What is a medium? Mediums connect with those who have passed over in the spirit room and individuals where they have one foot in the physical world one foot on their side, they're able to bridge that connection. Hence a medium. Is there a unique reference that you would actually have some sort of rock of her? Oh now that? Oh my god, that's so crazy. I gave my mom a rock when she was here. I'm just hearing it in a way of just like me, princess, PRINCESSA Oh my god, those are the words like she would always call me, princess. What up, guys. Welcome to Chickens and chill Um your host cheek ease. I hope you all had a really great weekend and you're starting your week off strong. Today's episode is probably going to be a little intense. That's because I'm talking to a medium. We'll be talking about how it all works, and also I'll be getting a reading. I hope you guys are ready for this episode, because I sure am. This is checks and chill Okay, So today's guest is a J. Berrera or A. He's a psychic medium and intuitive counselor based in Los Angeles. He's been doing this for about twenty years and so I'm really looking forward to talking to him a j. First of all, I want to say thank you, thank you so much for doing this. I know we talked a while ago. I mean, are my first reading was my mom was still here? Right? Correct? That was several years ago. What year was that? I think that was ten or we love and if I'm not mistaken, yeah, yeah, So I think you went to our house in Encino. You were part of the reality show as well, and I think that's when you were the first one that mentioned that my stepdad, Juan, who had passed in in O nine, was in the house and doing and just wanted to let us know that he was there. The kids were like, we were all freaking out. We're like, oh my god, how does he know that we hear things? That is so crazy. It's so amazing because at the time I had my show from Beyond that would air I think before after your Your Guys show. So it was weird because it was kind of like the way it presented itself and I wasn't sure if you guys were gonna be open to it. And when the producer reached out to me and mentioned that, and I said, well, they're open and recepted to it, and just look all the different things that were happening within your home and the energies. It was just really interesting to see how things kind of orchestrated and the reading kind of took place in its own very organically. So it was a beautiful thing. It was. We were in my mom's office, I remember, and you looked at me and you said that I had no idea what was coming in my future. You told me all kinds of things, and I was like, whoa. I mean, we never thought my mom would leave us and things would play out the way they have. But like everything that you said was like whoa. Now I look back and I think back, because I mean, thank goodness, we have the reality show. We can look back and see those moments. It's just like, my goodness. First of all, let's let's start off with can you explain to us for the listeners that may not know what a medium is, like, what is a medium? Yeah? Absolutely, so there is a difference between a psychic and a medium. So some people are just mediums where they connect with those who have passed over in the spirit realm and those individuals where they have one foot in the physical world, one foot on their side where they're able to bridge that connection, hence a medium. Then you have a psychic who actually works with tarot cards, crystals. They predict the future, give you guidance, and so on, so forth. So there are individuals that focus just on psychic work and medimistic work. As for me, I do both psychic and medium ship work, which is intuitive guidance and connecting with those who have passed over. Okay, perfect, And is there a way of like learning this or is this something that you're born with? I love that you asked that question. A lot of people think that that you're born with this a gift or this ability. I always tell people it's an ability more so than a gift. Because we all are we all are intuitive, we all have that gut feeling, we all have that intuition whatever you want to call it, being sensitive. So if you ever had a moment in your life that say, for instance, that you are doing a business still and all of a sudden, your gut tells you, like this doesn't feel right, or you're gonna make a move to a new home, it doesn't feel right. You're listening to that intuition, and that's what we need to pay attention to. So what I do I hold workshops, classes and so on, so forth to teach people how to do this work. Because I'm only one person, so we can have hundreds or thousand more people out there that can heal the world and give people advice and give the people the guidance. It's something that we can tap into. But it really starts with ethics, grounding, meditation, the foundation of mediumship, which is really being respectful to people's work. And a lot of people will tell me like, hey, can you tap into this person's energy, And I would tell them absolutely not, because it's being disrespectful, it's not being ethical and not to be personal. When when you know people come into this work, they take one workshop, the take one class, and they think like oh the psychic, I'm a medium. It takes years to develop that ability and to recognize it. So with you, you're you're very sensitive and just in general as a person, but you also vibrate this beautiful green energy. And typically that green energy is like the humanitarian, the fixed person, the therapist, Like you always want to make things right, but you really don't know how to make things right for yourself to focus on the things that makes sense for you. So with you, it's there's there's a sense of trying to bring balance in but you really don't know how to do it. Even though you you want to do it, you don't know how to do it. So it's really recognizing what your gut and what spirit is telling you. And I think just development over time is that the brain is like a muscle. The more that you work with it, the stronger and better than it gets. Yeah, I call it my sixth sense. I'm like, you know what, I always thank God. I'm like, thank you for my five senses and my sixth sense because I'm very intuitive. I I can feel certain energies. I feel like if I were to stop honestly drinking and maybe smoking a little weed, because I smoke weed at night sometimes. So I feel like if I were to just cleanse myself and maybe become like vegetarian, like, I will be like vibrating at a different level and I feel like I can develop it more. But I'm not gonna lie. Sometimes a part of it's kind of like a little like maybe I'll wait a little bit, but I know how, you know, Yeah, but I think at the same time, people are fearful. They're fearful of the unknown. They're fearful of like not knowing how to turn it on or off or tap into it. So it's really again just having that balance and understanding the process. I come from a Catholic background one Heaven, one how on that judgment day you go to that place. So for me, my parents weren't really big believers in this work. They thought I was taboo. So I've been doing this work for twenty years now. So when I started doing this work on radio stations here here in l A, my mom thought it was a phase. So she goes, oh, it's just a phase. It's just a phase. I go, Mom, I've been doing this work for like twenty years now. It's not a phase anymore. This is like what I do right. So again, the more that you recognize the cheeky's, I think it's gonna be such an easy process to resonate with the subtle signs, because we expect to get these big, almighty signs from the other side, and sometimes they're very subtle. It's a thought, it's a feeling, it's a sense, it's a smell, it's a little different things. If we recognize that, then we can gradually develop that ability. And you said you started this work twenty years ago. Yeah, okay, and how how did you know what happened where You're like, Okay, this is what I'm meant to do, this is what makes me happy, or I don't know, tell us a little bit about it. Yeah, so interesting background with my work. I never had a near death experience. I never had like something that traumatized me. I never lost anyone close to me as a young individual. So for me, it was more so curiosity than anything else. I was very curious about the afterlife, the beyond, psychics and medium So I grew up watching I Dream A Genie b Which, The X Files, The Unexplained, you know, the Twilight Zone, like all these different shows that meet me want to understand. I guess the woo woo stuff if you will, because you know, I grew up watching certain talk shows, and I'm sure you have. You're not that much older. I think younger. I think you're younger than me if I'm mistaken. So we had talk shows like Sally Jesse, Rafael, Jenny Jones, like all these different people and they had psychics and mediums on television shows where they placed people in the audience and they had them like read different things and so on so forth. So I thought it was all set up, like it was all placed, like, oh, this is all like an act basically. So I kind of went on my own journey when I was in sixth grade, which is at a very young age, and I started working with Tarot cards. It's actually the Writer's Deck, one of the original decks that I recommend to people if they're interested in tarot to work with that. So I started working with Tarot cards from sixth grade to eighth grade, and I was explaining giving readings to people in junior high and so people that I was the weird kid. Obviously I wasn't very popular at all. I was definitely the weird kid. But you know, so I I could look back now and make fun of myself and see like, oh my god, what was I doing back then, because it wasn't something that was really talked about back then. It was really looked as taboo, the devil's work, evil and so on so forth. So having that understanding, it was really trying to bring that balance. I think for me, my freshman year when I met my high school teacher and she's actually a medium who I still talked to like on a weekly basis, And she is a medium, and she told me that I had the ability to communicate with the either side. I did not know that. All I knew I was able to read energy like psychic energy, like I was able to sense things and read things and predict things that were coming up. So I started working with her for four years. I had her for a PR science biology for everything because I wanted to know everything. I was like a sponge. I exhorbed everything that I want to do, so I really didn't take any classes. It was more of a natural ability that came to me an understanding because I mean some of the books that I had behind me in my garage and my other office. I have so many books from when I started this work to help me understand it. And I love reading about this work because I see myself as an internal student of this work. So I will never know everything about this work even as I get older. I learned new development, new frame of references of how I work. But for me that that was yeah, because like, you cannot know everything, and I always tell people, I can and will be wrong in reading. I can admit that I am not like needed to toot my horn and saying like it has to be this way, has to be that way. Like you have to accept that because if you're working from a place of v ego, you're not working from a place of love. And you need to work from a place of love when you do this work, because if you're working with that vibration, that's what you want to get back out to the client, to the individual or whoever you're talking to, because they're there too. Hell and we all healed differently in our own ways, and we all grieve differently. Some of us take a year, five years, ten years. There's no time frame on healing. There's no timeline, so it's as being patient with it. But for things that happened and real quick to backtrack with with high school works with my mentor Ellen Marin for four years, and then at age nineteen and a half, I landed a gig with Coast one of three point five in Burbank. So I landed a contract with them and I was on the on the show from seven at midnight in a radio show called Angels and Waiting they took me in the studio and said, hey, let's let's check out this guy. They saw a kid that was there and they're like, what is this kid get gonna do? So they had me come in the studio. Yeah, trust me, I was so nervous. I've never done live radio, never done anything like that. And they had me read, like basically screened me to eat for six different people, like all over New York, Kansas, whatever a v phone. Because everything that I do is work about energy, it's about a person's voice. So one thing led to another, and dined at a gig, and then from there on I went to k BIG, which is now my FM, and Kiss FM, Hot I T jams and things just kind of took off. I wasn't trying to do this work. My background, honestly was to be a firefighter, to be in law enforcement. Now I work, Yeah, yeah, but now here's a beautiful part. And now I teach classes with departments, and I teach them with detectives, and I teach them how to do this work. But also we work with detectives high rking. I'm not gonna say the department because there's a lot of red tape around it. But with different departments that we teach intuitives how to work with law enforcement, because you have to think of us like when we work on missing person in the homicide cases, I'm just like a dog, like a canine, a diver dog. I sniffed out the information and the detective needs to figure out how to do it, you know what I mean. So for me, it's about really learning the work. And I've been blessed and fortunate because now I work with small and large departments, law enforcement companies and cold cases. So it just kind of became full circle years later. Yeah, circle, so awesome. Do you know roughly how many readings you've done, well over fifteen thousand. Is it something that you can turn off for it? If you're just hanging out, you're at a dinner, do you start getting feelings from someone like hey there anything like that? I mean, yes and no, it has happened a couple of times. But for me, like there again, there's ethics with it. So when I clock in, basically I'm working so meditation and prayer. Even when I do any interviews, radio, whatever I do, I meditate, prey and I just you know, be the vessel for the instrument of spirit basically, and when I'm done, I shut down my chakras, I shut down and do a prayer, Thank God, thank Spirit for allowing me to do what I do. It's always giving thanks and being respectful of the process regardless if I don't know what's going to happen in an interview or in an event or so on, so worth I need to allow it to happen. So you can't keep that battery always on because what's gonna happen. It's gonna vent, You're gonna drain and you can't recharge it quickly enough. And so you have to be respectful of the body and what the body is telling you. And there's times that I've done events where I'm like at this high, like vibrating so high, but I feel tired at the same time. So it's really learning to say, check yourself first before anything else, because you can't always just be around doing readings. Okay, Well, with that being said, would you be open to giving me a reading right now? Are you on right now? Absolutely? Every client's different. Every person is different of what they're looking for. If it's mediumistically, if it's about connecting with spirit, or if it's connecting with your energy in general. So are you open and receptive to everything? I'm open and receptive to everything. Okay, So if I can ask you, what's your birth month and your birth date? So what I'm doing is I'm working with numerology real quick. So when we wreak down your information, you break down to a twenty. So twenty you break down two plus zero equals to serio two vibrations. So what's interesting about a two vibration? This year is all about patients. It's all about calming down for what you need to focus on. What's interesting. The last three years for you have been very heavy weight, like very heavy lifting that you needed to do, and it's about coming into play about being responsible for yourself. What I do see what's interesting with you is that this is going to be a year for you to focus on kind of like having this whole past to kind of relax and do the things that you need to do in your own personal life, not so much relating to career. Because you're so driven of what you need to do, it's hard for you to take a backseat and focus on the needs for cheekies for yourself because you're always like this motor vibrating and moving in this direction, saying I gotta go, I gotta go, I gotta go, and the moment that you sit down, it's kind of like crap, like what do I What can I work on next? What can I do next? So it's about you really being patient with that vibration and focusing on the things that you need to do for yourself. What's interesting here is that I don't want to be too personal, but I am gonna ask you. I don't know if you are currently in a relationship, but are you currently in a relationship. If you don't be asking, I am okay. So when we look at that vibration, it's gonna be about you focusing for this year, about focusing on relationships, focusing on communication, and focusing on the things that you need to you. So it's gonna be about presenting it this year. I feel like that for an interesting reference. I don't know if if last year, if you were in that relationship, but to me, it makes me feel like this year is very significant for you to focus on really bridging that gap. And what's interesting, there's gonna be a very unique reference. What I'm being shown energetically, which lets me know that there is going to be a sense of you not jumping into like, Oh, we're gonna move in, we're gonna get married, we're gonna do this. I think it's gonna be a reality check for you to kind of say, like, Okay, do I really take a step back and really move into this vibration and this relationship very calmly, very smoothly, because the challenges that you had is really with your heart chakra. You give too much energetically. You put everything out there energetically, so it's about being protected at that same nature, what I do need to bring up here with you as I feel like that you have a lot of guidance that is coming through from the spirit realm. So if it's your loved ones, if it's from your guides, I feel like it's important for you to recognize this what we do need to bring up here. And I may be mistaken in the process because I'm going to go in a direction here. There's a sense that I see with when we look at the relationship vibration here, there's a sense that I don't want to say there's difficulty, but it seems like it's about really you kind of vibrating to his energy. And I don't know how this does make sense to you. I don't know if there's a sense of him like being private or closed off or whatever it is. But there's a sense of kind of saying like I respect my woman. I respect my woman, but I don't want to be present with my woman, if that makes sense. It's almost like I don't want that, I wanta say limelight, but there's a sense of that that I feel like there's a sense of like being respectful to the process in you. So if there is gonna be some seed bumps that you guys are going to go through, which is normal with any relationship, I feel like Spirit is gonna be working with you. Now. What I do want to go into is relating to more so the vibration of spirit in general. And what's interesting here because when I bring this up here and I I am just gonna be very direct with everything, and I hope you don't mind where I'm going with this. Obviously, Mom isn't spirit. Obviously I know that we know that, and I do need to recognize this. And I'm going to give you everything either how I feel, and you may ask questions, and I'll be honest, like Cheeky's, I'm not feeling it. I'm not sensing it. But what I can tell you vibration ly is I just get immediately like blackness to my head, which is more symbolism. It doesn't mean like a physical injury, doesn't mean that, but it lets me know that her soul and her spirit immediately left the body before impact. I do not feel like there's a sense of recognizing what was going on, because to me, everything feels very blurry, and it feels like there's a sense of being at peace. There's not a moment of being afraid, which is weird. It's like a calm energy, and you would think that so one in that situation or individuals in that situation would be fearful, but it's a sense of like coming to a calmness. It's like the calm before the storm. I don't know if your mom would have own her destiny because I don't predict, I don't play god, I don't do any of that. But there's a sense with her that she wants to recodize more so her love and her gratitude towards you, because there wasn't that opportunity to verbally communicate that with you, and I feel like it's important for you to hear it from her, not from me as a medium, but from your mom, because there's a sense of understanding and accepting your mom's transition, but there's a sense that still makes there there's a brick wall, as if I never really got It's not an apology, but it's a sense of being validated and being accepted. And your mom wants to make sure that you understand that she appreciates you then and she appreciates you now because there's a sense that she wants to put you on a beautiful pedestal in her way for what you have done not only after her transition, but more so kind of making yourself as like I gotta be in charge, I gotta do this. And you took life by the by the horns or by the rain, if you will, and you kind of like gotta do what you gotta do. I do need to bring something interesting. And I don't know if you know this, but I don't speak a lot of Spanish at all whatsoever, so it might come out very so used. The thing I feel like there's a sense like I'm just hearing it in a way of just like if I'm seeing it correctly, like me, PRINCESSA, me, PRINCESSA, Like I keep on hearing over and over and over again, and she just wants to put this little t r like this crown on you as like you're still my little girl, even though you're an adult. In front of me and to your mother, there's a sense that she wants to pay that respect to you in a very beautiful way to recognize Mom will always be with you, she will always be guiding you. Because there's moments that I know, Cheeky's that you're very spiritual, hence you could be very religious at the same time, but I know you know your mom was with you. You know that your mom is guiding you, but also accepting that. And it's not about apologizing because your mom is laughing saying that she would never really apologize, to be quite frank, so this is not a woman that would really apologize. But I feel like it's your way making peace and kind of clearing the air that she wants to happen here with you because it's something that you need to hear from her. There's also a reference that she's showing to me that I feel like I might misinterpret. Would you understand why she would actually show me like, say, oh my god, I'm seeing like a bunch of materials. So did you somehow put pieces of material together for your mother, or like you somehow did some sort of quilt, or you did some sort of blanket. I don't know what it is, but there's something that she wants to say thank you for honoring her or thank you for doing this. So what's the reference. Yeah, I've I've made a lot of blankets that I travel with, that I sleep with, that I make. They have her pictures and pictures of her and I together. Okay, there might be a very specific one that I do need to bring up here. There would be one that I'm seeing that would be more of her items, like say, I don't know her shirt, her jacket. I don't know what it is, but it feels very personal that she wants to say thank you for that one specifically. So I don't know how that makes sense for you, but she wants to thank you for doing that because she definitely wants to recognize that she's still You're guarding your protector in that sense when she comes through. There's also a sense that I keep on hearing her as like saying, continue to kind of be like a chingo now like a badass, because I feel like that's something that your mom wants to do, is support you on this level of that you need from her. I want to make sure that you understand this from her, not for me, is that you've always had that support from your mother, even in the moments that you feel like you didn't have it from her. And I feel like that when she brings it up here, it was her way of giving you the sense of tough love, given the sense of respect that you need it. Because there's a sense with Mom's energy is that when she shifts my awareness, there's a sense that you're able to truly be on your own. And I feel like that you were always on your own, though in a very interesting way. And I feel like that she never meant to give you the responsibility because I really believe that you truly made sacrifices one only your mom was here, but also when she transitioned, and I feel like it's important when she brings us up here, is that she never got to thank you as often as she should have when she was here in the physical realm, and I feel like that she wants to thank you today for doing the things that you had to do for her in the physical realm. But also after she transition, you you may have to I don't I'm going to get personal with something and I might be wrong on this when we bring up mom or say the energies around you guys, is there something we need to look at like now relating to like say, your mom, say on a financial situation that we need to look at with her or with you guys, like meaning that is there like a big decision that needs to be done or did you guys just make like a major decision with her. I don't know. I don't say your things, but it seems like more of like her legacy. We did we We just yeah, we were going through like a transition right now. My sister is now the trustee of her estate, so we have been finding out certain things and it's been pretty disappointing. But yeah, okay, I want to be personal again. But to me, there's a sense of what's the word I want to use, like ego that's involved with these individuals And it's not that your mom is upset, but it's kind of like why. It's more of a question of why why, And I feel like there's a sense as if she wants to orchestrate things in the right way to kind of put things in order when it comes down to say the business or the estate or whatever it is, Like, I feel like there's a sense of it. It seems very difficult, and it feels like the cookie has crumbled. So whatever happened in the trustee or beneficiary all that stuff, I feel like it's happening the way that it needs to be done. But I feel like it's making sure that it's a sense of accepting what needs to happen. And I just feel like, again there's a sense of a hand in the cookie jar or the sense of what can I benefit, what can I get out of it? And that's where I feel like your mom does not like in a way thing like let's make sure everything is put together, because I just feel like that in my gut, it just makes me feel like that it's not done right, and I just feel like it needs to move in a direction that spirit sees it, that her soul sees it in the right way. I'm going to shift directions in a very interesting way, and I do need to acknowledge something. I don't know where she's going with this, but there's a sense with you of how she's showing you or how she's showing herself with you. So I may totally misinterpret something. But is there a unique reference that you would actually have some sort of like a rock of her or some sort of paper weight of her, or some sort of I don't know what it is, but is there some sort of reference to like a weight thing or a rock thing that we need to bring up here. I don't know. I would have to think about it. And to me, it feels like there's a smooth surface to it, like a smooth surface to it, like almost like a smooth rock or like I don't I don't know, like a river rock. There's something with this that she's bringing up here. Okay, well now that Oh my god, that's so crazy. I gave my mom a rock before, and there was something written to her on there that I would It was like I would always say that she was my rock. So I gave it to her when she was here. It was she put on her desk. Oh my god, that's so crazy. Okay, I just want to let to know that she has that rock with her in spirit. She is still wrong, she still wants to recognize that, because I just feel like there's a sense of her of just being very proud of you, and I feel like that in a very beautiful way that she kind of spiritually wants to hand it back as if now you're the rock for everyone else. So I just feel like it's her way of thanking you again for doing the things that you did for her. But now what she's gonna do for you is pull some strings from the spirit room to help you lead in the right direction where you need to be, because I feel like your mom really wants the best for you, regardless of like anything that you feel or maybe thought of, like it's all like residual and old energy that she does not want you to focus on. And I think it's so important for you to really kind of thrive in that moment and saying thanks Mom, thanks for being here with me, thank you for recognizing me. And I feel like there's a moment of you of having that peace of mind because my impression it's not anything that we need to bring up here as the event that caused your mom's passing. She doesn't want to emphasize on that. She doesn't not really focus on that because that's not really an important sense of what we need to talk about. It's more so the healing and moving forward from that that needs to happen here with you in the family. And like as I mentioned earlier in this interview, we all grieve differently. It could be a year, could be five years, could be so many years. We all grieve differently. I just feel like in some ways that there's a sense of coming to terms of being at peace, but it's not letting go of mom. And I feel like there might be fear of letting go a mom of those emotions, because if you let go a mom, she's not gonna be around you. I feel like it's letting go the toxicity, the emotions, all that stuff, knowing that she will always be in your heart and recognizing that feeling and recognizing that moment. I do need to bring something up in a very interesting way. Did you recently have like a fall or did you fall down your stairs? Or is there some sort of fault that I need to bring up here. I don't know what she's bringing up here, but okay, make note to your footing or to getting out of the car or getting out off the stairs or walking out the front yard. I don't know what it is, but there's something about your footing that I feel like she's trying to acknowledge, like be careful, be cautious, whatever, it is still safe for us that you have tile floors. I don't know what it is, but I feel like it's her way kind of giving a projection and a very positive light. I don't want to say it's anything of an accident or anything that nature, but I feel like there's something funny about it about the situation. So if there's gonna be other people's targing involve here, it feels like there's more of that moment that she's kind of guiding you and protect you in that situation that she wants to bring up here. There's a reference that I beat maybe a mistake in here, And I don't know how I'm to describe this, but I'm gonna do my best interpret this. I don't know how this doesn't make sense to you at all whatsoever, but there's an interesting reference that she's bringing up here that we need to identify after her transition, after her passing, And I don't know if it means like several years later, a day after passing, but would you understand during the time of the event that occurred, she's making herself known to me in a way saying that she made herself known to you, like in spirit, like in a way of saying that I'm safe, I'm okay. I don't know what that looks like to you if that was more so a physical sign a dream, But she wants to make sure that whatever happened in this event, it was her way letting you know that she made it safe and that she went to heaven. And I feel that she wants to make sure that you understand that message. So what is the sign or what is the reference that she's bringing up here? Yeah, that's absolutely right. It was a few days after she had passed and I had left my grandmother's house because I just needed to take a drive. Everyone was there. It was hectic, and I drove out. Everything was fine, but when I came back to go back to my grandma's house, they had closed off the street. So I thought, how am I going to do this? There was a bunch of media and fans, and I said, how am I going to get off the car and try to get my car under this to get through to my Grandma's And magically, I swear to you, like the little it was like a string of some sort lifted high enough for me to go under. And I was like, oh my god, that's like that's my mom. That was like the first time I had felt it. And then I had a moment when I knew she was gone gone. I was in the restroom, I was holding a picture of hers, and I heard it clearly like you are going to have to be stronger. You're gonna have to tell your siblings that I'm not coming home. Because we still had hope that she was going to come home. So I felt her and I heard her voice to the point where I just cried and cried and cried, and I cried so much that I just after I got out of that restroom, I was like, Okay, I have to tell my siblings that she's not gonna come home. I have to tell Johnny, and I have to be strong. From that moment forward, it's like I knew she's fine, She's at peace. This is how things had to happen. And now it's I feel like my turn to step forward and be like, Okay, this is what I prepared you for all of your life, is to be here for these kids. So those two things I'll never forget because there were moments of like, oh, she's here with me, she's okay. Wow, like with so much respect to you and to your family, And again, that is just a beautiful message. As much as we don't want to think that way in a way, knowing that we lost we lost an individual or they're gone, that is a personal experience that no one can take away from you. That moment in the restroom, that moment of that happening. No one can take that away from you. I feel like it's just your mom's way validing those experiences and how that looks like to you. It was her way let you know again that she's safe, she's okay. Now she's turning over the leaf to you to kind of pass the baton, pass it over. That you need to focus on that because for your energy, again, it's kind of like the weight that you take on. But I feel like at the same time, it's really about bringing in that balance that you need in your own life and balance is going to be so important for you again, not only with business relationships self help. It's going to be an important year for you because they feel like moving into a transition of it's going to be more so a sense of like really kind of focusing on than family, focusing on than financials, focusing on that. So there there riches were literally right around the corner of which is crazy to even think about, but I feel like that your mom wants to really spiritually embrace you, like she wants to give you this big spirit hug, because I feel like physical touch is so important for you to have, but more important to have it from your mom, because I feel like that she wants to make sure that I verbally say I love you like I feel like the ghetto ghetto. I feel like it's important for her to give that love to you and pay that respect again because there wasn't that opportunity for her to physically and verbally communicate that with you. And I just feel like that you make sure that you have it in your heart and you carry that love in that vibration regardless of whatever feelings that you've had then or what you have now. It's more so it's all water on the bridge. Is my impression that your mom is given it to you like it's it. We're good, we're cool, everything's fine. And I think that's important for you to walk away with and understand those messages. Obviously if you want to ask questions or anything in general, you feel free if there's something that you want to ask her throughout there. More than anything, I just kind of wanted to see what she had to say and what you did say right now about me thanking her and thanking her for being here with me and stuff like I don't think I've done enough of that, like I speak to her. But it's different. I think for a long time I was upset because of the mess that was left and I had to clean it up, and I was a little bit resentful. Obviously still missed her and everything, but in my heart I felt, for like a long time, I was just mad. There are moments that come back and I'm just like I get like frustrated. I don't know how to explain it, but I think it's just I'm glad you're reminding me of saying, you know what. I think things are going to change, even for the better if I start thinking her more because I know that she's pulling strings. I know she's opening doors, like I know it for a fact that she's with me, with us, and she's taking care of my siblings and I and giving me the strength. But I just want to say thank you more than anything because I'm like, oh my god, and those are the words like she would always call me princess. So it's like, I still I think. I'm like, I know that I'm like a woman now, but I still want to be your baby. And that's so funny that you say that, because I'm like, oh my god, that's all I ever want. Oh my god. It's such a beautiful thing to again recognize and feel that vibration like I have chills, and chills for me are always confirmation and validation of what you're speaking about. And it just lets me know that I want you to continue to build that relationship with your mother. One thing, and I don't want to be direct, but I am going to be very direct. You need to understand from her again not for me as a medium, that she never she never ever meant to abandon you guys ever, and I need to make sure that you and the family understand that in their own way or in your own way, because I feel like that sense when Mom left is the best way going to use that her soul checked out, her spirit checked out, not her energy, and not who she was as a woman, because if there was anything that she could do to come back to this physical realm, she would have made it happen in a in a medical way to come back. But since the event happened in such a tragic way, again, her soul left the body. Their souls left their body. Because I don't even feel there's a sense of an impact or something happened. I can tell you during an event. I remember sitting at a at a restaurant when I'm hurt, the news and my cell phone was blowing up from different people from networks and this and that, and I refused, refused to talk with anyone anything social, this and that, and I still this is my first time I ever talking about it is on your show because I respect you and the family so much, and I never talked about it because it's not my place and I need to be respectful of the process because it's me in beating someone's privacy and I never ever wanted to do that to you or your family, nor ever talk about it because it wasn't my business, it wasn't my place. And I feel like that, you know how things come in full circle in a very beautiful way. Here today is again respect the process, and I feel like your mom and you at least allowed me to be here today to maybe orchestrate this and help bridge that gap. And I respect you, your team, your producers, every whe Scott Spirit that orchestrated this because by you thank your mom and by you talking to her, it's it's okay, and it's okay for you to be angry. It's okay for you to be upset because she's not going to be upset. It's more so what we're feeling, and that's part of the process. So in those moments that you need to thank your mom and say thanks Mam for showing up, thanks Mam for gotting me. She's again, she's very much with you. So anytime you think about mom, she's right there with you. Oh, thank you so much. Thank you. Honestly, this it made me feel a lot better, especially because I was having a tough day to day, so it's just kind of like, okay, just you reminded me of a lot of things, And I mean, I I don't think I have any questions, to be honest, I mean just besides the fact that i'd like to know, you know, sometimes I go back and forth with my music career. I feel like my music career is a vehicle to go somewhere, not necessarily bigger, but for my real mission in life. And I just I don't know, I just kind of wanted to know, like in regards to my music career, like what do you what does she say? Would you think? Or yeah? Honestly my impression and energetically, I feel like your career would be absolutely fine. My only concern, and again I'm very direct of how it comes through energetically. I just like, in a very interesting way, is that you're holding yourself back Like it's it's in a very interesting way. It's kind of like yourself sabotaging yourself. You know what you can do, but I feel like it's fearful of like being successful and not that you're not now. But it's like, once I go to place, it's gonna be like seeing my language, like oh shit, I can't believe I'm here now. I think that's what's the scary part. About it, and once that moment happens, you're gonna be like, oh my god, I might my feeling though, I feel like like mide, I feel like I want to go maybe in springtime where I see a major transition. So if that's like March April, may like in that time frame, I wouldn't be surprised. If there's some major opportunities that present itself to you, I don't want you to look for them. Jeekie's let it happen organically, because if we would say, oh A J said this or my mom brought this up here, we're gonna stick to that. We're gonna hold on to it. So I feel like there's a sense with her that she wants to make sure that she's very much with you and guide you. There's also a reference that we do need to bring up here, And I'm gonna give you a very interesting reference. And I don't know how it's gonna make sense, or maybe somehow it's gonna come to fruition. Do you remember when Michael Jackson did his was it fifty tours or fifty one tours? You was supposed to do it? Then he transitioned on Proba fall or something like that. So there's an interesting reference that we need to bring up here, is that we need to highlight something coming into next year. So I don't know if you're planning to go onto fifty States fifty tours type of thing that we need to look at, but there's something very major, like very grand use that we're looking at. And there's a sense of like having like a very unique like Michael Jackson, Janet Jackson, Phil but in your own way where we're kind of canna have like say, these amazing backgrounds, these amazing lights, Like I just feel like there's a very high scale that I've seen this that I feel like that again, Mom is gonna pull some strings, but I feel like you're already there, Chickie's honestly like, I'm not worried about your career. I feel like that it's already here, vibrating. It's just up to you to kind of put your foot forward and take the opportunities. And again, I feel like mid next year, springtime will feel it is like the right time in my gut that you're going to start seeing that and you're gonna start saying like, Okay, this is what they were talking about this is what they're bringing up here. This is awesome. Like my mom would say, just don't pitch out, cheekies, don't pitch out. That's my mom would say, because it's just like right when I'm like, when things are about to get like boom, it's like when I'm like, I don't know, I want to shrink back, and it's like she would always tell me that don't pitch out. Now. That this great example. So just remember that when that moment comes, listen to your mom's words and that will help you out. Thank you, Thank you. I really appreciate you you coming on and being so open with us, and I'm so happy to be able to see you and hear you, you know, so I'm so happy. Do you want to share your socials with everyone? Yeah? Absolutely. People can find me on Instagram at a j Underscore Barrera or TikTok a j Underscore Barrea pretty much the same, and my Facebook is a J Barrera, so you find me all my socials or just go to my website at a j were dot com for any upcoming offense online in person or private readings and all that good stuff there. But I want to thank you guys again, So much for allowing me to do this for you, but also letting me part of this podcast. It's a fun, beautiful experience and I hope this helps you guys out of perhaps a family as well and other people let me have lost a loved one that was very close to them. Oh yes, thank you, thank you so much. And again, you guys, you have his website, his social media and before we go, you know that I always if you guys with a motivational Monday quote, So the quote for today is faith sees the invisible, believes the unbelievable, and receives the impossible. You guys, thank you so much for listening. 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