For better or for worse, like Alana was always my moral compass, like she was so thoughtful, and.

For better or for worse, like Alana was always my moral compass, like she was so thoughtful, and.

Later in life I kind of came to regret that.

Later in life I kind of came to regret that.

It fell unfair, like a lot of pressure.

It fell unfair, like a lot of pressure.

Breaking from overnight.

Breaking from overnight.

Louisville Pollie are searching for a missing twenty four year old woman.

Louisville Pollie are searching for a missing twenty four year old woman.

When I read about Alana Shen's disappearance, I couldn't look away.

When I read about Alana Shen's disappearance, I couldn't look away.

Hi, my name's Alana. And last summer I went to.

Hi, my name's Alana. And last summer I went to.

Campwatiwa, the shy girl from Boulder who loved fashion and camping, who wanted to be a nun since she was a teenager.

Campwatiwa, the shy girl from Boulder who loved fashion and camping, who wanted to be a nun since she was a teenager.

So Alana was like sneaking out to go to church.

So Alana was like sneaking out to go to church.

Well, I thought was wow, she's really really conservative Catholic.

Well, I thought was wow, she's really really conservative Catholic.

But she kept a secret, one that was slowly tearing her apart.

But she kept a secret, one that was slowly tearing her apart.

I didn't know she was attracted to girls. No, she didn't tell me.

I didn't know she was attracted to girls. No, she didn't tell me.

To me, it's like, oh, you're gay, be gay, drop all the church stuff, like.

To me, it's like, oh, you're gay, be gay, drop all the church stuff, like.

Forget about it.

Forget about it.

But she couldn't forget about it, and neither could I. I too was torn apart by the struggle in my quest to become a priest. But though I'd never met her, I'd soon discover we had even more in common.

But she couldn't forget about it, and neither could I. I too was torn apart by the struggle in my quest to become a priest. But though I'd never met her, I'd soon discover we had even more in common.

Rjnversents Addie Wuharto said, down with her family and Addie, they tell you they believe conversion therapy played a role.

Rjnversents Addie Wuharto said, down with her family and Addie, they tell you they believe conversion therapy played a role.

We believe that homosexuality is a symptom of early childhood trauma. We're not forcing people to change, We're just exploring.

We believe that homosexuality is a symptom of early childhood trauma. We're not forcing people to change, We're just exploring.

The mother says her daughter first opened up to a priest at her church when she was just fourteen years old. However, the church denies any conversion therapy was done.

The mother says her daughter first opened up to a priest at her church when she was just fourteen years old. However, the church denies any conversion therapy was done.

She didn't tell me, she told him, she confessed to him.

She didn't tell me, she told him, she confessed to him.

From Tenderfoot TV comes a story of teenage rebellion and spiritual manipulation, the price we pay to belong, and the systems that pay no price at all. I'm Simon kent Fung and this is Dear Alana. Listen for free on Apple Podcasts.

From Tenderfoot TV comes a story of teenage rebellion and spiritual manipulation, the price we pay to belong, and the systems that pay no price at all. I'm Simon kent Fung and this is Dear Alana. Listen for free on Apple Podcasts.