“You think you’re losing your best friend, but you’re gaining the ultimate friend in Jesus.”

That’s how JP Graves describes what it felt like to walk away from alcohol. I felt that, too. Alcohol was always there for me no matter what. It told me I was right, it comforted me when I was wrong, and it always made it better—even if “better” was fleeting. When I gave it up, I had to grieve it. So did JP.

On the outside, JP looked good. He loved Jesus. He was active in church. He had a career, a family, and a life that seemed normal and intact. But behind the scenes, alcohol had quietly become a constant. What started as freedom slowly turned into dependence.

And then it got worse.

By the end, JP wasn’t just drinking heavily—he was drinking all day. Vodka replaced beer. Ten drinks became twenty. His throat was so damaged he could barely swallow. He was hiding alcohol, living in deception, and drifting further from his wife and kids. And yet, he was still showing up to church.

This episode doesn’t just explore addiction—it exposes the world that I and so many others have come to know: addiction that exists despite knowing and loving Jesus.

We talk about the subtle ways church culture can blur the lines, how stress and isolation accelerated his drinking during COVID, and the moment everything finally broke—a heartbreaking story involving JP and his daughter’s baptism.

That’s when the truth became unavoidable.

What follows is not a story about behavior modification or quick fixes. It’s a story about surrender, confession, community, and what it actually looks like to find freedom—not just from alcohol, but from the deeper need to escape.

If you’ve ever felt the tension of loving Jesus while still hiding something, this conversation will hit closer than you expect.

Looking for a one-stop recovery resource? Learn more about the Tyndale Life Recovery Bible here.

We explore:

— How a Christian can love Jesus and still quietly fall into addiction
— The impact of church drinking culture and the misuse of Christian freedom
— Why some people can’t “just have one” and what that reveals about the heart
— How stress, career pressure, and COVID accelerated hidden addiction
— The progression from casual drinking to full dependence and physical breakdown
— The role of secrecy, deception, and compartmentalization in addiction
— What rock bottom actually looked like for JP and the moment everything shifted
— Why confession and community are essential to real recovery
— The difference between behavior change and true Gospel-centered transformation
— What it means to replace alcohol with something better—not just remove it

Get resources and help: veritasrecovery.org
Follow me: @jonseidl
Order my new book, Confessions of a Christian Alcoholic
Get the Tyndale Life Recovery Bible:https://hubs.la/Q041HjWm0

&ldquo;You think you&rsquo;re losing your best friend, but you&rsquo;re gaining the ultimate friend in Jesus.&rdquo;
That&rsquo;s how JP Graves describes what it felt like to walk away from alcohol.&nbsp;I felt that, too. Alcohol was always there for me no matter what. It told me I was right, it comforted me when I was wrong, and it always made it better&mdash;even if &ldquo;better&rdquo; was fleeting. When I gave it up, I had to grieve it. So did JP.
On the outside, JP looked good. He loved Jesus. He was active in church. He had a career, a family, and a life that seemed normal and intact. But behind the scenes, alcohol had quietly become a constant. What started as freedom slowly turned into dependence.
And then it got worse.
By the end, JP wasn&rsquo;t just drinking heavily&mdash;he was drinking all day. Vodka replaced beer. Ten drinks became twenty. His throat was so damaged he could barely swallow. He was hiding alcohol, living in deception, and drifting further from his wife and kids. And yet, he was still showing up to church.
This episode doesn&rsquo;t just explore addiction&mdash;it exposes the world that I and so many others have come to know: addiction that exists despite knowing and loving Jesus.
We talk about the subtle ways church culture can blur the lines, how stress and isolation accelerated his drinking during COVID, and the moment everything finally broke&mdash;a heartbreaking story involving JP and his daughter&rsquo;s baptism.
That&rsquo;s when the truth became unavoidable.
What follows is not a story about behavior modification or quick fixes. It&rsquo;s a story about surrender, confession, community, and what it actually looks like to find freedom&mdash;not just from alcohol, but from the deeper need to escape.
If you&rsquo;ve ever felt the tension of loving Jesus while still hiding something, this conversation will hit closer than you expect.
Looking for a one-stop recovery resource? Learn more about the Tyndale Life Recovery Bible <a href="https://hubs.la/Q041HjWm0">here</a>.
We explore:
&mdash; How a Christian can love Jesus and still quietly fall into addiction &mdash; The impact of church drinking culture and the misuse of Christian freedom &mdash; Why some people can&rsquo;t &ldquo;just have one&rdquo; and what that reveals about the heart &mdash; How stress, career pressure, and COVID accelerated hidden addiction &mdash; The progression from casual drinking to full dependence and physical breakdown &mdash; The role of secrecy, deception, and compartmentalization in addiction &mdash; What rock bottom actually looked like for JP and the moment everything shifted &mdash; Why confession and community are essential to real recovery &mdash; The difference between behavior change and true Gospel-centered transformation &mdash; What it means to replace alcohol with something better&mdash;not just remove it
Get resources and help: <a href="https://www.veritasrecovery.org">veritasrecovery.org</a> Follow me: <a href="https://www.instagram.com/jonseidl/">@jonseidl</a> Order my new book,&nbsp;<a href="https://amzn.to/4opuOt">Confessions of a Christian Alcoholic</a> Get the Tyndale Life Recovery Bible: <a href="https://hubs.la/Q041HjWm0">h</a><a href="https://hubs.la/Q041HjWm0">ttp</a><a href="https://hubs.la/Q041HjWm0">s://hubs.la/Q041HjWm0</a>

Jon Seidl is the bestselling Christian author who became an alcoholic, not the other way around. It's usually the other way around. Or is it? "Confessions of a Christian alcoholic" (based on the book by the same title) is all about real stories, radical vulnerability, and remarkable comebacks of people who have struggled with alcoholism and addictions of all sorts. The show features interviews with fellow addicts and alcoholics as well as professionals in the fields of trauma, faith, and addiction recovery. Because let's be honest, we're all addicted to something. "Confessions" is a place for the desperate, the downtrodden, the destitute, and especially, the drunk. But it's also a place of hope and healing. Jon found sobriety after decades of struggling, but more importantly than finding sobriety, he found Jesus. In every episode, he gets radically vulnerable as he explores what it looks like to be on this journey of messy sanctification. Visit christianalcoholic.com for more resources.

Jon Seidl is the bestselling Christian author who became an alcoholic, not the other way around. It's usually the other way around. Or is it? "Confessions of a Christian alcoholic" (based on the book by the same title) is all about real stories, radical vulnerability, and remarkable comebacks of people who have struggled with alcoholism and addictions of all sorts. The show features interviews with fellow addicts and alcoholics as well as professionals in the fields of trauma, faith, and addiction recovery. Because let's be honest, we're all addicted to something. "Confessions" is a place for the desperate, the downtrodden, the destitute, and especially, the drunk. But it's also a place of hope and healing. Jon found sobriety after decades of struggling, but more importantly than finding sobriety, he found Jesus. In every episode, he gets radically vulnerable as he explores what it looks like to be on this journey of messy sanctification. Visit <a href="http://christianalcoholic.com/" data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=http://christianalcoholic.com&amp;source=gmail&amp;ust=1747239325727000&amp;usg=AOvVaw1G-752Q-1dyjq6GN5gt7xw">christianalcoholic.com</a> for more resources.

Jon Seidl is the bestselling Christian author who became an alcoholic, not the other way around. It's usually the other way around. Or is it? "Confessions of a Christian Alcoholic" is all about real stories, radical vulnerability, and remarkable comebacks of people who have struggled with alcoholism and addictions of all sorts.

Confessions of a Christian Alcoholic with Jon Seidl

He Loved Jesus but Couldn’t Stop Drinking: How JP Graves Went from Hidden Addiction to True Freedom

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