. I wanted to write in some perspective from a fucked up brain. I hope it makes sense and opens up some dialogue. PS. I don't excuse domestic violence, and I'm not an apologist what our family looks like most of the time. And then she included photos, so it's very cute.

Yeah.

Yeah.

I like this email a lot because there's a lot of people that are violent towards their partners and towards just objects in their home. And we always hear from the person on the receiving end of the pot being thrown, so I feel like we can understand the trouble and trauma around that. And it's like it's like with sexual assault, Like we hear all the time from people who are sexual assaulted, and I feel like we have a pretty good understanding of like what happens to your psyche, But it's like, what about the person doing the thing, Like what's going on there?

I like this email a lot because there's a lot of people that are violent towards their partners and towards just objects in their home. And we always hear from the person on the receiving end of the pot being thrown, so I feel like we can understand the trouble and trauma around that. And it's like it's like with sexual assault, Like we hear all the time from people who are sexual assaulted, and I feel like we have a pretty good understanding of like what happens to your psyche, But it's like, what about the person doing the thing, Like what's going on there?

Because that's really where you make some headway.

Because that's really where you make some headway.

Yeah, I mean, this is I mean I get because I'm like, I guess you're not really looking looking for advice obviously, like you're working on it. That's incredible. I would be interested. I mean obviously, like part of the it's stopping is you getting to the root of why you feel so angry addressing childhood things in your everyday life. You know, it seems like pretty deep rooted anger. Anger is an interesting one for me because I based on my personality, I think a lot of people would think I'm I'm pretty angry. I'm actually like very rarely angry. I'm very angry about like world issues, but like in my personal like sphere, I don't really feel angry very often. I feel sad. My sadness replaces anger pretty much consistently.

Yeah, I mean, this is I mean I get because I'm like, I guess you're not really looking looking for advice obviously, like you're working on it. That's incredible. I would be interested. I mean obviously, like part of the it's stopping is you getting to the root of why you feel so angry addressing childhood things in your everyday life. You know, it seems like pretty deep rooted anger. Anger is an interesting one for me because I based on my personality, I think a lot of people would think I'm I'm pretty angry. I'm actually like very rarely angry. I'm very angry about like world issues, but like in my personal like sphere, I don't really feel angry very often. I feel sad. My sadness replaces anger pretty much consistently.

I know you I.

I know you I.

Feel anger a lot more anger and sone is it sucks when it sucks to have your anger. There's so much shame attached to anger that results in childlike being behavior likes tantrums and stuff like you've seen me throwing tantrums, like literally throwing something on the floor like a toddler. It's so embarrassing doing it, but you feel like your body's on fire and you don't know how to like regulate. It's all about like learning I manage it, I imagine with I've never taken anger management classes, but the trauma therapy that I've done is all about grounding your body and really feeling your feet on the floor and like feeling the stillness and a calmness, like kind of going through your through your body in an energy field, and that's really the only way to take it out. But I anger is it's so frustrating because when you feel it come on and you try to repress it, it makes it worse when you try to be like, I'm like road rage.

Feel anger a lot more anger and sone is it sucks when it sucks to have your anger. There's so much shame attached to anger that results in childlike being behavior likes tantrums and stuff like you've seen me throwing tantrums, like literally throwing something on the floor like a toddler. It's so embarrassing doing it, but you feel like your body's on fire and you don't know how to like regulate. It's all about like learning I manage it, I imagine with I've never taken anger management classes, but the trauma therapy that I've done is all about grounding your body and really feeling your feet on the floor and like feeling the stillness and a calmness, like kind of going through your through your body in an energy field, and that's really the only way to take it out. But I anger is it's so frustrating because when you feel it come on and you try to repress it, it makes it worse when you try to be like, I'm like road rage.

I get road rage pretty bad. And I the other day this fucking guy.

I get road rage pretty bad. And I the other day this fucking guy.

Oh, people drive like such twats in New York City, And so on a good day, I'm like, all right, Christina, we're not going to get mad. We're just gonna see this as an opportunity to be patient. And I do, and I really do, and it's really valuable.

Oh, people drive like such twats in New York City, And so on a good day, I'm like, all right, Christina, we're not going to get mad. We're just gonna see this as an opportunity to be patient. And I do, and I really do, and it's really valuable.

It's very nice. It's like a nice little like nervous system exercise.

It's very nice. It's like a nice little like nervous system exercise.

And then other times somebody will drive like a twat and they'll just fucking cut me off like a piece of shit asshole with no blinker and expect me to be like it's so annoying. And then so the other day I rolled down my window. I was like, I'm gonna yell something at you and let's try something new.

And then other times somebody will drive like a twat and they'll just fucking cut me off like a piece of shit asshole with no blinker and expect me to be like it's so annoying. And then so the other day I rolled down my window. I was like, I'm gonna yell something at you and let's try something new.

So I'd rolled down my window and I said.

So I'd rolled down my window and I said.

I hope you get everything you ever wanted life.

I hope you get everything you ever wanted life.

And honestly totally dissolve the anger, because I was like, that's hilarious to yell that, like you want the person to die. Did they have a confused look on their face.

And honestly totally dissolve the anger, because I was like, that's hilarious to yell that, like you want the person to die. Did they have a confused look on their face.

No, they just flicked me off.

No, they just flicked me off.

They couldn't hear me, but you knew what you were saying. It was for me. It was for me to like, I'm like, what the fuck? Can dissipate this anger immediately? There's not much but laughter can do it.

They couldn't hear me, but you knew what you were saying. It was for me. It was for me to like, I'm like, what the fuck? Can dissipate this anger immediately? There's not much but laughter can do it.

I just have to.

I just have to.

You know, sometimes if someone tries to make me laugh when I'm mad, I get more mad.

You know, sometimes if someone tries to make me laugh when I'm mad, I get more mad.

But it's anger is yeah.

But it's anger is yeah.

Well, also when you talk to therapists. I don't know the specific language, but like basically, in a nutshell, anger is not a core emotion.

Well, also when you talk to therapists. I don't know the specific language, but like basically, in a nutshell, anger is not a core emotion.

It's a set.

It's a set.

Yeah, it's like almost it's like a masking emotion almost.

Yeah, it's like almost it's like a masking emotion almost.

Yeah, So definitely masks like sadness. Right, it's like a little wall. It's a very protective wall. And it's anger is very energizing. It's very energetic, and I like going fast. I like being energized. I don't like like.

Yeah, So definitely masks like sadness. Right, it's like a little wall. It's a very protective wall. And it's anger is very energizing. It's very energetic, and I like going fast. I like being energized. I don't like like.

I hate being tired. I fucking hate being tired.

I hate being tired. I fucking hate being tired.

For some reason, I have a real big problem with being tired, and yeah, anger keeps you awake, as simple as that. Interesting a lot of benefits that are aren't actually benefits, but yeah, I guess anger is always well, it masks sadness and a masks shame.

For some reason, I have a real big problem with being tired, and yeah, anger keeps you awake, as simple as that. Interesting a lot of benefits that are aren't actually benefits, but yeah, I guess anger is always well, it masks sadness and a masks shame.

I think it masks shame probably more.

I think it masks shame probably more.

It's interesting because my brother and I were talking a lot about like emotions and like how we show them, like uh, over the past couple of days, and we are always kind of very interested by people who throw things and stuff because like we're like, like we were just not like if we if we throw something in our house growing up, we would be in so much fucking trouble. So like we never have done that in our lives. Was like it just since we were kids. It was never on the table. We would just like the thought never even crossed my mind because of the amount of trouble I would have been in doing that.

It's interesting because my brother and I were talking a lot about like emotions and like how we show them, like uh, over the past couple of days, and we are always kind of very interested by people who throw things and stuff because like we're like, like we were just not like if we if we throw something in our house growing up, we would be in so much fucking trouble. So like we never have done that in our lives. Was like it just since we were kids. It was never on the table. We would just like the thought never even crossed my mind because of the amount of trouble I would have been in doing that.

I saw my parents throw shit and scream at each other. Ye slam doors. I would get in trouble for slamming doors, But then my parents would do it all the time, So like, fuck you, you fucking hypocrites, Like it made me so angry how big hypocritical they were they were, and my dad had such a wild he didn't he doesn't anymore. I mean, I haven't talked to him in a while, but like, you know, towards like my late twenties and thirties, his temper is dissult.

I saw my parents throw shit and scream at each other. Ye slam doors. I would get in trouble for slamming doors, But then my parents would do it all the time, So like, fuck you, you fucking hypocrites, Like it made me so angry how big hypocritical they were they were, and my dad had such a wild he didn't he doesn't anymore. I mean, I haven't talked to him in a while, but like, you know, towards like my late twenties and thirties, his temper is dissult.

But when I was a kid, oh my god, that man's temper was.

But when I was a kid, oh my god, that man's temper was.

It was scary, like I would he would chase me around the house if I was gonna fucking kill me.

It was scary, like I would he would chase me around the house if I was gonna fucking kill me.

And so I just witnessed it. So I'm like, oh, this is okay.

And so I just witnessed it. So I'm like, oh, this is okay.

Right, Like it's just like, well, I guess this is how we deal with our feelings.

Right, Like it's just like, well, I guess this is how we deal with our feelings.

Just throw shit and yell. But I don't like yelling, yelling thing I don't like. I don't mind yell like I'm I'm very like I'm I don't like love it all the time, but like I'm all so not like when it. I feel like there is a time and a place to yell, like people like I don't you know, like maybe not like in a professional setting. I'm not gonna name names of people who do I think you know who I'm talking about, but but I do think that every now and then, like people who say, like we never yell at each other, like well, I think in a relationship like once in a bloom loom, Yeah, you just passionate need to yell at each other. Yeah, not all the time, but right now and again like yeah, there's a fucking like if you're there. I think there's almost something more psychotic about always talking to each other in an even tempered things because because you have something, yeah, bubbling so under the surface that one day you're gonna fucking kill me in my sleep. Yeah, you're gonna kill your wife and you're like you're gonna go to a school and shoot it up, Like yeah that stuff.

Just throw shit and yell. But I don't like yelling, yelling thing I don't like. I don't mind yell like I'm I'm very like I'm I don't like love it all the time, but like I'm all so not like when it. I feel like there is a time and a place to yell, like people like I don't you know, like maybe not like in a professional setting. I'm not gonna name names of people who do I think you know who I'm talking about, but but I do think that every now and then, like people who say, like we never yell at each other, like well, I think in a relationship like once in a bloom loom, Yeah, you just passionate need to yell at each other. Yeah, not all the time, but right now and again like yeah, there's a fucking like if you're there. I think there's almost something more psychotic about always talking to each other in an even tempered things because because you have something, yeah, bubbling so under the surface that one day you're gonna fucking kill me in my sleep. Yeah, you're gonna kill your wife and you're like you're gonna go to a school and shoot it up, Like yeah that stuff.

That's that fucking thing.

That's that fucking thing.

Yeah, because every now and I know, like like screammarking me with like a boyfriend and I'll be like, well we both feel better now.

Yeah, because every now and I know, like like screammarking me with like a boyfriend and I'll be like, well we both feel better now.

It does sometimes feel good to.

It does sometimes feel good to.

Yeah, yeah, it's it's you know, it's fucked about having anger issues like that esply. I mean for the person the woman who wrote us this, like yours are pretty extreme, but it's like anger also is you know, it can be a good clue.

Yeah, yeah, it's it's you know, it's fucked about having anger issues like that esply. I mean for the person the woman who wrote us this, like yours are pretty extreme, but it's like anger also is you know, it can be a good clue.

To like get somebody out of our lives or something.

To like get somebody out of our lives or something.

And it's like it's so hard to decipher like what's healthy anger and what's like this really toxic anger. Like it's just it sucks because then you're like, can I just not feel angry? If every time I feel angry, does that mean I have to like fucking do the floor exercise.

And it's like it's so hard to decipher like what's healthy anger and what's like this really toxic anger. Like it's just it sucks because then you're like, can I just not feel angry? If every time I feel angry, does that mean I have to like fucking do the floor exercise.

No?

No?

Sometimes anger anger is healthy there if you like experienced an injustice or like I mean, like, yeah, I think like if you're never like I think, if you never feel angry on behalf of yourself or like your friends and family, then there's also something.

Sometimes anger anger is healthy there if you like experienced an injustice or like I mean, like, yeah, I think like if you're never like I think, if you never feel angry on behalf of yourself or like your friends and family, then there's also something.

Very angry about that.

Very angry about that.

Yeah. Yeah, I definitely get like more angry about like people doing stuff to people I love than me. It's like me whatever, I'm Yeah, it's gonna take a lot to penetreatment because I don't really think much of you know, usually the people people. Yeah, so it's kind of like a moot point really yeah, yeah, so yeah, thanks for offering us that.

Yeah. Yeah, I definitely get like more angry about like people doing stuff to people I love than me. It's like me whatever, I'm Yeah, it's gonna take a lot to penetreatment because I don't really think much of you know, usually the people people. Yeah, so it's kind of like a moot point really yeah, yeah, so yeah, thanks for offering us that.

Did I just burp it in the microphone? I liked it?

Did I just burp it in the microphone? I liked it?

Okay, Well I didn't masculine, you know what. Yeah, it was like you know when you.

Okay, Well I didn't masculine, you know what. Yeah, it was like you know when you.

Go to talk and it's just like oh yeah out.

Go to talk and it's just like oh yeah out.

It was like that when I used to drink a lot of Starbucks hot chocolate with whipped cream. I mean, I don't know what they're putting in that, but it was burp city. Really. Yeah, that's why I had to stop drinking. And I don't drink whib cream from any of the like Starbucks, because I think was there. They're injecting it with air to get at fluffy, so you just have so much air in your system.

It was like that when I used to drink a lot of Starbucks hot chocolate with whipped cream. I mean, I don't know what they're putting in that, but it was burp city. Really. Yeah, that's why I had to stop drinking. And I don't drink whib cream from any of the like Starbucks, because I think was there. They're injecting it with air to get at fluffy, so you just have so much air in your system.

And I said, no, we're not doing that anymore.

And I said, no, we're not doing that anymore.

But yeah, I do appreciate this perspective from the person with the toxic anger. That's and people can fucking change. I really believe that you really can. A lot of people do not want to. Uh, they just don't want to. And so somebody who doesn't want to change, abort abort the mission. Somebody who is interested in changing, there is hope. So that's that's nice to hear from somebody with these like toxic traits that is doing the work to dive in.

But yeah, I do appreciate this perspective from the person with the toxic anger. That's and people can fucking change. I really believe that you really can. A lot of people do not want to. Uh, they just don't want to. And so somebody who doesn't want to change, abort abort the mission. Somebody who is interested in changing, there is hope. So that's that's nice to hear from somebody with these like toxic traits that is doing the work to dive in.

It sucks to look at the ugly parts of yourself, man, Yeah, it sucks.

It sucks to look at the ugly parts of yourself, man, Yeah, it sucks.

And it looks like she has she's a kid, and I feel like it's it's hopefully like you know, you try to shield your kid from that as much as possible, even like you know, not that like you know, I think there is value in your in your child seeing something, you work on something and resolve it. But also like I think, you know, it's hard to understand anger and what it's coming from, and it just feels like wild, like even even like my you know, even dogs are scared of anger.

And it looks like she has she's a kid, and I feel like it's it's hopefully like you know, you try to shield your kid from that as much as possible, even like you know, not that like you know, I think there is value in your in your child seeing something, you work on something and resolve it. But also like I think, you know, it's hard to understand anger and what it's coming from, and it just feels like wild, like even even like my you know, even dogs are scared of anger.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yo.

Yo.

Yeah. When I was in my like year.

Yeah. When I was in my like year.

Of basically disassociating mentally, Kevin was very so the worst part of one of the There's a lot of worst parts, but one of them was like Kevin was scared of me, and I was like, I'm a monster. Yeah, And that took a lot of work to not feel bad for myself and just go deeper into the swamp.

Of basically disassociating mentally, Kevin was very so the worst part of one of the There's a lot of worst parts, but one of them was like Kevin was scared of me, and I was like, I'm a monster. Yeah, And that took a lot of work to not feel bad for myself and just go deeper into the swamp.

Dogs.

Dogs.

I was also have a pretty short term memory, thank god, Thank god, as far as that kind of stuff is concerned, I think, Yeah, although they do hold trauma, but you know, like I mean, you definitely feel safe with me.

I was also have a pretty short term memory, thank god, Thank god, as far as that kind of stuff is concerned, I think, Yeah, although they do hold trauma, but you know, like I mean, you definitely feel safe with me.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Rescue dogs, like you know, you can always see like that. They can definitely come around faster than than a human.

Rescue dogs, like you know, you can always see like that. They can definitely come around faster than than a human.

Yeah.

Yeah.

So guys, we're going on the road.

So guys, we're going on the road.

We're gonna be after you buy your ticket to see us in New York City on October nineteenth, I'm going to be in the following cities, Springville, Utah, October twentieth and twenty first, Bridgeport, Connecticut November second through fourth.

We're gonna be after you buy your ticket to see us in New York City on October nineteenth, I'm going to be in the following cities, Springville, Utah, October twentieth and twenty first, Bridgeport, Connecticut November second through fourth.

Actually might be moving that one. I think the club's fucked up on that one.

Actually might be moving that one. I think the club's fucked up on that one.

What club is that stress Factory? Oh, but they gave me like the wrong room, and so that might be moved. But what's not going to be moved to? Chicago November tenth and eleventh, and Nashville, Tennessee November twelfth, one night only, and then Springfield, Missouri, November sixteenth through the eighteenth.

What club is that stress Factory? Oh, but they gave me like the wrong room, and so that might be moved. But what's not going to be moved to? Chicago November tenth and eleventh, and Nashville, Tennessee November twelfth, one night only, and then Springfield, Missouri, November sixteenth through the eighteenth.

I'm very excited to go to the cities.

I'm very excited to go to the cities.

And you can get those tickets at Christina Hutchinson dot com or go follow me on social media at Christina hutch It's in the link tree link Actually that's where it is.

And you can get those tickets at Christina Hutchinson dot com or go follow me on social media at Christina hutch It's in the link tree link Actually that's where it is.

More than my website.

More than my website.

I put them on my website, which I'll do maybe later, and then if you go to patreon dot com slash Christina Hutchinson.

I put them on my website, which I'll do maybe later, and then if you go to patreon dot com slash Christina Hutchinson.

Once a week, I host group Sherapye.

Once a week, I host group Sherapye.

That's what I'm calling it now because I'm not a licensed therapist, and it's really a.

That's what I'm calling it now because I'm not a licensed therapist, and it's really a.

Lovely space and there's a lot of guys. I fucking love.

Lovely space and there's a lot of guys. I fucking love.

That there's a lot of dudes in it, and I'm like and we talk about a lot of stuff, like talk about aliens, to talk about like sex work, like like the benefits of hiring a sex worker when you like haven't had sex in a while. We talk about living with a disability and people fucking looking at you like you need help all the time and you're just like this way to make another person feel better.

That there's a lot of dudes in it, and I'm like and we talk about a lot of stuff, like talk about aliens, to talk about like sex work, like like the benefits of hiring a sex worker when you like haven't had sex in a while. We talk about living with a disability and people fucking looking at you like you need help all the time and you're just like this way to make another person feel better.

Which is so fucked up.

Which is so fucked up.

We talk about you should actively avoid people with a disability. That's what I do, just to let everyone now, I'm a great person.

We talk about you should actively avoid people with a disability. That's what I do, just to let everyone now, I'm a great person.

I go.

I go.

Everyone's equal. Yes, yeah, I run.

Everyone's equal. Yes, yeah, I run.

I'm a person in a wheelchair.

I'm a person in a wheelchair.

And we've talked about feeling suicile, what to do about it. We've talked about getting over somebody, getting under somebody. It's just a lot.

And we've talked about feeling suicile, what to do about it. We've talked about getting over somebody, getting under somebody. It's just a lot.

It's a really good space for about an hour a week.

It's a really good space for about an hour a week.

So you could sign up at patreon dot com slash Christina Hutchinson and if you can't, I try to make it a different weekday every week, just to give a little variety because everyone's schedules so different. But if you can't make them, you can listen to the audio. It gets recorded and uploaded to the Patreon after each Chesson SESSI young Na so Christina Hutchinson Patreon dot com, slash Christina hutchin Son.

So you could sign up at patreon dot com slash Christina Hutchinson and if you can't, I try to make it a different weekday every week, just to give a little variety because everyone's schedules so different. But if you can't make them, you can listen to the audio. It gets recorded and uploaded to the Patreon after each Chesson SESSI young Na so Christina Hutchinson Patreon dot com, slash Christina hutchin Son.

And for me, if you're making your calendar for twenty twenty four, look at you. You're really on top of it. Well you could see me Washington, d C. I'm at the DC Comedy Law February twenty ninth through March second. That ticket link is already live. It's in the link tree link in my bio on Instagram at Philanthropy Gal.

And for me, if you're making your calendar for twenty twenty four, look at you. You're really on top of it. Well you could see me Washington, d C. I'm at the DC Comedy Law February twenty ninth through March second. That ticket link is already live. It's in the link tree link in my bio on Instagram at Philanthropy Gal.

I was also on my website Corinnfisher.

I was also on my website Corinnfisher.

Dot com and you can also listen to me on my weekly news podcast Without a Country. A lot of people were messaging me about Russell Brand, Like, first of all, a lot of people were messaging me like, are you familiar with Russell Brandon? Have you heard of it?

Dot com and you can also listen to me on my weekly news podcast Without a Country. A lot of people were messaging me about Russell Brand, Like, first of all, a lot of people were messaging me like, are you familiar with Russell Brandon? Have you heard of it?

Guys?

Guys?

I don't know what kind of kind of how separate do you think America is from the UK. But we're I know, he wasn't like our king the way he was your king, but Russell Brand was UK. Yeah, Russell Brand is very famous here too, so I just really that clear. We're very clear on who Russell Brand is. I mean, he was married to one of our princesses of pop. But like get into the Greek forgetting Sarah Marshall. We know who Russell Brand is. Yeah, we're very familiar with who Russell Brand is. So uh yeah, because people are like, I don't know if you're going to talk about it, Like, yes, we're talking about it. On last week's episode of Without a Country, I spent almost the whole episode, uh going into the article from the Sunday Times that it went into all the details of all his allegations. I am also going to watch the in Plane Sight Dispatches p Peace from Channel four. Like all these things you have to subscribe, you probably have to go behind a pain wall, but it's on, it's online. But it was, yeah, it was. It was aired in the UK, and you know, obviously I've been doing my now world famous rapist impressions and commentaries, so yeah, we I got very deep into the Russell Brand thing. I think it was very interesting. And he's just especially his personality, he's such like a specific tie of guy. You know, Oh, I'm a wellness guru, are you okay? He oh yeah, yeah, yeah, he's very into like the wellness space. Yeah. Absolutely, stop raping, even though he was raping all those assaults occurred when he was like before he like reformed, right, I mean, I don't believe that he did reform. I think that was a performative. But yeah, I mean because he's one of those you know, I mean that this also goes hand in hand though with my thoughts on sex addiction that I don't really believe it's a real thing. So you know, that's more of my own personal beliefs, but you know, because I think he's a great example of why I don't think it's a real thing. I think it's an excuse to victimize yourself so you can keep abusing. But again, that's a longer conversation and why I created the platform without a Country so I can talk for two hours straight about shit like this. And if you're not interested in that, you don't got to tune in. But we got a fun ass time. Also, I was on Fox News Saturday Saturday night this past weekend. I'll post the clip and everything if you're interested. This is this is you know, part of I feel like my calling. I'm very into like this newscaster kind of thing. And Kat tim f was hosting who You've Heard on the podcast, So I was on a panel with Jim Florentine, who's another comedian, and this man Jonathan Morris, who is used to be a pastor, and yeah, we just had an interesting conversation. Obviously we started with later topics, but you know, I do think this really goes hand in hand with my theory of going to spaces where your voice will be heard because it's not the same voice that everyone's you know, talking in kind of a thing. I know. There's kind of been like a lot of discussion within the comedy community about people getting angry about comics going on Fox, especially like you know, liberal leaning comics like myself. But I you know, just from my background, I completely disagree with that. I think like more left leaning comics need to go on Fox, and I think infiltrate the system. And also I really don't believe like it's not like I think like angels are working at the desks on CNN. Half these companies are owned by the same fucking people anyway. But I think like, if you have a point of view and you feel confident in talking, like, go to a space where your voice will be heard. Again, this is just my approach to life, not everybody's. And why was there was one more thing that I wanted to say. I don't know what that was, but we'll we'll get to it later. But yeah, those are my thoughts for this week. So tune into Without a Country. There's a YouTube channel, there's an Instagram and things have been popping there lately. So very proud of that show. All right, topics for this week. I see you have an Instagram. Yeah, I just thought it was interesting. It kind of relates to a little bit of what we're talking about.

I don't know what kind of kind of how separate do you think America is from the UK. But we're I know, he wasn't like our king the way he was your king, but Russell Brand was UK. Yeah, Russell Brand is very famous here too, so I just really that clear. We're very clear on who Russell Brand is. I mean, he was married to one of our princesses of pop. But like get into the Greek forgetting Sarah Marshall. We know who Russell Brand is. Yeah, we're very familiar with who Russell Brand is. So uh yeah, because people are like, I don't know if you're going to talk about it, Like, yes, we're talking about it. On last week's episode of Without a Country, I spent almost the whole episode, uh going into the article from the Sunday Times that it went into all the details of all his allegations. I am also going to watch the in Plane Sight Dispatches p Peace from Channel four. Like all these things you have to subscribe, you probably have to go behind a pain wall, but it's on, it's online. But it was, yeah, it was. It was aired in the UK, and you know, obviously I've been doing my now world famous rapist impressions and commentaries, so yeah, we I got very deep into the Russell Brand thing. I think it was very interesting. And he's just especially his personality, he's such like a specific tie of guy. You know, Oh, I'm a wellness guru, are you okay? He oh yeah, yeah, yeah, he's very into like the wellness space. Yeah. Absolutely, stop raping, even though he was raping all those assaults occurred when he was like before he like reformed, right, I mean, I don't believe that he did reform. I think that was a performative. But yeah, I mean because he's one of those you know, I mean that this also goes hand in hand though with my thoughts on sex addiction that I don't really believe it's a real thing. So you know, that's more of my own personal beliefs, but you know, because I think he's a great example of why I don't think it's a real thing. I think it's an excuse to victimize yourself so you can keep abusing. But again, that's a longer conversation and why I created the platform without a Country so I can talk for two hours straight about shit like this. And if you're not interested in that, you don't got to tune in. But we got a fun ass time. Also, I was on Fox News Saturday Saturday night this past weekend. I'll post the clip and everything if you're interested. This is this is you know, part of I feel like my calling. I'm very into like this newscaster kind of thing. And Kat tim f was hosting who You've Heard on the podcast, So I was on a panel with Jim Florentine, who's another comedian, and this man Jonathan Morris, who is used to be a pastor, and yeah, we just had an interesting conversation. Obviously we started with later topics, but you know, I do think this really goes hand in hand with my theory of going to spaces where your voice will be heard because it's not the same voice that everyone's you know, talking in kind of a thing. I know. There's kind of been like a lot of discussion within the comedy community about people getting angry about comics going on Fox, especially like you know, liberal leaning comics like myself. But I you know, just from my background, I completely disagree with that. I think like more left leaning comics need to go on Fox, and I think infiltrate the system. And also I really don't believe like it's not like I think like angels are working at the desks on CNN. Half these companies are owned by the same fucking people anyway. But I think like, if you have a point of view and you feel confident in talking, like, go to a space where your voice will be heard. Again, this is just my approach to life, not everybody's. And why was there was one more thing that I wanted to say. I don't know what that was, but we'll we'll get to it later. But yeah, those are my thoughts for this week. So tune into Without a Country. There's a YouTube channel, there's an Instagram and things have been popping there lately. So very proud of that show. All right, topics for this week. I see you have an Instagram. Yeah, I just thought it was interesting. It kind of relates to a little bit of what we're talking about.

But I love I mean, we had her on the podcast because you follow her doctor Jess Taylor.

But I love I mean, we had her on the podcast because you follow her doctor Jess Taylor.

Oh yeah, she really.

Oh yeah, she really.

She just has a lot of fucking interesting things to say that make me think about the way we word things so differently. And she talks about how like we victim, like we really do people into service by like labeling them with these mental illnesses when really what we're looking at is like it's a response, which I always fucking thought, like, there's so many people that are narcissistic leaning, you know, not full blown narcissists, not full blown sociopaths, but they have these like tendencies and I think, like borderline personality disorder that's a response to something. But we're just saying like, oh, they're fucked up, or like they could turn on you, or they were bipolar disorder. It's like, I mean, there's yeah, so she has this post. It was a while ago, but I'd saved it because I'm like, this is an interesting thing to just bring up. In psychiatry, there's there are no such thing as warmonger disorder, domestic abuser disorder, gaslighter disorder, emotional manipulator disorder, rapist disorder, child abuser disorder.

She just has a lot of fucking interesting things to say that make me think about the way we word things so differently. And she talks about how like we victim, like we really do people into service by like labeling them with these mental illnesses when really what we're looking at is like it's a response, which I always fucking thought, like, there's so many people that are narcissistic leaning, you know, not full blown narcissists, not full blown sociopaths, but they have these like tendencies and I think, like borderline personality disorder that's a response to something. But we're just saying like, oh, they're fucked up, or like they could turn on you, or they were bipolar disorder. It's like, I mean, there's yeah, so she has this post. It was a while ago, but I'd saved it because I'm like, this is an interesting thing to just bring up. In psychiatry, there's there are no such thing as warmonger disorder, domestic abuser disorder, gaslighter disorder, emotional manipulator disorder, rapist disorder, child abuser disorder.

I mean pedophilia.

I mean pedophilia.

You can say.

You can say.

Misogynist disorder, racist disorder, homophobe disorder, exploiting the poor, disorder, polluting our rivers and seas, disorder, forcing people to work until they die, disorder, destroying communities, disorder, causing civil and rest disorder, lunging people into poverty, disorder and forcing populations to live in theory disorder. But millions of people are diagnosed with anxiety disorder, depressive disorder, post traumatic stress disorder, personality disorders, phobia's premenstal dysphoric disorder, got that one, gender dysphoria.

Misogynist disorder, racist disorder, homophobe disorder, exploiting the poor, disorder, polluting our rivers and seas, disorder, forcing people to work until they die, disorder, destroying communities, disorder, causing civil and rest disorder, lunging people into poverty, disorder and forcing populations to live in theory disorder. But millions of people are diagnosed with anxiety disorder, depressive disorder, post traumatic stress disorder, personality disorders, phobia's premenstal dysphoric disorder, got that one, gender dysphoria.

Oh is that just like, oh that's okay PMDD.

Oh is that just like, oh that's okay PMDD.

Yeah, just like the fucking extreme feels like psychosis, attention deficit disorder.

Yeah, just like the fucking extreme feels like psychosis, attention deficit disorder.

What does that tell you It's time to wake up world? And so yeah, it's just like I really like her account because it really does. I'm always constantly searching for ways to think about the world differently because I do believe that, like I'm on this quest to genuinely feel this way.

What does that tell you It's time to wake up world? And so yeah, it's just like I really like her account because it really does. I'm always constantly searching for ways to think about the world differently because I do believe that, like I'm on this quest to genuinely feel this way.

But like the I think I've said this before on the show, like the people.

But like the I think I've said this before on the show, like the people.

That are the most fucked up, that are the most abusive, like they do need the biggest hug, and I don't want to give them that hug. But I kind of I don't know, I kind of have this like inkling in me to like really understand people who do awful things more so that it dissipates the rage I feel toward them. And so I've been kind of on this little mission with myself for a couple of years now and now when people come to me, like a lot of friends have come to me lately with like so and so is, you know, you could say that they have narcissistic leaning tendencies and they're being like really emotionally abusive, and like gaslighting is such emotional abuse. It's it's and it and it and it really I would normally get really rageful when somebody would tell me about somebody doing this.

That are the most fucked up, that are the most abusive, like they do need the biggest hug, and I don't want to give them that hug. But I kind of I don't know, I kind of have this like inkling in me to like really understand people who do awful things more so that it dissipates the rage I feel toward them. And so I've been kind of on this little mission with myself for a couple of years now and now when people come to me, like a lot of friends have come to me lately with like so and so is, you know, you could say that they have narcissistic leaning tendencies and they're being like really emotionally abusive, and like gaslighting is such emotional abuse. It's it's and it and it and it really I would normally get really rageful when somebody would tell me about somebody doing this.

I'm like, how the fuck could they act like this?

I'm like, how the fuck could they act like this?

And now what's happening is people are telling me about this and they don't want to tell me about it anymore because I like have sympathy for the person that is gaslighting.

And now what's happening is people are telling me about this and they don't want to tell me about it anymore because I like have sympathy for the person that is gaslighting.

And I'm like, ah, man, I just see when you tell me about this person.

And I'm like, ah, man, I just see when you tell me about this person.

Instead of like feeling anger and going fuck them, I'm like they're wounded with the person telling me that.

Instead of like feeling anger and going fuck them, I'm like they're wounded with the person telling me that.

It's like an overcorrection.

It's like an overcorrection.

Yeah yeah, yeah, So I'll all sway in the middle at one point, but I'm really interested in why fucked up people are fucked up. Yeah, I mean yeah, it's mostly because they just have like you know, unresolved issues pretty much nine times out of ten.

Yeah yeah, yeah, So I'll all sway in the middle at one point, but I'm really interested in why fucked up people are fucked up. Yeah, I mean yeah, it's mostly because they just have like you know, unresolved issues pretty much nine times out of ten.

Yeah, I mean that's what everything is. Like. That's why I like, I love giving relationship advice to, like to to all my friends because you know, they always come, you know, forward with like what am I doing wrong? And I'm like, so little in relationships is about what the person thinks of you, and most of it is what the person thinks of themselves. And it's almost disappointing to learn that because it just again it goes links back into a topic that we were talking about a lot several months ago, which is that like, we are not special. It's really just like you're finding another person who with which you will heal, like and you're like, you're when you think about it, you're like, no, that's kind of disappointing because you know, if it's not me, but like you know, healing is cool.

Yeah, I mean that's what everything is. Like. That's why I like, I love giving relationship advice to, like to to all my friends because you know, they always come, you know, forward with like what am I doing wrong? And I'm like, so little in relationships is about what the person thinks of you, and most of it is what the person thinks of themselves. And it's almost disappointing to learn that because it just again it goes links back into a topic that we were talking about a lot several months ago, which is that like, we are not special. It's really just like you're finding another person who with which you will heal, like and you're like, you're when you think about it, you're like, no, that's kind of disappointing because you know, if it's not me, but like you know, healing is cool.

Yeah, it's really it is cool.

Yeah, it's really it is cool.

And then but then you realize, like, oh, I was with an abusive person because I needed that, Like I was trying to heal, Like we're the amount of healing that people try to do unconsciously in a relate, in a romantic relationship specifically is wild.

And then but then you realize, like, oh, I was with an abusive person because I needed that, Like I was trying to heal, Like we're the amount of healing that people try to do unconsciously in a relate, in a romantic relationship specifically is wild.

So it's like, you know you.

So it's like, you know you.

Would try, like you know, if out of your last four partners were abusive towards you, What is it about you that likes that or that least not likes But it's comfortable with that, not to say that it's your it's your fault, but it's like, how can we do some digging that's a little more uncomfortable.

Would try, like you know, if out of your last four partners were abusive towards you, What is it about you that likes that or that least not likes But it's comfortable with that, not to say that it's your it's your fault, but it's like, how can we do some digging that's a little more uncomfortable.

Yeah, I think there's also a certain part of you. I mean to say it in unsavory terms that almost is making you pray for people who are abusive. I was actually having a conversation with someone who was like, you know, she was asking me some questions because she was like, I actually don't trust my own instincts because I have been in such traumatic relationships in the past. And you know, of course that's not your fault, but I think, yeah, it's you're the common denomal. It's easy. You want to start exploring what is it about you that makes you okay with this or like or like a viable victim as a slum flower who I follow on Instagram, very interesting conversations was talking about. She was also talking about this this concept that as you become more confident and you become more self actualized as a woman, less men will approach you. And I mean, I know this since a young age like I very rarely get approached by men. And I was always thinking because I come off as intimidating. But when I saw this video yesterday, I was like, oh, it's actually a I was like saying that you are not a viable victim, and that's why less men approach you because they can't pull their bullshit with you is took it to the next level, and I was like, what an interesting observation.

Yeah, I think there's also a certain part of you. I mean to say it in unsavory terms that almost is making you pray for people who are abusive. I was actually having a conversation with someone who was like, you know, she was asking me some questions because she was like, I actually don't trust my own instincts because I have been in such traumatic relationships in the past. And you know, of course that's not your fault, but I think, yeah, it's you're the common denomal. It's easy. You want to start exploring what is it about you that makes you okay with this or like or like a viable victim as a slum flower who I follow on Instagram, very interesting conversations was talking about. She was also talking about this this concept that as you become more confident and you become more self actualized as a woman, less men will approach you. And I mean, I know this since a young age like I very rarely get approached by men. And I was always thinking because I come off as intimidating. But when I saw this video yesterday, I was like, oh, it's actually a I was like saying that you are not a viable victim, and that's why less men approach you because they can't pull their bullshit with you is took it to the next level, and I was like, what an interesting observation.

That is interesting? And I would walk around a lot.

That is interesting? And I would walk around a lot.

I used to think it's like, oh am, I don't do I not get hit on as much because I'm getting older. But it's like, well, I'm not old, and it doesn't I look better than I did when I was younger. And it's fucking because I had this doey dear. I'd look in my head of like will you save me? Even though it wasn't like outwardly like, but I was projecting that energetically a hundred percent.

I used to think it's like, oh am, I don't do I not get hit on as much because I'm getting older. But it's like, well, I'm not old, and it doesn't I look better than I did when I was younger. And it's fucking because I had this doey dear. I'd look in my head of like will you save me? Even though it wasn't like outwardly like, but I was projecting that energetically a hundred percent.

Yeah, And I would get hit on all the time, and I'm.

Yeah, And I would get hit on all the time, and I'm.

Like, wow, I'm like a hot bitch.

Like, wow, I'm like a hot bitch.

But really it's by by these people that like didn't want to do anything real like they didn't want like well.

But really it's by by these people that like didn't want to do anything real like they didn't want like well.

That's why it's such a misconception. It's like we talked about this a million times, but like, yeah, like guys aren't dating younger women, yeah, solely because of like, oh they have like a firmer body, Like it really doesn't it's easier, Yes, that's why. Yes, And so when you figure that out, and I mean I am dating a younger man, I would imagine it's easier too. Oh yeah, yeah. Once I did it, I was like, oh, I completely understand why people do this. But also you're you're getting a lot less of what you need emotionally, so you are you are sacrificing, whereas when a man dates a younger woman, they're kind of on.

That's why it's such a misconception. It's like we talked about this a million times, but like, yeah, like guys aren't dating younger women, yeah, solely because of like, oh they have like a firmer body, Like it really doesn't it's easier, Yes, that's why. Yes, And so when you figure that out, and I mean I am dating a younger man, I would imagine it's easier too. Oh yeah, yeah. Once I did it, I was like, oh, I completely understand why people do this. But also you're you're getting a lot less of what you need emotionally, so you are you are sacrificing, whereas when a man dates a younger woman, they're kind of on.

The same level.

The same level.

Yeah, and just so it's she's at the slum flower. It's a really great a great follow if you want for relationship advice. There's very few people who I honestly trust to follow with relationship advice because most people are giving out I think, pretty jacked up stupid advice. And then my question for this week is this is from this was like circulating around like I think TikTok. There's some kind of you know, healer or in quotes therapist who likes to ask his clients this, but I thought it was an interesting question. Nonetheless, the question is and Mike, this is for you as well, And he says he likes to say asked this to people because it tells you a lot about their core values. If you were stuck in an internal and an eternal loop of doing one thing like not like an action, not like you know, nailing and nailing. No, not like nailing and nail, but like one experience that you had to continually experience for the rest of eternity, and you could only do this one thing for the rest of your life. What thing would you choose an experience so there's more feelings based, like it could be I mean fall in love. Yeah, I think that could be. That would be the best thing ever. I think that could be a passable that seems like maybe like a longer experience then. But but I mean again, this is like I think. I think it's like whatever comes to you first, because mine came to me so quickly. Mine was spending time with Alfred, like no questions, ask like one hundred percent yeah, like very very I was like, because I always go with what comes to me first. It's like chilling with Alfred, Like that's what what What's the one thing I would want to do for the rest of my life? Because I just thought of really quickly, what are my great what are my great passions in life? Comedy whatever? I'm like, I wouldn't want to do that for eternally on a loop. I would want to be on a stage doing stand up an internal loop. That doesn't sound great. Yeah, yeah, So I was like, yeah, no, like you know, playing with Alfred, hanging out with Alfred, what would be yours, Mike.

Yeah, and just so it's she's at the slum flower. It's a really great a great follow if you want for relationship advice. There's very few people who I honestly trust to follow with relationship advice because most people are giving out I think, pretty jacked up stupid advice. And then my question for this week is this is from this was like circulating around like I think TikTok. There's some kind of you know, healer or in quotes therapist who likes to ask his clients this, but I thought it was an interesting question. Nonetheless, the question is and Mike, this is for you as well, And he says he likes to say asked this to people because it tells you a lot about their core values. If you were stuck in an internal and an eternal loop of doing one thing like not like an action, not like you know, nailing and nailing. No, not like nailing and nail, but like one experience that you had to continually experience for the rest of eternity, and you could only do this one thing for the rest of your life. What thing would you choose an experience so there's more feelings based, like it could be I mean fall in love. Yeah, I think that could be. That would be the best thing ever. I think that could be a passable that seems like maybe like a longer experience then. But but I mean again, this is like I think. I think it's like whatever comes to you first, because mine came to me so quickly. Mine was spending time with Alfred, like no questions, ask like one hundred percent yeah, like very very I was like, because I always go with what comes to me first. It's like chilling with Alfred, Like that's what what What's the one thing I would want to do for the rest of my life? Because I just thought of really quickly, what are my great what are my great passions in life? Comedy whatever? I'm like, I wouldn't want to do that for eternally on a loop. I would want to be on a stage doing stand up an internal loop. That doesn't sound great. Yeah, yeah, So I was like, yeah, no, like you know, playing with Alfred, hanging out with Alfred, what would be yours, Mike.

Uh, absolutely, it would be playing baseball.

Uh, absolutely, it would be playing baseball.

Oh so fucking jack Yeah and tired.

Oh so fucking jack Yeah and tired.

That's just like I I played. So I got on a softball team this summer and it was one of the first years I did that where I was like I actively seeked out like an adult league with strangers or whatever, and it was just a blast. We play every Saturday.

That's just like I I played. So I got on a softball team this summer and it was one of the first years I did that where I was like I actively seeked out like an adult league with strangers or whatever, and it was just a blast. We play every Saturday.

That's awesome.

That's awesome.

It brought me back to being a kid. And like you said, I think that there were like I did think for a second about other artistic things that I do that I like to do, but there is a torturous element because I oh right, sure, Like I thought about it. I was like, what would I want to be in a room writing for the rest of my life? And I was like, I don't know. But when I feel when I'm on a baseball field, I'm at first base and I'm just you know, like like waiting for the action to happen, I feel so good.

It brought me back to being a kid. And like you said, I think that there were like I did think for a second about other artistic things that I do that I like to do, but there is a torturous element because I oh right, sure, Like I thought about it. I was like, what would I want to be in a room writing for the rest of my life? And I was like, I don't know. But when I feel when I'm on a baseball field, I'm at first base and I'm just you know, like like waiting for the action to happen, I feel so good.

Yeah. Yeah, it's just like I'm very grand, You're great.

Yeah. Yeah, it's just like I'm very grand, You're great.

Yeah, I love it. I loved playing baseball as a kid. I miss it and it's one of the only things that I haven't been able to do since I like aged out of it after high school. There is no it's not like basketball. You need eighteen people to play baseball. You can't just like go and shoot oops or whatever.

Yeah, I love it. I loved playing baseball as a kid. I miss it and it's one of the only things that I haven't been able to do since I like aged out of it after high school. There is no it's not like basketball. You need eighteen people to play baseball. You can't just like go and shoot oops or whatever.

You could just play toss, but that's yeah, but that's it.

You could just play toss, but that's yeah, but that's it.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Oh my god.

Oh my god.

Wait, if you're ever in California, my friend Jonesy, he plays on this baseball team like where they dress up in old timey outfits and they do it. He showed me the uniforms. They are so cute. It's like eighteen hundred style. Like some guy approached him because Jonesy does a lot of sports. It plays a lot of sports too, in you know, like you know, chill leagues, and he showed me the uniform and.

Wait, if you're ever in California, my friend Jonesy, he plays on this baseball team like where they dress up in old timey outfits and they do it. He showed me the uniforms. They are so cute. It's like eighteen hundred style. Like some guy approached him because Jonesy does a lot of sports. It plays a lot of sports too, in you know, like you know, chill leagues, and he showed me the uniform and.

I was like, this is cute.

I was like, this is cute.

Like the refs do it too, and he's like, people go and watch it, like it just seemed like it just seems so cool. He was telling us about it, and we're like, oh my god, I totally do that. I don't know how much how well that fabric breathes, but not very well.

Like the refs do it too, and he's like, people go and watch it, like it just seemed like it just seems so cool. He was telling us about it, and we're like, oh my god, I totally do that. I don't know how much how well that fabric breathes, but not very well.

I think, but yeah, it feels so cool.

I think, but yeah, it feels so cool.

They look so everyone looks so handsome in the universe, like old timy mustaches and stuff. Yeah that's cute. I love it.

They look so everyone looks so handsome in the universe, like old timy mustaches and stuff. Yeah that's cute. I love it.

I was really fucking cute.

I was really fucking cute.

Oh my gosh, I read what The other thing I wanted to say was I realize until now. But one of the books I always have, like a bunch of self help books kind of like playing at some points, like through my day when I'm driving, and one of them was like this really caught my eye, and I'm like, it's really helpful because we all have addictions to something right approval, a drug, whatever the fuck it is, likes on Instagram, whatever, and most of us have multiple addictions.

Oh my gosh, I read what The other thing I wanted to say was I realize until now. But one of the books I always have, like a bunch of self help books kind of like playing at some points, like through my day when I'm driving, and one of them was like this really caught my eye, and I'm like, it's really helpful because we all have addictions to something right approval, a drug, whatever the fuck it is, likes on Instagram, whatever, and most of us have multiple addictions.

And this author was like, you can't. You know, the energy of addiction is really powerful and really potent. Instead of trying to like suppress it, get addicted to good shit, like get addicted to healthy shit. And I've been getting addicted to like eating well and like making sure I'm aticulate, like I'm on all these I was seeing like an herbalist and I'm taking all this stuff, but I'm like really addicted to like fucking figuring out my eating.

And this author was like, you can't. You know, the energy of addiction is really powerful and really potent. Instead of trying to like suppress it, get addicted to good shit, like get addicted to healthy shit. And I've been getting addicted to like eating well and like making sure I'm aticulate, like I'm on all these I was seeing like an herbalist and I'm taking all this stuff, but I'm like really addicted to like fucking figuring out my eating.

I'm like, oh shit, which someone fucking told me this years ago.

I'm like, oh shit, which someone fucking told me this years ago.

Well is this So is this author saying that it's like actually like clinical addiction, that we are all clinically addicted to something. Uh yeah, I don't know that.

Well is this So is this author saying that it's like actually like clinical addiction, that we are all clinically addicted to something. Uh yeah, I don't know that.

He used the word clinical, but well, the car this Carter's Stout book, I love, one of my favorite books on addiction that I've read so far, as it's called we Are All Addicts, talks about you know, an addiction is something that we kind of do on a loop that we're like a lot of times you don't even know you're doing it, Like like when you fucking I hate when I do this. When you close the Instagram and then.

He used the word clinical, but well, the car this Carter's Stout book, I love, one of my favorite books on addiction that I've read so far, as it's called we Are All Addicts, talks about you know, an addiction is something that we kind of do on a loop that we're like a lot of times you don't even know you're doing it, Like like when you fucking I hate when I do this. When you close the Instagram and then.

You just open it ten point one seconds later, you're like, what the fuck?

You just open it ten point one seconds later, you're like, what the fuck?

Obviously as a team of engineers on Instagram getting paid hundreds of thousands of dollars to make you do that, but it's fucking frustrating.

Obviously as a team of engineers on Instagram getting paid hundreds of thousands of dollars to make you do that, but it's fucking frustrating.

You're doing a great job, guys, yeah, honestly salary well nailing it.

You're doing a great job, guys, yeah, honestly salary well nailing it.

Yeah, you're ruining your sciety, thank you. But yeah, uh yeah.

Yeah, you're ruining your sciety, thank you. But yeah, uh yeah.

So I'm just trying to channel that energy because it is like like and I'm getting addicted to playing drums, I'm fucking going to the drum studio like four days a week.

So I'm just trying to channel that energy because it is like like and I'm getting addicted to playing drums, I'm fucking going to the drum studio like four days a week.

I know you gotta tell you when you gotta bring the drum kit here, do a little debut on the show. I want to hear it. I'm pretty good.

I know you gotta tell you when you gotta bring the drum kit here, do a little debut on the show. I want to hear it. I'm pretty good.

I can do heart shape Box is the only girl song that's like, you know, doable for a beginner.

I can do heart shape Box is the only girl song that's like, you know, doable for a beginner.

But I am obsessed. I'm like, let's get addicted to drums.

But I am obsessed. I'm like, let's get addicted to drums.

And I go there for two hours and I fucking oh, it's so good to talk about anger shit bang a drum baby.

And I go there for two hours and I fucking oh, it's so good to talk about anger shit bang a drum baby.

That's primal question?

That's primal question?

Is this? Like, because is this like purely hobby? Are you are you thinking of like using this? I didn't know sense did? Like what inspired you to do this?

Is this? Like, because is this like purely hobby? Are you are you thinking of like using this? I didn't know sense did? Like what inspired you to do this?

I when I roller blade, I rollerblade a lot, and I always like when I listen to music, I just fucking air drum.

I when I roller blade, I rollerblade a lot, and I always like when I listen to music, I just fucking air drum.

And I'm like, I think you want a drum Like I think you really want a drum. Christ has won't stop Yeah, And I'm like, what the fuck is this? I'm like, I think you could be good at drumming. And I've been taking lessons for six months and it's weird. I've never had a skill like this. I'm good at it and I do not have to try. I've never naturally musically inclined. Yeah, singing piano, yeah.

And I'm like, I think you want a drum Like I think you really want a drum. Christ has won't stop Yeah, And I'm like, what the fuck is this? I'm like, I think you could be good at drumming. And I've been taking lessons for six months and it's weird. I've never had a skill like this. I'm good at it and I do not have to try. I've never naturally musically inclined. Yeah, singing piano, yeah.

Yeah, yeah yeah, But like piano takes practice, but like drums, I'll do these drum patterns and I'm like graduating to each new pattern and I'm like, I didn't even fucking rehearse this, and I'm nailing rhythm.

Yeah, yeah yeah, But like piano takes practice, but like drums, I'll do these drum patterns and I'm like graduating to each new pattern and I'm like, I didn't even fucking rehearse this, and I'm nailing rhythm.

Like if you have rhythm, you can you can learn how to be a drummer.

Like if you have rhythm, you can you can learn how to be a drummer.

I guess I didn't think I had a lot of rhythm, to be honest, but uh, but I'll like, I'll as I'm doing these drum patterns in the lesson, I'll be like my brain is not thinking of what I'm doing, but I'm literally it's like I'm witnessing myself nail it.

I guess I didn't think I had a lot of rhythm, to be honest, but uh, but I'll like, I'll as I'm doing these drum patterns in the lesson, I'll be like my brain is not thinking of what I'm doing, but I'm literally it's like I'm witnessing myself nail it.

And I'm like, whoa, how am I doing this rhythm? Yeah, drum too, I mean like I can. Christina is probably tighter than I am at this. I mean, I grew up doing music stuff, so I mean, like the.